the woman was miserable

                                            visibly anguished

tho knowing what he knew he couldnt concur

it was a miserable she made  an her attempts to drag others into it was obscene

she said   --   an never known to curb her tongue   --   assigning it as it was by her righteousness   --  because of course she knew better   --   her sons were assholes who thought only with their dicks
(they dont make mothers like that anymore)

* * * *

Harsh  --  someone might think  --  for a mother to say of her sons

 

but then what  --  if taken in its overall scheme  --  what did that say about the woman who raised those sons

if they were assholes

if they thought with their dicks

then what  or how  might their formation allude to her as their mother(not that that would occur to her)

did it reveal a deficiency or defect in her mothering

her remark was unfortunate  preposterous    he believed sexually-repressed

her misery was affected because her sons refused her words any credence

it seemed since they made lives for themselves  were adults

why would she bother herself of their sexuality when they wouldnt consider hers

the fine zesty pleasure of sex was a natural condition

unless  of course  one wasnt happy in their own sexuality

an why would a mother concern herself derive such abject disgust if it had nothing whatsoever to do with her

neither son left a trail of bastards or broken despondent relationships

they didnt pay prostitutes

they didnt masturbate ceaselessly to streaming XXX porn neglecting their obligations

No

it seemed her animosity was miserable because her words were unheeded

her tyranny exposed  an meaningless

her morality unshared

concerns  unnatural

he felt badly for her

she had been with the same man since before she was eighteen

one of her daughters married on her eighteenth birthday  divorced  an since had no affections towards another or had taken a man into her bed(pleasing her mother terribly)

her other sons presumably not assholes survived in cowed marriages dutiful to their wives wants an words  those which easily could have been dubbed from their mothers mouth

miserable  anguished      accurate

it was a condition she foisted on herself and neednt look any furthur for assholes than the one reflected in her vanitys mirror or in her utterly acquiescent husband  their father  who without saying a word remaining silent conceded to her skewed manifestations

Youd think he thought shed have better things to mire herself in that what she thought her sons sexual pleasures were

* * * *

when she made her classic remark of her unmarried sons  one widowed  they were 61 an 46

he would have thought the sexual revolution of the 60s should have piqued her puerile interests 

 

which shouldnt have festered this long unattended

that its hard seething Fury
                                            festooned with naked bodies daubed with dayglo-paint orgies spraying Roman candles bottle rockets fantastic fevered fireworks languid lazy streamers aflutter colored confetti an spasmed arching jiz

might have made her look just a bit harder

not desensitise her

but then she was a married woman mothering seven children



he tried to imagine what time she would have had   but stopped

he wasnt going to give her any rope or a leg up

                                                                                  it was her problem                                              

 

   

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