Bilocation

            Thoughts whacha got

By the word and by your intense motivation to mess . .

. . Not hard  Yare inclined to slide

How are we friends?

I think were friendly  Usually 

                                Until I spur younote  not spurn you  I endeavor to make you think Yaoughta say thanks

she put her fingers over her mouth

Say Ill not be offended

That’s it, isn’t it? You’re impossible to offend.

Lotsa roadwork patience brought me to this place I am not offended or  not easily offended

I can’t say that I've seen it.   What offends you?

People who I expect more out ofexpect curiosity from

                                                           Bilocation

Two places at once.

Yes And

And?

        I’m not inclined to believe it.

The world is filled with the unexpectedfor the time being  phenomenon   Why

Mysticism. Mystical.

Mythic

        Ill admit tha the ability to do it at will tips me  But psychically   I woudnt discount it anyet  yare religiously inclined more than am I

Only because my parents leaned on me.

You can take the girl out of religion but you cant take the religion out of the girl

You know a lot about religion.

Psychically I appreciate it

                           Word is Saint Anthony of Padua coud Saint Ambrose of Milan Saint Severus of Ravenna  Padre Pio   Coudbe a Dago thing

You’re bad.

Worse than you think

How’s that?

Ya got me thinkingactually thinking since first we met

Since first we met?

Yes

Are you playing an angle?

Im pretty transparenthuh

Particularly when you think we’re only friendly.

Coud say Im attempting to bridge tha gap

she laughed under her breath Why do I think this isn’t going to end well?

                                                                           Attempt to bridge. Sounds loaded.

Maybe I oughta get you loaded before pursuing my line of thought

No.  No no . . no.

Are you saying no

Loaded no.

             But continue your entreaty.

Thank you The exact word I woud have used See

                                                      Weve more in common the longer we know each other

Are you bidding your time

No  Conversing 

                  Bridging

Why don’t you just say.

Entreat

that made her laugh

I like you don cover your mouthlove your dimples

Going deep huh?

No  Merely confession

Confess your bridge.

Ill tell ya Bilocation

We’ve established that.

Quadlocation

Appear in four location at once?

No

     Howbout a road trip to Four Corners Arizona New Mexico Colorado Utah

I’m familiar, yeah. I’m not saying yeah I’ll go, I just wanna hear you continue.

Id let you choose

Choose what?

What states youd like to place your hands an feet in

                                                        Yaoughta walk up behind yourself sometime Bilocate

OH MY GOD.

We can be crazier if yare agile flexible Into Twister

she shook her head  Contortionist?

If you are I love you

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1703,  Thursday,  12  10. 23

I cant believe youre so unsympathetic for those boys

Are you kidding me?

                      You were a boy. I was a boy. A man a priest tried to mess with us we would have fought ‘em tooth and nail.

Yes Not tha we woud have prevailed 

                                        But youre missing something elemental

Elemental?  Flat out we wouldn’t want a man touching us in any sexual way.

Yah  But you have an issue with homosexuality.

I do not I don’t like seeing it.

   You do  Youre uncomfortable when two men kiss

he sneered I don’t wantneed to see that.

Antha despite knowing tha I kiss my father my brothers uncles best friend nephews  except for your boys because you brought them upkissed them as little boys  but at some point stopped giving them tha affection  tha kind of love

 

Cat got your tongue 

                       Ya know Im right    

his righteous chin fell a bit  Your familys’ affections . .

. . Is very European East Europe   Polish

                                            We arent ashamed we love each other I believeperhaps unknowingly you introduced homophobia introduced a kind of shame to your boys I love all the boys an men in my family anwha people outside it think about our physical affections can whell   as my Maw woud say Up their nose with a rubber hose.

The element elements youre not taking into account regarding those young boysdo not consider are unfortunate

Youre wearing blinders

You don’t know what you’re talking about.

I do

    Two Off the top of my head  Religionwere atheists . .

. . I’m agnostic . .

. . A foot in both camps straddle the fence not sayin there is there isnt  nonetheless   we were exposed to very little religion  otherwise   indoctrination

Yes. I would agree.

Thank you

            Not having been indoctrinated

Imagine if a holy man touches you Someone who you not only respect but revere as your parents do your family does the religious community does

                                Think of the awesome intimidation  Awesome

Perhaps an understatement

Someone they idolise

Someone they may desperately want to emulate

Someone who hold vast power  enthrall them

And you think that’s reason reasons enough to go along with . .

. . Their love Their affection Their family structure

                                                        I can give you a sense

You can give me a sense?

   I know I can

Take a shot.

Your father 

             I asked you a long time ago who your role model was an without hesitation you said your father you didnt EVER want to cross your father 

You sought his favour

he shifted around in his shoes

You tried very hard not to offend him If he asked something of you an it was within your power you woud not deny him

 

   Allsaid

              To a priest who is more desirable  An altar boy or choir boy

Both are fingerlickin good

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1252,  Thursday,  12  10. 23

he couldnt say when last he heard it so he wasnt embarrassed by what his ears told him

when hed misstep with his mother shed tell him to go upstairs to the bathroom and bring down Q-Tips

                                                                                                           You got potatoes in your ears.

   No 

        he wasnt keen on her digginround never hurt himbut somehow  eventhough she was his Maw  she was violating him

years later when he alone was responsible for them he found himself on occasion wishing he could kneel on the kitchen floor lay his head on her lap and let her clean them

                                                      her motherly home comfort

he felt bad for kids who didnt have parents like he did

she could be hardnosed but that was only when she was compelledprovoked to pull out the heavy hardware the big guns

      he probably provided most of those provocations but he was a lot like her

when he saw through her bullshit he called her out

his siblings wouldnt

but that was likely because he was the eldest and like labour bosses a ten pin he was obliged by his station to challenge her

              but also by his nature  he was provocative adored confrontation loved the spit it set off in his mouththe heat at the back of his neck across his shoulders down his spine

Beggin an erection he asked

his head twitched like a peahens was unbecoming

                                                      incredulous  What did you say?

Whadiyasay

I said begging the question. Rhetoric.

Yahyah ya mean logic cuz yare so fucking logical

                                                      Begging the question   Elaborate

You know what it means.

I do Im curious wha you think it means

If you know what it means why do I have to say?

he didnt like that he sighed Because more often than not you misunderstand Ancuz you said it

But what you said . .

. . Was incorrect Anya know perfectly well wha I said

                                                         So  now you say   Begging the question

It occurs when an argument’s premises, statements taken to be true, assume the truth of the conclusion . .

. . Instead of supporting it  Also called arguing in a circle

                                                              I said reality you intoned a sense of reality coudnt agree with reality as fact as true or truth Rather you preferout of your own mouth a sense a perception of reality which is variable Liable to vary or change

Refuse its fixture

                       Like an erection

1500-ish,  2sday,  3  10. 23

1136,  Thursday,  12  10. 23

got him riled  again

                    Do you get it  When Im talking to you Im talking to you not some fucking spokeman for the World

YOU

I don’t know that. When you ask me something I’m taking into accou . .

. . Theres nothingno one other than you Im talking to

                                                       I am talking to youHere 

Imagine   Ive asked YOU a yes or no question  Imagine YES over a box beside it another box with NO over it   Check one of the boxes

It’s not that easythere’s a myriad things to take . .

. . It was a yes or no question  I purposefully deliberately posed it thaway

                                                                              Yare not a spokesman  Im asking you to answer for yourself  alone

How am I supposed to know that?

Whadafuck  Take it within the context I asked it

                                                    I didnt ask your opinion regarding a variety multiple possible repliesrejoinders  thadbe another thing I had not   Answer the fucking question

I don’t know . .

. . Your own mind

                    Jesus Christ

the argument had grown out of a discussion in which he posed it was possible doctors and knuckledraggers could share the same opinion

spokeman said  No. Not at all.

                                  And I resent you calling people knuckledraggers.

I didnt want to offend Neanderthals

What?

They were a product of their time doctors didnt practise onehunredthirtythousand to fortythousand years ago

                                                                                                                   Im saying today  intelligent people an ignorant people don know it all  One is honed the other is not and those honed focus excise   Whadahell  Common sense  Ive met an talked with intelligent people who blow me away me  they lack common sense an I can understand that  Their efforts to become doctors or what have you necessarily eliminates aspects which do not furthur or are untoward their profession  particular aspects   which they have deemed unnecessary

I disagree.

Awright

         Undergoin a surgery  Woud you rather you were cut with a sharp honed blade or a dull one

spokesman wouldnt say

1400ish,  2sday,  3  10. 23

1621,  day-between-2-Ts,  11  10. 23

againagain  early this morning   another of “his” dreamswandering a maze  a labyrinth                                                                                                                               unafraid  unperturbed

going from one construct to the next by hallway or staircase or room abutting room gardens again on an on many timesoddly  filled with milling strangers who he or they chose not to interact mostly solitary  anbecause he hadnt Ariadnes thread he found himself in places he recognised so moving forward he took a different tack

occasionally he felt lost  though only occasionally

                                                     it was familiar

he woke before either concluding it or emerging

sittingup he gently pulled his legs up an away from the cat who curled at his groin telling her to stayhed be back  used the bathroom returning to bed she stayed he slipped under the covershis legs again to either side of her he did not displace her warmth  

then closing his eyes he watched slippingpatchy inkiness move protozoalike lavalampish slavish to designs or loops he did not conceive

                  he watchedrefused to open his eyes for more than an hour before falling back to sleep the while thinkinghumouring himself his dream was a cocoon

one day hed emerge

                            humouring himself  perhaps his emergence would be his death

AMish,  day-between-2-Ts,  11  10. 23

1130,  day-between-2-Ts

compound  compound   compoundscompounded 

                                                    lighted gated dogged

hilltops not the starlit open quiet place it was

WHY

        politics

theyre still fond of the former

                               and former remains as repugnant to him as he was in ‘89 when he took out fullpage ads in the New York Times Daily News New York Post New York Newsday demanding BRING BACK THE DEATH PENALTY. BRING BACK OUR POLICE! in regards to the Central Park Five who later were exonerated

   actually earlier when his baleful face appeared in rags television newsclips that boasted him an entrepreneur  a playboy 

             somehow missing the daddys boy

he didnt cotton daddy boys

it has evolved now he has to contend with barking and a gleaming compound flooding his livingroom with light every eveningcasting his small houses shadow onto his sideyard and into the trees bordering it

ever driveby a highsecurity prison at night

bright as day

1751,  2sday,  10  10. 23

1000,  day-between-s-Ts,  11  10. 23

https://www.documentcloud.org/documents/6131533-trumpdeathpenaltyad05011989

https://www.usatoday.com/story/news/politics/2019/06/19/what-trump-has-said-central-park-five/1501321001/

lampoons former  https://www.bbc.com/news/world-us-canada-65197862

fraud  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OM9f2YAKIJg

some unfortunate thoughts that occurred when he heard of the attack on Israel

   ---  apartheid Israel

   ---  State sponsors of terror  Iran Russia the United States China India North Korea in no particularly order

   ---  “We recommend Hezbollah not come into this,” said Israeli military spokesman Richard Hecht to reporters. “I don’t think they will. If they do we are ready.”  

   ---  when we do not do the work for peace (1993s Two State Solution) we get war

   ---  Netanyahus illiberal undemocratic provocations 

   ---  dysfunctional U. S. House Republicans believe that Iranians will attempt to cross into the United States from the South Border (he didnt think Iranians looked like Mexicans or South Americans)

1228,  Sunday,  8  10. 23

1230,  2sday,  10  10. 23

https://www.haaretz.com/opinion/editorial/2023-10-08/ty-article-opinion/netanyahu-bears-responsibility/0000018b-0b9d-d8fc-adff-6bfd1c880000

ilira Inuit word which means the fear that accompanies awe

                                                                 he hasnt experienced it

kappia  also an Inuit word  means to fear or arouse the fear of physical injury

                                                                                    hasnt experienced that either

maybe he hasnt lived right

both he learned through Robert MacFarlane  his book Underland

                                                                      perhaps vicariously he could summons them

underground doesnt appeal to him

                                     hence

cremation

barbecue

Get it while its hot

                    hes eaten strange things

if he knew he probably wouldnt be put off

helps to think of human beings as animals

                                                would he want to be eaten

   if he didnt know he wouldnt be troubledKNOW

                                                      maybe ilira sets in stiffens his cock churns his bowels sets his heart pounding

CLANG CLANG CLANG goes the trolley

DING DING DING goes the dinner bell

fear hasnt held much sway in his life

                                       because he has realisedreadily acknowledged his entitlement

born white  male  in First World America

it hasnt wormed its way into his brain unlike others whove enjoyed it  their sex placated for millennia 

                                                                                                             why get a bug up your ass if it slips away

aint a damn thing forever

0900ish,  Sunday,  17  9. 23

1813,  2sday,  10  10. 23

Judy Garland  The Trolley Song  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p6O7g4XnTN8

   I chortled last night    he whispered on purpose

Chortled?  Don’t tell medon’t hear that too often . . . I do know it.

he humoured him so he waitedwatched his conflicted hardworking face

                                                                            an he didnt like to work that hard

I know I know it.

I know you do

   I just don’t now.

Awcomon

No I’m serious. 

                   I think I’m thinking too hardyou don’t hear people say chortled too often.

But you read

I haven’t read it either.

                             Chortled.      Hint?  Sexual?

Wha  Hell no

Don’t Hell no me, you’re not often far removed from sexual innuendo.

                                                                          that was true

Lewis Carroll  Through the Looking Glass

I’ve haven’t read it, you?

It an Alice Some parts of his poems  Youre getting off track

So it’s not sexual.

I didn’t mind one bit bein chortled last night

It is sexual.

Ill admit in lusty moments Ive chortled

                                               Laughters good for sex and the soul

Laughter.

Correct

What does Carroll have to do with anything?

He coined it Likely a blend of chuckle and snort

                                                   An Ive done them too during sex an making love

What made you chortle?

Dreamt of my daughters

                          Yellow summer day they came in from swimmingsunbathing I was snoozin on the couch We got high together  After a little whileafter disjointed speeches an tales the two ran off into the kitchen munchies ruckus ensuedsound comin out was pitched their voiceslaughter refrigerator door opened closed opened jars clanged muted Tupperware  closed againan oopstoohard push cabinets doors silverware drawer 

Utterly fantastic

                  The grrlsmy grrls were huungry

    

1121,  2sday,  10  10. 23

High Noonhurr,  2sday

at the airportdidnt matter where he looked backpacks galore not utilitarian militarykhaki but colourfuldesigner packs statements which unfortunately reminded him of big vanity pickup trucksGawdforbid anything approaching work neared it might scratch its pretty paint

                                         for another matter babies hanging off their parents in front in back he thought Wow some real connections real bonding  baggage babyYES their hands are free with his he had an arm and hand free baby against himbonded and when they got old enough they rode on his shouldersdrooled in his hair his hair grew thicker for babyspit

reminded him of when he was a kid

some kids had schoolbags

                            pussies  but maybe daddy had a briefcase

                                                                            pussy

he carried his books in one arm often switched alleviating the weightthe burn

however

         he also walked out of his wayin the opposite direction of where he lived to carry a girls books home for her

LET THE GAMES BEGIN

he gamed early

                 and when the little girls grewup teenagers  they remembered his kindness often returning it in soft sweet goodsmelling ways

they necked and petted

   then freed drivers license they caught fire in the backseat of the family stationwagon parked remotely under trees in a field near the airports chainlink security fence

1038,  day-between-2-Ts,  20  9. 23

1041,  2sday,  10  10. 23

Sam the Sham & the Pharaohs  Lil’ Red Riding Hood  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xNEYfIUDkh8

Bruce Springsteen  I’m on Fire  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iLtGTwIxZZs

she says  Shhh

my little Oriental girl says Shhh placespresses her fingers to my lips

                                                                                Whaelse did I expect

Coudave flipped that scene on its headhad My Way

You can do tha

I can

      But thawoud mean having to make a commitment     I wasnt in the mood

You were dreaming

Dreaming Think flippin a script is easyturnin camera obscura isnt breakin a sweat

                                                                                         Its work

Didnt work out for the three jamokes preceding heryoud think they coud smell the water was cold see it was turbid with matter mud sluggish mean

                             It wasnt inviting

Yet in sequence they hustled down the inclinenot pausing to strip and went in first footfall terrafirma just under the surface then  cutbank   fellaway chestdeep

                                                 I sucked in my breath with em breaths robbed of their voicewhose only exhibitHOWL showed on their faces

One after the other after the other

                                     Maroons

Disregarded me when I tried to STOPem heelem

Pawns in my dream

Didnt flip the scriptdidnt feel bad

                                     I helped them out of the water  Bank kept crumbling  I didnt say shoudave listened

They earned their misery

No one else to blame

                        Still  I felt bad

Whaof China girl

Oriental I coudnt affix Chinese

She crossed over the bridge to the same place where the three met you

She did

She wasnt inclined to go to the water

She was notwasnt the least bit interested

                                             She had texts in her hand she wanted to study

We went back over the bridge into town I asked her if she wanted to go to a café according to script she wanted to go to my place according to script she woud have studied not according to my script but I reconsidered

                                                                                                   I didnt want the commitment

She was beautiful

She was Is

              Still off somewhere in my psyche Maybe shell present in a different circumstance where commanding my commitment isnt her intention

  You coud make her

I coud

early AMish,  Monday – Indigenous People’s Day,  9  10. 23

1312,  Monday – Indigenous People’s Day

Bowie  China Girl  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4aXkA6X_zsA

Maroon  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hxGgnI6kCrs

Every picture tells a story

Awright  Youre the storyteller   Tell

What are you talking about?

Text bout the knockout in a red dress you GAZED capital G capital A capital Z capital E capital D Yadidnt  You were at the restaurant celebrating Maggies birthday antha woud have been rude to her an the woman ya gazed

I GAZED. 

You did not

             You did your damnedest took itsybitsy peeks when you coud  Obsequiously  You have no idea  When Van Goghs exhibit hit LACMA Los Angeles County Museum of Art early 2000s thirtyforty canvases  I gazed on them tenfifteen minutes apiecealmost missed my return bus 

Thas gazing

Whered she sit

Where? What do you mean?

Obviously she captured your attention You aint one who has the capacity to admire briefly then stop Ill assume glances forth when you realeyesed R E A L E Y E S E D she was in the room proverbial kid in a candy shop  Though ya lack opacitythink  youre slickthink youre inobvious

                                                   Yah aint

Ive watched ya Its torturecant help yourself

   I GAZED.   All in capital letters.

he tipped his head doubtful  Fine Tell me the story

irritated What do you want me to say? 

You gazed

           A more fulsome abundant descriptionshe much be etched in your brain having gazed as hard as you did no detail missed or lost on you

She was a goddess in scarlet. . .  legs forever.

Legs forever when she walked in

Yes. Hot body too.

Doesnt sound gazed

                        Zip details 

What do you want from me?

The story youre giving me Cliff Notes which I woudnt read Im a detractor Assigned readings were skipped by ohsoclever students

                      You strike me as having been ohsoclever

You don’t know that.

Wha I know

               You cant tell a story

Where did she sit with her datefacing you back to you

Facing me, at the next table, behind Maggie.

No picture

What are you talking about?

You don go anywhere without your phone A birthday picture

                                                                 A clever boy coudave taken threefour five pics Maggie woudnt have been the wiser Share the best picture with her obviously trashing the otherstheyre inferior theyre the bombshell

Neverever a private dick

   Ever hear a pictures worth a thousand word

I have.

A thousand words can tell a story

                                      Which yare incapable of        Ya kill me

2200ish,  Sunday,  8  10.  23

1136,  Monday – Indigenous People’s Day,  9  10. 23

https://www.whitehouse.gov/briefing-room/presidential-actions/2021/10/08/a-proclamation-indigenous-peoples-day-2021/

Rod Stewart  Every Picture Tells a Story  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GmyGa29zIqk