did he saydid he bite his tongue spurn himself so he did not to say

  No 

     he was terribly too honesthe said what was true for him

he did not worry himself of its fallout its ramifications because he knew the first lie he uttered hed have to maintain  

hed have to water and grow it

a seedling taking root

throwing a taproot down deep and dark and deeper growing like a weed

a lie is a weed

                 a weed that branches out and wraps its way around like an ivy or wisteria

its stem thickening

it purchases and does not relent

nor should it

you planted it

it metastasises on the horseshitfertiliser you mouthed

it does not go away

it takes on a life of its own

                                which you allowed

you can look no furthur than yourself

for blame

for fault

for absolution

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