Its occurred to me . . .

she caught his expression humoured her 

                                   What?  dimples surfaced

he dug her dimples

                      Its occurred to me the difference between me an my immediate family

Why Im here

Why theyre there

    Just occurred to you?

Jah

        Klieglights boringburning into each eye scorchin my brain

Sounds like it hurt.

No  An alert

                  Reality has a way of correcting us if were thick

    You’re not thick.

Apparently regarding this I was

 

I’m curious, please.

Jah

         Now tha Im no longer curiousmakes fuckin sense

 

You keepin’ me on tenterhooks on purpose?

Looks awfully good on ya kiddo

grinned  fucking dimples

Ill tellya

Please.

The difference between me anem is the difference between boxing me  an bowling them

Im the only one in the family who hasnt a bowling bag ball shoes sammy a team bowling shirt my name embroidered on its breast

    I have twelve fourteen sixteen ounce gloves

                                                     Twelve for the heavy bag

If Im lazy six ounce mitts for the speed bag

Otherwise wrap

 

That . . is a difference.

Jah

Just occurred to you?

Jah    Queerhuh

                      Youd think it woud have occurred earlieryears  years   ago

1439,  Saturday,  25  7. 26

1607,  Thursday,  30  7. 26

https://blog.joinfightcamp.com/boxing-equipment/boxing-glove-ounces-explained/

Dead    I follow

Is zero.

You didnt say tha

Zero? I di . .

. . Yadidnt

              Ya have a bad habit of tryin to alter whaya said after ya said it anwhy I task you correct you

I said zero.

If you had we woudnt be havin this conversation

                                                    Yadidnt       Whas top end

Run with your zero

Top end?

Zero to wha

                   I need to understand the rangescale you believe Gregs mental capacity is

    To wha

Im tryin to picture by numbers colour between the lines

 

I think ten.

Thank you

             I was thinkin a hunredhuge difference betweenem youd agree

Substantial.

Particularly when you gave him a onepointfivewhich is dismal

    He’s dismal.

You afraid for himhes done it to himself

He has.

No pity

I have compassion for him.

When someones done it to themselves wheres compassion play

You don’t feel badly for him?

No

      Met Greg once  maybetwice

Im gonna feel bad for wha someone has done to themselves

                                                                      Accountability

Balls been in his court the whole time an Im to feel bad

I think not

You don’t know him, therefore it’s easy for you.

I trust you were a good friend told him he was drinking too much

 

 

Told him he was drinkin too much

    You didnt

 

Wha a fuckinbuddy

He’s his own man.

Then

          Hed be man enough to take your candor

Youre friends

I disagree.

    Youre some friend

                             Actually   Youre not 

A friends obliged to step up

Much like a friends to call out a rumourbelittle whoevers spreading it

 

You disagree

 

 

    You do

1439,  Saturday,  25  7. 26

1503,  Thursday,  30  7. 26

James Taylor  You’ve Got A Friend  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nKaWQxlTsRM

I like it

            Youll excuse meIve no intention of knockin your friendhes in trouble  but not only am I gonna embrace it but Im gonna use its acronym

Too delicious not to

H  I  D

             Antha its been hidden so well so long  HID den

Elevator  Wha floor please  Basement   To de den where its HID

sardonic look on his face I’d rather you didn’t.

Says one who consistently drops acronyms on me to get my goat

                                                                      Well

Appears you finally have goat in the game  HID

                                                            Hospital Induced Delirium

His brains muddled  clippin at the speed of a cold slug a snail

Would you pleas . .

. . I saw it just the other daycant believe Im gonna be able to use it Iatrogenic  One fishhook I like it

From Greek iatros healer genic origin

                                           Obviously had to look it upwrote it down took a small notebook out of his back pocket right here  I quote

                                Iatrogenic disorders broadly refer to any adverse effect resulting from medical care including the following: acts of commission and omission; inappropriate care; nosocomial infections; complications of diagnostic testing, procedures and operations; and adverse reactions to treatment with drugs, biological agents, and radiation.

More than a little troubled by commission and omission

                                                              Thanks eversomuch doc   

     Please.  I really wish you wouldn’t, would hurt Greg’s feelin . .

. . If   only if  he was able to comprehend the words

                                                           Acronym  HID

Nada

No harm

No foul

Nnnone buddyboy woud miss it triple N makings of an abbreviated acronym bypassing harm foul

226preferred,  Saturday,  25  7. 26

1410,  Thursday,  30  7. 26

iatrogenic  https://www.neurologic.theclinics.com/article/S0733-8619(05)70362-5/pdf

Humble Pie  I Don’t Need No Doctor  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mSyrf-FYKVE

Allman Brothers  Whipping Post  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YSuoW8MTbZY

Greg’s now a bit like Skeltons Freddie the Freeloader  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qhjPvMpEhm4

You wouldn’t want to be held in esteem?

No

            You want to think about that?not so kneejerk reflexive

No

 

    Why?

I don care wha others think of me

You could be more circumspec . .

. . No

                Unnecessary

 

And if you’re called rude?

I acknowledge I am  Im not interested in impressing anyone

Boyohboybuddyboy

                      Im not you   You youre concerned what others think of you

    You woud prefer to be held in esteem

You have to say that with a sneer on your face?

Youve mistaken my expression

You’re sneering.

sneered

        Thas a sneer

An it had nothing to do your want to be held in esteem

                                                           I cant believe I sayin esteemcant  I cant remember the last time I did

Ive read it

Also

        It an confidence

Why compare an athletic performance with makin a speech

When you were competing were you aware of people in the stands I wasnt

No. I wasn’t either.

Howevercorrect me if Im wrong you were aware ofem  when you made a speech

 

    Yes.

Theyre not comparable

They are. 

    You do you 

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1258,  Thursday,  30  7. 26

But lemme say thi . .

. . About that? grins thinks theyre clever

    Jah  Sure  Tha

What?

Lets roll back podcasters  the spacetheir backgrounds

Okay.

I went off on a tangent

Much like you.

                 You’re often tangential.

Ah

       But Ive returned to the coarse

Of course.

No

        C   O   A   R   S   E

Not course.

             That’s different.

But you’re different.

Excuse my interruption, I don’t want you to lose your place again.

No  Im back on track

                        It wont shake me loose this time the baldheaded podcaster

 

    There’s a lot of baldheaded podcasters. Could you be more specific?

Closecropped beard

A lot of that too.

Economist  His name slips me

                                     Ive seen two of his youtubes   Im fascinated

Fascinated by his subject matter?

His background  Sparse  Wide spaced shelves

                                                    I see one crossing behind his shoulders above his head an the way the light casts I believe theres a third above tha

Only the one behind his shoulders has items on it

You’re usuallyas you mentioned, attracted to the books, on shelves.

    Probably why a slight discomfort at the few items

I imagine. That’s understandable.

To his right is a polished yellowmetal urn

                                              About the height of his head chin to baldness

 

    Okay.

An exact second to the right of it

Two urns.

Only two which based on their spacing if there were a third itd be in frame

Two urns then.

Jah

 

What of them?

I believewithout any reason  I imagine    The urns contain cremated remains

That’d be . . unusual, I’ll grant you that.

    Jah

I imagine

                    Theyre his exwives

Jesus. That’s . . . that’s macabre.

Youre welcome

                  Not a word heard often

1440,  Sunday,  26  7. 26

1140,  Thursday,  30  7. 26

Podcasters backdrops are interesting arent they

Are you talking about the studios they work in?

Studios

         From home from hotelsthough handsdown my favourite  from home  I dig the shelves of books behindem  Ive taken more than a few titles down an have foundem in the library to read

    I havent been disappointed

For example.

Shoshana Zuboffs The Age of Surveillance Capitalism  Adam Beckers More Everything Forever

Non-fictions.

Jah

Have you ever chosen a novel?

Theyre few an far between

                                  Project Hail Mary comes to mind

I read it before the movie was out

Gosling crushed it

                     Although Ive been keen on him only since his performance in Driver

That was a gruesome film.

Noir James Sallis  Same title

                                Read the book after the film  Enjoyed the hell out of it

You read a lot of noir.

I have

         Had my parents not denied books in the house as I was a kid growing up tha werent wha they considered literature or worthwhile I probably woudnt have been hot to read noir or read anything I coud get my hands thawoud crossem

    Read a lot of banned books

Banned?  Untoward?

I like untoward

                   In town was a small bookshop Jewish fella owned itfelt my pain

He hooked me up

    But you couldn’t read them at home.

Readem as I walked around town to friends houses to schoolin school tucked inside school texts  Read Candy in study hall

                       A dirty book

Had to stop reading it about five minutes before the bell rang for passing to the next class

Why?

Really

Really. Why?

Im sure youve been in school gotten a hard onfor no apparent reason  then had to carry your books awkwardly in front of you so your hard on wasnt visible

Oh.

Ohjah

          Those were the days man

1440,  Sunday,  26  7. 26

1206,  Wednesday,  29  7. 26

Mary Hopkin  Those Were The Days  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ry5GHJifMWY

Theres a more precise name for it    I forget

                                                When I get home Ill check my notes an text ya

It was something I ceaselesswarned management  I was going to do  pursue it

    You . . warned management?

I was a senior rep I interacted with our customers the public

                                                                I knew whawas needed told the uppities it was needed

If they werent keen Id create my own programs pull invoices accordingly

                                                                                   Rerate

They could have fired you.

Coud have

                   But they knew I was right

I thinklike to believe tha I gave them cover to establish an official new protocol

                                                                                   They coud have the credit

I just wanted to do whawas right

I wasnt givinaway the store

    And they went with you?

Easier to go with me than against me

Challenge you?

    I told you  If they didnt alter the programs I woud

                                                           Early on they usually caughtup with me in a couplethree months

No skin off their ass

                       I was the one pulling invoices manually correcting manually placing credits

A lot of work

                But worthwhile   An appropriate

 

 

that evening when he got home after feeding the cats in an out reheating homemade blackeye pea soup placing halfbag of frozen cut okra in it cut up two jalapenos had it over rice he ate sitting at the computer listening to Elon Musk defenestrated by the Economists Editor-in-Chief Zanny Minto Beddoes

he texted

            Joseph Schumpters  permissionless innovation

2303,  Thursday,  23  7. 26

1107,  Wednesday,  29  7. 26

Fleetwood Mac  Go Your Own Way  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oiosqtFLBBA

they went back and forth

                            buddyboy lamentingdamning him for not leading a full life

You're being selfish.

    Full

           According to wha whos criteria  Whos the arbiter

Im my arbiter

Full. You know what I mean.

Social

Yeah.  You need to get out and mix.

Mix

      I don even like mixed drinks  Enjoy it straight undiluted untainteddaresay  solitary

   I prefer a stimulating life

Which Im enjoying unimpeded

You should get out, enjoy yourself, meet enjoy other people.

Who woud deprive me of my time

That’s an abysmal, awful way of thinking itpeople live longer who socializ . .

. . Jah

        School shootings Borderline unfortunate Bar an Grill Thousand Oaks Cali Vegas Mandalay Bay

People socialising

I grant you   Extreme

That’s not what I’m talking about.

No    My point People socialising

You’re twisting the premis . .

. . Im standingup for my right to sanctuary  my individual agency personal autonomy elemental rights essentialsaid essential  prerequisites   According to me

                                                               Song

                                                              Animals

                                                             Its My Life

Lead you own as youre welcome to

I’m just watching out for you.

I appreciate tha

                    Thank you

1442,  Sunday,  26  7. 26

1052,  Tuesday,  28  7. 26

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fx_ccpYv6Bc

accurate ?

             The White House Domestic Policy Council’s accusation: the “(Smithsonian National Museum of American History (NMAH)’s) current telling, the country is, above all, defined by white supremacy, slavery, conquest, exclusion, hierarchy, racism, xenophobia, misogyny, and systemic injustice.”

                                                                                              sounds correct

“(White House Domestic Policy Council) said the NMAH should ‘tell the story of how the colonies inherited slavery from both global and European slaving practices’ and how ‘America’s Founders helped spark a worldwide movement that ultimately ended slavery.’”

                                                           a crock of shit

https://heathercoxrichardson.substack.com/p/july-27-2026

                                                                                                                people get educated

reading wont killya

0911,  Tuesday,  28  7. 26

https://americanhistory.si.edu/

https://www.whitehouse.gov/wp-content/uploads/2026/07/Smithsonian-Report-Saving-Americas-Story.pdf

China Mieville  Three Moments of an Explosion

                                                       We were eleven and death couldn’t touch us.

eighteen he was immortal

  submitted to the Draft

served in-country one tour thirteen months Marines

upset his parents

they didnt want him to serve

                                You can utilise college deferment.

2-S  Im 1-A

               I think not

Never once caught an A in high school

                                          Besides

Competition will never get more realany keener 

they begged  seriouslybegged Pleease.

Christ It was good to be eighteen

                                         Out from under their thumb

       obviously

        survived

        immortal

   proofs in the pudding

       butterscotch 

2245,  Thursday,  23  7. 26

1526,  Monday,  27  7. 26

https://www.gilderlehrman.org/sites/default/files/inline-pdfs/Draft%20Board%20Classifications.pdf

Stones  Under My Thumb  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0asxTqf0NhE