he telephoned 

                Awcome on, man, you don’t have to write this morning. Come over. I’ll make us a muleskinner breakfast, coffee, have a toke, go outside, gibberjabber, take a swim, we’ll chill, my treat.

Generous as always thank you I appreciate the offer but no thanks

                                                                         

Because you’re writing.

Yes

Anwhy do you write?   

Because    I can  Not 

                         Follow

You can . . Not.

Yescorrect

            Know Rachel Ingalls  I know thas a long shot

It's long and gone.   I’ve no idea.

American Expatriate Lived in England after ’65 Wrote Mrs Caliban 

                                                                       Up on your Shakespeare 

Wouldya stop.

Sorry Caliban Character in The Tempest a favourite play of mine Her Mrs Caliban is a lonely woman who finds companionship with a amphibious monster Larry  A genuinely fascinating nouvelle Very Creature of the Black Lagoon ’54 preceding her ’82 Larry an Shape of Water ‘17     

shaking his head  looked weary  Nouvelle . . Christ. Where you come up with this stuff?not my cup of tea, not interested . .

. . Thas fair

Right fair. No.  I’ve no idea.

Fine Doesnt matter Ingalls was quoted I write because it is a compulsion  A compulsive

                                                                                                   I am not

However  I can  Not   Its my routine  Like breathing  An unconsciousconscious act or consciousunconscious

I appreciate your offer  Can I take you up on things later this afternoon

Coffee. Boo.

              Yeah. Later. Hunkering down, playing with my whims in the meantime.

Cool then  Later

0838,  day-between-2-Ts,  16  8. 23

1558,  Saturday,  9.  9. 23

Creature from the Black Lagoon  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e7uIsGCXojw

The Shape of Water  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XFYWazblaUA

I’ve been thinking about it, so I’ll probably have you at a disadvantage . .

. . An advantage is a terrible thing to waste 

   he looked confusedperplexed That’s a crazy thing to say.

Not really Im trying to sap delimit your advantage

                                                     Position myself at a better stead

Stead.  How?you’ve no idea what I’m going to say.

Playing the odds you might forget what it was you were going to say

                                                                         As you know not improbable 

Would you shut up?

Woudyasay

I will, you frustrate the hell out of . .

. . Me   You he could see his face beginning to purple  Foreplays unnecessary say it before you forget You forget all this will have been for naught

                             Naughtynaughty 

You’re always with a joke. 

I try  I enjoy a good laugh

                            Im encouraged by your tendency to forgetto be distracted Mythic Sosay woudya  I wanna hear

Thank you . .

. . Youre welcome  Say

the purpling was subsiding I was thinking  he pausedwas sure an interruption was forthcoming   nada  I was thinking . . . what is a miracle?

Its the cessation of a physical law

dumbfounded

Example  Returning from the dead

reeling Cessation of a physical law, that’s good, I didn’t think of that.   How did you come up with that?

You asked

he shifted his feetaugmented his posture stepped with his rightstood feet shoulderwidth apart 

You asked

I did . . surprised me how quickly you responded.

Id made ya anxious I owned yatha

Were you trying to make me forget?

I don have to try ya do it all on your ownsuddenly looking over my shoulder as it hightails off into distance running zigzag harder to hit 

                     Leaving you in its dust You tryin to gather it assemble perhaps  wha it was

I owed ya

You surprised me.

Thank you

No.

     You surprise me all the time I should have expected it.

Howbout this

You gonna makeup a story?a feeble attempt to interruptconfuse him

I was ya interested

I might be.

If disinterested stop me

                         Seat of the soulwherever it might be . .

. . You don’t believe in soul . .

. . Its a fictional story

   Oh.

Soul gives the dice they were handed a roll again  Crapsout Their chips disappear under the groupiers big mitt They wonder if soul wanted to have a Go again

Soul was ahead

The stickman says roughly Decide, we haven’t all day.

Souls thinking

               The boxman a woman begins tapping a redlacquered fingernail on her obviouslyexpensive watch  a sapphire crystal

Three dealers behind her are amused

None of them are aware who soul is

Soul peeved picksup the bones pushes a generous portion of their chips forward tosses a seven then hits a string of sevens

House has to shut soul downrefuses to let them play

                                                        Souls game was too miraculous to let continue

Who knew soul played Craps

   Cessation of physical laws

                                    Fantasyfiction fancy tha 

      

1116,  Sunday,  13  8. 23

1126,  Saturday,  9  9. 23

he loved learning something newlearned something new the other day

                                                                           mentee didnt like the sound of it

stood to reason

if he hadnt ever had a mentorhe did not

mentee wouldnt occur to him

fact was hed really have to dig to understand if he ever had a male role model

growing up white male entitled in a white male entitled community houses block after block neighbourhoods nuclear families public pools public recreation centers good schools   lotsa guys he knew regarded their fathers as their role model

majority of their decisions to do whaever was dependent on what they thought their father would make of their choice

he didnt care what his father or his mother thought  frankly   he didnt care what anybody thought

   Aah he didnt have to dig

never a mentor

never a mentee

   seemed mental to him if one didnt make their own way

2001,  2sday,  5  9. 23

1040,  Reggaefriday,  8  9. 23

Stick Figure  Choice is Yours  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xV-lMtisZw0

Ibid. her  Don waste your breath

                                      See the above

   How do you mean?

Say youve given her an explanation Ya don wanna be redundant Cut her off at the kneesat the pass whenever she thinks shes being clever restates reiterates reasks the samedamnquestion

                                                                                Ibid.

   Sounds familiar.

Yah its usually used in footnotes endnotes scholarly references Itll alleviate you wasting your breath An abbreviation of Latin ibidem two lettersnot much it meansreferences in the same place meant as a citation for what preceded it

Youre aces baby skyhigh over her head

I . . I don’t think that would go over well.

tipping his head How very considerate of you   Shes rude calls you stupidsays a monkey could do your job she lordsinsists shes smarter

                           A horses ass Unprofessional  Now to be sure Ive only heard your side of the equation but youre smartnobodys dummy least of all hers  Her business has been profitable off your back Shes tryin to squeeze ya for more which is her job as its your job to push back   She doesnt get anything for nothing  

Babe I wouldnt wanna match wits with you

You’re flatterin . .

. . Im not  I speak the truthHell Im witty  Ya think witty doesnt recognise witty intellect intelligence

                                                                                                         Youre nobodys idiot

Ibid.

Yah

Feels goodfun to say.

Yah

     Ibid. Ribbit

Ribbit. Ibid. Ribbit. Ribbit.

Havin some fun now

Yeah!

          But Im talkin’ with you.

Or Since youve answered her question   Give her crickets

AwJesus, you’re bad.

Not really I don like wasting timemy timeyour time She wants to go in circles let her

                                                                                           Ibid. Ribbit Crickets Ohmy 

Look at you squeezing an Oz reference in.

Ibid. Every day

                 An don forget contemporaneous notes

1153,  Thursday,  7  9. 23

1237,  Reggaefriday,  8  9. 23

https://www.grammarly.com/blog/ibid/#:~:text=Ibid.%20is%20an%20abbreviation%20of,your%20work's%20footnotes%20or%20endnotes.

ribbit  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UiidibfhidE

crickets  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CpGtBnVZLSk

axiomatic 

           automatically?axiomatic the quickest way to a mans heart is through his stomach

                                                                                                     erroneous

if that 9mm Glockaxiomatic were pointed at him

at his heart

   eating  it didnt migrate any closer to his stomach than his stomach emigrated to his heart

the quickest way to a womans heart

CHOCOLATE

                  though he understoodbelieved there were outliers too

one day

         he anticipated meeting one

theyd be on equal footing

   he casually wondered if hed like her despite their similarity    

1629,  day-between-2-Ts,  6  9. 23

1014, Reggaefriday,  8  9. 23

. . . to be continued

                                     as a kid he watched lotsa cliffhangers

he was so freakin eager

to jumpin in   hypnopompic

to crawlin out   hypnogogic

   maybeperhaps if he wrote it larger   Naah

he took it to bed

it didnt resist

                 which could also have meant it had no intentions of participating

dead fish

dead weight

   dead

        using it to its advantage

what advantage was that 

to teach him patience

he was already a patient motherfucker

surgeries

painFull rehabs

Don get through tha ifya aint patient

   rilucidous  backtrack   

riludicous   backtrack  

ridiculous 

          jampacked jellypacked tampedstuffed

like

     sometimes it takes work  commitment  to make a woman cum

maybe it was like a woman

Entirely plausible shehe heshe

Exactly 

            I am going to be patiently committed

                                                             to be continued . . .

0750,  Reggaefriday,  8  9. 23

I Feel the Earth Move  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6913KnbMpHM  Carole King

he felt it slip as he wrotecognated  recognised 

                                                      ridiculous

earlier hed written

                     R I – D I C U L – O U S

                          L U D I C

now heading down a rabbithole gopherhole  someotherhole or another 

            he realised  L U C I Dwhich he was

   earlier he affixed riludicous as a descriptor

he had no choice 

now also rilucidous

                      jampacked jellypacked tamped

might suppose

it was a good thing he liked holes

exploring them

filling them

   he was going to take this one to bed tonight ansee going in hypnopompic an coming out in the morning hypnagogic whad he see

he expectedsuspected something would come of it

                                                                          . . . to be continued

1059,  Thursday,  7  9. 23

psychedelics  psychotropics cause ?  hypersynchrony

                                                         canonical view any accepted rule principle law criterionOHJOY by which something is judged  made him bonkers when someone fingeredplayed with canon  got it all wet an slipperyhard to grasp and handed it to him   canonical view holds that seizures result may result  fuckin comediccanonicals  when an imbalance between excitation and inhibition produces runaway excitation NOThowever  if inhibition is negatedplucked from the equation  hence hypersynchrony

                                   synchrony  within this context  is loosely why does loosely even exhibit when discussing neuroscience  his high schoolcollege sciences wouldnt abide loosely  imagine adverbdropping that into a labLABORIOUSLY DETAILED report   is loosely defined as large numbers of neurons firing action potentials IN UNISON! potentially   in unison

         neuronic lions and tigers and bears OHmy

hed welcome the zoo and then some

again

      as he wrote 

if someone is inhibited then they shouldnt take psychedelics  not an imbalance  unbalancedperhaps

if lacking mental agility

                        then No psychedelics for you!

he dug hypnopompic/hypnagogic (entering/exiting sleep) hypersynchrony

                                                                             a big fan  although he was a lucid dreamer

1546,  day-between-2-Ts,  6  9. 23

1038,  Thursday,  7  9. 23

Soup Nazi  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1jSTiKHOFEI

if/then  https://www.enago.com/academy/ifthen-using-conditional-sentences-in-academic-writing/ 

she broke his heart

he admits it

time an again

              ravagingache its murmur echo went out spread  like oil on water went down up a myriad of directions  spread like fine aerosol  atomised  

                                   she broke his heart she broke his heart she broke his heart

they were heartbroken for him

wondered how to console him

he heard he always heard them

                                 could feel them  bubbles within

he put his hand over his heart pressed

he could feel fractures mismatchededges facets plateshe could feel the heat of its molten interior somehow  contained  coalesced

he put his hand over his heart to console them

                                                 There there

he was fortunate to get that out

there really wasnt anything he could say

he remembered when his grandfather diedhis fathers father his grandmotherhis mothers mother held him rocked him

There there

she said nothing more

she broke his heart

all of Him suffered

0707,  day-between-2-Ts,  6  9. 23

1129,  day-between-2-Ts

Israel Kamakawiwo’ole  Somewhere Over the Rainbow & What a Wonderful World  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fahr069-fzE

You’re ridiculous!

hed taken her around the bendcouldnt keep he didnt stop  lost her

                                                                       an whenever he lost or was losing her she refused to crySTOP

so he didnt

ridiculous was her insult

he thought as often as he lost her her insult would have improved

he gifted her a thesaurus

                          when he told her he was getting her one she momentarily looked confused

Not a dinosaur Unless a Synonym was  A Synonymsaurus

                                                                Not ridiculous   The terms ludic 

he printed on a piece of paper  R I – D I C U L – O U S

                                      L U D I C

Some funhuh 

              You were in the neighbourhood

now she was simmering

as he knew she would

he used a word and hadnt offered its definition

                                                   they usually afforded the other that

she could crySTOP

not be lost

was her choice

You know what ludic isright

I don’t.

Why didnt yasay

I was waiting for you to say you usually do.

Aw  Ya didnt give me the impression you didnt know Did I blink when you did

                                                                                       Ludic

A fine term Adjective descriptor

                                     Showing spontaneous undirected playfulness

The ludic behaviour of kittens  An me

Playful?  Time’s there’s nothing playful about you.

Aw STOP   Yare teasin me 

                             Im off the charts playful 

Im riludicous

               Sounds like a Roman gladiator

You know wha tha is

I do I know.

Thanks he noddedalmost mockingly teasingly  Playfully Just wanted to be sure I hadnt blinked in the meanwhile

   maybe if he bedded her

0939,  Saturday,  28  5. 23

1256,  day-between-2-Ts,  6  9. 23

The Who  You Better You Bet  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UCfO9zClQ8I

he didnt listen close enough then

had he

he might have been a bigger fan

as it was

Peter Gabriel leaving Genesis leaving the door open for Phil Collins to emerge excited him Bout time he thought if he remembered correctly

                       if he was a betting man hed bet he did

Sledgehammer

the lyrics that would have incited him

he and his girlfriend were discussing the beauty of vaginashe called a woman who was scorningbitching her a cunt  ha! she’s too good for a cunt. a cunt is beautiful in my humble opinion.

he enthusiastically agreed a cunt is Beautiful

                                                but comon baby I called her a scummy cunt  he could have been more descriptive he apologised soured warm whippedcream with a wormy cherry on top  but he rather not

you just did.

I said I could have said but I rather not

   they suspended animation

                                      then howled in unison

often they howled in unison

Sex ran a hard first touching out their ardent pleasure of laughing at many many things together

but he digressed

Sledgehammer

Show me ‘round your fruit cage

‘Cause I will be your honey bee

Open up your fruit cage

Where the fruit can be sweet as can be

he would have been a huge fan

not occasionally curious

2240,  2sday,  5  9. 23

1044,  day-between-2-Ts,  6  9. 23

Peter Gabriel  Sledgehammer  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OJWJE0x7T4Q

Phil Collins  In the Air Tonight  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YkADj0TPrJA

Epiphanies

               What about you

she pursed her lips he almost came across the stool to kiss her they looked like beggin fruit

but they had only just been introduced

                                        she might think him forward

She may like forward 

Yawanna shaddup

Shoud I 

        Ive seen you gamble before

Not in the first ten minutes

Feels longer  Feels like youve known her longer

It does

        Doesnt it

Its okay we agree

                    Epiphanys perfect

You know where this is going

We talk around the water cooler

Its not been ten minutes

No  But your epiphanys not much older 

                                              We got your back

I appreciate everyones support

Just another reason why we signed on

she thought with her lips pursed

Youre killing me

   Im being thoughtful.  Its not often . . not often for me rather . I don’t know about you . however it hasn’t been my experience to be tendered a . . . such a . considerable . . question.

Inside ten minutes

Ten minutes?

                It feels longer.

Thas wha Iwe thought too

she finally blinked though nothe was sure at his we

                                                         Are you asking me or are you wanting to share an epiphany?

You have themthought so

Yes.   I do.

Is it ten minutes yet

I think you’ll have broken the record if you didn’t say for . . . until the next time we met.

Id like to meet again too

Are you asking me out?

I thought you just did

                       I don stand on traditions or rules  each is meant to be broken

Id be thrilled to go out with youthank you

he thought she couldnt quit blinking

                                     they really came on hard

Ah . . ah I . . . yes.

Where woud we gowhere were you thinking

when her mouth opened she quit blinking

                                           now the trick was keeping her mouth open

I was thinking about epiphanies not . . . where . . or . dating you.

No matter Im happy you askedgives me something to really look forward to

   I don’t know how that happenedhow’d that happen?

You  Me  Us   Them

Them?

Feelings

          Theyre more than feelings   Whoa oh ooh feelings

That’s a song.

It is

Epiphanies

Care to share

              An because weve just met you woudnt know but it falls to mewill always falls to me to say first so you have a keen understanding where Im coming fromwha my feelings are I dislike people who wannaplay gotcha or ambush

   It falls to you?

Yes  No surprises 

                   Transparency  Cross your arms Im undressing you 

she threw her arms Oh my God! across chest

Too late

        My my my my my 

You’re nuts.

Crazy

      Its too soon to talk about my nuts   Unless you insist

No.

Epiphany

           It occurred just before I turned around when Ryan hailed me to introduce us I love to touch I love to massage to caress  Although Im not keen on being touched

What made you think that?

If I liked being touched likely  I woud have had a massage by now

You haven’t ever had a massage?

No Ive no interest in having one but Im all over giving them

   I like massages.

Id love to massage you

                         he cleared his throatfist to his mouth     An epiphany

Ya gotta be kiddin’. You derailed my whole train of thought. 

                                                                  Give me some time?

Yabetcha he lookedup at the clock above the bar Weve known each other all of not twenty minutes

1225,  2sday,  5  9. 23

2144,  2sday

Morris Albert  Feelings  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aIspfWvkgzg