creeping creepincloser to what he thinks hes doing

currently Chautauqua is his biddinghowever from The Metaphysical Club Louis Menard cats sharp  tossed Wissenschaft under his wheelshas no brakes

obviously German

looked it up

             literal translation transsalivation is Knowledgeship  Menard regarded it as pure learning knowledge for its own sake

for his own sake

                       thats what he does

those around him who do not do what he does are disturbed

                                                                 What are your reading?

Oh. when he shows them the cover so he doesnt waste his breath I thought you were reading the Bible, you were reading so intently.

No

     Book doesnt pique my interest  Unlike other philosophies

Thanks for askin though Why make enemies  Worse   Ignorant enemies    Capable of anything

You really think of people tha way

No  I think of ignorance tha way

                                    Unfortunately only Man beast is capable of blissful ignorance

Incorporated in their DNA

    Buddy ought to hear him now

                               According to him everything about human beings can be simmereddistilled into remanent DNA

he could lean revenant DNA but he was pretty sure tha wasnt a thing

    Bildung

Look at you  Bonedup on German again

                                            You have the floor  Carry on

You know bildung

No  But since were in the neighbourhood I suspect it has something to do with education  learning

Yes

      Holistic form of self-cultivation personal development encompassing intellectual moral growth

Ya think my morals need growing

                                     I woud concede intellectually

Your morals are welldeveloped

    If they were tits someone woud accuse me of plastique surgery

You understand plastique plastic explosives   is obsolete

look at me singlehandedly Im tryin to bring it back

                                                       Particularly regarding big artificial tits

Can you be serious

    Boring

2246,  Thursday,  26  6. 25

1559,  Saturday,  28  6. 25

    shebeen

                    awright  hed bite    Bruen agin turnin his head

“originally an illicit bar or club where alcoholic beverages were sold without a license"

    sounded like his kind of place

shebeen

           he was a hasbeen

a shoudhavebeen a wannabeen beenthabefore beenbeatup beenasshandedtohim beenkickeddownaflightofstairs

 

    beenluckierthanmost

he recalled a conversation not three weeks old

                                                     she asked if he believed in luck

Wha luck

Luck.

         I believe in luck.

Gimme an example where luck changed your life

                                                            Isnt one responsible for their life

Changed my life?

musing churned attractively in her face

That’s a little extreme, don’t you think?

    Isnt luck extreme

On wha continuum does it run

Continuum?

The description of the line it inhabits

                                        Random description maybe maybenot off the mark

Sanity  Insanity

Were all on the spectrum

    I’d . . I’d have to think about that.

Why shoudya have to think about when luck changed your life

Does luck have to change your life? 

I agree  Im being extreme

                             But Ive found if I couch   things  for lack of a better wordmaybe Ill come up with something else  If I couch things in the extreme theres no parsing its freakin evident  Even if ludicrous

    More easily understood

Wha luck

Offhand I can’t think of any . . . lifechanging . luck.

My names Joe

                  Buyya a drink

Saoirse.  Please. I’d like that.  Guinness, large Jay.

    Arya kiddin me

2334,  Thursday,  26  6. 25

1221,  Saturday,  28  6. 25

she said had she said to himhed have knocked her for a loop  on some rare occasions a woman needs to be straightened outhed seen women crack womenpull gouts of hair out which was freakinwicked

                                                                she said

literally purred it into his ear breath moist  warm   sweet sigh

                                                                      It must be hard,

feeling so alone.

 

Yawanna explain yourself

I gotta paint ya a picture    Yamiss the nuance

    It must be hard feeling so alone

                                        We imagin . .

. . More than one of you agree

I said  we

So I understand

                       Continue

Thank you nose bent

                          We imagine if someone were alonedidnt want to be alone It woud be hard  It woud be a hard thing

Gosh  Sympathetic

                        Empathic    Thoughtful

Youre mocking us

A little bit

    Had she exhibited  nuanc . .

. . Yamissed it

We missed it

 

See ifya can follow

                      She purred in his earcorrect

Yes

Her blouse was unbuttomed his head to her shoulder tilted toward her breast coud assume perfumed  the scene was a setup

                       Can we agree she was setting him up

We saw  Yes

a little irritated We say ja

    We thought if we broke norms ya might pay stricter  attention

Ja

   Thas whaya think  Thad be an errorbut were getting off track

A setup  Ja

conceded  

          Ja

Seductive scene

                  Yacatch the softness  lighting  glow   Haloes 

Oh  Now thaya mention it

    Then lemme say thi . .

. . Bout tha

smiled nodded This bout tha

                                  Hard      Alone 

Ja

              

We said  Ja

    Whas usually hard when Im alone

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1044,  Saturday,  28  6. 25

Im fine Really

it was awfully dark

                     he stepped onto the landing outside the back door of the family room his shadowpushed by lamplight from inside rattled down several steps almost onto the courtyard pavers

                                                                                                         Ya fall?

Off the wall?

I answered I did  as I continued urinating

                                          hed remounted the short stone retaining wall he fell from

Are you okay?

I am

How’d ya fall?

still urinating

           The intercourse the climax of three reasons chuckled earlier they discussed the excuse for a reason an reasons for excuses

I jumpedup onto the wall

It’s dark.

    quit urinating

                   Im still high

Why’d ya jump? 

An Im a little drunk

Why did you jump . . in the dark?

Its not entirely dark Yasee the orange sliver of the moon through the trees

he looked

               It’s small.  It’s ochrecolored.

It ain’t throwin’ much light.

In my head it seemed brighterlighted things mor . .

. . Than it actually is.

   

                             Which isn’t much.

I said  seemed

But you’re okay.

Im okay I woudnt sue you if I werentwas my fault my misjudgmentya know wha they say Do not judge lest ye be I like tha   lest ye be

                                   Lest ye be judged

You sound high.

I said I was

Still?

Listen man youve a higher tolerance than me

                                                  Im tryin to keepup

Which is probablylikely  a fools errand

                                           End run   Round end    Leapedup  on the wall

Yakiddin me

No

Go

      Sometimes I bully myself 

An I cant stand bullies

I have no ideawhat to say.

                                But you’re okay?ya didn’t hit your head?

I did not

          Had no intention of havin you cleanup a mess hide the murder weapon undergo police interrogation

Stand trial

I mean, really, you didn’t hit your head?

No

    Almost sounds like you did.

I said I did not

                   You know how yasay sometimes I talk like text like Im high went Im not

Ya have no idea wha its like to try an rein me in

                                                    Youll recall the time I toldya  sometimes Id like to take my brain out put it in a box bury it for a few days

Take a break

I do.

 

Havent figured tha out yet

                              Though thanks for askin  Im fine

Really

 

round2100,  reggaefriday,  27  6. 25

0928,  Saturday,  28  6. 25

Pianza  Absent Haven  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0cIS0oMZSAE

he liked to pick on hershe knew  because she insisted she wasnt religiousbut was the first to leap to religions defence

                   to date her classic from yet another bumper sticker It’s not a religion; it’s a relationship.

You tellem Sis

                   called her Sis as she had an I and an S in her name because a friend who introduced them was in the habit of either shortening peoples names or giving them nicknames

evidently a lifelong endeavor

                                         disliked the word  the cool kids in high school signed senior yearbooks with an impersonal Lots of luck in your future endeavors.

who was the cunt that thought that one up

    S  I  S mocking him

Sis  I was reading Amusing Ourselves to Death by Neil Postman

                                                                     In it he cited Henry Coswell who in 1839 wrote he was holding Jonathan Edwards 1746 up for ridiculethank Gawd if you know religion you know Edwards you know Arthur Millers 1953 play The Crucible which compared Americas Communist Red Scare to the Salem witchcraft trials of 1692  they werent only held in Salem but also Ipswich Gloucester Andover Methuen other communities

    Tell me Im not swingin an missin  

Coswell wrote I quote Religious mania is said to be the prevailing form of insanity in the United States.

I like tha I like tha an awful lot Religion paired with insanity

                                                                  I must admit either another versus an obsession of mine as you know or another bending of a continuum up or down as some might consider religion  reasonable

 

Sis

What do you expect from me?

Nothing regarding history

                              Your consideration of Coswell regarding his observation of midEighteenth Century Edwards

Or 1692

          Preceding in America before America

Witches an warlocks succubi an incubi Ohmy

                                                   Lions an tigers an bears roll off the tongue more easily

A defence

 

Nothing

    Aww Sis   Youre lettin me down

Saturday afternoon,  14  6. 25

1219,  reggaefriday,  27  6. 25

they were going to meet for coffee in the cityhadnt met in kind for better than half a year

                                                                                               usually took coffee at one or the others house

they were streetching out

 

as the bus was pullingup he was taking it south buddy phoned

                                                                           Ja

Say. I’ve invited two friends for coffee. Turned out they were also going to be in the city.

When did you know

A few days ago.

It woud have been nice if you asked

Asked?

          I figured you’d be cool.

You figured

                 You understand thas rude

 

 

Bus is here Ill be there  Hanginup

You’re taking a bus.

I am

 

    he arrived last

they hadnt waited had their coffees before them

thought A different breed

as one reached for his cup he interrupted him extended his hand to shake welcome

                                                                                        Stan  Joe  Weve met before

I don’t recall. Surprise

turned to the other Mike  Long time no see

Hello Joe.

shook buddys hand

Gents youll excuse me Headin in for a cup

turning to the shop he saw hed have to negotiate several tables filled with coeds to get to the door

thought Fuckin guys  Gonna be congested loud  conversations minimised  distracted

                                                                                                 All because

 

he returned with his black coffee in a ceramic mug

they were drinking from paper cups

conversation was stilted was interrupted by assumed surreptitious Wouldya look. leer was more like it  the three would look as a shapely coed arrived or one seated slapped the textbook before her sat up tall streetched her arms up then bent her elbowshands behind her head  held the pose aware of them  giving the old men a thrill

he thought These guys

he relaxed enjoyed his Harrar only place he found it listened to them share stories high school days off to college fraternities they joined brothers they made

                                                       alien to him

it was cool

    he smiled when they laughed

 

before the gang brokeup he shared an insight

                                                 If I coud he hadnt said throughout coffee Its occurred to me they were getting to their feet age is attracted to youth inclined his head to the tables of coeds as vampires are to blood

buddy butthurt asked

                      What do you mean by that crack?

Gotta go or Ill miss my bus

                                Gents

1420,  Thursday,  26  6. 25

1008,  reggaefriday,  27  6. 25

he liked to flirt with temptation

                                    slowly run his handshis fingers down her sides  cradlecup her fanny

listen to their breathing rise

anticipation in their groins

spit gathering  in the corners of their mouths

    the wholewhile in the liquor aisle

                                           looking coylyup at the cameras

whos watchingtouching themselves

                                     toying with their cocksleanin their cunts on the handle of a wobbly cart

rhythmically

dont try to tell him

                    hes worked years in liquor stores in five different states across the country

a real professional

                    knew the game inside outbut  one thing management couldnt make him do was view surveillance camera screens

he preferred pressing flesh

catching people in the act

 

 

  Temptation

he quit drinking

                   still adores the feelingweight of glassbottled liquor  their colour     shapes

rounded

phallic

    how can one not like the warmpromise of liquid inebriation lingering inside

    

1420,  Thursday,  26  6. 25

1847,  Thursday

a silence fell between them

                                  he knew what he was thinking   not her

there hadnt been anything contentious

but from postures

facial expressions

they went through doors across the hall from each other   thoughtfully

    they looked at each other  placidnot antagonistic

smiles mixedmused their faces

even musing her dimples flickered deliciously

 

So

      he spoke wasnt fond of so

Yes.   she chuckled

                       Ja.

Sawbuck for your thoughts

    A sawbuck?

Worth every penny

How generous.

No

     Im blatantlytryin to bribe you

You don’t have to be so extravagant.

Evidently ja  I got words rollin again

                                             Your thoughts

The money.

             pushed back in the chairhips slippedforward stuffed his hand into a front pocket produced a wad of folded bills Makes me look hung unfoldedfeatheredem small bills without  plucked a tenspot  halvedem again stuffedem back in his pocket shiveredback  satupright held the bill out to her between his fingers

          The money

You're legit.

Moneys where the mouth is

                                  Speak

I wasn’t thinking anything specific.

I put you off

You always put me off.

                            Why I keep coming back.

You?

 

Take a breath

A breath.

Versus

    You have an obsession withem.

Ja  Still

              Remember the continuum bends either up or down  their extremes near each other

I do.

I was thinkingot ahold of your panties

My panties?   You think I need to?

They come off Im not givinem back

her turn  she slithered forward in the chair unbuttoned a couplethree buttons slipped her thumbs indexfingers inside the waistband  pinched

                                              Gotem.

A good grip

As good as I can get pinchin elastic

    God   The Divil

her jaw dropped

1410,  Thursday,  26  6. 25

1745,  Thursday