. . . our thoughts and prayers .
. .
isnt tha the line
1805, Saturday,
13 7. 24
13.7.24
. . . hadnt a clue whawas next
was always a fine place
fine to be curious to be anxious to discover if hed actually write or
take dictation
one of these days hed
meet who or whos
which would be a kick in the head
banjaxed liked the look of the Irish meant totally ruined wrecked tired or drunk
correction
totally ruined
wrecked
tired
drunk
or
All of the Above
multiple
choice
he preferredunlike most his teachers writing essays
he could be persuasive
if they could read his
handwriting
took the US History test Junior High Social Studies fail it not promoted
it was a BIG FUCKIN thing
fortunately
he broke his left arm twice in succession
broke his leg preceding Eighth Grade had
been physically tough
as he was saying
fortunately
he was lefthanded
forced to write with his right
his teacher asked him to see her
after class after test papers were returned
she loved essays
I can’t read your writing, but I’ve determined
given your involvement, your participation during class, every day, that you
understand the material required and I’m promoting you.
took every fibre of his being not
to scream MOTHERFUCKER
ducked
a bullet there
who do you praise for thawhich god hed pull a train if he had to if
one understood his drift
there was also this beaut
he came around a
cornerwalked straight into her she tried
to runaway he was fastergot her by the
hairshould have worn it up
her head was awash with reptiles
of resentment still had heryanked her by the hair rage confusion
was creepy even by his
standards
whatever it meant
had no idea
but he liked the imagery
when the reptiles recognised he was restraining her their prey
they began to turncome after him
he let go
she shot off like a neverbeforestretched
rubberband off a ruler
elementary classroom
shit
hurt like hell if it caughtya right
Whell fuck it something woud surface
1238 &
1315, day-between-2-Ts, 19 6.
24
111preferred
to 1311, Saturday, 13 7.
24
Dean Martin Ain’t That A Kick In The Head https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sgozofokf_c
cockaroach
That’s a HUGE cockaroach.
it
tickled him how she said it
Cockroach
That’s
what I said.
Why did you
have to show me?
No worries I keep the door locked
show it to everyone through the glass
Everyone?
Everyone needs to see
Do you feed it?
Nothing
Havent feed it a thing
Seems
to survive on either something I cant see
Or thin air
A vermin
And you keep it in the dark?
It prefers not being seen
Butgirlie as you saw flip on that overheard naked 100watt lightbulb it scurries madly tryin to find dark an shadows to hide
Its indecent
What’s it called again?you name
it?
I did not
Its called Project 2025 Mandate for Leadership
It’s awfully ugly.
1604, Monday,
8 7. 24
1133, Saturday,
13 7. 24
German Jew Jew German difference is negligible was then that difference was stoked by the caustic hatred of a man who manically swept
the countryplied it with his vulgar Aryan WHITE myth
myth
bears repeating MYTH
his word for it was lie
words have always fascinated him
he exhibited lexophiliac
preferred lexiphiliac
tendencies
a word lover
two favourites Jew German German Jew sameness had words for anythingeverything imaginable
verklempt
from Yiddish farklempt, from German
verklemnt, literally pinched, squeezed defined overcome with emotion Oxford
Dictionary
trepverter stairwords
Yiddish
when considering an earlier conversation a witty comeback presents too late
akin German treppenwitz
staircase wit a calque literal word for word rendition of the French
esprit de l’escalier
a third beaut
however not of the
samenesstumble he relished above is wabi-sabi
made him think of palegreen cleanses your sinuses wasabi
like horseradish and mustard
wabi-sabi Japanese Art of Impermanence
wabi translates to less is more
sabi means attentive melancholy
together “an awareness of the
transient nature of earthly things and a corresponding pleasure in the things
that bear a mark of this impermanence”
a crack in a fine china tea cup
2356, Monday,
8 7. 24
1034, Saturday,
13 7. 24
https://spencerlowry.com/2018/09/05/10-uniquely-beautiful-words-from-other-languages/
12.7.24
He had to know before they married
People make allowances, compromises.
They do But the death do you part thang imparts a
wholly new an different understanding can I put up with this for the rest of my life
Or their loves life
Hard questions
I liken it to a paper cut every
day every week every month every year
Paper
cuts are minor arent pleasant
But every fuckin day
Have you ever shared that before
. . with anyone?
I think everyone has their own analog
. .
.
. Not like that.
That’s heinous.
Heinous
Heinous. I whine when I suffer one forever far apart.
Heinous.
No Ive not bandied it about
You ought to. Can I?I’ll credit
you.
Unnecessary
No. Necessary. I don’t want
anyone thinking I’m a sick fuck.
OH thanks
That’s
pernicious.
Look at you rollin out vocabulary
basting words
she giggled
I’m a masterbaster . . no
apologizes.
Fuckme
Pretty goodhuh?you’re rubbing off
on me.
Loaded
A tad.
Did I ever tell youya’re my hero?
Screwball
So youre tellin me he didnt
know
He knew when he met her she was a
micromanager. He thought she’d leave that at their doorstep, not turn it on him.
A micromanager I
coudnt work for one
You are, kinda, in your own way.
My own projects my own
initiative
My own me Im not a teamplayer
Gimme me a wide
berth job gets done well efficiently then the micros can have the product an try
an punch holes in it
It
Not me
There’s that.
Who does his exwife work for
Microsoft.
Ohfuck
A micromanager at Microsoft
she laughedOh, I didn’t think of that.
Did he before marrying her
He did.
Made his own bed then decided it wasnt
for him
So
much for deathvow
2347, Monday,
8 7. 24
1640, Reggaefriday,
12 7. 24
. . . serial monogamist
Wha the hells tha
Surely you’v . .
.
. Is tha a thing
What have I told you about that?
I know wha youve said but Im
tellinya Ive never heard of it
You understand what it means?
I can parse it understand serial
understand monogamy though I havent ever thought it a bad thing
Not regarding marriage, what you
and your wife had, that commitment no; I’m talking in regards to, uncommitted relationships,
boyfriends, girlfriends, staying with one while reaching out to anotherthey
can’t be single, they have to be in a relationship, can’t stand on their own two
legs, can’t date.
Thas dishonest
It serves their purpose.
Living a lie
Serves their purpose.
Thas shit
You’re tellin’ me.
Its happened to you
Yes.
he shook his head
How Youre so smart
Smarts got nothing to do
with it. Missed signals . . . because I
didn’t want to think otherwise because I turned a blind eye turned a deaf ear.
Im terribly sorry
I did it to myself.
He stepped away,
broke my heart, was living with a woman inside two weeks of breaking up with me.
Inside two weeksJesus
Im
sorry I don get it
she laughed tears began
Because you wouldn’t stand for it. You catcha whiff of a lie and you’re
adios, you won’t tolerate the slightest dishonesty.
You’re unlike a lot of people.
What is it you say?
Its a good thing I can get along
with myself
Yes.
I wish I could. A lot of people
wish they could but they can’t.
2347, Monday,
8 7. 24
1515,
Reggaefriday, 12 7. 24
Fourth of July week
fireworks
dogs howl cower
not pleasant evenings for them
Whas with your dog
hers laid at her anklechin on
her foot blinked occasionally looked aroundeyes only when a
firework wentoff little lower than it shouldflickering ashes glimmering into
treetops
taking the drink away from her
mouth she swallowed
He’s something huh?
The explosions flashbangs
suddensparklings ricekrispies don bother him
No. I’ve had him five years don’t
affect him, but cries of other dogs, you may have noticed, his ears twitch
in their direction, the extent of his acknowledgment.
her neighbours had had enough took their animals inside distancing them from
the end-of-the-world muting them behind walls
I don’t know what that is.
she took another sip swallowed
You’re not keen on dogs.
Im not I cant provide the
attention they require
A cat person Affection a
giveantake proposition sometimes yah
sometimes no Were amenable
Too aloof for me.
Aloof Perfect
Were aloof Far more accurate than amenable Thank you for the correction
she was going to take a sipstopped at her chin
You’re welcome. You’re so polite.
sipped
he yawpedmuzzled it behind his fist
Trust me ya woudntwan my Maw to suddenmaterialise slap the back of
my head You know your manners, you ought
to be ashamed of yourself.
Shame
Was a powerful tool in our house cracked on
the ass stood in a corner made an example
In junior high woodshop I made a
miniature pillory an gave it to her for Mothers Day She didnt appreciate it it wasnt lost on the room my father my
siblings However not to be made butt of a
joke or oneupped she stitched a doll of socks an placed in the pillory kept it
on top the bookcase in the livingroom a
conversational piece affectionately referred to it as me Cant say who got the last laugh
But
I digress Ya woudntwan her to materialise
Perhaps. Perhaps not.
All in all
she wisely taught you good manners.
I have tha
So. Dogs.
Yah
They’re loyal, devot . .
.
. Slaves
Truly?
Yah No appeal Anymore than Lassie
Rin Tin Tin Bullet Roy Rodgers dog fuckinRoy
liked his devotion so much had him stuffed
Stuffin
your dog
Interesting.
Noncommittal
Ohsorry, most people I know
either like or have dogs
Own a dog
You could really care less?
You know who you remind me of?
I do not
A dog.
Not rising to the bait?
A three-legged dog.
Threelegged dog
Yes.
They absolutely despite
four-legged dogs. Halfdozen rescues
in the neighborhood.
Then youd know
I do I truly do. Another beer.
Sure
Fetch.
HA
2331, Monday,
8 7. 24
1222, Reggaefriday,
12 7. 24
11.7.24
Yaneed to backoffNOW
Theres an upside Youre blindoverlookin it
Overlooking?
Are you such a dismal
human being tha . .
. . Dismal Dismal
I woudnt saytha
I see either
darksides or silverlinings although Im
usually forced to be dark to illuminate those things for people I care about to seesee
the whole ballkeep turning the damn thing in their hands keep pushinem off the
nonsense tha because its a ball they know balltheir kneejerk reaction ball without
considering its entirety as a child whos never seen a ball woud
Shitty
job Somebodys gotta do it
Soyah Theres an upside to sundowners
Again.
You remember my fathe . .
. . Yasaid Yes I remember
He may
have taken my side if wed known each other better
Your side.
Losing your mind Damnright my
side
Hed appreciat . .
. . The anxiety, agitation, pacin . .
. . Disorientation No
Hed
appreciateWOUD YA SHADDUPcould
see he was windingup LISTEN Agree or disagree A physician is an empirical scientist data results driven Willing to hypothesise theorise Seek conclusions
So your sick mind has concluded
what?
While your Dad was not the cut of my jib regarding drug experimentationnot to the intense personal degree I was I did Ive had experiences tha cannot be diminished or dismissed
Possible he might have
appreciated sundowner hallucinations
Appreciated not
paying a single red cent for a hallucinogennot having to quibble the price of
LSD windowpane peyote psilocybin be wha it may
Im
not saying one might not have to pay a red sense
Im saying reasonable in the
natural order of things
An upside
A
benefit
You’re sick, disturbed.
Your minds closed Pickedup dogshit in it knotted it tossed
it
You
sundown
wagged a finger before
his face No hallucinations for you
1129, Monday,
8 7. 24
1444, Thursday,
11 7. 24
Seinfeld Soup Nazi
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1jSTiKHOFEI
the talking cure
“Our job is to help our patients free
themselves.” Carl Gustave Jung
same cat who said All angels speak German.
but
he let that slide
because
Jung was neither a Gnostic nor metaphysician neither a theist nor atheist
neither a mystic nor materialist
rather
an agnostic empirical scientist who also spoke Latin Greek English
French Italian
so
it was entirely
possible at some time he may also have said All angels speak Latin. All
angels speak Greek. All angels speak
English. All angels speak French. All angels speak Italian.
which isnt to say they
dont speak Polish an-on anon an a-non
equal-opportunist
angels
returning to the scene of the
crime
patients
patiently
trying to free themselves
cure commencesvery possibly with
a onehundred word association test
Ahunred
but if he knew Jung like he knew Susie like he knew Jung Oh oh ohwha a
guy Jung submitted
wondered what he replied
though unfortunatelyunhappily probably lost to posterity
he tried to come up with one of his
own
priest sermon
solemnise sodomise
he heeledbetter
stop while ahead his better angels warning him in English
hed find the onehundred words
try again
if a physician could so could he
Medice, cur ate ipsum. Physician, heal thyself.
1700, Thursday,
4 7. 24
1203, Thursday,
11 7. 24
Eddie Cantor If You Knew Susie (what a chassis) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=InTuAeGjr4M
dicey yes couldnt
help himself just plainly could not help
himself the view from behind the eightball
was too enticing skewed wonderful unexpected unfocused undelineated
theodicy diceytheodicy
he didnt
knowhad to look it up aahhaed throughout
a theological logical logical logical
construct that attempts to vindicate God God
God God in response to the problem of evil evil evil evil
that appears inconsistent with the existence of an omnipotent omnibenevolent violent violent violent
God God God God
began with Delmore Schwartz
Calmly We Walk through This April’s Day Saul Bellow
if not for them not this
theodicey
unable to vindicate
call a spade a
spade
He
She
They
is a sickpuppy lingeringtoeing at the
weedy edgesthe pool of his black humour
hes
accused
Isn’t it a bit too early?
wondered if they ever questioned the Trinity
probably not
whod want to walkaround looking over their shoulder worrying about their comeuppance
he
didnt
Yeahwhell, you do you and I’ll do
me.
he put on his best confusedconfoundedcomic
countenance Are weah
talkin masturbation
women blush men scowlREAL MEN DON’T MASTURBATE
No
We seem more prone to rape
Did he say tha
maybe maybe not out loud
likely out loud
strike while the irons hot
at least do your shirts
make them crisp
sharp
Anyway
Lotsa luck with theodicy
0912, Thursday,
11 7. 24
1042, Thursday
Jethro Tull My God https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U4P5dsPvRIA
10.7.24
Oh say it aint so
Kjerstin and Jiffy cuddlinglooked
over the foot of the bed What? in unisonhed
heard them cum together
You two are a real pair
Thank you. in unison
Youre killing me
Id think somewheresomehow
these things I mention youd one of you woud have heardbeen exposed Jiffy
satupsuddenly shaked her tits laid back down Kjerstin tweaked
one of Jiffys nipplesOuch Lemme kiss it
Make
it feel better she did really wasnt a kiss
Grrls
scarcely managed their attention they had hishe was hard
noticing Why don’t you hop back into bed, we can help.
Wood they laughedknew wha wood he
meant if I didnt have bacon going
Breakfast
To keep up our strength?
Mine
Prepared batter for buttermilk waffles
too
However back to my admonishment
You use
such big words.
Learnem
Firm warning Reprimand
Arya?
Jiffy tossed off the sheetspun over onto all fourswiggled her beautiful ass Yagonna crack me! how her package was placed
on such a small frame blew his mind bacon
bacon bacon bacon
Bacons cookin
I owe you
Ooooh.
Ooh this Timex
NO.
in chorus Jiffys fanny still swayin leftanright
leftanright . . .
Takes
a lickin an keeps on tickin
NO.
No idea, why?
Timex T I M E Xright
Thinkin of you while I making
your baconno idea how you eat it crispy
Teamex T E A M E X
T E A M X
Us
Outrageous
Get dressed or not make the bed
Do we . .
. . YES
Then come out for breakfast
in
unison We’re Team
X.
in the hall over his shoulder We arefuck
are we
Takes a lickin keeps
on tickin
1555, 2sday,
9 7. 24
1211, day-between-2-Ts, 10 7.
24
Beatles Come Together
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oolpPmuK2I8
I Want
You https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tAe2Q_LhY8g
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