24.7.24


A man walks into the spare bedroom to gather his winter coat


Sounds like the beginning of a joke, a guy walks into a bar.

 

What of it?

You can see tha

Yes.

Some guy with his back to him is getting a blowjob on the edge of the bed can make out her long blonde hair past his hip

See

Okay. I’m uncomfortable.

You stay or do you go
Stay or go?

Stick around

 

Im sticking around

   You’d stay?wouldn’t quietly step back step out?

You woud

I wouldwhy would you stay?

Im looking at a guys back catching a wisp of hair I don know who they are

Maybe they wante . .
. . Privacy

Yeah. Sure.
Didnt lock the bedroom door  
                               Some people dig the possibilitythrill of getting caught in the act in a compromised position
Youd leave while a guys getting a blowjob
Possibly a blowjob for you
                               The voyeurisitic element

   I’d leav . .
. . Because youre a prude

I’m . .
. . Save it Im stickinround

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  deliberated

an exquisite liar

a sacred coolstone death that dreamed and dreamed and dreamed of warmmulched earth
                                                                                                  tall yellowgreen grass
   air

unbroken
              whips of long unbrushed maiden hair

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he rarely wrote I   pronoun theyre certainly taking a lap these days   rarely wrote in first person


I smelled these mangy stone and mortar walls their thicksweat blackexcrescence mold  degenerate rot
                                                                                                             and waondered bluethoughts

   angst
rogue aberations amberrations   capture

ambition
aberration

deliberation


   I waondered

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1029,  day-between-2-Ts,  24  7. 24

page among a sheaf 
                     things that occur he sees them in his mind  they occularcur

once seen he tries his damnedest to arrest them but like vapour most tend to shimmer  ease away

some things unseen are thoughts sharplightning against black night
                                                                           what of expectations
what he had to do to have them

   he couldnt say

majority of his life the things that mattered most had been unexpected
                                                                            therefore
to relish the truly unexpected he tries to live without expectations 

   without   anticipations


career which hes eluded manage expectations
                                                when they fail they breed disappointment disillusionment distemper  breed unhappiness
while on the other hand
                          to not expect helps foster happiness which hes enjoyed abundantly



he wrote he was heading to work rode the bus thought of Dickens Great Expectations which he hadnt read and taking a seat beside Monty a rider acquaintance he mentioned Dickens Monty said Chapter Twentytwo.

Don tell me you know the verse too

got ruffled a little was a religious cat  dryly drolly  No.
                                                            ChapterTwentytwo “I wavered again, and began to think there were greater expectations than my own.”

You know this why

he laughed
             Aside from the synopsi . .
. . Which is whaIve not read it

It’s a classic.

It is
     Tha Ive not read

The synopsis. Pip. An orphan. Rises to Wealth. Deserts his true friends. Then becomes humbled by his arrogance. Monty was a college science librarian

Thank you        

You’re welcome.



Monty got off the bus
                        his greater expectations stayed  unexpectedly

he thought great is abused  few farfew things people are great falling from great can kill

he thought I think Id be aware if I was in the presence of greatness or for that matter inclined to greatness or declining ordeal
OR

Ya gotta say

I do Thas why we hang around
                                      May I
Knock yourself out

Or youve simply lead your life on a small stage few actors few characters

I coud
        I can say I havent been around  he chuckled
Wha

When I was younger I expected   choicehuh
                                                I expected Id have been around much much more My stage could have been larger unexpectedly  but didnt
Im not disappointed

You are not
             We are not

he nodded gently A good team

    Is tha praise

We don need praise  

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0948,  day-between-2-Ts,  24  7. 24