he was gone awhile

was an amazing time

now back  (out) to  (in)  the Real World in Real Time https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IViXvcmdKB4 for whaever real is worth

           real  visiblyglitches in an out like a lousy cellphone connexion

a fine indication of how phenomenal a time he had reeling through familyfamilyfamily an friendsfriendsfriends

he laughs

               he can only manage it once a year for a week 

                                                                otherwise

hed overdose

not an ugly death

                    no contortions rubberspinespasms defying gymnastics an gravity

no vulgar brayed annihilatedexhorts no soul coud understand

no sputteringgasping breath

just OD

        OhDarn an death

    once a year is sufficient

                              an heartbreaking

an memorable

an no photographphotographs can capture or relate

a surrealreal

               once a year

now

      back from the hallucinations

when he closed his eyes  slept

                                 he dreamt a fine mist gentle shower arching fountains of rubyred blood  Busby Berkeley coudnt have fashioned it finer  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eSHGVDuS4fE

 

hes back

           for whaever thas worth

earliestAM,  day-between-2-Ts,  25  9. 24

1152,  day-between-2-Ts

Buffalo Springfield  For What It’s Worth  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=80_39eAx3z8

Gang  tossup between

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0LwcvjNJTuM

an

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pyq3PUTnpd0

Peace

       backatcha day-between-2-Ts  25Sep

2013,  Monday,  16  9. 24

2nd attempt

                that he didnt write second attempt ought to be telling  three times a charm

cant duck a punch that wasnt thrown

former incites violence

blowbacks a bitch

2056,  Monday,  16  9. 24

PS  only scars on formers mug are old acne scars

Faack  Lousy eBooks

                        them and audiobooks frost his fanny

I just read a really good book.

Really  Wha Who

I can’t remember the title just now.

The author I may be familiar

    I don’t recall. they thought hard looked like it hurt

Really

        When did you finish it

Threemaybe four days ago.

Thas recent  Anya cant remember

No. It was an audiobook.

You didnt read a book You listened

                                         Excuse me all to Hell  Tha aint readin

in his ears in a cadence similar to the Wizard of Oz  eBooks an audiobooks an Kindle iPad Ohmy 

Christ

the Faack belonged to the fact that he went online to see if his local library had a copy of F O Matthiessens 1941 American Renaissance: Art and Expression in the Age of Emerson and Whitman

                                                                                     he read it last in 2006

found two quotes hed scribbled in a notebook from then  June28  which made him salivatewant to read it again

butNO

         the butNo read more appropriately as butt fucked

William James

                “The craving of the heart to believe that behind Nature there was a spirit whose expression Nature is . . .”

Nathaniel Hawthorne of Melville

                                  “It is strange how he persists . . . in wandering to-and-fro these (theological) deserts . . . he can neither believe nor be comfortable in his unbelief; and he is too honest and courageous not to try to do one or the other . . . He has a very high and noble nature, and better worth immortality than the rest of us.”

corner of the notebook page he wrote Moody   Bus

    he felt moody now

didnt want to drop sixty dollars to purchase a copy of his own he niggled himselfdidnt look it up but supposed if he did hed find it in eBook form obscenely less expensive

FAACK

1047,  Monday,  16  9. 24

 

Question

Man.  You’re on a tear.

I takem as they come an equal opportunity asker of those who choose to present themselves

They choose.

    Nice face

                    They choose I toldya no ownership

You take no credit.

None

        A vessel

That’s a cheap out.

Not really

           Ive often toldya it feels like dictation

Your writing, yes. But this is asking, posing.

Anya see a difference

I do.

Face  Again

                   Youd admit our brains work differently

No doubt.

Youd admit Im a creative

I’m no slough, I’m creative too.

Though unlike my creativity unlike my ability to dream remember them manipulate them struggle knowing if something is a memorytrue memory of wha Ive lived or was a dream or a fiction fabrication I madeup

    True

Yes.

Thank you

           he held his hand up to his head rapidly turned his indexfinger roundanround opposite his temple

Understand its white matter

Ive an obvious abundance

Ifya say.

Ifya doubt me why don you play with your iPhone an find out

                                                                  Im happy to wait  I have patience

No. That’s okay. For the sake of argument I’ll take you at your word.

Know me to blow smoke up your ass

    No.

Don wanna work tha hard

What the hell, what’s your point?

Wasnt a point

                 A question

Yes.  Correct.  Another question.

                                    What?

How flatteredto wha degree  how flattered does someone have to be to fuck

                                                                                  Yasee the flummoxed parallel

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2159,  Sunday,  15  9. 24

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/dream-factory/201809/brain-anatomy-relates-frequency-recalling-dreams

Ive got a question

Is it legitimate?

Please

Please?

           How often are your questions legit?

Thoughtfuls legit

    Thoughtful?  Man, you give yourself a wide berth.

Not necessarily

                 If it occurs tha shoud be sufficient

They only occurs to you.

You don know tha

                     I believe otherwise

That belief is your defense.

Whell howbout we use your wellused affable a laugh  deeppockets indulgence  Yacant prove a negative

If it occurs to me its occurred to others I take no claim of authorship ownership

Jesus.  Alright.

                  Your question.

Thank you

            Flummoxed  Youre familiar

I am.

Bewildered Perplexed

                            Agree

I agree.

Awright My question

                        How flummoxedto wha degree how flummoxed must one be to readily admit theyre fucked

That’s your question?

Beaut huh

1429,  Reggaefriday the 13th,  Sep, ’24

1941,  Sunday,  15  9. 24

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I thinkI know . . you’re wrong.

Maybemaybe but its so entertaining I coud give two shits

Come on. You’d really let that stan . .

. . Yabet yer sweet ass

                            Wha is it

I’m not sure but I know it’s not that.

So not surenot sure  youre more than willing to be dismissive call ballsanstrikes

It’s not that.

Awright bigmouth all ears

                                Wha is it

It’s not that.

All ears

         Put up or shaddup

    It’s not that.

Too much love in all the wrong places

                                       he snickered   Young female singer stealsowns it  so many people woud dig those lyrics

I woud

1429,  Reggaefriday the 13th,  Sep, ’24

1833,  Sunday,  15  9. 24

Johnny Lee  Lookin’ For Love  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8mxIHL6d-RM

Jefferson Starship  Sweeter Than Honey  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=brFm0piYSaE

Nauh nauh don’t do that don’t do that.

                                          they were walking over a fast river on a stone bridge  posts at intervals electrified lamps atop

Dowha

What you’re going to do.

Yaknow wha Im gonna do

I do you do.  Don’t.

                     You’ve had too much to drink.

I can swim

If you survive the fall.

Awballs

         he broke into a run an leaptup onto the broad stonerail beside a post leapt again an going over the edge grasped the post swungbodily over the river an onto the rail again

Motherfucker.

Like I was going to miss

                            I can swim

Get down.

Arya my mother

Getdown.

Killjoy

Get the fuck down.

Yah

     started tothen reversed leaptgripped the pole againinverted wrapped his legs sliddown the pole ducked his skull soft onto his shoulders

                             Help me down  Please

helping  Fuckyou.

Thank you

You’re welcome.

Yaknow wha

You’re insane?

Odds were in my favour

I’ve seen you throw yourself into fights when they weren’t.

Aah  but you had my back we had the element ofSURPRISE

                                                                 Never knew wha hitem

he shrugged   At best  Mad

They mean the same thing.

Mads short Succinct

                      Yaknow wha  If youll let me return to my train of thought

You’re freighted train?

Burdened

You said it, not me.

Ill agree

          Yaknow what Id like to do

No.  Not now.

               Tell me.

Id like to park my brain for a whilewalkaway leave it for a bit

                                                                  Sppose Id wander aimlessly without the ability to think

Visuals might be interestingconversation fascinating

Park your brain.

Yah

        While you were helping me down know wha I was thinkin since you were so sharpfucking surgical scalpel on the bridge  Know

    No.

I was thinking about Socrates  has to drink hemlockhe says to the bartender  Put a head on it man  I was thinking Plato refused to write tha in Phaedo guy teaches Aristotlebetcha he didnt share tha with him  I was thinking  at least I have confidence Plato wrote it because he could an the four gospels of the apostles Matthew Mark Luke John Moe Larry Curly ShempThree Stooges plus one nepo did not write their words  took a hunredfifty years before the first appeared  Church denied Thomas gospel  Gnostic

Zenos paradox half is half is half is half never to arrive Tortoise an the Hare

    Thawas wha I was thinking

Park it

Thad be nice

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1508,  Saturday,  14  9. 24

I know you’ve said but I gotta tell you that I’d also love to see your personnel file, which, from what you’ve said, must be fat, voluminous.

As I was made to believe  Yes

And they didn’t fire you.

It was suggested a few times thathey management were considering it

                                                                           Twice I can remember rapping on a doorentering without waiting for a reply I had a bus to catch home  I need to know if Im coming into work tomorrow  Have a decision

May have sounded like chopchop

So why do you think you weren’t fired, that you finished out your job when the business finally closed its doors, was taken possession of?

I did my job My work was impeccable

                                            While an ass I was a significant asset

You weren’t management.

No I was invited to apply for management positions that it believed I was well suited for but I did not

Why not? Why wouldn’t you want to build your resume?

Career

What do you mean?

I didnt want a career

                       When I declined to pursue those occupations I reminded them thaif I was in management a glass house  I had to play by the rules   I coudnt throw rocks

I really liked to throw rocks

Wasn’t fired.

Never expected to be I mean they could have but they didnt

                                                                 I was invaluable  Irreplaceable

When you know tha  knowing tha is powerful

    I don’t know that.

Were you replaceable

I was replaceable.

Cog

While I hate to admi . .

. . Yacoud say dislike dislike with extreme prejudice

Works for me

I hate to admit it. I was.

                             wistful  I still can’t believe you got away with what you got away with.

Let me put it this way

                        Imagine a galvanised metal washtub a balia A huge watermelon in it  Ice  Water   Waters nearly to the lip

Im the watermelon

You’re the watermelon.

Yes  Tub balia the confines of the companys functions responsibilities the water an ice its workings

Now imagine Im removed

The water an ice tha remains doesnt fill a quarter of the tub

A good analogy

You were a big watermelon.

Huge

1400,  reggaefriday the 13th,  Sep, ’24

1227,  Saturday,  14  9. 24

he yelled to friend as he crossed the yard to where they had setup some chairs and a table between them to place their drinks on iPhone says

                             Why is your iPhone always saying

I think it’s the umm yaknow onboard aah algorithms.

Your social media ventures

Yes. Exactly.

               Which you know absolutely nothing about.

Correct

         Take the Wittgenstein Fifth

Fifth?

Whereof thereof

Ah, gotcha.

Wha got you

A geology site reached out to me. Did you know that the Sierra Nevadas are batholithic, they’re intruded igneous rock.

Intruded

           Versus  extruded

Yes. Stayed inside the earth. It rose but stopped, remained below the surface, for example, granite, then exposed when the earth weathered away, versu . .

. . Its opposite Extruded Came out of the earth

                                                      Deduction

Site share anything else youd like to make known

Similar to granite, granodiorite, differing only by containing more calcium and sodium feldspar.

    Gran odior ite

Yes.

Know whatha triggers in my head

Do I want to know?

I think you ought to guess before you know

Guess before I know.

                       Which means I have no choice.

Exactly

         Exactly the choices you give me when your phone badgers you

It doesn . .

. . It does

             Youre slavish to itsnaps its fingersJUMP    How high

No.

You an it are inseparable

                             Wheres mine

In your car.

At home

         When AT&T shut me downsqueezed me out of affording my landline the cell replaced it

Its my house phone

Luddite.

Lewddite

             Granodiorite

Makes me think gran granular granddiarrhea a slurry of shit earth weathers rockhard turd

    I am corrected. Lewddite confirmed.

Appreciate tha but so you can think better of me  Fact   The Rosetta Stone is a stele made of granodiorite

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1121,  Saturday,  14  9. 24

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You’re ramblin’.

I am

       I am a ramblin man yaoughta try it some time

No, I don’t think so.

   Too lineardid well in geometry  Think youre reasonable

Contrary. Unreasonable. Oftimes irascible.

Look at us fingerpainting pictures

                                     You like representable figurative art photography

I adore abstract  Utterly subjective

No argument there.

Never is Not an argument a discussion conversation Not zero-sum non zero-sum  win-win

You believe that?

I do

Then why do you get heated?

Youre structured boxed-in

                             Just tryin to breakdown a few walls expose ya to whas outside

If youd care to look

If I cared to look don’t you think I would on my own accord.

Accord  Agreement   Conformity

No

     If something does not comport to your wha  ideals ideas youd rather not look

So no

Snow

Snow?

Playin

        Birds youre keeping watching upstairs are cockatiels not cockatoos 

I know.

Toucan

No.

Toulouse-Lautrec

I’m not playing.

Then Ill play with myself

                           Cockatiel cockatoo toucan toucock twococks any cockll do cock-a-doodle-do cocklibido showcock Chautauqua shtuck-dreck Yiddish German have words for everything  piece of shit

Piece of shit

Excuse me.

Shtuck-dreck

    Are you . .

. . If the shoe fits

                   Just tossin it out there

You take umbrage

May be some truth to it

Me

    Sticksanstones man Being Polish growingup took more shit tha you can imagine Maw said when Id been provoked came home beatup Stop. They’re ignorant. Let it go. Water off a duck’s back. Laugh.  They won’t know what to make of your laughter.

Was good advice

    Your turn You ramble

crossed his arms over his chest

witnessing him cross his arms he wished hed split in three Mizaru covered his eyes Kikazaru covered his ears Iwazaru covered his mouth Wise monkeys

he wasnt so sure

2309,  2sday,  10  9. 24

1127,  reggaefriday the 13th,  Sep, ‘24

Allman Brothers  Ramblin’ Man  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UCmU1G8s-eo

was tempted to talk into her ass  Can you hear me now

                                                           made him laugh

he remembered as a kid that when his hearingparticularly after swimming got stovedup hed stick a finger in his ear and shake it briskly

Hear me now

he hated being ignored

                                             ignored

thats not rightincorrect

he took a breather

couldnt keepup

                not that he or they thought he could  a mans got to recogniserealise no his limitations

they werent ignoring himBUSY

he just happened to be an accessory while    Wha   Redeeming  NoRecovering recovering

they sapped him

    sidelined he was happily sappedsatiated

stood at the foot of the bed

                              admired one ass   then the other

what asses

SWITCH

    jealous

but nothing he could do about it

                                        not true   wished he was fifteen againWOOD I

seemed to him his teen years he was hard a lot of the time

                                                             Hell

boners snuckup on him juust as the passing bell rang  he was on one end of the campus  Industrial Arts  Architecture  had to walk the entire lengthA BLOCK to the Science wing  which was the reason why he carried all his books for afternoons rather than emptyhanded freeaneasy  stop at his locker

Ladies

           they were busy  up to their eyeballs in trimmed pussy deep French kisses mouths at nipples face an ears buried between breasts

cleared his throat

                           LADIES  nearly rejuvenated                                            

LADIES

Hell with it he grabbed the ass wiggling in front of him with both hands used his thumbs like when breaking apart a peach and jammed her with a stiff tongue  AHLAA analingus anilingus shrug no matter for Hello

                                                                                                        gaveup on either hearing him

 

Sunday,  25  8. 24

1004,  reggaefriday the 13th,  Sep ‘24

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they were sitting at the bar

had their drinks refreshed

Hallie said she had to use the restroom

                                          Maybe you can find us a small table, a comfortable couch.  I’ll find you.

he stood firsthelped her off the stool

                                       Always the gentleman.

We don want my mother showingup out of thin air accusing me of not

always humoured her she giggled

                                     No we do not.  sighed  I hope the restroom isn’t too crowded.   

Why arent Ladies Rooms larger Oughta be  We have urinals troughs women don stand shoeleather to shoeleather

that brought a bellowa deep laugh  she didnt cover her mouth  he loved that about her

                                                                                              No. Not shoe to shoe. I’ll find you, babe.  she started walking  turned   Have to watch me walk away?

Bet your sweet ass baby  I love watchinya come watchinya go

                                                                   Prefer cummin

You’re mad. I love you.

                         she doubledback and kissed him  I’ll find you.

he watched her walkaway  she quit tossing looks over her shoulder

                                                                         watched until he couldnt see her any more 

collecting their drinks he wandered into the lounge

no tables chairs

                  he stepped around an cushionedseat islandAh a greens planter under a chickenwired skylight the space had once been a factory on the wall was long couch behind an equally long low table a festive runner topped with star- moon- sailboat-perforated ceramic bowls like balls candles burning within

he set their drinks on coasters sat  rested his arm atop the armrest

                                                                         he couldnt see beyond the island

the seating intimate  Nice he congratulated himself  thought Look at me  an Easter egg  a required scavenger hunt item  Girls got her work cut out for her

    a woman stepped around the island

                                           his heart leapt into his throat  Damn shes good

it wasnt her

the woman approached casually  said There you are.

if a wall wasnt behind him he would have looked to see who she was talking to

We lost you for a moment.

he didnt reply Was we the pronoun she went by  mouse in her purse

excusing herselfgave him ass she brisklystepped past his knees  perfume wafted

                                                                                        then sat beside him

her hip to his

didnt look loaded

put her hand on his thigh

                              Really?

   Really  Wha

Don’t recognise me?I thought you would. Described me more times than I can say . . a long drink of water.

Alexandria

You do remember.

Threw me a curve dyed your hair different cut Youre wearin flats

                                                                        Its been years

Gabby left. I went with her.

I remember

We break your heart?

Ifya didnt break my back yawoudnt break my heart

Not just a little?

A stitch in a seam  You back

I’m back. Gabby found a guy fell in love.

Guy  Guys

No. A guy.

            He refused to share.

   Well youre intimidating

                                Wouldnt have seen tha coming

Im here with my girlfriend

I saw. She’s beautiful . . bountiful.

                                        What? Am I crowding you?  Is she the jealous type?

Youre crowding me

Always the straight shooter.

Wanna slide over a bit please

Am I making you uncomfortable?

No

    Ah.  I recall.

                   You’re particular who touches you. You’d take us for a massage, bring a book, wait in the lobby.

Good recall

                Now give me some room

I’ve given you more than room.

Youve obliged me Ive obliged you

                                     Slide it over

she laughed

              Or?

There you are.

Babe unflustered he stood  reached down picked up their drinks

                                                                       Alexandria  Hallie

Alexandria stood  Hello, Hallie.  extended her hand

they shook each impressed with the others grip 

Joe said you were taller.

Shes wearing flats

Men are so easily intimidated.

Aren’t they.

I know Joe from . .

. . I know, he’s said.  Man’s an open book doesn’t pull punches.

Refreshing.  So you kno . .

. . You’re a good fuck . . and generous.

    Generous.

Joe said . . generous.

she smiled turned to him  Thank you, Joe

                                                 I’ll leave you two be.

No, please, have a drink Alexandria.

                                        Joe?

he said  Joe

               Why not

Why not.

Youre crazy

I may be.

             I am curious though.

                    

Sunday AM,  25  8. 24

159preferred,  Thursday,  12  9. 24