Comme ci comme ca

thats not it

             not either good or bad  so so

IT WAS AMAZING

                     it tickled himoccurred to him as he stripped the bed to wash the sheets

a hardy ejaculation

Put the Blame of Marilyn not Mame

                                      he liked the music he made in his head as the washing machine began to churn

his verse homophones

                         he was so freakin proud

spouted French first

                      Comme ci comme ca

then his inspired

                   Cum see cum saw

he stopped   listened

                               there was no collective groan from his bastion of Mariachi

may have got away with one

Comme ci comme ca

Cum see cum saw

Comme ci comme ca

Cum see cum saw

Comme ci comme ca

Cum see cum saw

                         Think cats tipping his rocker    Let him be  Sometimes we have to drop the reins

. . . cum saw

1143,  Monday,  9  9. 24

Rita  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NY2IpSCV-Nk

Oscura  Don’t Leave  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S0j8LMZNhqc

second

   Whell

              said nothing about her being dead

wanted to get off on the right foot

                                   however she had been leapsanbounds ahead of himwas out of her clothes fast as it takes a lie to goround the world

                                  before he could get off his shoes

Marilyn

            breathy Yes? how she could say yes so seductively scorched his crotch

                                                                                     Yes?

Oh  Nothing nothing  Was thinking out loud

                                               last they met had sex they flippedflopped eelslick polliwogs roundanround gnawinggrindingfingeringpawing mixingmakhani  an as they verged on cumming he wanted to be over her looking down into her lovely face kissing her beautymark watching her breasts heave to his thrusts

it wasnt until after that he startled  realised

                                                 Marilyn   Yes.   Youyoure  youre dead   Does that matter?      No   Then quiet. Make love to me again.

    this time she walked up on the foot of the bed gently took his ankle one leg always uncovered gently woke him  leaned her groin against his foot

                                    Wake up, baby.

she continued rubbing his foot against her

dewy

        he woke

she took a step back  slipped out of a palepink silk kimono  ran it slowly across his foot as she laid it on the beds edge

So.

Yes 

What I really want to do is suck your cock . but . . under the covers you can’t watch.

he GULPed

             Marilyn giggled

I   I cant . . .

    No.

I want you to concentrate on how my mouth feels . the tugs of my teeth . my tongue . . my throathow . how I hold you in my hand . . play with you . concentrate . really feel your balls bunch . . feel when you fire your bolt. . anthen going nuts so sensitive askinbeggin STOP . begginme to stop . . . I won’t.

O  K

There. That’s my baby boy.

                              she lifted the quilt the sheet  looking under it she smiledmischieviously lasciviously carnivorously  touched the tip of her tonguelapped her upper lip  ducked her head under

he watched her shoulders back spine dimples of Venusthe roundhumps of her cheeks disappear

                                                                                                      her hands kneaded fingers stroked nails dragged up and down his legs kisses soft breaths thighs a firm handhold a hardy squeeze  OHMY.    MY.  kissed the head fluttertongued it sucked like a lollipop   a deep sigh took him deep  the back of her tongue nearly to his balls mouth gently clasped  a slow slowdeliberated returning him to her lips

SHE WAS KILLING HIM

HAD TO SEE

              croaked  Marilyn    Sorry  I cant   lifted the quilt

she didnt hearwas oblivious

entranced

dabbling

feasting

ferocious

cat lapping cream

                    sunlight penetrated the quilt it billowedbecame enormous floated up  he let godidnt have to hold it velella velella sail jelly  hued  sunlit apricotpeach   glorious  MY GODher curlyblonde hair framed in it

                                                                                                                poetic

she opened her eyes  smiled around his cock withdrew

                                                               You’re cheating.

I cant help myself  I want to watch

    Cheater.

                  she relishedravished him  he exploded

Marilyn gagged  gagged   caught her breath   swallowed licked her chops  climbed his body  kissed him slickly deeply

           then kept climbing him until her soppingwet pussy was over his mouth  MYGOD he suckedhe tonguedhe pinched

she roared CHRISTbellyclenched cumfoam slobber  lifted her off his face so better to have her take her more  bitnibbled the insides of her thighs to either side of her pussy   howled  pushed her over his head turnedoverquick  went after her ass with zeal

she laughed gloriously

    then he was on his back she held his shins fucked him with abandon  Venus dimples spine furrow  head tossing 

hued

       apricotpeach splendor

they came together again

                           she locked his cock like bitchdogs doshe rocked   howled

                                                                                         they howled

he woke

             Marilyn was gone

woke rockhard

he masturbatedshot rocketgobs

    has sheets to wash

AM,  Reggaefriday,  23  8. 24

1134,  Monday,  9  9. 24

https://themarilynreport.com/2021/06/08/the-evolution-of-marilyns-beauty-mark/#:~:text=Although%20Tappan%20queries%20whether%20the,little%20or%20no%20make%2Dup.

https://www.theguardian.com/food/2022/sep/18/who-needs-cutlery-anyway-why-food-is-more-delicious-when-you-eat-with-your-hands

Rush  Freewill  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=urBpdyFCZmo

https://www.centralcoastbiodiversity.org/sail-jellyfish-bull-velella-velella.html

same oldsame old not sane   same old story  song and dance

when it happenedagain he saw  his ears rang Crucify him! Crucify him! Jesus Christ Superstar

                                                                                                      hims actually WORD

Microsoft programme

WORD 

once was a time when Word was spoken between two people it meant  Honest  Honestly

the programme keeps reaching into his writing correcting him incorrectly

LATEST!

          . . . slipped out of a dressing gown . . .   ought to have been sufficient context

WORD changed his sentence to read  . . . slipped out of addressing gown

                                                                            WHAT

for shitsangiggles he Googled addressing gown

                                                   it showed results for dressing gown

queried Search instead for addressing gown

                                            TheFuck  Whynot

clicked it

           Orange Restoration Labs: “Why you should clean your Gown . . . Swiftly addressing stains is imperative to safeguard the structural integrity of your wedding dress fabric.

not really in the vein of  . . . slipped out of a dressing gown IS IT    IT

                                                     WORDs algorithm trippin  over its lummoxfeet again

. . . Until next time  SAME BAT-TIME SAME BAT-CHANNEL

                                                           he could wait

though feels he wont have to wait long

1046,  Monday,  9  9. 24

Aerosmith  Same Old Song and Dance  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y6C_nyZLQR8

Superstar  Trial Before Pilate  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m_FnL7mKhFg

sundown towns

he misunderstood

he didnt think theypeople could be so depraved

                                                    wondered how his reckoning was so off the mark

Scifi wondered a shehe heshe offguardedly

How

Weve you  weve grownup reading scifi fantasy comon  gothic horror Bram StokerHA  Southern gothic horror 

We should have known

Southern gothic

Yesyes

          Faulkner  Flannery OConnor

    Yes Ohshit

                 Sundown town    Should have put tha together  Didnt suspect Wisconsin tha aint South

Sundown

            Nothing to do with vampires  

Kinda

       Soulless motherfuckers

1240,  Sunday,  8  9. 24

1355,  Monday,  9  9. 24

maybe should have listed those towns that werent  https://justice.tougaloo.edu/location/wisconsin/

to hear tellwitnessing his expression as he related seeing a coed in a liquorstore before returning to the motel room  she must have been a beast said she was sixfoot at least stunning face long auburn redhighlighted hair that she wore like No shit!remember the iconic Forties photo of Rita Hayward?   he did

                                                                             she had to be a beast

now he was really disappointed they told him to meet them at the motel

                                                                             on the patio

by the pool

           he said he was happy to stop at what would have been the same liquorstore at approximately the same time as the beast appeared

                          who knew

wasnt in his cards

You approach her

I did not. Look at me, I’m older, anything I would have said to her would have been inappropriate.

Nothing

I was trying my damnedest not to stare.

                                            I’m tellinya man . . . she was breathtaking.

All the more reason to have approachedlemme    lemme put it this way

                                                                            When you see a work of art don ya get closerare drawn in to better appreciate it I can see in your face youre admiring her now

She was amazing.

                      I’m hardpressed to remember the last time I saw a woman so appealing.   nodded  eyes blind nonfunctional his vision working overtime at projecting herrecalling her turned on a reel a spit  projected on whitesilver brainvapours

Amazing.

I hearya  wistfully Wish I was there

    So.  You think you would have approached her?

I woud have

You wouldn’t have been concerned about being perceived as a lech?

Oughta be able to pull off a compliment without tha

                                                         Eh

I don’t know if I could have.

I expect she knows shes beautiful an I suspect men have approached her beforeprobably now for years  an I suspect she has a built-in radar with the ability to discern a compliment from a line.

Yeah, well, that’s a lot of suspicions.

Said simply  Hear me

                        When you honestly see something remarkable  ya got to remark

Then afterwards smile  turnaround   walkaway

Seals the deal  An authentic compliment

Helps prove not all men are pigs

                                     Which isnt to say we do not possess lesser degrees of piggish tha are acceptable to women 

    Though not whole hog.

Coudnt have said it better myself      

1700ish,  Sunday,  8  9. 24

0952,  Monday,  9  9. 24

Rita  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NY2IpSCV-Nk

they happened six minutes apart

he wondered if those who believed in coincidence would allow it if separated by six minutes

knowing them

                Hell, what’s that?sure.

he was surgical

No you’re not Papa.

he was thorough   

No you’re not Papa.

   Wha

You know.

            It’s no good unless you admit it.

This feels like an AA meeting must

What would Bill say?

she floored him he thought Good grrl

                                        Im anal 

You certainly are.

his analism cleverly analysis would not allow him to suffer coincidence

it tickled him when they who did tried to goad him

                                                      after all the years

he thought their childishness would have collapsedcrumbled

                                                                  nope

being utterly fair they were guys   whats to expect

                                                       they believed when a woman said no she said it to encourage them Yes Virginia there is a Santa Claus Church of Pharcelles no clue what chapter what verse  when a church is Bibleless it could have been taken from a public bathroom toilet partition a brick wall  train car graffiti

besides the point

what else tickled him

                         Excuse me I digress

six minutes

             1326hrs

closing out Hotmail an advertisement appeared right a buxom lass in lingerie maybe his computers algorithms were catching up with him but it wasnt so much the gal as the name of the company in lowercase letters over her head it ripped at his attention intimissimi which at oncescreaming over each other intimatemissionmisssimiansemenexoticerotic

                                                                                                                 mesmerised

he paused

            then thought Whellshit thawas cool   felt a creeping in his loins

1332hrs

          on MSNBCs The Weekend overheard host Michael Steele I’m juiced up.

OhBrutha thamakes two of us

a connection

               not a coincidence

Saturday,  7  9. 24

1120,  Sunday,  8  9. 24

Bill W.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bR_EiRs8aeI

Awright he thought rolling his eyes yet again after another commercial Youtube is paid to provide   Yacoud quit with the eyes anteup payem an stop the commercials   Woudya shaddup  Havent heard of shakedowns heard of paying protection money   Im just sayin rather than takin umbrage theres a solution   Agreed you pay   the heshes shehes shrugged he humoured them which is why they stuck around   Feel better   No   Sorry  Continue your edifying umbrage

didnt mind if he did

   another Pharma hoot

something called AUSTEDO XR

the volume to the music he listened to was soft but when its ambience was fractured talking heads hed leap from WORD to Youtube where usually SKIP was available in 5 4 3 2 1 secondsSKIP bounce back to WORD to continue his copious tenacious attention to letters that went out were appreciated but unanswered

                                                                                 those who had answered were dead now

occasionally he wrote them C/O their spouses who moved on in shorter order than he thought was appropriateBUT that was their choosing

he was not surprised when those choices made from more heartbruising

                                                                             can only bruise something thats broken

a SKIP didnt accompany AUSTEDO

he didnt know what it did

so while it droned he slipped  opened a New Tab GOGGLED austedo common side effects  read  three points a substantial paragraph length later appeared IMPORTANT SAFETY INFORMATION  immediately thereafter AUSTEDO XR and AUSTEDO can cause serious side effects     

common side effects were serious side effects

                                                 the company ought to drop common  call them their real name  

also the prescription treats

                             does not cure  the cause of involuntary movements

like spirits treat life

thereafter give the company credit  in emboldened font  . . . can cause serious side effects in people with Huntington’s disease, including: depression, suicidal thoughts, or suicidal actions.

he also thought

                 If life isnt tough enough to cause suicidal ideations do we really need Big Pharma to put its thumb on the scale in benefit of its bottomline

2156, Saturday,  7  9. 24

0959,  Sunday,  8  9. 24

https://www.austedo.com/tardive-dyskinesia/side-effects  https://www.austedo.com/globalassets/austedo/medication-guide.pdf

I do

You do?

To quote my daughter Indeed

I didn’t.

No But unlike you to steep yourself in the dictionary dig up words

                                                                          Because   he liked to goad him

Because?

Twofold

         You have better things to do my little social butterfly anya don wanna work tha hard  Denyem

eyed him

           couldnt deny him

he bit his tongue

                  wanted badly to say Cat got your tongue but let it ride

Awright then. What does it mean?

Imprison for misprision

                         Deliberately concealing what one knows knowledge of a treasonable act or felony

Why the hell do you know that?

Ran into it again not two nights back while reading in bed before sleep Menands The Free World  A tome

                                                                                                                 Anxious to finish it so I can go onto his Metaphysical Club Sounds riotous doesnt it Won a Pulitzer  History

Whas with the face

Do you look for Pulitzer Prize winners or happen upon them?

I look

Why?

    Because Im curiousIm  more an more curiouser an curiouser

                                                                     An because in schoolgrade school beyond I didnt care for history  was so fucking dry  Mummy  Lackluster    No character

Now I know better

But by your own admission you weren’t a good student.

I was not not according to the way things were taught curriculum offered I was dried seasoned tinder an timber waiting to be firedgo off

                           Had to wait for myself to strike a match

Misprision. I like the word.

Looks like its spelt wrong . .

. . It does, doesn’t it?

Yah   

0630,  Thursday,  29  8. 24

1154,  Saturday,  7  9. 24

madman

Didnt know tha

admission of faith

but he didnt know a lot of things

                                   probably more than a lot a flat parcel  likely a fucking warehouse filled to the rafters

the more he learned the less he knew

                                       his young daughters laughedChrist he was happy he had girls

Oh Daddy, you’re funny. Did you hear, Mommie?

looking upshe was serious at a ceramic Mason Cash bowl making her awesome chocolate chunk coconut pistachio cookie batter pushed her glasses up her nose

                                                  I’m sorry, what?

Daddy’s funny.

she casually pointedjabbed with her thumb Him? He’s a riot.

Hey . .

. . Hay is for horses the four at once

shook his head  Theres not enough testosterone in this room

his wife laughed Yeahwell, that fell to you didn’t it?

You listening girls your mothers a real comedian

                                                     he crossed the kitchen

she giggled   Stay put. threatened him with a wooden spoon

Put it down or Ill use it on your fanny

Daddy’s going to spank Mommie! they cried in unison

Don’t encourage him.

Spank Mommie, spank Mommie . . .

he disarmed her easily

                         when she began laughing she went weak

he wrapped an arm around her shoulders pinning her armsgrabbed a handful of ass and kissed her hard

                                                                                                               breaking it off Girls  Shall I kiss her good an proper  

Yes yes, their legs churning under the table  kiss her good and proper!

this is when she really lost her shitwent weak in the knees

                                                               he looked into her wide big beautiful brown eyes

Goodanpropers coming baby

she snortedmustered Not in front of the girls.

in front of the girls he gave her a deep satisfying French kiss

                                                                  somewhere off in the distance he heard his girls glee

said Roue as he read the dictionary  Noun

                                             A dissolute man in fashionable society  Im not tha  Synonyms  Blood profligate rake thas closer rakehell closer rip debauchee real close libertine rounder crushed it

Roue

Sounds so freakin innocent

I roue the day

                  to no one  Of course I know how to spell rue  Im playing here

he played often with his ignorance

wished he had a good police sketchartist he could describe it to and have them draw the suspect 

1005,  Saturday,  7  9. 24

Elton John  Madman Cross the Water  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nq4J_n6vMYo

he had an ear for Howbout dem apples

                                         heard himself say it at least once a dayusually inclined by actions of feral cats he cared for their eating habits stinginess mixing it up herding themYES Virginia there is a Santa Claus fivehunred word editorial byloves his middle name Francis Pharcelles Church if there were a religion practised in Pharcelles Church hed be tempted to attend honeycoloured interior blushed by flickering beeswax candles a kunstkammer cabinet of curiosities small phials purportedly containing saints blood shelves of hidebound texts porcelain urns holding human animal ashes the altar a mahoganyplanked picnic table long benches on either side

                                                                                               Bibleless

that might be asking too much

Howbout dem apples

    also reserved for womens breasts heartshaped asses

159preferred to 1359,  Thursday,  5  9. 24

0939,  Saturday,  7  9. 24

he doesnt have Premium Hulu so the media service owned by Disney Streaming a subsidiary of Walt Disney Corporation spinning in his grave interrupts with commercials commercial interruptions  no longer thirty second breaks

Vraylar

         drug advertisement “Ask your health professional . . .”

he tried to ignore itpicked up the book From One Cell he set aside to read duringBUT the absolute tsunami of side effects affected him

set the book down

                    “. . . the most common side effects . . . include: difficulty moving or slow movements, tremors, uncontrolled body movement, restlessness and feeling like you need to move around, sleepiness, nausea, vomiting, indigestion, constipation, feeling tired, trouble sleeping, increased appetite, and dizziness.”

the common ones

Googled it

suicidal ideation

Vraylar is an antipsychotic but also has an antidepressant effect

                                                                    BUT

quite the coin toss

                       maybe psychotic   or maybe lessdepressed 

took a deep breath

had known depression intimately

wasnt his

six years an ignored slave shout out 12 Years A Slave six desperate heartbreaking years  held things together with spit an spit

        baling wire never showed

her mental health professionals refused to communicate with her physicians Right to Privacy that privacy also legally excluded himkept him on the sidelines because she signed the instrument

    drugaddled signatures count

pharmacists became his greatest asset  more than once a possible adverse drug reactionOoops push drugs gold in dem der hills as long as the patient doesnt OD croak keep patients at the tit TILT TILT TILT  tunnelvision

now theres a term for what they achieved until they didnt  Pharmacovigilance

interruption ended

                    finally returning to Eileen “Love will make you crazy.” 

“Take a penny. Leave a penny.”

1714,  Thursday,  5  9. 24

1240,  Reggaefriday,  6  9. 24

Vraylar  https://dailymed.nlm.nih.gov/dailymed/medguide.cfm?setid=4b5f7c65-aa2d-452a-b3db-bc85c06ff12f#:~:text=The%20most%20common%20side%20effects,%2C%20increased%20appetite%2C%20and%20dizziness.

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC6297296/