drink your milk

AahMoby yare so full of shit

looking up from his beerhed been studying the bubblesits head

                                                                    What I do now?

Nothing

Nothing? and you’re telling me I’m full of shit?

Yah  I am

If I did nothing, how can I be full of it?

I asked you a question

You as . .

. . Are we a dog chasing its tail  Christyes

Then I didn’t hear you.

Yadid You looked up from your beer directly at me and said gimme a sec

                                                                              Ive been waiting sincebeen waitin a couple minutes I didnt think there was much to digest but I didnt want to pushwanted ya to take the time ya needed to mull it over never wise Moby wasnt an absolutist  never would aggravate him anif he had a lot in life it was his duty to perform  aggravate Moby  never wise to shoot from the hipanswering a question

I don’t think I heard you.

he sighed Thas my story an Im sticking to it eh

I really don’t think I heard you . .

. . Should have asked then donya think asked me to repeat myself

I’m ston . .

. . Like Im not

Yeah well, your nut works better than mine.

Your nut don work at all

                            I asked whawoud you do if someone pushed ya back down into your chair an told you to be quiet and drink your milk

Woudya stand

Ya hear me

I heard you.

Ifya did  then Im confident ifya opted to be buried your corpse wont twitch

What’s that supposed to mean?

Wha I said 

               Be quiet and drink your milk  whacha got

What’s drink your milk mean?

I prefaced the question Yare in a bar having a drink   Milk Drink Got it       

I don’t know what I’d do.

                             He has the advantage, I’m sitting he’s standing over me.

Immediately a foot to his knee toss your drink in his face standslam him in the kisser with the glass

                                                                                                          Never mind never mind nevers again provocation I see it was a stupid question

Stupid?because you asked me?

                                    What would you do?

Likely all I suggested

Drink your milk?

Yah a wiseguys Forties wisecrack

                                       Ya live under a rock 

suntime,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  25  5. 22

1152,  Thursday,  2  6. 22

 

  Whellshit 

             he was finallyat longlast comfortably numb  which hed sought

                                                                                 plying himself with an edible whisky brew he was a hero propelled on fumes suspended on ropes of sarcastic humour  which were nothing more than a belief in himself 

         he wasnt a betting man

though hed bet on himself why wouldnt he

 

to his disappointment he learned that many wouldnt

                                                            were where rubber meets the road   were reality

russianroulette wasnt a gamble

                                   sensing a chambered round he could make it move disappear  or misfire sitting tight nonplussed in a headyhaze  tangyresidue

he didnt cheatNo he didnt believe he wouldnt say BuhbyeExit on a whim of chance

                                                                                             his dispossessionTHE END would have to come Declared  fight tooth an nail 

                                                      an for that hed extract a pound of flesh  a lbanahalf

a lb an a half judiciously juicily  Wipe your chin ya got a little something hanging off it

it wasnt a little something rather a lot of something composing him which hed stake his life on

Whawoudya stake your life on?

                                  thats a good thing to know  in advance

2157,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  6. 22

PinkFloyd  Comfortably Numb  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_FrOQC-zEog

Bowie  Heroes  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lXgkuM2NhYI 

Phil Collins  In the Air Tonight  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8_Xs8nzrrkM

You know the seven deadly sins, of course?

Howd we get here  Something I say sound like a sin 

I thought for change of pace you often come off the wall out of nowhere . . . my turn.

Dig the segue cool

                      I know of them    Theres seven

Seven.  I meant them individually. her eyes openedwidened eversoslightly which struck him not as a statement but rather another question

Arya interrogating me

No. eyes went wider 

                          Well . . maybe.

I don think mebbe  he went oneeighty on her cinching his eyes a mite  I thinkyah yare

What are you doing with your eyes?

Whas with your eyes

Am I . .

. . You are

             A tell

Dammit . . thought I was getting better at that.

Naw notsomuch

                 So admit it so I don have to shut my eyes

My intent wasn’t to . . I don’t think, not really . to interrogate you . . 

. . Ya got religion on me you were a child churchgoer 

                                                         One comes to mind because its so prevalent I read of it witness it every day Greed were greedy muthafuckers I only include myself were  because while I am not greedy I am human a faulty human a man which also means at some level a wallowing pig   I have my moments

                                                                                                   Greed

That’s one . .

. . Yare up yare on

Pride.

Ditto Every day

Your turn . .

. . Got nothing

Envy.

Yes

Lust.

Yare doin better than I thought

Wrath.

Ohshityes  Got to have wrath  got milk got wrath  Goes wellcompliments when one is denied pride envy lust

Oh . . yes . I can imagine that’s true.

Wrath is pissed off though I can understand pissed off wouldnt make the cut too vulgar not religious enough 

                                                                                                                    And 

Let me think . .

Between us we have five

now her eyes narrowed

                         Wanna give me a break . .

. . Meant it as a compliment  My greeds to the seventh power

Ah . . sloth.

SLOTH not every day ya hear people speak of sloth Commendable   Right on 

                                                                                       An the cherry topper

The cherry . . . the cherry . the cherry . .

. . Gimme the cherryIve no idea Ill be no help

It’s . . .

Yare killin me . .

. . I’m killing me . .

THERE.  That's it . gluttony.

Never would have got it

                            Amazing  Committed to memory

More like drummed into memory.

Religious memory

Yes . . you could say.

I just did 

           he smiled Your eyes have returned to normal  I like your eyes normal

1817,  Thursday,  5  5. 22

1225,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  6. 22

a uniformed woman wandered absently into the lobby from outback and asked loudly if the cashiercounter gal knew where they kept the SPERMICIDES 

                                       thall get ones attentiongrope and manhandle it if they were unfocused for some reason his appointment was delayed they apologisedbegged his understanding  he had time crazy he forgot to bring a book he wasnt keen on the tabled magazines and tipping towards boredtrying hard to be patient without something to distract him 

             he almost wished he knew how to meditate  almost 

the counter gal embarrassed spunshushing her glared  even took a couple steps towards her asif she was going to muffle her mouth with her hands 

                                        there was a story there

                                                                  but the absent woman already had pivoted oneeighty neatly and was heading back to the rear of the business where cubicles were for clients to be treated

                                                                                                   if anyone could call some of their particular torture a treat

in fairness Betty name was stitched on the breast of her palegreen almostmedical tunic gave him something to entertain

    spermicide

                      whawas the descending order of –cides

likely followed how one felt about sperm  or their sperm

purposeful sperm or gobs randyexpressed 

                                           Christ the way he thought he was there for a facial there was another kind of facial on occasion he participatedplayed willingly applied willfully

spermicide

     howbout deicide for those who thought a lot of themselves  

definitely patricide quickly following

                                      matricide dabbling ably next

fratricide sororicide keeping it in the family

parricide not to forget or diminish extended family

infanticide

homicide

homocide   

genocide

     hmm couldnt decide if he hit all the –cides

                                                   so he continued musing as he waited his turn with his esthetician she preferred aesthetician defensively she said What I do is a talent.   It wasnt my intention to belittle you believe me, I was only citing my understanding a difference is recognised between them. I’m sorry.

it wasnt a unwarranted apology

                                   he didnt want her spitting in his soup sotospeak

suntime,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  25  5. 22

1404,  ReggaeFriday,  27  5. 22

egg cream echt cream ekht cream

                                   deybe English German Yiddish  real authentic true cream 

an egg cream tastes like a thinned milkshake thin because its made with soda theres neither egg or cream in an egg cream

        theres an equation in there somewhere

calling something that it isnt

    Huey however  briefly a New York summer boy friend helped provide an equivalent equation

                                                                                                        the only other Huey he knew was Baby Huey a cartoon character a gigantic naïve duckling

when he told Huey he was flattered he was unassuming not that he knew what unassuming meant

Yaever see the cartoon

No.

I saw it once shook his head I didnt like it

                                            Can I ask is your name a nickname

Ohno. a bemused smile drifted onto his face I think my parents shot high, tried to avoid the obviouswhat must have been obvious when I was born, it is German we are German, Huey means bright in mind and spirit . . you get the joke . right?

I do

You did not hesitate.

No

I like you did not hesitate.

Theres no reason to hestitate When ya tell me about yourself who am I to argue

   Makes . sense. I think because . . people try to be nice . try not hurt my feelings . . be thoughtful, you know?

he nodded

              But yare not fishing

No . . I am not.

Right don strike me that yawoud

Huey smiled real big pleased 

                             Say, we are not far from Betsy’s luncheonette, she is my friend, I think she is working today, my parents gave me some money, she makes really good egg creams, could I buy you one?

Sure that would be cool Ive never had one

2250,  Twosday,  24  5. 22

1147,  ReggaeFriday,  27  5. 22

 . . ballsslapp   uttered asif in reverie

                                            he heard himself   then asked Arya talkin to me

DeNiro  Taxi Driver

   a stonecold favourite didnt go there often

                                               though made him smile when he did

ballsslapp

                  Twyla   Twyla lalala rolls off the tongue her name was an attraction  she nearly broke his nose his neckbut she didnt   not for lack of tryin either of them 

                                                           he could imagine worse ways of departing

ballsslapp

           buried deepburied to the hilthipbone to hipbone  beneath him she made him catch his breathshe held hers too  keen eyecontact  gazing in lust maybe wondering if it could be morewas there more

Don move

         sounded like he begged

her carnivoregrin 

                  Don’t move?

Please no  don move

she tugged himkegeled him shed been a gymnast

breathlessly

             Please dondon move  please he begged

she had him right where she wanted

                                      he didnt want to cumnot just then he began pulling outshe gripped him a tug of war NO DON he nearhowled but he couldnt hear himself over her laughter but unable do two things at once in bed her grip slippedhe bucked off had he been a dog he would have licked his bone

                                                                                      collecting himself  Yare craz . .

. . For you completing his sentence                           

he smiled collapsed on top of herhis mouth at her belly  he kissed her

                                                                           Give me a second babe

Time. fuckin comedian

         he slipped his hands under the small of her backhugging her firmly rubbed his jaw against her hips she giggledhis beard tickled she teased Dondon DON move   Pleease

still smiling he looked up into her face looked at her between her breasts 

                                                                           shoving his right hand furthur under hercradling her backfinger an thumb playing with her Venus dimples he brought his left up gripped her breast  gently brushed her aureoleher erect nipple with his thumb 

                                          they lookedsmiled at each other 

                                                                                 I love you 

I love you too.

it was out of the box

cant take that back

he turned his head to a side

she gently laid her hand on his face stroked his cheekcheekbone with her thumb

they laid deathlystill  quiet

it was wonderful to be in love

suntime,  Saturday,  April9 2022

1214,  Thursday,  26  5. 22

Byrds  Everybody’s Been Burned  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8UfcTaIEvM8

he held his tongue  was incredulous 

                                       Mebbe ya misunderstood me

No no, I thinkI’m sure I heard you correctly.

absently he suckedair through his teeth  Okay awright   Whad I say

I don’t think it was so much what you said I said but rather I refuted you.

  Refuted   Blew my mind 

                              I canthave  I have a hard time believing thas how you relatedunderstood you were aging

I didn’t make sense?

No

     Perhaps in a manner of speaking in an oddball way  However its not the metric or yardstick Ive ever heard before  an I mean not evernot fucking   ever

Could be I’m unique.

   Unique   Nah

                        Eunuch comes to mind   Eunuch

his forehead furrowedbunched lotsa lines   deep furrows

                                                               You say . . eunuch?

Yah I did 

            But I repeat . . I said mebbe ya misunderstood me  I said I was absolutely sobered when I pickedup a Playboy opened it went at the gatefold Playmate of the Month read her bio name heightweight  measurements  birthdate 

          Stonecold sobered when I realise I was older than she was Last time I looked the playmates were older than me  We were getting close but they were older

Yes . I understood, however my timeline wasnt gauged according to playmates . . rather NBA players . I recognized I was older than they.

NBA players

Yes.

Might wanna hush it   hush hushit

                                      Should someone happen along this line of inquiryLie please lie   Tellme youll lie

Lie?

     Why should I lie?

Donya think it goes without saying

                                     An mindya  the third time this afternoon Ive dumped it goes without saying on you

NBA players                    

Christ  

suntime,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  25  5. 22

2321,  Day-between-Two-Ts

On occasions Grampa would make me a Cincinnati . at home mind you, not at the tavern.

. . . not at the tavern reeled in his ear how times have changed  a boy sipping a cold root beer in a tavern beside his father 

     but for that matter he remembered picking up cartons of cigarettes for his father at the Clark station on Touhy owner knew his dadknew him a simple transaction same asif he was buying a fivecent candy bar

A Cincinnati Dad 

                   I don know what tha is

Sure you do.

I don this is the first I can say yave mentioned it

That can’t be right.

Whose memory ya willin to trus . .

. . Yours yours, sorry . . thought I would have said earlier, it was delicious, a foamy head, crazy sweet, cold.

Was it known as a Cincinnati around the city

That’s what it was called in the neighborhood, I couldn’t say for elsewhere.

So what is it

Grandpa poured halfglass of lager the reminder with Dad’s root beer, it was brewed not three blocks from the house, had a root beer garden too.

No kiddin wha a delightful memory  I appreciate you sharing

You’re welcome, it was quite a treat, as I said, on occasion.

 

later that evening he sat down to watch Madigan  1968   Richard Widmark Henry Fonda Inger Stevens Inger Stevens had to mention her twiceSwedish bombshell   Inger Stevens

in a scene Widmarks character Madigan a New York detective enters a bar on a tip that a criminal hes pursuing is there 

       he came up behind the man  he was sitting in a booth crossing in front of him Madigan sees he isnt who hes after

     Whaddaya looking at? the man asked

Thought you were somebody I knew from Cincinnati.

belligerent drunk the man goes to stand up saying Nobody tells me I look like I’m from Cincinnati . .  

Madigan shoved him back down into the booth  Be quiet and drink your milk. 

   something else

                  hadnt thought of Cincinnati in forever and thenBAM  hears it twice in a day

2243,  Twosday,  24  5. 22

1237,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  25  5. 22

The Byrds  Moog Raga  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xVySwHYZH5Q

she busted her ass on the table six guys

they were leaving

she saw that they stiffed her  Sonsabitch

infuriated she went up the aisle after themcaught them in the lobby 

                                                                      You didn’t leave me a tip?

they were inebriated  their selfanointed gangleader turned to face her 

                                                                         Yawant a tip? he began messing with his pants  I’ll give ya a tip still messin give ya a thick shaft tooslap your chin with my balls messed . .

was he really going to sit there an listen to that crap  nah 

                                                            stood  began his best fag brogue he liked calling it a broguehad several Scottish friends who took exception BALLS! limpwrist OHyum yes yes  Yummyyummy balls   Please

clown quit fumbling with his trousers

NO!were you only teasing he acted terribly disappointed Ohdrat  stamped his foot You big tease!   You are bigarent you he held his hands up before his chestfingers clutching fingers like a bunny rabbit

stepping forward towards him leader barked FAGGOT  but that was the only word that left his mouth

soeasy impugn a guys masculinity they lose their mind

                                                           hed help him  his queerfacile fingers bunchedformed fists

he rocked the Lone Ranger if he thought the others were going to follow him into the fray he was nuts                                                                                                                                he saw them around  they made the Three Stooges doubled look like super heroes  but thasaid   the Three Stooges were super heroes

leader crashed into the hostess stand and peeled off it onto the floor  laid stilldazed  his pants still a mess halfopened belt unlatched 

he grabbed him at the waistbandbounced him once loosened his pants more flipped him onto his face yanked his wallet free liberated a twentyFucktha  two twenties  tossed the wallet onto his back

                                                                                 in the confusionsudden melee the gang now able to count to onegetting frisky ballsy he stuck the bills into her hand and motioned for her to beat it return to the diningroom

aint a damn thing like protecting a womans honour

he sidestepped the press wentround the other side of the station into the foyer out the heavy doors casually removing his jacket cap tucked them under his arm crossed traffic in an opening doubledback crossed in front of the restaurant  the Keystone Cops piled out and headed up the street where he went 

                                                                       they wouldnt find Trouble

suntime,  Saturday,  April9  2022

1357,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  25  5. 22

Horslips  Trouble with a Capital T  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y8YuAbkDT94 

bone

buffalo

companion

       fourteen year he carried it everywhere

then lost it through a hole in his pocket   

if he was a bright boy when he had his last surgery he would have had the surgeon bury it under his skin

                                                                                                                 then he wouldnt have lost it 

                    Yasee the rationale  he spoke to an interior he saw leaning in out the corner of his eye

Nah

Rubbernecking

No Happened by again   I overheard your musings the first time you retraced your steps  Been doing it since

Yes keep walking the route where lost it keep hopingkeeping the faith   eyespeeled                                                          

Why

Why possibly yare more stupid than me

                                          Ive found other things coins   I know   two dead squirrelstoday I found a dead nestlingnot a tree in a hunred feet   I knowI saw   Picked it up said Come with me little one walked up the road to a live oak placed it in a crotch of the tree   I know   Seemed fitting correct seems a violation to bury a bird a violation of its nature  mine

   I know  Sowhas your gambit

No gambit

           Since no ones looking for it I thi . I believe . . . I believe Ill find it

Yah  Hope springs eternalhuh

Something like that

Thaseems unlike you thas more optimistic than I knowya to be 

                                                                   Thabook yare readingSatori your actions are in defiance of the Japanese Buddhist terminology  comprehension understanding   Seeing what is real

Not whaya want or prefer

   So whas lost cant be found

                                    Think Ill perseverance  Yawanna bet against me

Bet

    Wha am I supposed to put uphow do I to benefit separate from you

  

Your benefit is being attached to me as things become dire more despondent I can imagine silver linings in stormclouds 

              Im willing to task the other side 

Thas nothing new Yare a prick 

   Prick   Confrontational

Gentlemens bet

Were not gentlemen

1411,  Twosday,  24  5. 22

1031,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  25  5. 22