lefthandedness

               either innate or it aint

of his immediate family grandparents aunts and uncles sixtysix cousins he was the only one who was lefthanded

obviously  not genetic 

                      wanna get bitchslapped suggest it

hed dare ya

his tabula rasa was scribbled all over

his memento mori -- an emblematic objet a reminder of death – misplaced 

                                                                              I swear to Christ I just set it down right here

You shouldn’t swear to Christ.

How can I say this nicely I cant Fuck you

                                             his lefthandedness was scribbled all over him

his grandmother saw it his parents and he lived with her when he was a boySHE saw it and when his mother went out his father working she bound his hand shut in a fist with torn cloth so he couldnt use it

she wouldnt say how long it had been going on when his mother came home earlier than expected and found him in the playpen bound

she would say that she was right

she said in Polandfrom where she immigrated a lefthanded child was an evil child 

Christ wouldnt even give her grandchild the benefit of just being bad  had to be evil

when he heard that story being older being incorrigible being set in stone it figuredfigured to him

he sought his grandmother

he told her he was not evil

religion casts people as Good and Evil God perceived people as Good or Evil 

                                                                                 Well Grandma I dont believe in God

Its a bunch of malarkey

his mother wanted him to apologise

If I apologise I will be dishonest So would you prefer Im a liar or an atheist

where did this nonsense come from she wanted to know

he didnt find it credible

that wasnt his word 

                     but in the so many words he used because he wasnt sophisticated yet  although he did speak better English than his grandmother  his mother followed his simple reasoning

it would have been easier had she accused his lefthandedness his separateness from virtually every child every adult around him 

                                                                                                                              he didnt met another lefthanded child until he was in high school she too was Polish they became fast friends initially by sole virtue that they were same handed

                                              then later because their sexual curiosityacuity piqued simultaneously and groping their hands didnt deflect each other they went directly at the heart of the matter 

heart was a poor choice of words

they werent interested at all in the others heart 

then losing their virginity together 

                                     all was right in the world

      

2255,  Mundaye – or not,  15  2. 21

1500,  Thursday,  18  2. 21