looking up from the book he read as he crossed the street he saw a cardboard sign leaning against the palegreen metal signal box  a vile disgustscent straighten his spine  he immediately he looked aboutaround for the street corner demonstrator who left it

Where are you he wondered

on it written in a shitty hand  VACCINES ARE A MURDER WEAPON 

                                                                                   Really 

to date Trumpvirus has killed 1,128,330 Americans  granted not revealed is how many deaths occurred to people who were vaccinated although he believed that number would be miniscule

therefore 

          NOT VACCINATED IS PLAYING SUICIDE

too bad the piece of shit wasnt around  and tempted as he was he didnt molest or walk off with the shabby sign leaving them to scribble another

they are within their rights to expose themselves as ignorant

guess1450,  Thursday,  12  1. 23

1321,  Reggaefriday,  20  1. 23

https://www.worldometers.info/coronavirus/country/us/

One Stella

   Dallaswants to call it Dallas  but its Maris Roger  Maris 

                                                            “. . . my forebears counting coppers out of clackdishes are what have brought me to this station in life. Jews represent two percent of the population and eighty percent of mathematicians. If those numbers were even a little more skewed we’d be talking about a separate species.” 

howbout tha

   Yah  howbout tha

couldnt refute it

hadnt stats 

it is an act of fiction

however fiction runsup to and often through huge paper hoops tha cheerleaders hold as football players run through them

nonfiction has nothing on fiction

fiction can bury nonfiction

but that depends on whether ones sharp or can be lead around by the nose 

he dug separate species

he was confident the human species was a continuum as he often chidedchuckled  the whitest black to the blackest white 

       he wasnt one to point a finger but there were those who embraced IQ testsno matter  its evident there are cretins and creators

   eighty percent  mighty daunting

not to pat himself on the back but hes weathered Jewsfound he held his own

that said 

          he was hardpressed to find sparring partners 

brain brawn

brawn brain

taken together  the ol’ one-two combination    jab cross

                                                             can put you on your back 

an innarestin perspective 

sobering

   then up ya go  rectifying it if you can 

Ya aintno ya aint  winnin em all 

 

bout 1415,  Thursday,  12  1. 23

2304,  Thursday,  19  1. 23

Steppenwolf  Rock Me  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ymhHVo39CVA

angered himpeople are slobs 

                               he looked down from a bridge into the creek a doublesized mattress laid on its side hungup on debris and overhanging tree roots

Whell shit

   then the atmospheric river bullrushed California the community 

today walking over the bridgepausing as he was prone to look into the fast mudbrown watersaw vegetations hair pulled severely back at least seven feet above the creek

                                                           mattress was gonehe tried imagining the force

tumbled downstream

on his left a tree that had grown at the creek edge was now swampedsurrounded now tippedleaning from one of its downward grown branches a black bra dangled

   figures itll be till it rots 

bout 1415,  Thursday,  12  1. 23

1111,  Thursday,  19  1. 23

War  Slippin’ Into Darkness  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MGROpqgra7o

dialogue

I’m sick and tired of waiting.

Wha arya waitin for

B4 4AM,  day-between-two-Ts,  18  1. 23

he caught his face twiststare off a moment slowly begin untwist 

                                                                    You okay, man?

Huh

   I asked if you’re okay.

Ah yah  Okay   Yes thank you   

What you thinking?

Crazy Had an old song run across my mind    I havent thought of it in years

One I’d know?

Oh no doubt Title an group 

                             Queer  Outa nowhere it came on me  Suppose one cant ever tell when something will surface  How they catchaffect them

   Queer?  Not your usual parlance.

No  Not really 

               But accurate

How so? he saw his countenance had relaxed If you don’t mind.

   No  I don mind   Renee a mild stirring began anew 

The song? 

A girl 

       Rather a young woman he sighed  Four Tops  Walk Away Renee 

Oh yes I know it . a great song.

Is a great song 

               Was a great song for her  Had a real thing for her    Real thing before the real thing

Renee A vivacious redhead Im not keen on gingers  Most the troublethe nonsense we got into was her doing But she was outrageous  A gas a riot loved how her mind worked   

I was all in 

And?

As the song goes

                   Your name and mine inside a heart upon a wall I was ridiculous

Awwhell  I was in love

First time?

First time beyond puppy love crushes   Remember

I do I do, although I can’t say I tied many songs to particular girlfriends, the time certainly . . but not to a particular girl.

Thas too bad

Too bad? 

          You’ll excuse me, by your expressions . . maybe not so bad.

Its not so bad Renee and Walk Away Renee are entwined  No sooner had Renee broke upHA we didnt breakup we werent an item  we were hanging  hanging out together a lot  A lot  

                                                                          But no sooner than we went our separate ways walking down the street  from out of a house out of an upstairs bedroom window I heard Walk Away Renee  Like it an she were haunting me

What happened? How did things go south?

HA My compass was askew Nothing went south All in my head   Renee had affection for me truly  She cared for me

She liked girls more 

Queer.

   Apropos    

2100,  Twosday,  17  1. 23

1154,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  18  1. 23

Four Tops  Walk Away Renee  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xu5ynjOlnOg

You know wha I think

You’re always thinking . . . sure.

You know wha I think is funny

A comedic venture, not your usual . . sure.

But not necessarily funny in a nice waykind way

There you are . . you were beginning to spook me.

I think its funny when celebrities decide to play house

Celebrites? 

Yes 

     An nowdays influencers  yes

   Why?

Avowed sociopaths cant make a relationship a marriage work An chances are theyre involved with another sociopath 

Two sociopaths don make a rite 

                                 Don want you to miss tha  Rite  R – I – T – E not R – I – G – H – T

HA no . I suppose you wouldn’t.  Didn’t occur to me.

Wha do you think

Do I have to?

No No   Have an opinion 

                            Yare more inclined to peruse entertain celebrities sport stars your televised sapiosexual significant others than I  Entertain them or have thought-processes about them because one has to have disposal income to date  prattle with on-line dating advisors 

                                                      Dare I say

Or shall I leave it to you                     

I don’t know what you’re talking about. 

You do

I don’t.

You do  

         Life coaches 

Oh. 

    That.

Yes 

So what made you think of that?

I have to think

 

Nothing

   Out of the blue the locus coeruleus  Blue spot

What?

Its the nucleus in the pons of the brainstem 

                                              The blue spot Derived from its azure appearance in unstained brain tissue Tissue  I like to think my brain is more substantialsignificant than tissue  Blue The colouring is due to light scattering from neuromelanin in noradrenergic nerve cell bodies

he blinked

Noradrenergic  Produces norepinephrine A neurotransmitter a hormone critical to the fight-or-flight response Which ultimately intimately may suggest why I havent a blue spot per se  Im prone to fight 

                                                                                         However tha doesnt exclude something out of the blue occurring to me 

he withheld a shouldershrug  I think I shouldn’t let you think.

    

1502,  Twosday,  17  1. 23

336preferred to 1536,  Twosday

https://neuroscientificallychallenged.com/posts/know-your-brain-locus-coeruleus

he was an optimist

his barber died

his barber died

he was an optimist  didnt matter that Milo had been cutting hair longer than hed been alive

Milo cut his hair last why wouldnt he cut it again

an adage he adopted No news is good news

no news was good news 

                            until it wasnt 

the news didnt work its way to himfind him

he had to go out of his way                   

missed Milo by a month

Milos granddaughter worked at the barber shop

he Walked In and stood at the entrance beside the first chair where Milo cut hair where he kept his appointment book on a shelf above the counter beside threefour old cardboardbound family photograph albums 

                                                                                                     Hello

she had someone in her chair 

                                   distracted working with a razor Just a moment please.

Please at your convenience 

she excused herself came over to him 

                                        Yes, how can I help you?

Id like to make an appointment with Milo  This Friday if possible

If  possible . . . 

                I’m sorry, my grandfather passed away just before Christmas.

tears were out of his eyes before he could form words

                                                          I    I  My condolences 

Youll excuse me  he used his body to open the plate glass door to escape 

   he was an optimist  until optimism was crushed

2311  Martin Luther King, Jr. Day – Monday,  16  1. 23

1123,  Twosday,  17  1. 23

he was becoming musey  Seeing

                                     confirmed it when he read page 29  Cormac McCarthys Stella Maris 

“How many people if they could snap their fingers and vanish would do so? . . . All trace of both being and ever having been.” 

        “To wish oneself never to have been. Again, not the same as no longer to be.   Who was that? Anaximander? Anaximanders conclusion  when considering the underlying foundation of the universe this world has the capacity for infinite plurality  thereby things within our universe are unique   The same for whom?” 

 

he considered disappearing to suicide several times and thought it was his until he read McCarthy

he would concede

who was he

             he wasnt in McCarthys league few were  but he wrote  and in near-vein he wrote How very nice to disappear rather than die  atomise 

                                        he didnt think as McCarthy did  negating ones life their history erased too   he may have been influenced by Ambrose Bierces The Devils Dictionary  Carlos Fuentes  The Old Gringo  example

Bierce left his correspondents job for Hearst publications and riding a horse into Mexico disappeared off the face of the earth   

   lotsa people disappear in Mexico

he conceded

              but was pleased that he and McCarthy concurred

1419,  Martin Luther King, Jr Day – Monday,  16  1. 23

1044,  Twosday,  17  1. 23

You don think thas a gamechanger

nonchalant  It’s not. 

   Well  ya knowan Ill give ya credit Ill not pursue on-line datingwont ever have dating apps  but I gotta disagree Put that out there an itll he hahaed change the game  

Clever.

Not so much you can take a joke 

                                   So how do you see it not being

It just isn’t.

It isnt for you 

              Itd kill me    Ahh but   but I see the rest of your equation  two sides to every coin

Equation? You’re working too hard. 

No

    Yave said so

   I’ve said so? 

Yes As a matter of fact when you did I mentionedI blurted out I ought to buy us tshirts

Tshirts?  I don’t remember.

Oh come on I havent offered to buy us tshirts beforewhich isnt to say tha thought hadnt crossed my mind  many times actually

I don’t remember.

Try these on for size 

                      Yours was going to read I DON’T CARE FOR ORAL SEX   Mine  BLOW ME

he saw somewhere in the mire between his ears a neuron fire  but seeing he also saw a wet blanket tossed on top smothering it 

              then he saw the sputter of false equivalence

NO Cant compare smoking to a blow job man

he preened I wasn’t going to say that.

Maybe not tha 

                But a false equivalence nonetheless

 

   I gotcha man I gotcha Save it

1508,  Sunday,  1  8. 21

1241,  Martin Luther King, Jr. Day – Monday,  16  1. 23

Fleetwood Mac  Rattlesnake Shake  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ob5Q_daCOB8

Whadja get

Nothing for you.

I asked wha you got I wasnt thinking of me

Nothing, looks like a goodie bag, it’s not.

Have to admit it looks like a party favor an the fifthgrade girls were gathered in the auditorium

We were.

Did you have a party

No. 

    We did not.

Anyet you got a pretty white bag decorated with flowers

   Yes. 

         What did you do while we were gone?

It was great We had gym the whole timeya really missed out  Yawoud have loved it 

Oh what a gyp. I would have rather been at gym too. 

So really  whadja get were friends 

                                      You know I woudnt say a word 

   You promise. 

Cross my heart hope to die he crossed his eyes

she giggled despite herself  You do I’ll kill you.

I know you woud

                   So

It was a lecture about our bodies, sex, menstruation, products, pregnancy.  Fun. rolled her eyes up into her head

Jeez arya kiddin  For tha ya should have gotten a real goodie bag 

Ya think.

Yah 

     You really woud have liked gym

I would have, yes. My parents already sat me down and talked about all this stuff, the birds and the bees . . and in detail, real detail.

Mine too First my Dad then my Mom then both I had so many questions They had books an they explained from their experiences 

             It was kinda cool

 

I agree, me too . . it made me feel closer to them.  But they’re cool. 

They are 

           I really like your folks

   Thank you.

And you know I like you

she smiled a mischievous smile theyd been in third fourth now fifth together 

                                                                               So tell me.

Wha

If you got a goodie bag after sitting in the auditorium forever . . what would be in it?

You said products

Yes. Samples, coupons, pamphlets.

I’d like rubbers lube . .

. . Lube?

My parents talked about it

Huh, mine didn’t, I’ll have to ask.

Yah  Ask 

           No pamphlets though  A Playboymebbe a years free subscription 

Are you kiddin me?

Oh no  Truly 

              Actually   Yawanna know something

What?

I mean this nice

                  I think when yare older you coudbe a model 

Thanks. 

         For Playboy? Thanks a lot.

I think youd be pretty nude

I think you better shaddup or I’ll sock you in the mouth.

Bust me he winked  in the mouth  

she pounded his arm 

she was pretty nude

1500,  Sunday,  1  8. 21

1049,  Martin Luther King, Jr. Day – Monday,  16  1. 23

Jewell Akens  The Birds and the Bees  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p8fLheex1nA

she mumbled 

he heard 

          I know baby I know he didnt know like she did  had he theyd both be in there 

she mumbled it again

he knew 

         however to admitconfirm it would exposehave him walking the street in broad daylight 

he was looking for a gangway alley dirt path founded by animalsanything to take him awayto obfuscate  duck into if only to buy him five minuteshafhour

No no she moaned I donwanna be here I want out I want out  I want out

 

   she wasnt talking about the hospital 

he knew that 

             he was trying lies on to comfort himself     she wanted out of the hospital 

I want out

I want out I want out 

                       froth on top the saliva he wiped from her lips

knowing her shed manage

perhaps not to her plan

but shed manage 

   she did

“ . . . general vacuity aside there seems to be a ceiling to well-being. My guess is that you can only be so happy. While there seems to be no floor to sorrow. Each deeper misery being a state heretofore unimagined. Each suggestive of worse to come.”  Stella Maris  Cormac McCarthy

1PMish preferred,  Sunday,  15  1. 23

Robbie Nevell  C’est La Vie  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CGtf9QfITQw 

 

   Really?  he didnt even try to hide his rolling eyes

which humoured him 

                 Yesreally  You know of the cloth Im cut 

I hope they threwaway the damn bolt. 

NAH 

      Have theythe goddesses I know your homophobic reaction if I insinuated the gods had their hands all over your mould 

        Have they smashed it 

What are you talking about?

might have been time for him to roll his eyesbut he didnt  he was confident if he had he wouldnt be able to stop

                                                                                                           Doncha get tired of me refreshing your memory 

I don’t know what you’re talking about.

Idiom idiot he didnt say they broke the mould when he or she was born referring to ones uniqueness smashed so they cant possibly be repeated duplicated 

                                       Goddesses kept mine

When I croak theyll repeat me

OH excuse me all to hell. 

   No need

             Mould status

I haven’t given it any thought.

Ive returned times over

Knock yourself out . . doesn’t matter to me. 

                                             What does bug me is your . . your . I don’t know what to call it . . . attraction . affliction . . maybe that’s it . .

. . Devotion 

            I don know bout youya havent ever said if my mother hadnt breastfed mecollected the sixpak of wet nurses  I woudnt be here  Had starved to death

I wouldn’t ask.

Why

It’s a personal question. 

Of whom

Whom?

   Yes

My mother of course.

Your mother woudbe embarrassed if you asked her if she breastfed you

We don’t talk about things like that.

My turn Really still kept his eyes from rolling 

                                                Correct I did say lactating teen  Yet another jab at Tolkiens cellar door  

Jeez.

Crazy how one word upsets you 

I don’t see anything attractive about it.

Well I cant make a horse drink once Ive lead him or her to water  I relish not being a prude

I’m not! 

Ask your mother

1403,  Saturday,  14  1. 23

1105,  Sunday,  15  1. 23

Stones  Get Off of My Cloud  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1sWqmMAvmdU