rituals

     he was ticked and he thought of ritualsmiserable rituals handed off generation to generation(no better than their prejudices)  their rituals(or shams) pliantly stoked and invoked imparted and attested willfully asserted and blindly acceded without questionnot a single question challenging either their validity or necessity 

reallywho would dare challenge Ritual

ticked  he couldnt imagine who wouldnt or why wouldnt they

were they habits?

when ritual becomes habit  then sensibly it is a habitits no longer ritual   

habit subsumes its place  erodes its memory  and remembering why it was a memory isnt remembered 

human beings are habit-forming creatures

perhaps the reason why memory has little currency

he was convinced animals did not have memory

he based his belief his evidence of when he cared for his familys six cats

when one died the others came by and cautiously sniffed its body

they seemed to recognise something  

they seemed a bit startled or peeved  

then they hurried off

otherwise they seemed unimpressed

the next day at their feeding bowls they didnt seem to recognise they were one less  that one was missing 

hence cats animals havent memory

recently however bigfoot his outdoor cat was chased from the bed he had made up for him by a strange bitch who wandered onto the porch pulled apart bigfoots bedding and laid in it for hours

the bitch was gone the next morning

he gathered up the bedding washed it  scrubbed and washed the porch and wall behind where the bedding lay 

then he restored bigfoots bed

itd been a week now

and while bigfoot did return late he did not take to the bedding and only reluctantly fed from his bowls when he took them down off of the porch

he supposed that suggested memory or at least a kind of triggered survival instinctand isnt memory shouldnt memory be instinctive to survival or is memory only set(compassion only set) when a being is terribly frightened or suffers pain at the hands of an experience

bigfoots trust in him remained

he allowed him to approach and pet him even pick him up as he talked to him

but if he approached the porch with him in his arms bigfoot became antsy and was obviously discomforted

hed set him down and bigfoot would warily quickly slink off

bigfoot wasnt injuried

but he had to have been existentially frightened

apparently memory set by fright or pain was legitimate

he had a long memory(ur-memory)

he was disposed to it by the brilliant white light that penetrated his sleep and the warmth of his blood on his throat and chest when he fell out of bed and split his chin on the iron bedframe

he was scarcely a year old

being ticked has its advantages and reflections  if you can stay them

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