4.4.23


Jeez. he looked roundside to side like someone boxed his ears  
                                                               How’d we get here? 

hahaha Arya really so nonplus confused yare actually scratching your head

he was
         I am.   I’ve lost the trail.

Hopefully not the scent

That too.

Ohman Okay 
                    We began with the film Mad God I asked whaya thoughtIm impressed you watched it seriously had doubts just God in the title made me think youd throw it over neglect it

That’s an odd word choice.

Not truly an particularly not in regards to the film Once one learns of ithas seen the trailer it shoudnt be ignored neglected

Are you patting yourself on the back for recommending it?

No
    Its worth watching then watching again Phil Tippets the creator his vision  a passion surviving thirty years

It’s something.

An its how we arrived at our discussion of love an passion which you equate  Following on the heels of our talk of intellect and passion which I absolutely equate he said absolutely because it piqued Paul 
                                                                                         An donsay theres nothing absolute because I prefernot to beat a dead horseNOT remind you of my proof

Your proof?

   Really   Think 


looked like he thought 
                        It must not have impressed me . . I don’t remember. 
Not impressed yaHellno 
                            Man ya cringe every time every  time

So make me cringe again, as you say.

he sighed long 
                 Absolutely proof 

Yes.

   Would you have sex with a man eyes bugged 
                                                         as they always bugged
Because if tha aint absolute with you I don know wha is

I remem . .
. . NOW  Ya always remember now when I say I cant figure how tha doesnt impress you an why we must to return to it
   Must

A mental block? 
As in yare mental
                   I know you not to be regarding so many other thingsother subjects  Yare just so damn hungup on nothing being absolute 
Another 
          Yes  No Absolutes  Ya know you mean no when you say No yet insist an argument weve had when a woman says No she doesnt mean it 
                                       Got a streak of misogyny buddy
But back to where we came from intellect equals passion love does not equal passionya resist sex does not equal passion
 
When did we talk sex and passion?

Right now Im exstrapolating

Paul shook his head For such a bright guy you often mispronounce words.

   Do I misspell words

You makeup words.

Yes 
        Anif I misspell a word I havent Ive written it exactly the way I want I know how to spell better than youcorrect

begrudgingly  You do 
I do 
      Therefore you might understand Im not mispronouncing Im havin some fun with sex passion a strap  Extrapolating 
                 Got a safe word 

A safe word?

A sex safe word Someones using a strap on you an you want them to stop theres the safe word an they stop

Why would I want someone to use a strap on me?

Im dying to use a strap on you Though your safe word woudnt make me stop  Yave earned a beating

You’re being ridiculous. 
                                  he blinked several times wasnt sure  Aren’t you?

   I am

he didnt say Whew but it ran all over his face  Can I ask you something?

Yah

Do you have a safe word?

Yah

   Would you say?

Yah  Sure 
           Though Id suspect you can guess it with the big brain of yours  Exstrapolate 
I don’t know.

Ya do

I don’t.

You don wanna trydon wanna think

 

   Yes.

Thank you for that 
                     My safe word 
he was eager  Yes.

he cleared his throat 
                 STOP

1327,  Reggaefriday,  3  2. 23 he was tempted  2  3  23
1121,  Twosday,  4  4. 23

3.4.23


Is this really worth your bitchin’.
Bitchin 
        Im not bitchin he balled a fist Thasaid ya don bitchbout nothing  tenderly keep things on an even keel 

There’s nothing wrong with that.

I suppose lookin out from your headnawh 
                                            Gottasay  time came woudnt want ya at my back in a fight  Lousy odds

You've got your nerve . . but you got a big mouth . don’t care who you offend . . 
. . Anyou are troubled to offend anyone 
                                           Willing to tuck tail
That’s not true.

Seen it several timesYah small sample size

I can’t remember a tim . .
. . No  You don remember nothing
                                      Donbe hangin your hat on tha
clearing his throat 
                  I don’t remember unremarkable things.

   Unremarkable 
                     Tell me something you rememberkeenly  beyond high school glory days  Those simpler times

I remember my kids’ births.

How many in the delivery room the same room whacolour whacolour were your scrubs where did you change Whadya think in the moment after they were born  
                                              Beyond the momentousness


 
   I digress 
              Back to wha I was sayinhave heard  people declare their North Star  Polaris  Wha guides em whas yours

You didn’t ask what mine was.

Look at you remembering
                             Im askin now

   Honesty. Truth. 
                       Yours?
Being authentic

he rolled his eyes We’re saying the same thing.

   Perhaps 
              Anif so then the North Star and Southern Cross are at once the same anif I choose to say my Southern Cross is authenticity  It aint bitchin

You’re being contrary.

Not when a choicechoices are available  why shutter them because a majority prefers lookin at things one way  I say enable thinking outside the box 
                                  An don tell me efficiency saves time   Socrates  An unexamined life aint worth livin  Woud dig hearin tha in Greek

   Tellya wha  You keep your North Star an Ill celebrate my Southern Cross 

1519,  Sunday,  2  4. 23
1053,  Monday,  3  4. 23
Stephen Stills  Southern Cross  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kDoZ3z0ET6Y


he sawthought  INSPIRED     Truly inspired

shelved
        aligned across an down like abacus beads small pottery yellow pink pastelblue frostlightgreen 
                                                                                                            Easter bunny cyclops  JOY 

  No theyre not

Im lookin at em

Please Look harder he was headingheadlong to the counter to tell the floral attendant how sensational he thought the display
Please Youll make an ass out of you an ass out of us he pulled up they werent usually tha strident Look again  Ya often see wha yawanna see 
Thas on my eyes

They do like to play with youbut think   Easter cyclop bunnies Hadoes tha go over

he backpedaled away from the counter 
May I help you, sir?

No thank you Perhaps in a moment   Thank you

Then when you’re readyif you have any questions.

Yes Thank you

the attendant returned to unpacking product from flimsy heavilytaped cardboard boxes printed with red Chinese characters

he looked again 
                 the bunnies had their heads tilted back looking to Heaven? what he mistook as squinting eyes were their noses whiskers to either side their paws are drawn together just under their chinstheir mouths closed  small smiles 
Awnuts 

   Yasee

I see

Probably a good thing you didnt compliment the attendant on her selection of Easter cyclops

Probably

Was inspired thoughchoice through your eyes 
                                                 Only you 
Yathink

Weve no doubt Because you keep it interesting we cant help but stick around

Thank you Ill take tha as a compliment 
                                           Its pretty damn fun for me too

1400,  Sunday,  2  4. 23
0944,  Monday, 3  4. 23
Sona Jobarteh  Nna Mooya  (Except for Me)  first recording on album  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UCDq-vZMJ68

2.4.23


   “. . . now is time for ears to hear . . .”           Tears for Fear?  Everybody Wants to Rule the World 
                                              Eesh
ChristMike

took him three years  poetMike     ears to hear
                                                   suppose it was too delicioustoo clever to let go  

   he cleared his throat 
                                  then crowed 1619

352preferred,  Sunday,  2  4. 23

 
   predilection 
                 the wordfirmament drifted in his eyes like those transientstars translucentspots which shimmer before someone might pass out 
                            he wasnt 
whahe was
             was tearing down the word brick by brick eviscerating it flensing it 
the word came into his eyes as he watched a small baldheaded man a gnome clutch briefly at his groinhike his corduroys fuckin imp 
                       proceed out of a bathroom stall 
it locking behind him wellworn gymshoes visible under the door

leaning back against a sinknot yet washing his hands he rapped on the keyboard of his cell

a tone sounded inside the stall he exited
                                           lasciviously he grinned 
Lemme guess he thought  Venmo


   he dissected predilection 
                               from it formed pre-dick-lickin post-dick-lickin
coudnt help himself

his flight was boarding

he wanted to stick aroundcatch the second exit from the stall but 
                                                                      last call
he followed the gnome out 
                              creep never did wash his hands

1340,  Sunday,  5  2. 23
1640,  Sunday,  2  4. 23

Open Your Eyes


overcast  a dull morning to wake to 
                                     jumping up on the bed leftie will maul him if he doesnt give her affectionscratch her chin behind her ears her flanks tha crazy spot on the base of her tail in her Gumbyagility torquinturnin she stomped his bladder  gravity be damned  when he stood he acquired the sensation to urinate but her stomp was a kind of cardiopulmonary resuscitationURGENT                                                                                                                              Excusemegirl he said as he picked her up set her aside pivoted on his hiptossing his legs over the edge of the bed escaping the top sheet an blanket

light in the house was burntoutbrown

he went up the hall to the bathroom 
                                     lifted the toilet seatYAH he was a guy  maybe in other homes guys left the toilet seat up but grandmother mother four sisters wife two daughters 
                                                                   he didnt set the toilet seat down thered be righteoushell to pay besides   he didnt know when he might be entertaining
Aaaah

 

   when he finished the bubbles froth looked up at him a cozy koala bear Good morning he said then a soft agitation when bubbles broke it morphed into a koi complete with puckered lipsblowing bubbles Good morning to you too 
                                                                                                                  when those bubbles broke  the koi simmering into disarray he flushed set the seat down

he washeddried his hands before turning to leave he caught a glimpse of himself in the mirror he was smiling pleasantly still humoured by the amberlighting the cameo appearances in his pot 
                                                                                       he winked at himself 
left 
     made his bedGot the show on the road
  
0823,  Sunday,  2  4. 23
Newen Afrobeat ft. Kologbo  Open Your Eyes  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VwtjivFAjpU

1.4.23


 FORMER INDICTED

thas peanuts

lets talkbout Trumpvirus 
                        lets talkbout hunreds of thousands of lives pissed away to placate his optics 

he checked his numb-ers 
                           22days ago 1,153,580 American deaths the minuend 

today ironically April Fools 1,155,098 dead the subtrahend

the difference 1,518 

equals 69 deaths a day 
                    finally an obsceneradical swing for the betterhowever talk to him when chumps indicted for those deaths

he could have ralliedcould have put his foot down 
                                                       Optics 
talk to him when former is indicted for those deaths

after 3PM,  Saturday, 1  4. 23


escalator torture YES  not escalating torture monotonous dull drips an drabs Chinese water torture  words tapping at his foreheaddribbling into his ears

he knew she was at the airport somewherethey got their signals crossed 
                                                                             Im sittin tight 
Where are you?

At the foot of a mouthy escalator Terminal Four Arrivals  Above Baggage                  

I don’t know what Terminal I’m at, I’m only seeing Gates but I am proceeding to Baggage though I haven’t any.

You said 
          Ask someone wha Terminal yare in

That’s an idea.

Its late  Yave been up . .
. . As long as you have, you weren’t able to sleep for the excitement either.

No Ive been lookin forward to this as long as you have

HAVE A NICE DAY.

he thought Woudya shut up

PLEASE WATCH YOUR STEP GETTING ON AND OFF THE ESCALATOR.

Doncha think thas common sense 
                                          Why was he talking at a machine

FOR YOUR CHILD’S SAFETY DO NOT LET THEM PLAY ON OR NEAR THE ESCALATOR. 
Or wha  youll eat em

PLEASE HOLD ONTO THE HANDRAILS.  
HAVE A NICE DAY.

PLEASE BE CAREFUL WHILE RIDING THE ESCALATOR.

I’m in Terminal Three.

Ill come to you

No that’s okay, I’ll come to you.

Lemme come to you Ive been listening to this escalator for three hours

Listening?

Yah Canya believe it  A talking escalator

Maybe you’re hearing voices haha.
                                     Hang in there, car rental is just beyond Terminal Four, I’ll come to you no need for you to back track.

Jesus 
        Hurry

haha  Is it that bad?

Woudnt be if it wasnt three hours

It was beyond my control, you know, delays happen . . 
. . Two an a half hour delays

You haven’t flown in a while.

Not since before Trumpvirus

See, you still have your humour. I’ll be to you inside ten minutes . . .
                                                                                                       HAVE A NICE DAY.
Yasay something?

OH you heard my female nemesis

I heard something.

PLEASE WATCH YOUR STEP GETTING ON AND OFF THE ESCALATOR.

She talks about herself in third person 
                                         Theres never been a president like President Trump  says Donald J. Trump  Assholes
Hurry

she laughed Keep your socks on. I’ll be there before you know.

Ill know Cant be soon enough

HAVE A NICE DAY.

0026,  Saturday,  4  3. 23
1343,  Saturday – April Fools! 1  4. 23


Whadyasay?  Sorry, I missed that. 
Ohshit  his headneck twistedcorkscrewed 
                                            Whered ya come fromdidnt know you were there
Yeah, sorry, I'm here.
                          What did you say?
Nothing

Sounded Chinese.

he cringed Chinese

Yeah, Chinese dish, restaurant menu item.

his chin plopped to his chest asif somebody punch him atop his headblow at his widows peak 
                                                                                                   he laughed
Is that funny?

   composing himself 
                              Oh shit yes

perplexed What’s so funny?

Sounded like a Chinese menu item

Yeah, something duck. I definitely heard duckright?

he noddedsmilin Definitely duck

Gaoyou, Moo goo, Moo shu, Hangzhou?

Whoa Those legit

Rather duck than chicken, yeah, legit.

   Had no idea   No shook his head

Then what?

he chuckled

Are you laughing at me? 
No I apologise
               I didnt think anyone was out here

I was having a cigarette off to the side so the smoke wouldn’t drift back into the house.

Ah 

What did you say?

chuckling againshakin his head again 
                                             Ya really wanna know 

I do you’re killing me, I really want to know. You’re certainly getting a kick out of it.

I am I thought I was alone

Awright. You weren’t.  What?

Fine 
      I farted Said it sounded like a muffled duck   Quack

he burst out laughing 
                       Aw jeez.

Yah So so much for Chinese duck 

0828,  Saturday – April Fools!  1  4. 23
1149,  Saturday – April Fools!


Akwaeke Emezi awakened him eyessprungwide no small feat 
                                                                       with Freshwater
she shared her book with him and within all her characters gods and goddesses  she introducing him to Igbo Africa religion mythology 
                   Ala python mother ogbanjes spirits “children who come and go”

she conceived a beautiful exotic compound object two ogbanje  “. . . wrapped up in a strip of human hide” an iyi-uwa an object binding the spirit of a dead child to the world 

its unknowing keeper is a little girl Ada who had to be a girl because if a boy  itd kill him  boys arent made of the stuff girls are nor men of women     

when he realeyesed where Akwaeke Emezi had taken him he began Freshwater over reading it out loud 
                                                                                                                he had neglected to share it with his mother whod love it  reading it aloud he was sure shed hear 
                                                                                               wherever she was 


   “. . . stuffed a god into a bag of skin”   couldnt possibly be more succinct

2019,  Reggaefriday,  3  3. 23
1004,  Saturday – April Fools!  1  4. 23

31.3.23

transhumanist  
                he was familiar with the term posthuman  not this trans  he read genetic engineering wha coud go wrong with tha and nanotechnology will allow us not him to alter our brains and bodies so profoundly that we will escape human limitations such as mortality and confinement to a physical bodyhe didnt feel confined 
                                                                                                yet our machinery prevails 

rather people have become singular self-agitated bubbles simmering in soups broths separated by fine sieves of smartphones computers laptops communicating with others who arent present and they who are  couldnt interrupt if they tried 

   daunting
                he thought so 

confinement to a physical body 
                                    he didnt think so
his confinement enjoyed sex enjoyed his senses even as he understood they will diminishfalter not be as sincere as they once were

he enjoyed his mobility motility eliminations    a great sneeze was every bit as good as sex  

   only if he coud cum like tha   
                                     erupt   
1638,  Reggaefriday,  3  3. 23
1128,  Reggaefriday,  31  3. 23
Tony Allen (feat. Damon Albarn)  Go Back  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9GX9N_EYjmg


spider watch 
             shy had her eye out 

while cleaningup hertheir catboxes he kept an eye on her she had alerted him of two separate black widows that he captured and released

You let them go! he startled his daughter You kill them, you don’t set them free. she startled him Hey come to your senses you know my relationship with widows Ill be damned  Im not jeopardising the karma I have with them  Im indebted to them

Dad.  I can’t believe that you believe that. It was your ability to remain calm, not freakout, that you weren’t bit.

I wont argue the point I disruptedviolated their space  they determined Lets blow dumb polack don know no better
See Ignorance is bliss doll

she shook her headgritted her teeth I kill ‘em.

Kill em 
       Whell I hope yave kept a crushed bodies count cuz someday when you get bit youll know why No asking why me

Are you wishing that on me, that I get bit for protecting my children?

Kill black widows outside

Outside my house yabetcha, the girls play there.

Lemme rephrase You kill them out of doo . . 
. . Anywhere, anywhere I find them. 

   Murderer

early Feb, 2023
1013,  Reggaefriday,  31  3. 23
Hollies  Long Cool Woman (in a Black Dress)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ac7ehSglwZQ


this morning he poured himself a smoky cup of Joe and sat down read to read the newspaper  
                                                                                                        Awww 

Karma chump  karma

former will have to look it up an see 
                                       could be that karma doubles down on him  god knowsbet your sweet ass hell be begging money off his impending criminal trial to defend himself
    
2105,  Thursday,  30  3. 23