they admired her through the
plateglass window between the cheap gaudy liquor banners the pricepoints their square
bold printed numbers
they were men after all
and men are visual animals voyeurs peering through keyholes not needing much to incent and excite them
he supposed thats what he didnt
like about XXX porn its rawness everything laid out in the open like butchers
meat check your imagination at the door aint nothing left to it
just then she leaned forward to
brush something from her shapely calf her breasts swelled and threatened to
spill from their containment but only
threatened maddeningly
standing upright again she
subtly in-the-open deftly rearranged them for her comfort
he stood looking over his
shoulder admiring her
her boyfriend facing the counter
as they rang up his tequila facing outside caught his breath Damn that woman
takes my breath away
You and me both an I dont care
squat that youre standing across from me while Im taking her in
No Wear a dress like that built like that go out
I cant blind everyone who stops to get an eyeful Respectfully No leering
My upside everyone else
looks I get to touch
A definitive upside
Yes
However concluding our
conversation while theres no one in the store you need to attend to and stepping
away from our discussion of iteration Your
not having a death wish or instinct as youve said citing Freud and I concur is unique not that you may realise it but that you do not separate your dreams from
your nightmares
The years I prepared to become a
therapist the years I spent as a therapist doing dream work with patients
then clients not once did any of them hundreds if not a thousand plus ever say as
you said to me
What did I say to you
That you did not differentiate a
nightmare from a dreamTheyre all dreams to you
Yes I said that
Yes you did
Everyone else I have ever talked
with talks of dreams and nightmares And
nightmares
What you have done unaware that
you have done it is accepted your death
Have you dreamed you have died
Of courseSure I cant tell you how
many times Ive died in my dreams
During my consultations everyone
everyone at the precipice of their death an imminent death everyone woke themselves from their
nightmare in a cold sweat or terror
That awakening is them not
accepting the reality that they will die
Thats unfortunate
Nobody gets out of
here alive
But you accept that
Frankly you accepted death when
you accepted that you only dream
Thats innarestin
You dont believe me
Its believe or thinkHUH
Im
a born skeptic Ill have to do some legwork to see if your premise is legit
But in the meantime I have
customers So mind it or not you say you
dont Ill eyeball your girl one last time
he turned his back entirely on him and moved to one side so he could see her
unobstructed
he gave her a soft wolf whistle
then turned back around
As I said thank you for the exhilarating time
he gave her a soft wolf whistle
then turned back around
As I said thank you for the exhilarating time
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