unseen doorsopening shutting slamming 

                                          they are all the time  he knew he missed themcouldnt answer every knockevery door every interruptionintrusion 

                                    or would he

locked doors un-locked ur-doors transoms swinging doors revolving split- trapdoors egress EXIT entrance In Out  out in interiorised exteriorised hypnagogic hypnopompicYES  all awkwardly stuffed hardedged soft pliable Dalian swinging fluttering in dreams moonriled tides rounded waves crystalline surf  magnifying water 

                                                                                                    amassed they forced him out 

    he woke

               in or out through what doorwhich door

what consciousness

who was he dressed in today 

    he was awake earlier than he wishedNO no  he had gone to sleep earlier than usual  the first door perhaps  or perhaps stacked doors he missed the shiveringexistentialslivers in between out between

    sitting up in bed he waited to hear a knock a doorbell 

                                                               there was a flurry of hummingbirds at feeders outside his bedroom window

    he mused  a window can be a door

before 7AM,  Twosday,  22  11. 22

1142,  Twosday

Steve Roach  Slowly Revealed  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TRvs-TCaVks

if its slipped your mindya didnt remember

or you havent been taught

President Kennedy was assassinated 59 years ago today

1257,  Twosday,  22  11. 22 

Dion  Abraham, Martin and John  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rwn8hIyiHvI

Why should nepo babies . . . 

                               Is tha a thing his daughter reminds him  always  Whenever you think Is that a thing? an ask me . . it's a thing, Papa. hed think shed get tired of setting him straight

                                                                                    . . . why should nepo babies have to admit their privilegetheir entitlement if White males cant  particularly White evangelical men who think the sun the SON GOD rises and sets on them 

                   spoonfed fortunatelyborn compared to white women whiners  gobbling horseshitgobbling replacement theory white supremacy critical race theory they cant handle the truth apoplectic White fragility their veryvery clever echoes  White Lives Matter! 

   NO recent entitled children neednt answer to their benefit of privilege nepotism until White men can acknowledge 400 years of theirs 

                     eventually swept away into the dustbin of History

 

310preferred,  Twosday,  22  11. 22

https://www.independent.co.uk/arts-entertainment/films/features/nepo-babies-hollywood-famous-parents-b2230537.html  

https://www.npr.org/2022/05/17/1099223012/how-the-replacement-theory-went-mainstream-on-the-political-right 

“You can’t handle the truth!”  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9FnO3igOkOk 

Mogwai  Music for a Forgotten Future  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YYpimokjfYw

You’re kidding meya gotta be kidding me.

No

Lemme get this straight . . you . youactually went on-line and found a date.

found tha tickled him he smiled as he answered I did

You actually rolled his eyes met someone who passed your obscenely stringent, chocked full of dealbreakers . resume?

Not wha I call it aint applyin for a job

You meet for dinner?

No  Coffee

Wouldn’t even pop for dinner?

Yare the one who likes to impress don confuse you for me

                                                             Coffee he coud see he wanted to refute him but theyd had tha conversation too many times

How’d it go?

Fell on its face

She passesI’ll assume she . .

. . Absolutely  Ill assume is my line yare who isnt absoluteShe

Quit . you’re always taking me off track.

Then stay on it  She

Awright. She passes muster . . 

. . On-line

On-line.  She post a picture?

She did a recent headshot full body shot

So she was physically appealing.

If either isnt physically appealing dealbreaker yah

Okay okay.

                She passes muster and it fell on its face.  How?

She took a new job

That’s good news . tending upward?

It is

She looked like her pictures?

Outperformed them

Awright . . then there was some dealbreaker?

   Yes

          Her job

Her job? eyes bugged Man, everybody’s got to eat.

They do She will

   You axed her because of her new job?

An immediate irreconcilable difference I wasnt gonna waste either her or my time

You didn’t even get through coffee did you?

We did not Unfortunately she asked Wha do you do? despitewhich I appreciate offered wha her new job was 

Shes working at Twitter

   First . . . you literally pick a girl up whowho was very attractiveyour words . who sat down on your lap and had been sitting on your lap and you set her down on her feet, patted her fanny, sent her away . . . because she was a life coach . . and this one, now, because she working for Twitter?

If the first then why the stupid question

his eyes bugged again Stupid question?

Stupid question 

                   Ya need to clean your ears

   You’re so fuckin brusque. 

Dealbreakers a dealbreaker man  Unlike your four five

0931,  Twosday,  22  11. 22 

https://www.theverge.com/2022/11/21/23472025/elon-musk-twitter-hiring-again-ending-layoffs?wpisrc=nl_daily202 

Nadja  Deterritorialisation  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ryf4MOC00r4&t=313s

 

   hierozoika 

              Google Did you mean: holozoic definition or heroica or heroic or hieratic? back in the saddle again 

                                                                                                                                  NO 

Greek the sacralisation of items bones of whales of prehistoric megafauna interpreted as remains of dragons giants monstrous fish recall Jonah and the Whale a foreshadowing of Jesus’ crucifiction the source of the bones was itself a landscape of alterity state of being other or different otherness 

                                                               a loaded word 

CHURCH by hook or by crook will author things for the Faithful to swallow whole  like pythons anacondasSNAKES  he was surprised many more didnt choke to deathhe heard them gag  but maybe they were who eventually left it 

                                                                                                                         he gagged 

but he gagged on laughterwas terribly humoured

the nuns werent

but they had their remedy or maybe it was his he was the only funny guy in catechism

they wanted him to pray hard for forgiveness and understanding   grasp obedience 

what was hard was kneeling on a broom handle while praying 

                                                                  he learned well at a clip pace clipped six months off the usual two years he celebrated his First Holy Communion

dropped out of Church

excellent instruction

thereafter when perceived authorities sought to compel him he battled them 

he was not appreciated they refused his ardent two cents

denying them their pleasure to fire him he dropped out

                                                          while some similar to churchgoers believed dropping out professed one was a failure 

he disagreed

                they were the failure 

hierozoika

   hiero-  hier-  as in hierarchy systems or organisations ranking people or groups one above another by status authority 

           a load of crap 

it remains wonderful to learn new words

early November ‘22

1206,  Monday,  21  11. 22

WORD Microsoft Corporation not to be outdone by Google it tried to have its way with him too

                                                                                                     he wrote sacralisation 

it hmmphedharrumphed snorted it disregarded himignored what he wrote and ratherpreferred to populate socialization

               has to be the Z S swap that disturbs the algorithm

 

Okay geniuses 

                 sacralisation act of making something sacred 

                 socialization process of learning to behave in a way that is acceptable to society society however is a plasticelastic term unto itself 

                               in a single glance an augenblick SNICKER one can see the words are not similar 

So please electronic kreatures Kraken of myth comes to mind your feeble entreaties fall on blindeyes deafears theyre not changing or altering me when I commit something to electric white paper reproduce it don argue  I am not pliable to suggestion

          Do the fuck as yare told like gut Kinder    

   he wasnt one to spare the rod spoil the child

1008,  Monday,  21  11. 22

sermomising

             Did you mean: reminiscing? Google questioned him

   sermonising  as per writers in England spelling sermonizing  Z S swap   wouldnt think that was beyond the algorithms 

             evidently YUP 

                               it was nice to inadvertently slip technology hole in the programming but programmers cant explain what their end-results actually endup doing

                                                        like having sex an not-exactly-a-child is born

sermonising

reminiscing

   2 Ss to one   Es Rs Ms Ns Gs crossout  2 to three Is   only the O singular 

but beginning ser- v. rem- would declaratively mean he meant sermonising not reminiscing 

                                                                                              why the question

could a Google programmer answer that or would they just shrug It’s a legitimate option, dude.

since they werent introduced he was pretty sure Google wouldnt call him dude 

                                                                                  he checked

D U D E  didnt get Did you mean: ? ? ? ?? 

   hed have shit if he typed DUDE and his name appeared

1027,  Sunday,  20  11. 22

1418,  Sunday

a reading from King James Bible . . the priest sermonisingdeploying hed suggest Genesis 28:11 

                                                                                                   And he lighted upon a certain place, and tarried there all night, because the sun was set . . .

   very humouredgently he nudged his mothers elbowmurmured Jacobs dream Isnt it the premise for the hymn Nearer my god to thee Sarah Flower Adams 

                                        he didnt believe but he loved the Bible stories his mother read to him as a small boy before he could read what he wanted

he returned from Nam the day earlierhis mother overjoyed 

                                                             Please please come to church with me tomorrow, I prayed every day every day for you.

he kissed her widows peak

                              Yes loveyes  gently he reminded her You remember I do not believe  he had been away two tours 

she hugged him harder but didnt say anything

they stood in the warm scented kitchen hugging

 

                                                                         Sssh, yes. she whispered in answer

laughter bubbled inside him

                              Youll please excuse me for a moment Maw he withheld augenblick leaving alone confused her  he stood he excused himself as he went along the pew before parishioners to the side aisle

he followed it out into the narthex then outside

   outside his laughter possessing himhe roared  he placed his hands on the church to hold himself up

he chortled Nearer my god to thee it almost came out his nose 

                                                              Nearer my god to me 

on his last R & R he went to Japan 

other GIs preferred Korea

they were looking to get laid American dollars went a long way 

                                                                   he was looking for companionship if something came in the offing so be it

three days in there was an offing

Yui

older than he shapelier than most Japanese women

seductively she shimmiedshed her bra though kept her V-neck blouse on

                                                                             I make me comfortable. 

Excuse me while I slip into something more comfortable

   Hai. Yes. her eyes bright

he tried  Excuse me while I slip into someone more comfortable 

Huh? confusion lathered her face

Im sorry Im teasing 

                      he fixed his look his eyesrelished her breasts furtive shadows behind white cotton  he inhaled exhaled  

          chuckled to himself Nearer my god to me

0654,  Sunday,  20  11. 22

1148,  Sunday

when he learned a new word he used it 

                                            much to the dismay of those he spoke to

histheir Saving Grace

                        he didnt talk to many people 

he read a German term

stood him on his head

he loved how it looked 

                           augenblick

reading furthur he discovered there wasnt a true English translation 

                                                                         there go the Germans again

Germans and Jews crushed it they had words for seemingly everything under the sun

   augenblick  is the feeling of a second as measured with a slow eye blink 

                                                                                reminded him a sustained glance Whawoud that be in German 

                   he worked for a company that operated on the groundsamong the housings of collegeaged kids his signature was needed on corporate paperwork which acknowledged he could be fired for committing a sustained glance 

Whas tha 

You know what it is. getting her panties in a bunch

   Define it 

             Seems overtly subjective  so define it objectively

the exec said I think we . .

. . Excuse me  No  We 

                         Please define it explicitly  because the terminology is too vague for me to understand  to commit my name beneath

he riled her Let me . . . paused he wondered what she was calling him in that secondwha he woud have given to be a mind reader . . put it this way, if you don’t sign it, that’s also grounds to be fired. 

                                                                               pleasedsmug she crossed her arms over her flat chestGotcha! cat that ate the canary

he smiled large in her face in the space where he was to sign he wrote UNDER DURESS  then signed  handed it to her

she looked unamused he was thrilled You can’t write under duress, corporate won’t accept it.

I suppose that might be a conversation for some other time  You have my signature

   had corporate knew German wrote augenblick  he would have been tempted to sign

 

What did you say?

In a heartbeat in an augenblick

Augenblick? 

               You’ve been reading again.

Yes Yawanna know

   No. I’ll take heartbeat, I know that.

Ill not stop  Augenblick

No you wont, but I’ll hear it as heartbeat.  I’m good.

1250,  Sunday,  23  10. 22

1411,  Saturday,  19  11. 22

Soolking & Heuss L’enfoire  Mal a la Tete  (Bad to the Head)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3lCOyJPFOb8

uninhibitid parked its asswiggled it deep into the couch of his sleeping brain

You got this? hypnagogia asked

Me? I thought it was yoursyour fingerprints all over it.  hypnopompia replied

Not mine.

I don’t want it. 

                they stuffed their hands into their pocketsHANDS OFF shrugged vapourised effervescently  Fizzies flavouring water 

his Dreamed-self didnt have pocketswas naked  he shrugged   Whell

                                                                          he was asking his Dreaming-self 

Whell wha

              I suppose we run with it

they were left holding the bag

                              three vinyl U-shaped booths on a wall in a breakfast joint  a plainclothes detective on either end  a German Shepherd sat between them in the middle booth  a police officer  Officer brown and a dog  Officer BAD they were distracted  B A D rolling through their collective vision compound bugeyes  B A D occasionally shuddered skipped skip stutteredthrobbed interrupted by B I D body in a duffel  that the cop nearest the door dragged in smearing blood across the checkered linoleum floor and leaned between his booth and theirs 

                                                                                                  Ya know what’s in there? he grumbled

 

Coudguess  they were speaking in one voice

I didn’t ask you to guess. 

                            You know what’s in the bag?

  No  Coud only make a guess

I can tell you.

Cant imagine why you woud 

                               Officer BAD stuck their wet nose in Dreameds ear  Dreaming felt it in his too retreating the Shepherd transformed into a uniformed policewoman

                                                             she smiled lasciviously and said  I can be a real bitch. What’s in the duffel?

I don know

she leaned in againwhispered Let me buy you a drink. Dreaming didnt hear she licked his earlobe leaned back Dreaming felt her tongue on his ear 

                           It’s a body shot in the top of the head, bagged.  B A D  B A D  B A D  B A D  B I D 

B A D  B I D . . . 

                      Dreamed rubbed their bugeyes  Drink? bitch whispered again 

A wellprovisioned spicy Bloody Mary very little ice   Two  Dreaming smacked his lips in anticipation

You.  Not him.

Then no thank you 

                 B I D  B A D  B A D  B A D  B A D  B I D   B A D  B I D . . .

Thas enough  Dreaming said as he leaned across bitch tapped Dreamed in the chest with the back of his hand  Were out of here snapped his fingers 

                                  B A . . anhe woke                                      

he rubbed his head over where uninhibitid sat where a depression in the couch remained

. D  B A D  B I D skittered in his eyes then shatteredshards flashing in the sunlight vapourised

earlyAM,  Saturday,  19  11. 22

1111,  Saturday

Noire & Blanche  You Never Told You I’ll Miss You That Much  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FwVZNFMIHaU

the former was--is a mole salting his pockets 

                                                “I have been going through this for six years – for six years I been going through this, whining and I am not going to go through it anymore. ohyes you are cunt And I hope the Republicans have the courage to fight this. he doesnt want to pay legal fees

                                                           I am not going to partake in it.”

FUCK YOU former

1726,  ReggaeFriday,  18  11. 22 

https://www.npr.org/2022/11/18/1137736663/special-counsel-trump-justice-department-jan-6-mar-a-lago

she smirked it wasnt a good lookhe found that unfortunate  You’re jealous.

his head answeredwagged NO before he could say  so he didnt

Please don’t shake your head at me the ungood look continued  Be honest.

Im brazenly honest You got your head on wrongno jealousy  contempt  stark contempt  Theyve nothing Im jealous of 

Itsa worthless emotionwaste of time

 

   Really? ungoodlook spoiled to haggard

he shook his headbit his tongue so How old are you didnt emerge  I told you  Take me at my word 

her attitude had been declining since she pickedup with a clutch of people he was uninterested making time forpolitely refused their invites refused their taunt You think you’re better than us.   No  blandly I don think of you at all 

his abruptness offended her

                              You ought to be nicer.

You makeup for me

   What do you mean by that wisecrack?

You make up for me 

                        Make of it wha you willI didnt agree to meet you for coffee to talk about this 

We agreed to meet to discuss our relationship . .

. . Our relationship he regretted he raised his voice  

                                                      Our relationship has nothing to do with themtheir your friends

I’d like them to be our friends.

Thas not happening

Despite the threat to our relationship? 

I woud hope youve given this some thought 

                                                      Im not swayed by ultimatums  

I haveI thought we shared something special.

   Special yes  Not common theyre common 

                                                  Enjoy their companytheres no reason why you shoudnt or cant 

So you’re giving me an ultimatum?

No 

    I enjoy being with you   With you 

You’re not jealous?

   No

the look finally fell

2017,  Thursday,  17  11. 22

1303,  ReggaeFriday,  18  11. 22