AGAIN

       stubborn Microsoft WORD insists it knows better than him what he wrote 

reason why he disabled Spell Check on his smartphone

                                                             it aint smarter than him

wrote half an inch as haf inch then merged them hafinch (did it again) which all-knowing all-seeing faultily-omniscient WORD “corrected” to hawfinch

                                      Whadadfucks a hawfinch

    Googled it

exists

       is a type of finch distributed in the whole of Europe Eastern Asia “Paleartic? in North Japan” North Africa “Morocco Tunisia Algeria”

    Paleartic

               “a zoogeographical region comprising Eurasia north to the Himalayas, together with North Africa and the temperate part of the Arabian peninsula.”

hawfinch

           a large finch of impressive proportions  eighteen cm tall  enormous conical bill  thick neck and head to match

Fantastic

learned something new everyday

                                    but

he lives in North America

his computer is registered in America

so why change his hafinch (did it again) to hawfinch

yes

     those who are willing to let machines have their way with them social media unwilling to vet suspicious – no one suspects no ones sceptical – posts and articles

Dont want to work that hard?

machines and those behind them and those who benefit from users ignorance are going to have their way

hear Whore

             ought to take a goodlook in a mirror or a reflective business windowpane

  

1038,  2sday,  12  11. 24

https://www.wildlifetrusts.org/visit/where-see-wildlife/where-see-winter-wildlife/where-see-hawfinch#:~:text=The%20hawfinch%20is%20our%20largest,to%20a%20few%20remaining%20strongholds.

thoughtfulnessmindfulness put spurs to him  always have

                                                                 thats how he arrived fresh from the womb

though he couldnt begin to say how cautiously he moved in life

                                                                   deliberately small taste by small taste

his younger brother and sister rode twowheelers before he did

learned to swim before he did

    he had reason

                     was badgeredharassed for being lefthanded made him hesitant   made him stutter 

righties have no clue

theyre status quo

he didnt have scissors not school desks not baseball gloves  not shit

                                                                           he had to learn to be ambidextrous

had 66 cousins

was the only lefthander

not one of his fourteen aunts and uncles  not one of this huge extended family

                                                                                       easily was one of a hunred

 

his grandmother tied his hand closed when his Mom left him with her

she returned earlier than expected one day and hailed Hell on her mother

teachers

           were disgusted  unforgiving

did their damnedest to flip him

                                   forgetting

they couldnt flip a brain

but when he finally caughtup  became unbound

                                                      his stuttering ceased he became confident

and encouraged he learned how to ride learned how to swim 

in a new school they moved  WENT   CRAZY

                                                   yet

his thoughtfulness mindfulness remained intact

he learned there were a thousand or more phoneapps computer sites promoting it

                                                                                       his daughter told him

she admitted she had several

needed them to remind her

    his heart ached

wondered if he hadnt let her down

how something so ingrained in him didnt present to her

                                                           he taught by actions  not words

    he apologised

Don’t. I saw. I did.  Was so effortless for you.

                                                 Always work for me. You’re lucky, Dad.

Run with it.

1627,  Monday – Armistice Day,  11  11. 24

1229,  2sday,  12  11. 24

he threw the boneswere playing backgammon

                                                   Acey Deucey! Yeah!

move a piecepieces one space then two spaces then any doubles four moves and throw again

he scrutinised the board

was being beaten badly

 

    he stood

                I’ll be right back.

Christ whereya goin

Going to move my bowels.

Whereya movinem to

HAR HAR.

Wanna take the board with you or woud tha constipate ya Facin a big move

                                                                                  On the board

Don shit on the board

HAR HAR.

Youre so easily entertained

                              Regrettin ya used the doubling cuberegretting your hubris

My hubris!

            You didn't hesitatedoubled it again immediately. I gotta go.

Board

Fackno.

Think shits backed up into your brain

                                          FUCK NO Whaswid fack

Go

I’m gone.

while he was in the bathroom

                                he thought to read Your Inner Fish Neil Shubin mebbe Roddy Doyles The Woman Who Walks Into Doors

                   nixedem

instead went over to the puzzle  difficult madeup of triangular pieces inspired  made moredifficult because of his catsDOWN he had been losing his voice barking atem whenever he took the hafinch plywood off somehow was like crack to the cats

                   uncovered it stealthilythey werent even in the room

had hoped they werent crazy for the vinyl he playedBAM all four right there asif he had gonged a dinner bellSTAY AWAY

asif cats listened

                    asif they understood English  wondered what language they did understand  hed learn it

HELL WID IT

                  covered it with the plywood  returned to the bookshelves

Bermans Holding the Line

                             picked it up  sat with the backgammon game 

he knew crappers move if crapper were smart  he knew crappers throw after the doubles would expose him and on his turn hed pick up the blot place it on the bar and itd languish there for several turns

                                                                                        he was uncanny when it came to tossing dice  on too many occasions hes called beforehand what he would throw

PISSed opponents off

    Hmm

              maybe he did move his bowels    

1012,  2sday,  12  11. 24

Origen Adamantius     Awfully adamant

                                              Ever hear of him cocked his head

No. Can’t even pronounce his name what again?

Origen  Like origin cept the second I is an E

Awright.

Adamantius

Heck of a name. Guessing old school.

Truly

        Since finding out about him I refer to him as the Man of Steel

Man of Steel. Lookin’ to piss Superman off?

Oh  I think hed agree with me no upset probably break a sweat compassionate as he seems to be

                                                                                                        TVs Superman informs me

And comicbooks.

An not

Whadaya mean and not?

Didnt read comics growingup

                               Once borrowed two from a friend an my Maw shreddedem Told Tim wha happened Id replaceem he told me I coudnt older issues an defriended me

Walked out of a room if I came in

Only literature in our house

Jeez.

       But ah, what about the science fiction you talk so fondly of?

Hidem in the garage widda Playboys

                                         Scifi were to me as comics were to you

Playboys?  How?

Connexions

              So before ya get too roused Origen Adamantius Man of Steel  Bet hell cool your jets

Really? How so?

Get a load of this

                       Cat castrated himself

Took Matthew literally Chapter nineteen Verse twelv . .

. . How do you know that?

Occasionally I drop in on the Bible Crucifiction   Tells good tales

                                                                     Good for a chuckle

Why I spend time during catechism kneelin on broomsticks

Jeezus.

Yahanyway Gospel of Matthew describes men who get this I quote Make themselves eunuchs for the kingdom of heavencant make this shit up But to be fair people then were closer to the Churchs beginning an desperately ignorant

Coudnt read

              Thas why all leaders like ignorant people psychopaths sociopaths tha they are  Can cow can herd can manipulate

Origen Adamantius took one smiled wryly two for the team

Jeez. Ah.  Ya vet?

Yaknow it

            Early church historian Eusebius of Caesarea after Caesar perhaps capital of Israel major Roman seaport He was an exegete expounder of scripture regarded as one of the most learned Christian during late antiquity Died 339 CE Common Era Current Era not AD After Death

    Man of Steel.

Yabetcha

Thursday,  20  2. 14

1126,  Monday – Armistice Day,  11  11. 24

https://inpress.lib.uiowa.edu/feminae/DetailsPage.aspx?Feminae_ID=32094#:~:text=The%20early%20church%20historian%20Eusebius,(Matthew%2019%3A12).

Paul Tillich

             Man can hardly escape the fate of becoming a thing among the things he produces, a bundle of conditioned reflexes without a free, deciding, responsible self. The immense mechanism, set up by man to produce objects for his use, transforms himself into an object used by the same mechanism of production and consumption.

FUCK

       how come when he looks in the mirror to shave hes not that ugly

maybe hes not looking hard enough

                                                    maybe

he had some humility  a matter of havingholding himself in perspective

                                                                                   maybe

definitely didnt like the label Thing

knew some Things 

who happily submitted to being manipulated

 

 

Thanksgiving.

Yah

You’re coming.

No

Come on.

I told you no

               Whamadeya think Id reverse myself

No means no

    You’ll disappoint me.

Youll deal with it

Come on . .

. . Their your blood Im related only by marriage

                                                    I don suffer fools

What am I supposed to tell them?you’re gonna be missed.

Wishem a happy Thanksgiving for me

    So when is this . . . animosity going away?

Disappointment

                   Profound disappointment

Im fine wont be missing out

Joe . . .

Enjoy your family

early this century

0958,  Monday – Armistice Day,  11  11. 24

https://aeon.co/essays/my-grandfather-paul-tillich-the-unbelieving-theologian

I suffer

    sympathetically  What’s wrong?

Im Gods left hand

                      He uses me to wipe his ass

Thursday,  20  2. 14

2044,  Sunday,  10  11. 24

Evanescence  Bring Me To Life  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3YxaaGgTQYM

frankly

           as bountiful as she was  she was only worth a pensee

had he told her pensee

she wouldnt have understood

too young

             an he  too old to be teased

not thathowever apparently   either cared

    they were mutually humoured

Tatas

like plump melons

There you are.  Can’t hide from me.

in a library aisle unseen

Christ  If I was fourteen

afternoon,  Saturday,  9  11. 24

1928,  Sunday,  10  11. 24

Michael Jackson  Dirty Diana  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yUi_S6YWjZw

was he a romantic

he thought he was

                                 however

seems according to many  he was too strict

                                                One strike an youre out

It’s three. Three.

Too generous

               Three times too generous

I said I do not suffer fools

                             An youd not only suffer them three times  but four   but five times

Thas not romantic

                    Thas slavish  a doter    He she who confuses doting with loving

Whose ass will be taken advantage of

                                            Romantic

I think not

When I was in high school a girljeering would hold up her handfist formed except   except for her little finger extended as I would defiantly flip a bird

                                   Wrapped around my little finger.

Gosh  how very fucking romantic

One does not debase themselves

                                    Yaseem disoriented

    You’re such a prick.

Which rationally    would fall into the orb of being romantic  eventually

                                                                              Id rather you call me tongue

Cuts its way to a womans heart

1843,  Sunday,  10  11. 24

Azam Ali  In Other Worlds  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2AlA9FMHXqE

I think, therefore I am.

                          Descartes’  Cogito, ergo sum

I don’t want to, therefore I can’t.

                                    Me

    by the way

                  he wasnt speaking of himself

1353,  Sunday,  10  11. 24

berserker   nice to see again

                                 offered by writer China Mieville

What do you call that? Billy thought. That reconstitutitive intelligence, berserker meme-splicing, seeing in nothing’s first pattern, then correspondence, then causality and dissident sense.

Paranoid, (Billy) said.  Theology.

    We are dealing with fanatics. And fanatics are always experts.

made perfect sense to him

                             paranoid theology fanatics  doesnt matter what crayoncoloured a religion is zealots are exactly alike and hate and kill each other for that

                                                     theres only one true religion

Assholes

    religion is nothing more than a philosophy no Torah Christian Holy Bible Qur’an  theyre buttering the same piece of toast

       ig-magnanimous Man  ig-  NOT magnanimous

sample  ignotus  from which ignorant ignorance was spawned

etymology  Latin ignotus from i – gnotus  notus KNOWN   past participle  gnoscere  noscere  TO KNOW

if he could follow anyone could

berserkers

             they think they’ve got something going on  YOUR BODY, MY CHOICE!

misogynists

he was confident if they fucked with his daughters the best they could hope to come away with was missing fingers

he had them trained in knifefighting

saw down the road

                      it stunk   even off in the far distance   foetid

if fingers

          he hoped there were hungry dogs around

that might be wishing too much

                                  but what the fuck

what else are wishes for

    kinda berserking in his own lesslethal way

written on a page dated 22March 2016, so afterwards

123preferred,  Sunday,  10  11. 24

https://www.msnbc.com/all-in/watch/-your-body-my-choice-women-enraged-by-emboldened-maga-misogynists-223996485867

The same delusion of mistaking irreverence for ignorance makes people confuse scepticism for nihilism.

not his words

               has no idea who deserves credit

but not his

    wherever he found it also unusual he didnt note time or day or date beside it he also had written paintings don’t mean anything, but they have meaning.

                                    possibly his

it lacked quotation marks which he usually applies so to be sure not to take credit

however

           he usually noted time or day or date

might have been an offday for him

    which is offsetting  uncomfortable

he makes the bed every morning after she gets up or if he has slept alone

                                                                               routine

habit

habitchualisedHIS

                     for habitualised

beneath paintings he scribbled he was definitely in a hurry ICONOCLAST

                                                                            ICON NO CLASP

no veneration

                nope  none

nothing he venerates 

a word he seldom uses

                           like profound

knows them because he is literate

but rarely uses them

they would infer a state of mind that he also   rarely inhabits

    he couldnt help but wonder what the hell was going on that day

whenever

0954,  Sunday,  10  11. 24

he stumbled onto Peters et al. Delusions Inventory while consideringcontemplating a waxed Premium soda cracker wrapper

           waxed cracker wrapper spun him up  phonaesthetics

a straw to lay across Tolkiens camels back

erode cellar door

he was unfolding it gently cajoling it to come apart without tearing ohso fixed an deliberate

                                                                                                 an out of nowhere

corner of his eye

PDI appearedgrew PDI PDI PDI PDI

                             hated here hed allow hate rather than his usual detest with extreme prejudice or the wonderful shorthand of abhor second syllable emphasised acronyms  an since he owned it it was in his eye he had to discover what it was before it blotted out the vision in that eye

ogled Google

found an Abstract

                    “Purpose: The Peters et al. Inventory (PDI – there it is!) is a commonly used instrument to measure delusion proneness in the general population and includes dimensions that measure distress, preoccupations, and convictions of unusual beliefs.”

    convicted of unusual beliefs

                                    America was crawlingmaggot-infested social media devotees who sucked up disinformation misinformation propaganda like a babe at a tit

believed the drivel

believed before vetting

woeful eejits

               an proud of it

they seem to celebrate the ignorant an their own

                                                   Christ

made him retch

    “. . . delusion proneness in the general population . . .”

Fool me once shame on you  fool me twice shame on me

he was hard to fool

                      someone would have to manically work rational arguments in to support their horseshit

sceptical

          he could smell its scent a mile off

an his nose had been broken four times

   

2134,  Saturday,  19  3. 22

1524,  Saturday,  9  11. 24

Peters et al. Delusions Inventory  https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/10478789/ & https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/10212739/ & https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/7659601/

https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/21861160/#:~:text=Purpose%3A%20The%20Peters%20et%20al,been%20translated%20into%20several%20languages.

https://www.pewresearch.org/short-reads/2024/10/16/republicans-young-adults-now-nearly-as-likely-to-trust-info-from-social-media-as-from-national-news-outlets/

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC4778911/

Bush’s fool  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hl7FKfl3O2Y

Moody Blues  The Story In Your Eyes  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-9Zr440nXe8

    Rebecca Wilkin

he was going to pilfer her words which were incited by Madame Louise Dupin a wealthy French feminist philosopher of the Eighteenth Century who hired Jean-Jacques Rousseau as her secretary for six years

“Masculine vanity builds a world according to its fantasies, then rewrites the past to its specifications.”

Madame Dupin popped a pretty red cherry atop that disgusting sundae  her thesis “. . . what subsists now against women is the accumulated injustice of several centuries” committed her to an analysis of that process

Rousseau after his employment wrote                                        

                                         “Such was, or must have been, the origin of society and laws, which gave new fetters to the weak and new forces to the rich, destroyed natural freedom for all time, established forever the law of property and inequality,” and “changed a clever usurpation into an irrevocable right.”

he chose these words expounded them separately to help family and friends through letters emails to sharpen hone understand the farce this recent stoked scrounging masculinity was

                                                                       rarely meeting one he liked

they brayed flexed were overt to attract attention they were desperate for

true masculine is authentic

                              it simply is

it needs no glossing heralding it is an assured quietude distinct by its appearance  its presence alone

masculinity cannot be conferred

                                   rather inborn  cultivated    either got it or you dont

morning,  Thursday,  7  11. 24

1155,  Saturday,  9  11. 24

https://aeon.co/essays/inequality-was-a-feminist-idea-before-it-was-rousseaus

Again please whadyasay

Marfan’s.

Marfads

No. Marfan’s.

Spell it

M A R F A N apostrophe S.

An N not a D

Correct.

Ah  I also heardtripped off on marzipan zip however is one of three syllables anya only uttered two

                                                                                                          Marzipan hungup in my ears botching whaya actually said

And

And?

I don know wha it is

You don’t know Marfan’s?

Never heard of it

You’re kiddin’ me.

If its some family ailment tha informed you my family is bound by heart disease an cancer

                                                                                               Wha is it

It’s a genetic disorder.

Inherited

Correct. It changes proteins that help make healthy connective tissue which support organs, muscles, bones, tissues.

Tha sounds fucked up

                          Somebody didnt choose their parents well

What?

Wha  Now you cant hear me correctly

                                         Choose their parents

Choose their parents?

Yah

You didn’t choose your parents.

Evidently you didnt if marzipan runs in your family

                                                      Too sweet for me  Tha an pralines didnt like how they presented nibbled spat Christ Gawdawful

Jesus, would you keep to the point.

Seems self-explanatory due diligence

                                         I did you didnt

How?

Where is more appropriate

                            Standing in line before conception saw if I chose my folks Id be first born an have all the topshelf merchandise I wanted    Ill admit thawas the first an only time Ive been greedy

I hogged it

            Cant say why my siblings choseem Maybe they saw the folks were very attractive an at least theyd be attractive too they are

                          Were all goodlookin kids

Me goodlookin widda goods

You‘re so full of shit.

    An you have marzipan

approaching 5PM,  Thursday,  7  11. 24

0959,  Saturday,  9  11. 24

https://www.niams.nih.gov/health-topics/marfan-syndrome#:~:text=Marfan%20syndrome%20is%20a%20genetic,and%20tissues%20in%20your%20body.