leftie would want him to find his stride again

october her mother the queen was sitting in his lap as he wrote as leftie did every morning

                                                                                                  as all his cats did taking their turn

difference between leftie and october

                                       october awfullyferal like him trust no one sat facing the doorway

leftie sat facing the window comforted that if it was in his power no harm would ever come to her

    he couldnt fendoff her death five years eight months nineteen days twothree hours old

his catsthose he cared for notoriously lived fifteenseventeen years

he was crushed

                  now three days latereach day still several bouts of tears writing this he cries

since Tuesday his daughter called him a couple times a day texted  checked in

she was able to reason his enormous heartbreak

    Papa. After Aniela her sisterhis daughter died, you returned home, you told me that was when you and leftie bonded.

Yes yes

          Coming through the door after gone nearly three months she greeted mewas terribly attentive  Beginning of our love affair

Most nights she beat me to bed after sitting at my heel  quietly suggested

                                                                             Hey  Ya think its bedtime

She slept at my crotch after I petted her a while

There.

        Leftie helped you contend with Anielas death. Now when you think about what you called a panic attack, panting between sobs, do you see, in context with Aniela’s death, likely why that occurred?

    A continuum

                     Thamakes sense

I didnt see tha  

Thank you

You’re welcome.

                    I’m so terribly sorry Papa. Most animals, as I understand, when they are going to die seek someplace away, go off to die.  

Leftie sought you.

She laid with you.

    She was born between my legs

Yes.

it occurred to him Wednesday afternoon gobsmacked him

                                                              october birthed three kittens between his legs

they were the first cats that were solely his who he keptdecided to take care of since he was in college

he always wanted a black cat

a little girl sat on concrete on a blanket outside a Food Fair grocerystore in Coral Gables with a box of four weaned kittens

two were jet black brother an sister

                                         You’ll take good care of them? she asked

I will

You promise me?

I promise

    leftie shy bomber are his cats

                                     not family cats left in his care

not his wifes his daughters

his

 

his

     lefties death broke his heart

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