I just can’t imagine.

Its simple

            Football on TV had been social

Im no longer social

Ive never been interested in the athletes their lives celebrity  what theyre paid to pitch

Not since Dandy Don Howard Costello Frank Gifford have talking heads said a word I want to hear

    Its about the game

When its over  highlights culled  assembled

                                                 I watch online

I enjoy its muted distillation

You wouldn’t go out to a sports bar?

No

Go hang with friends?

If invited Id decline

                     I cant tolerate the commercials the challenges the games natural flow interrupted

Its humanity diminished

Not only can’t I imagine . . . can you imagine what not watching says about your masculinity?

 

 

    You evidently have concerns about yours

552preferred,  Thursday,  4  9. 25

. . . we’re concerned.

                        You’re alone.

Whos we whas your concern

That . . that was a little abrup . .

. . Warranted

                 Who

    The family. That you’re alone. You must be lonely.

Lonely thats an interesting concept

                                  Thas an interesting concept  You lonely

No. Heavens’s no.

                      I’m surrounded by family, friends, no, of course not.

    Why woud you think Im lonely

Because you’re alon . .

. . Thas   thas quite the loop the hamsterwheel youve got going

                                                                      Id say my environment is virtually stressfree you live stress freeI  I woud dare to think no

                                                            Youre welcome to correct me

You’re honest-to-God tellin . .

. . I am

Whas your truth  Stressfree

                                  Youve negated my pets   My ferals

Theyre entertaining as shit great company  No lip

They stress more than me

                            Terrorised by Latter-day Saints other Bible enthusiasts suddenly at the door

Disappear an hafhour hour at a time

                                        Become my incentive for me to terrorise whoever knocked

Fun an games

The delivery trucks UPS FedEx DHL United States Postal Service set them off too Packages to be had  DoorDash Uber Lyft groceries restaurant items  my cats freak

Though speaking for myself

                              So much water off a ducks back  I pay no attention  Nones for me

So no

          

         Not alone not lonely

You can inform the family please

1827,  Monday – Labourless Day,  1  9. 25

1524,  Thursday,  4  9. 25

DMT   didnt know prior to last night would be nice to say a li’l birdie told him so  in a senseJa  a female comedian

      the active ingredient found in the powerful Amazonian psychedelic ayahuasca vine which makes sense

a twiningclimbingclinginginsinuating vine  had a girlfriend like that once very briefly

   its also found in the pineal gland of rats

the acronym is for the chemical  dimethyltryptamine

                                                        tryptamines  he knew them their chemical structure is a shared feature of certain aminergic activated by or relates to an amine amine forms when one or more hydrogen atoms in ammonia are replaced by alkyl or aryl groups  can you say rabbithole? aminergic neuromodulators including melatonin serotonin psychedelic derivative now were talking such as psilocybin psilocin & yes DMT

DeMenTed

turns out it presents in human minds at deaths doorstep or immediatelythereafter a surge as the brain throws down everything is has to survive concerned only for itself theirself which most human beings excel at

he imagined his reptilian brain trying to eat its tail ouroboros our borough conceptualising eternity dying hell enter timelessness cyclical renewal reincarceration the elastic unity of opposites

Got to get me some of that

                                be it a chemical cocktail hed even take it on the rocks

he really didnt want to wait to die to have the most stupendous trip of his life  ?    

2119,  Wednesday,  3  9. 25

1116,  Thursday,  4  9. 25

https://thehill.com/homenews/state-watch/3982026-human-brains-show-larger-than-life-activity-at-moment-of-death/

tryptamines  https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/25877327/

Heybaby  Wheres your chicken  october  wheres your little chicken your mauled fowl it knocked-for-a-loop

    Wheres your little chicken

the shabby stitchedfabric chicken has bonded them 

                                                   FETCH

its their toy

october enters the study  oncecurious mews muffled

                                                        chicken in her mouth

she drops it at his feet where hes sitting

picking it up he acts like hes gnawing on it yumyumyumming as he does This soo good honey

he holds it out to her

                       Did you want a bite

Frisbeelike he flings it out the door into the hall shes in hot pursuit

                                                                      it bounces  she boundsshe pounces

prey stuffed in her mouth she bolts into the livingroom mewing around it

shes back in five for another bout  bond

 

    october fetches

some people think dogs are smart Lassie for example  Rin Tin Tin  because they can do tricks Heel Rollover  Play dead

KILL   

because they fetch

october isnt really playing Fetch

    shes mocking dogs

0001,  Thursday,  4  9. 25

0834,  Thursday

he keeps squirreling away his bits

    similar to his Maw

but she squirreled away cash

                                 Youve told onetwo of the kids your hidin plac . .

. . Yes. You think I’m stupid? she thought all men thought women stupid

he was her son

                Not stupid

Just might forget where you hid itparticularly if youre spreading the wealth an at some sudden inspired by a new spotThat’s a good spotwhy didn’t I think of that before?

    I know where my cash is hidden.

The nowhere troubles me

                               Why not just in your closet pockets of favourite coats in your pantie drawer 

compliment  didnt say bloomers  an envelope taped to the bottom of Dads bottom drawer where he keeps his girlie magazines

air went out of their conversationspiraled down into the abyss

    He hasn’t girlie magazines.  He has me.

For strange between them they never pulled punches

 

the benefit of him squirreling his bits outperformed his mother straightaway

his family wont be any poorer when he dies and they cant findem

                                                                        or will even look

his writing only interested him

hed lie

          Say gang

When I croak I want you to know Ive hidden money around my house

                                                                                tantalise them

    waste their time like theyve wasted his all these years

 

1813,  Monday – Labourless Day,  1  9. 25

1643,  Wednesday,  3  9. 25

Whadaya think cowboy

                            Youre the master of tenminute YouTubes

    That . feeels . . . like a crack.

Youre getting better at this

                              It is

What are you knockin’ me about now?

Let me count the ways

Quit.

         What?

Wont read books if the page count exceeds   I don know  Twofifty

I’d say that was a good guess.

                                  No tomes in my life.

Clever  Beat me to the punch

Only because last time we got high you soundly beat me up for refusing to attempt a tome, any tome.

Tons of tomes

                  You recalled

You were unsparing.

I usually am

You are.

              The ten-minute YouTube.

Ja

      Youre eyeballs flutter when I tell you about my Chautauquas those podcasts theyre on YouTube also  hourfifteen houranahaf

Yeah. No.

             Not my cup of tea.

Think AI algorithms have fashionedhave suggested tha theyre tha

                                                                       Thaway holdin sway holdin viewers attention so they go down the rabbithole watch an hourtwo hours  Three hours

Which woud be an hourtwo  longer than my Chautauquas

    May . . be.

You know wha I think beyond wha Ive said

You’ll have to say.

                      I never know where your head’s going.

Remember early records fortyfives their brisk format  Radio playtime cut off at three minutes

I’m not familiar.

You can look it up on your phone later

                                           Caught Billy Joels HBO documentary 

You recall his song The Entertainer

I think, I think I do.

Theres a line in it

                     It was a beautiful song, but it ran too long. If you're gonna have a hit, you gotta make it fit, so they cut it down to threeohfive.

I’m not familiar with it.

                         You’re lucky I remember the name Billy Joel.

Radio kept musicians songs short

                                     For consumption  Advertising in between

Seems logical AI woud insist on tentwelve minute YouTubes

Just an observation

    I preferred LPs Long Playing  So you don agonise like I do over the abuse of acronyms

1626,  Monday – Labourless Day,  1  9. 25

1538,  Wednesday,  3  9. 25

Billy Joel  The Entertainer  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d_VHFyaSXQw

Its illegal in the United States

                                  Ugly girls can take a break  Breeathe eeasier

Oh, man, that really tickl . .

. . You groaned   But then you laughed

I did.   I did I did.

                      It was funny.

Illegal in the US

That’s what you said.

To get particula . .

. . You vet it too?

I did

         Roofie   Flunitrazepam  How canya not love tha Fun razing Pam

Yacan’t help yourself.

Why woud I

                 Brand name is Rohypnol  Which Ill trip down with in a moment

Its a Schedule Four substance under the federal Controlled Substances Act

Penalties for trafficking distributingbut this is America  Let me say this about that Sacklers  Purdue Pharma  hands slapped   Penalties match those of more serious Schedule One substances

                                                                                                     Familiar

I think I am.

All yours

Heroin.

Lowhangin fruit babe

It is, but I’d assume Schedule One substances kick off with it.

Good assumption  I concu . .

. . And you love concurring . . think maybe why I said it?

    You provoked me

I did.  I did I did.

                       LSD.  Peyote.  Mescaline.

Know your drugs

Not till I started hanging around with you.

                                                Ecstasy.

Youre my hero

                 Dangerously close yathink

Think?

Youre my heroine

                         Not the best pun

Substance One  Currently no accepted medical use

That’s what I understand.

You understand marijuana remains a Schedule One substance

No.

Ja

No.

Ja

       And returning to the scene of the crime

    Rohypnol.

I love you

I know you do.

A benzodiazepine

                      Must be twelve kindshuh

Zodiac.

I love you more

                  Rohypnol  See hypnosis in it

    Oh . . yeah.

A roofie is a lazy mans drug

How do you mean?

A lusty man a man of will power a man not to be denie . .

. . Don’t get carried away with yourself.

    A real man

A real man . . . what?

Skips roofies

               Can hypnotise desirable women to sleep with him

Cut it out.

You think I didnt hypnotise you

You think I didn’t hypnotise you.

    Uhoh  We cross-fertilised of a sort

Could say sort of.

                     If we’re choosing to be generous.

Generous  Copiously

                         Unreligiously piously copiously

Yacan’t help yourself.

    If I did you woudnt know me     

1506,  Monday,  1  9. 25

1410,  Wednesday,  3  9. 25

https://www.congress.gov/event/116th-congress/house-event/LC65831/text

https://www.deadiversion.usdoj.gov/schedules/schedules.html

https://www.congress.gov/crs-product/R44782

woman comedian knocked him out  Natasha Leggero

                                                            grewup in Rockford Illinois

brave to say

                 had to figure when she left she didnt let the door hit her in the ass went up the road didnt bother looking in the rearview mirror

 

Is that something you picked up, learned in the Midwest?

Learned

Don’t let the door hit you in the ass on your way out.

                                                         I never heard that until you said.

Got it from my Maw  

                       Whawoud you say about leaving for good

    Really?  she sneered

Ohshit  I apologise

                       Grewup here an aside from college in state  ya never left

I love it here, imagine that?

                                 And you’re here now and you love it too.

Don conflate the two

                          I love you

You heard of her how?

The cat Ive been following  Maron

Marc.

Ja  Him

           Natasha has a podcast with her husband an they interviewed Maron  Butbefore I watched the interview I vetted her an her husband

You vet comedians?

I get Maron  Had to learn what chops they had

                                                     I want to be humouredlaugh  not bored

You vet comedians.

Ja

     I wanna know whos gonna tangle with my mind

    That’s . . so you.

So   I watched the interview  Hilarious

                                           My favourite line  Youll be able to relate though may not admit it

I can’t wait. 

Youll love it

I’ll love it. tipped her head like a cat at a treat but discovering its not their favourite treat  dismayed

                                                                                          Let me have it.

Natasha said an I quote

                            Have you ever noticed that your ugliest friend is the one most afraid of getting roofied.

1506,  Monday -- Labourless Day,  1  9. 25

1304,  Wednesday,  3  9. 25

she woke  stretched

he was watching her as she slept

                                     snuggledup kissed her  murmured Morning

Good morning.

                      sleepglazed How’d you sleep?

Sleep  he smiled lazily    Im not sure wha I do constitutes sleep

                                                                      Id have to think about tha

Think?  scrunched her face

Please don do tha

                    I love your mug Ill think real quick

she unscrunched

                  I’m anxious to hear.

I dreamt hard

               Then wha followed  if tha was sleep was shallow

    Howso, shallow?

Think a rock hard icecube  Dreaming

                                        Then thawing softens slides on its water the surface its on is either unlevel or tips vacillates

The vacillations

                   Curious

her brow wrinkled

                     Curious?

he chuckled  Don do tha either

                                  pinched her chinran his thumb several times softly up the bridge of her nose to her forehead moguls to her widowspeak

finally she sighed

                   I can’t help it. You make me muse, make me, curious.

Four things for instance

Four?

Ja  Four

           An audible sentence

When it repeated reoccured  I woke wrote it down grateful I didnt disturb you

A sentence?

Ja

    You can ask me to do something, but do not tell me how to do it.

That’s strange.

After Id written it down it quit occurring

                                             Then a different audible

I’m Chris Law, John’s brother.    I ask  Can I catch a ride with you    Yeah, sure.

Just a few time

Then in white capitalised block letters on a black background I see  ROUTINE

I wonder  route   my ride with Chris

It repeats several times

Then its suddenly accompanied  also in block letters  RITUAL

What the hell?

Were not there yet

she chuckled

ROUTINE   RITUAL

                      

Then I get involved an somehow Im able to print between them ROUTINAL

Is that a word?

Its dated an uncommon adjective  legit

Anthen with the three words lined up  Im able to print at the end RITE 

Im thinking  while Im asleep

                                asks her  Is tha sleep

    Im thinking  Spectrum

 

she cleared her throat

                           Whatever that is, that ain't sleep.

Ja

Oh ja. 

6-7AM,  Wednesday,  3  9. 25

1002,  Wednesday