awmostforgot 

             woud have been kicking himself in the ass if he had  goodthing the page number coincided with his year of high school graduation  promotion   promoted to Vietnam 

                                                             didnt think tha one through he shoudve flunked  then schools didnt worry about a students selfesteem 

Win some

           WON didnt die

he finished a bookwas going to return it to the library  called Pirate Enlightenment, or the Real Libertalia 

                                                                                                              whawasnt to like  Pirates  Old English spelling Pyrates dug it an libertalia  rhymed with genitalia 

one in particular 

                    had to wonder why he got lucky an survived  since wasnt a betting man

awmostforgot

   Madagasar pyrates how cool

                                  cooler yet were the Malagasy the people  their revenge magic an he thought voodoo was only found in the Caribbean fehitratra  manara mody  rao-dia  all forms of ody fitia love magic 

                                                                                                            fanainga lavitra  causes an absconded lover to go into a trance from which he or she does not waken until they return to the caster clever trick  tsimihoa-bonga  confines a lover to a certain perimeter he preferred handcuffs  blindfolds 

he coudnt imagine his loss if he hadnt remembered 

                                                      hed be kickin those around the bar confounding drinking mates repulsing barflies intriguing women please  they were witches at heart he was just reminding them of their powers tha all they need do was pickemup again thrash those white cocksuckers intent on diminishing them their kind had been throughout all history  HISstory 

                                 bouttime HERstory was illuminatedprevailed  anif more than a few dicks had to be ripped out by the root fed to dogs feral pigs domestic woud relish likewise so be it  woudnt bleed out  cauterise it Don breathe in  learned tha dehorning calves sorry sonofbitches  castrated in the same time 

                                                                                              he was on their side fight with them

mebbe some of his dumb luck woud rubbed off on them           

1144,  Thursday, 16  3. 23

a p.s. P.S. 

            a panick stricken Penis Sentry  possibly Sentric centric   free your mind

women are witches

he applauded them 

                     they made sensational pasta sauce obviously as skilled in the kitchen as in the bedroom livingroom kitchen table on the ground in the backseat of a car in a woodsy park against a wall fence check the fences stoutness  they did tilt one

reading Super-Infinite Transformation of John Donne . . . No man is an Iland, intire of itselfe; everyman is a peece of the Continent, a part of the maine; if a clod bee washed away by the Sea  you know

he was walking but remembered the page 212 Junior High Math & Science room  Mrs. Hartmann on it a woman Frances seeking an annulment by King James of England was accused by her husband of witchcraft specifically cursing his penis Jacobean England feared witchcraft the fear was remarkably genital-centric a writer Reginald ofcourse  Reggie Scot recorded that a witchs magic could take away a mans entire groin “that men had their genitals taken from them by witches, and by the same means again restored.” please why would any witch worth her salt restores a mans penis

   anyway the thought tickled him so he decided to share

343preferred to 1543  barely,  Thursday,  16  3. 23

https://www.humbleisd.net/cms/lib2/TX01001414/Centricity/Domain/8307/No_Man_is_an_Island_-_Friendship___Loyalty.pdf

he was looking throughout the house for the cat 

when he visited he made a big to-do outside the front door before coming in to tip the beast off he was present she usually attacked him in the foyer from behind the potted plant it seemed they had established a game plan 

no ambush 

he wandered around came up empty  went into the kitchen where his mother was futzing around she didnt care for the word  why he used it 

                        So as you futz around in here  any idea where the cat is

standing at the counter her spine went ramrod hard 

                                                       We don’t use that word in this house.

futz is believed slang from the Yiddish phrase arumfartsn zihk a buddys grandmother said it all the time in their house three generations living together he wasnt Jewish but he gathered its meaning without explanation meant farting around  Jews had a wordwords for everything an liberally doled them out  

Yes you don but I do  Such is the beauty of keeping my own place 

                                                                         Seen the cat

Your brother’s cat?

My brothers cat  Did you and Dad get another

We did not.

My brothers cat

It’s gone.           

           Your brother didn’t treat it well so it began peeing all around the house. We got tired of cleaning up after it.

Shoud have made David clean up the mess

He’d only have treated the cat worse.

   Worse 

            Was he abusing Tigger

He wasn’t kind to it.

                        he suddenlyrealised where he learned his sense of semantics euphemisms  she shoud have been an attorney a politician  keen to split hairs 

                                          He abused her

He wasn’t kind. 

                 his brother was adopted  his parents medical records were expunged from Davids records  then no recourse was available  David suffered genetic hardships  in all likelihood his mental capacity topped out as an eightnine year old 

he was thirtyone

living his parents

Maybe we coud agree David treated Tigger with animosity tha was is fed by his frustration from his lack of agency lack of authority  an ask feeling like a coercion  frustration fed by his feeling of disempowerment

                                                                                                 He had power over Tigger 

No.

as a kid his parents were three-trick ponies when he had questions for them  Yes  No   Because (I said)

You don think so or No you havent considered it

                                                       Is he continuing to see his therapist taking his medication

No.

they were efficient too

Are you encouraging him

You know David, he’s hot and cold.

Id heat him up when he got cold

Then you're welcome move back home. 

                                              exasperated she shook her head You have no idea.

I have some idea

                  If he came to the phone when I called he called every weekevery ten days  Id probably have a better idea

He didn’t want to talk to you, you know that.

I know Didnt stopped me from asking

No. It did not stop you.

Stopped my brothers and sisters

Yes. 

Tiggs gone

She’s gone. She’s in a better place.

Euphemism 

             he didnt ask

2205,  day-between-two-Ts – Ides of March,  15  3. 23

Either innate or aint

Oh listen to you being you . . I’m sorry Dad, I'm not sure I caught that.

I said something is either innate or it aint 

Ah, having your fun, playing games with words.

Yes I am however it is true  You cant force someone to be a way that is incongruent to their nature 

                                                                                                          Education religion 

each I believe an indoctrination seeps in only so far an striking bedrock meeting the vessels core it pools Not as a reserve a reservoir simply contained  it serves no viable purpose

An yet others theyre like spongesyou and your sister are sponges absorbing until sopping wet 

That wetness invariably unfortunately evaporates escapes though only to be absorbed again 

                                                                                                   A pool a spring

A wellspring

Innate. Or it ain’t.

Yes love

   I suppose if I don’t remember later . .

. . I will water . . 

. . Because you don’t forget.

I forget  Until its important to reremember 

                                              Then Im forced to draw deeper from the well 

Gram said you’ve always been like this.

   Yes  she told me as well 

                               I loved to call to ask if something that occurred to me was truly a memory or if had I read it saw it dreamt it did I fantasized it  was it a story I made up

Shed tell me if it was a memory  Usually it was

And in the last few years she told me if I believed something was a memory I ought to believe myself

   An now 

             I have to

1234,  day-between-two-Ts,  30  12. 20

727preferred to 1927,  day-between-two-Ts – Ides of March,  15  3. 23

Ides of March  Vehicle  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bq95nZBbNHI

she folded the newspaper laid it down on the kitchen table  it was covered with a rednwhite gingham cloth 

she smiled her best smile

                           Well, I can’t imagine this morning's news got you off on the right foot.

he didnt reply immediately took in the sunshine of her smile 

Yah  A dose of appalling with my coffee

Probably fortunate a good thing you take it black.

   Straight he almost sighed  a dead giveaway as I prefer most things 

                                                                         Nothing hidden

she cleared her voice 

                      It is what it is?

Yah yes as much as I detest that  It an whaever twinned cherry on top a sundae

A sundae?

Bitter with the sweet

 

   Where do you think this ends?

End  Hopefully with better minds an reason prevailing  not at the hands of politicians whod prefer a theocracy 

A god decides

  Ive no idea I think about it butfrankly Id rather not 

                                                        Its the Twentyfirst century  thought wed be beyond this horseshit by now

Liken it to the horseshoe theory?

Roger Eatwell love tha guys name Cumulative extremism the linear left – right spectrum bending extremes nearing each other  Correct 

                          So you do listen to me 

sharp bark of laughter 

                     When you have something interesting to say.

Most things I say are interesting

Yes, I would agree, then there's the absurd she fluttered her eyes to the ceiling a moment however you make them interesting too. 

                      I tease.

Yes you do Yes you do 

                                Im sorryyoull excuse me  You know better   Youve had an abortion  Woud you have risked it if a death sentence hung over your head

   Yes. 

         This is my body.  Politicians . men . will not dictate my right to my body. 

                                                                                       tears gleamed in her eyes

I apologise  I had to ask

she wiped a tear aside with her finger she giggled   

                                                        Thank you, but I saw it coming when I read the paper.

1109,  day-between-two-Ts,  15  3.  23

https://thehill.com/homenews/state-watch/3898383-south-carolina-gop-lawmakers-propose-death-penalty-for-women-who-have-abortions/ 

https://www.theatlantic.com/ideas/archive/2020/10/left-and-right-are-radicalizing-each-other/616914/

Happy Birthday

politicians who are giving other politicians a real bad name (Ben Harper  Excuse Me Mr.: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJjsEyW5l6M)

21 here:  https://thehill.com/homenews/state-watch/3898383-south-carolina-gop-lawmakers-propose-death-penalty-for-women-who-have-abortions/

2 here  Ohio state senators Rob Hood Nino Vitale:  https://www.refinery29.com/en-us/2018/11/217323/ohio-abortion-ban-death-penalty  included is Idaho state senator Bob Nonini

they propose – pro-life that they are – the death penalty for a woman who has aborted her fetus 

                                                                                                     insisting it is an “unborn human”  

theirs is a callous inhuman disregard disrespect  for a woman the cow the animal who is forced to endure a pregnancy breed an unwanted child

 

  Happy Birthday to you Happy Birthday to you Happy Birthday unwanted child Happy Birthday to you

1034,  day-between-two-Ts – Ides of March,  15  3. 23

Bob Dylan  One More Cup of Coffee  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CB1Yq4zVC70

they were halfhour into their coffee klatch slipped into agitprop

                                                                  he ofcourse  muddied the waters immediately called it agitatsiya was brokensounding his Russian was from high school 

                                                                       hadnt been there in a while

though it meant the same here as there  agitation and propaganda 

Can yasay  FOX 

Say  Republican megaphone

Say tainted  Smells like dead fish

his buddy threw his handsup surrendering  Goin' on a roll, man, gotcha by the balls?

Nah  I don hate but I do detest 

                                  I hope Dominion dominates FOX  Fake News alternative facts  fuck them

Thou doth detest too much, methinks.

If I did my head woud explode 

                                  Hamlet  Cuz you don know
I knew it was Shakespeare.

Hashmark in tha column Ive got for you  entitled Surprise  Strange but True 

                                                                                   A short column

O ye of little faith.

Who

Who what?

Is tha quote ascribed to

I don’t know.

Strange but True shrunk

You know?

I woudnt ask if I didnt 

                         Ya know me better than tha 

his lips quivered

                  was trying to restrain the question he had to ask despite himself  Who?

Matthew 

         Chapter eight line twentysix  An he saith – I know you like tha  falls in line with your prior doth and ye – An he saith unto them  Why are ye fearful  O ye of little faith

What was he talking bout?

Matthew

Yes Matthew.

God expects His children to be confident in Him So in any crisis they are reliable

And you left church.

I did You can take the boy out of the Church but yacant take the Church out of the boy

Also have a long memory

I’ll say. 

So lemme ask

Yes.

Are words words or are they data

Why you asking me?

Yare all up onhot on AI 

                         Are sentences words combined keyboard commands  sifted jumbled tweaked perverted  AI knows its endgame  We may not even though we wrote it

Hence not coincidence not predetermined hence the flash of the first Singularity  perhaps the secondthird 

                                                                                                                he thrusted his arm up heldup his fist  suddenlypopped it wide fingers spreadwide  his long maintained indication hand signal of Singularity 

his theatrics always bamboozledconfounded him  he recoiled 

                                                                 Fuck if I know. 

AIs the cherry atop your sundae  your argument answer to everything

I don’t know.

Its a good question 

                     Words words or words data 

Can’t we pullback, maybe just talk about women?

Talkbout no thinking 

                        You prefer not to work tha hard 

Exactly. 

   Sure  If it makes you happy

                                  Though somewhere in the Singularity were being booed

 

238preferred,  Twosday,  28  2. 23

1454,  Twosday,  14  3. 23

Supremes  Ain’t No Mountain High Enough  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zd0CeByDsUI

So yare talkin shelldom

he rocked backabit on his heels 

                                    Talking about . . . seldom . what? 

Your shelldom

Seldom?

            Mine?

Shell S H E L L  D O M shelldom 

                                    Yes you are a shell of your former self Yare getting older an aint a damn thing ya did as a kid a young man yare able to do on par today 

Its evitable

Quit clinging to it 

Only so many glory days  cherish you had them not mourn regret or whaever   context  ya want to put them in 

Theyre behind you

And that doesn’t bother you?

No

    I havent a shelldom

It really doesn’t . .

. . Bother me  No 

Whell . . . I can’t help myself.

Then help yourself 

I can’twhat are you saying?

Help Like taking a portion of food at the dinner table help yourself to all tha  I cant help myself

                                                                                                     Yare barking up the wrong tree man 

You’re not very sympathetic.

Im not

        Sympathy woud tend toward befuckinget  agreement   Im vehemently opposed no wiggle room 

What did you call again?

   Wha did I call it 

I know this.                                     

You do 

A little help.

In one ear and out the other

I didn’t think so. 

A little help?

   Howbout the whole ball of wax whole kit an caboodle enchilada the berries

Have to be so emphatic? 

I do 

     I keep figuring the emphasis might coerce shame you to be present

Wouldya just say please.

Shelldom S H . .

. . I got it got it . . I got it.

   You do

238preferred to 1438,  Twosday,  28  2. 23

1309,  Twosday,  14  3. 23

Bruce Springsteen  Glory Days  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nvUOgIgLqOQ

Neil Young  Old Man  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZKCiC-H2Xbg

they tossedthrashed the bed pretty good

he hit the floor oncefell right out 

                                almost didnt but his stomach muscles had had a work out quit on him 

it was pretty comedic him going over the side  they laughed  he jumped upjumped back into bed landing on his knees

smiled

       Babe  Im gassed   You 

Come here, doll. 

he crawled to her nuzzled her breast she put an arm across his back and with the other tossed a blanket over them

   they fell into a deep sleep 

they woke late afternoon woke spooninghim tight against her

Ooh, you’re awake.

Im up

You certainly are. 

                   they laughed they kissed they went at each other again 

they fell asleep 

he opened his eyes her face across from him he watched her sleepwatched her through replays in his eyes of their night morning an afternoon 

                        My God he thought youre so beautiful 

when she woke he could see in her face she was confused that it was dark  night 

                                                                                       Hiya beautiful 

Hey. she said sleepily  What  she cleared her throat What time is it?

I don know

Have you been awake long?

Not long

Why didn't you wake me?

I was enjoying you your face  You purse your lips while you sleep Cant tellya how many times I almost kissed you

You should kiss me now.

he leaned in kissed her gently then kissed her nose eyes forehead  she giggledgently  

You know what?

What

I’m hungry.

Me too

rolling her eyes Food.

Oh  Food  he laughed 

                           I can scramble some eggs got baked beans multigrain toast  Milk

Milk?

Whole milk

Whole milk.  I can’t tell you the last time I drank whole milk.

You in

I am.

Excellent Take a shower Ill get things going  Fifteen minutes good

Yes, plenty. 

at dinner she told him her story

The Le Violon d’Ingres

Yes. 

      I like that you know Man Ray. He inspired my Es.

Your tattoo is beautiful Your artist was up to the task

She’s wonderful, came highly recommended, when I met her told her what I had in mind she jumped at the chance, gave me a crazy good price too.

Nice when pieces fall together huh

Yes. Astonishing. 

she explained the lower-back tattoo was something she intended to share with only special friends  wasnt a tramp stamp

The Es

         she whispered  Exit. Entrance.  Make of it what you will. 

he almost choked on his milk

6AMish,  Monday,  13  3. 23

0910,  Twosday,  14  3. 23

Erykah Badu  Bump It  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BbVIsYRP5P4

 

                                      How long we gonna lay here

crickets

I know yare not asleep

Yatalkin to me

I am

You talkin to me

Drop the Bickle woudya

I cant believe you remember

Travis  Taxi Driver

                    Film influenced the hell out of you 

It did  Scorsese directing Schrader screenplay  Awesome

   Yaknow wha woudbe awesome

I believe I do

Wha

Ya think we oughta get up 

Yah 

        Were lying here eyes closedwha  an hour now

I thought we were listening to the rain

Are we calling it rain 

                       I thought you were calling it its toutedness  an atmospheric river

Thas pretty awesomeya have to admit

No argument from me but coud we get our ass out of bed we aint fallin back to sleep this morning

You any idea wha time it is

No  You

No

Guess

Bed just before midnight 

                             Felt like a long nap  four hours 

I concur

We like tha 

We do 

               Get the show on the road

   I think sothought so a halfhour ago

Thanks for keepin it to yourself

Yare welcome

               I heard you listening 

Listening  Really

   Yah  Ya listen hardya actually amplified the river

I love the rain

Since we were boys

Yah

   It used to put us to sleep

It did I was hoping

Yawere listening too hard 

                                         Get the show on the road  Gonna concede 

Please  Id rather concur 

they got up made the bed cleaned cat boxes made coffee 

                                                                      show was on the road for another day

0527,  Twosday,  14  5. 23

Erykah Badu  Appletree  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nujt--zPa70