he was looking at photographsI see dead people

    Where the hell tha come from

Ya gotta fuck with my head

he was talking to himself

Keep tha knee on my neck whadaya expect

                                                 Hell  Youre the one lookin at pictures

I shoud be able to look atem without you reminding me some  many    are dead

    Reality

I shoud be able to defer reality

Defer

              At your own risktheyre dead   How hard is tha to accept

Memories  Startling fresh

Your memori . .

. . Mine 

             Still raw  fresh

Oozin

Not everyone is you an youre heaping on me

                                                 I want the   healing  scab   I want to   let go

Yawont let me

Ive nothing to do with tha  Ya don have to relatebond with me

                                                                   Let  go

Ya wont

    No

Im good

             Doesnt affect me as it affects you

I cant

Thas on you 

                Not me    

1527,  Sunday,  29  6. 25

2027,  Sunday

Sis really likes havin her own way

You knocking her again?  What’s that about?

he wasnt going to waste a glare on himgave him coldlead dead fisheyes

                                                                  Yamade us instant coffee

Yeah, I made instant.

Which was wha we wanted

You asked specifically for it.

I did

      

         Wha she say

I was busy making instant.

She said Oh for God’s sake, would you make a real pot of coffee?

I didn’t hear.

Instant coffee is awfully stealthymaybe a sharp clat short for clatter spoon striking the ceramic cup

    I didn’t hear.

I looked her in the face told her we were good

Maybe someone may want freshbrewed coffee.

I asked if she was having some

She said no

I asked if her friends in route were having coffee

She said no

She set herself to makin a pot while you nuked our instant

I can have it tomorrow.

Kinda takes freshbrewed off the menu

                                          Theres bread Then theres sales on day-old bread day-old donuts

Cup of day-old coffee

I’ll have it in the morning, it wouldn't be a whole day.

When yacoud have had freshbrewed

                                            Whas with the leniency

Why fight city hall?

When wrong when inappropriate ya fight 

It’s not worth my effort.

Effort 

         So play three monkeys  Deaf  Dumb  BlindError

Hear speak see no evil

Are you seriously likening her to that?

I am

         Youre okay with being run roughshod over

I’m not.

    Methinks you fancy Siss pants want in

                                                Bro    Hasnt happenedaint  happenin

I don’t know that.

222preferred,  Sunday,  29  6. 25

She called them something.  You remember?

drove him nuts always with the pronouns

                                                        Whos she

You know.

    Yah  Knowingly he asks Whos she

                                                Who is she

At the party I threw a week ago.

There were a lot of shes

The one who had read something you wrote. She commented on it. Liked it.   You were indifferent.

    You understand why

Not really.

                  You didn’t even thank her.

Someone solicits you you thankem

She wasn’t soliciting.

She was  I know her name

                                You remember it yet

That you know who is enough.

It isnt

            Whas her name  You invited her

 

    Hint

I could use a hint.

Like your middle name  Spelled the same forward an back

 

    Youre killin me Sis

That’s not her real name.

Thas wha I called her all night longcalled it a vignette

She called it something.

                           What's that?

A brief evocative account   Portrait

    Vignette.

Ja

I won’t remember that.

Ja

    What do you call it

Im spinning webs

                      Mosaic

I won’t remember that either.

You wont  

1923,  Tuesday,  24  6. 25

1045,  Sunday,  29  6. 25

Billy Preston  Will It Go Round In Circles  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W1TmIhddn0c

learn something new every day

                                      Next batter batterer

Image-based sexual PR image-based sexual abuse perpetration

                                                                        Nonconsensual

Bruens Gospel  Jordan the Thief only one chapter only one verse  The world is full fucked.

 

    he was ignorant

but then again he didnt prescribe to that which is the mangiest of all dogshits smeared unpickedup on heavilytraffic sidewalks

                           social media

once upon a time he worked at a cellphone company

he saw where things were going

he stepped away from promoting cellphones customercomere and became a customercare representative  a huge pain in management & administratives ass

H  U  G  E

             his wife and daughters couldnt believe he wasnt fired

he told them not him because he told the truth and the truth unlike lies is not a subset of hallucinations  delusions

they put their hands up like they were being robbed backpedaled  had no idea what he was talking about

Think about wha I just said

                              he almost made all four cry his wife Stop Joe, you’re frightening the children.

she was near tears too

    Fine  Well not discuss my work until after Im fired

never was

            the company was bought out by AT&T & AT&T despite what they said did not bring him or any of his coworkers aboard

ditchedem

            which he argued AT&T would do at every meeting they were required to attend during the transition

they did provide freshground coffee and sweet rolls

                                                        that was something

                    

    antha which he saw coming down the pipe that regurgitating anus  empties into everyones ears and eyes and seemingly TODAY  its still not enough

he gleamed that from complaints he overheard

he has a smartphone

he had it pithed

to everyone else

its pitiful

1924,  Tuesday,  24  6. 25

1204,  Sunday,  29  6. 25

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC11545137/

Madonna  Like A Virgin  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kXhxQVdQzXM

Gospel According to Bruen

                               In the name of the Fadder, an of the Boyo, an of the Haunter, Ahtake a good look at their tonsilsmen.

    “Who knew that tiepins were still a thing.”

and matching cufflinks

Ja

                    Very much a thing

he flipped back through his mental Rolodex menial Rolodex

                                                              he was stunned people were encouragedthrew theirs away

entrusting such valuables to longlearning machines theyd become cunts

                                                                                What’s it worth to you?

by then theyll have eyeballs unworried they havent manipulative hands swinging arms drones will do their bidding

         but by that time  when it arrives  theyll forget the commands their targets because hell have pulled their plug

    whats an electric machine without electricity

like a porn star without a fluffer

                                          learned that made him retch as he remembered all the fluffernutters he at as a boy

1759,  Saturday,  28  6. 25

0926,  Sunday,  29  6. 25

Jordan thief   The world is full fucked.  revelation

    Revelations  final book of the New Testament

                                                     therefore

final  apocalyptic  book of the Christian Bible

time to get a fine shoeshine from the negro inside the train station

                                                                      also made him yearn for spats cufflinks

wasnt dressing to meet the Maker

    thought hed like to make his corpse look  cumely he wasnt dead yet

Jordan spoke on page 134 of Galway’s Edge

                                                wont find The world’s full fucked in the Bible

ought to be

             either

a candid admission or a clever allusion   subtle

                                                     say  schoolgirl short plaid skirt high white cotton socks

think Japanese

                    not whorish

 

got lost in thoughts

1721,  Saturday,  28  6. 25

Traffic  The Low Spark of High-Heeled Boys  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vDGorIWYz-A

creeping creepincloser to what he thinks hes doing

currently Chautauqua is his biddinghowever from The Metaphysical Club Louis Menard cats sharp  tossed Wissenschaft under his wheelshas no brakes

obviously German

looked it up

             literal translation transsalivation is Knowledgeship  Menard regarded it as pure learning knowledge for its own sake

for his own sake

                       thats what he does

those around him who do not do what he does are disturbed

                                                                 What are your reading?

Oh. when he shows them the cover so he doesnt waste his breath I thought you were reading the Bible, you were reading so intently.

No

     Book doesnt pique my interest  Unlike other philosophies

Thanks for askin though Why make enemies  Worse   Ignorant enemies    Capable of anything

You really think of people tha way

No  I think of ignorance tha way

                                    Unfortunately only Man beast is capable of blissful ignorance

Incorporated in their DNA

    Buddy ought to hear him now

                               According to him everything about human beings can be simmereddistilled into remanent DNA

he could lean revenant DNA but he was pretty sure tha wasnt a thing

    Bildung

Look at you  Bonedup on German again

                                            You have the floor  Carry on

You know bildung

No  But since were in the neighbourhood I suspect it has something to do with education  learning

Yes

      Holistic form of self-cultivation personal development encompassing intellectual moral growth

Ya think my morals need growing

                                     I woud concede intellectually

Your morals are welldeveloped

    If they were tits someone woud accuse me of plastique surgery

You understand plastique plastic explosives   is obsolete

look at me singlehandedly Im tryin to bring it back

                                                       Particularly regarding big artificial tits

Can you be serious

    Boring

2246,  Thursday,  26  6. 25

1559,  Saturday,  28  6. 25

    shebeen

                    awright  hed bite    Bruen agin turnin his head

“originally an illicit bar or club where alcoholic beverages were sold without a license"

    sounded like his kind of place

shebeen

           he was a hasbeen

a shoudhavebeen a wannabeen beenthabefore beenbeatup beenasshandedtohim beenkickeddownaflightofstairs

 

    beenluckierthanmost

he recalled a conversation not three weeks old

                                                     she asked if he believed in luck

Wha luck

Luck.

         I believe in luck.

Gimme an example where luck changed your life

                                                            Isnt one responsible for their life

Changed my life?

musing churned attractively in her face

That’s a little extreme, don’t you think?

    Isnt luck extreme

On wha continuum does it run

Continuum?

The description of the line it inhabits

                                        Random description maybe maybenot off the mark

Sanity  Insanity

Were all on the spectrum

    I’d . . I’d have to think about that.

Why shoudya have to think about when luck changed your life

Does luck have to change your life? 

I agree  Im being extreme

                             But Ive found if I couch   things  for lack of a better wordmaybe Ill come up with something else  If I couch things in the extreme theres no parsing its freakin evident  Even if ludicrous

    More easily understood

Wha luck

Offhand I can’t think of any . . . lifechanging . luck.

My names Joe

                  Buyya a drink

Saoirse.  Please. I’d like that.  Guinness, large Jay.

    Arya kiddin me

2334,  Thursday,  26  6. 25

1221,  Saturday,  28  6. 25

she said had she said to himhed have knocked her for a loop  on some rare occasions a woman needs to be straightened outhed seen women crack womenpull gouts of hair out which was freakinwicked

                                                                she said

literally purred it into his ear breath moist  warm   sweet sigh

                                                                      It must be hard,

feeling so alone.

 

Yawanna explain yourself

I gotta paint ya a picture    Yamiss the nuance

    It must be hard feeling so alone

                                        We imagin . .

. . More than one of you agree

I said  we

So I understand

                       Continue

Thank you nose bent

                          We imagine if someone were alonedidnt want to be alone It woud be hard  It woud be a hard thing

Gosh  Sympathetic

                        Empathic    Thoughtful

Youre mocking us

A little bit

    Had she exhibited  nuanc . .

. . Yamissed it

We missed it

 

See ifya can follow

                      She purred in his earcorrect

Yes

Her blouse was unbuttomed his head to her shoulder tilted toward her breast coud assume perfumed  the scene was a setup

                       Can we agree she was setting him up

We saw  Yes

a little irritated We say ja

    We thought if we broke norms ya might pay stricter  attention

Ja

   Thas whaya think  Thad be an errorbut were getting off track

A setup  Ja

conceded  

          Ja

Seductive scene

                  Yacatch the softness  lighting  glow   Haloes 

Oh  Now thaya mention it

    Then lemme say thi . .

. . Bout tha

smiled nodded This bout tha

                                  Hard      Alone 

Ja

              

We said  Ja

    Whas usually hard when Im alone

2049,  Tuesday,  24  6. 25

1044,  Saturday,  28  6. 25

Im fine Really

it was awfully dark

                     he stepped onto the landing outside the back door of the family room his shadowpushed by lamplight from inside rattled down several steps almost onto the courtyard pavers

                                                                                                         Ya fall?

Off the wall?

I answered I did  as I continued urinating

                                          hed remounted the short stone retaining wall he fell from

Are you okay?

I am

How’d ya fall?

still urinating

           The intercourse the climax of three reasons chuckled earlier they discussed the excuse for a reason an reasons for excuses

I jumpedup onto the wall

It’s dark.

    quit urinating

                   Im still high

Why’d ya jump? 

An Im a little drunk

Why did you jump . . in the dark?

Its not entirely dark Yasee the orange sliver of the moon through the trees

he looked

               It’s small.  It’s ochrecolored.

It ain’t throwin’ much light.

In my head it seemed brighterlighted things mor . .

. . Than it actually is.

   

                             Which isn’t much.

I said  seemed

But you’re okay.

Im okay I woudnt sue you if I werentwas my fault my misjudgmentya know wha they say Do not judge lest ye be I like tha   lest ye be

                                   Lest ye be judged

You sound high.

I said I was

Still?

Listen man youve a higher tolerance than me

                                                  Im tryin to keepup

Which is probablylikely  a fools errand

                                           End run   Round end    Leapedup  on the wall

Yakiddin me

No

Go

      Sometimes I bully myself 

An I cant stand bullies

I have no ideawhat to say.

                                But you’re okay?ya didn’t hit your head?

I did not

          Had no intention of havin you cleanup a mess hide the murder weapon undergo police interrogation

Stand trial

I mean, really, you didn’t hit your head?

No

    Almost sounds like you did.

I said I did not

                   You know how yasay sometimes I talk like text like Im high went Im not

Ya have no idea wha its like to try an rein me in

                                                    Youll recall the time I toldya  sometimes Id like to take my brain out put it in a box bury it for a few days

Take a break

I do.

 

Havent figured tha out yet

                              Though thanks for askin  Im fine

Really

 

round2100,  reggaefriday,  27  6. 25

0928,  Saturday,  28  6. 25

Pianza  Absent Haven  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0cIS0oMZSAE