hard to keep a good man downharder to keep a good woman down 

                                                                         so he tied her up

 that said 

           he was going to be busy for as long as it took

hed guess   bout a week

hopes youll excuse him

2042,  Twosday,  13  9. 22

Carmen McRae  Whaever Lola Wants Lola Gets  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wou6iE_W6z0 

Rosemary Clooney  Sway  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eWI5tyS_sTg 

Esmeralda.zero

he never yet there he was used the Self Checkouts 

                                                   but he saw lines leading to the three manned cashier aisles of nine were backed up severalseveral deepby design  corporate design 

he had three items anhe unlike him discovered he was impatient  he wanted the hell out of Dodge                                                                                                                                though fact of the matter was when his turn presented hed slowup the line he used cash not the standard debitcard creditcard or some fuckin cellphone app real smart  keeping access to ones Checking account Savings account Someother account in a phone in a sieve  Whos the knuckledragger

the woman immediately ahead of him at the kiosk dropped a glass jar jam smashed on the floor she rapped a button knew right where it was which activated a yellowlighted HELP rotatingturret overhead

the assigned attendant he recognised her she was usually cashier hustled over saw the mess the woman pointed at and nodding retreated to a closet at the storefront across from the robotics  evidently located in anticipation of clumsy or butterfinger patrons

she returned and was down on her knees before he could say lickety-split

two of her top blouse buttons slipped their hold 

                                                      he was definitely waiting his turnwasnt going anywhere

eventually nearly done she felt air brush her  she tucked her chinlooked  aware she looked up at him

                                                                                                           You enjoying the show?

I am I am

she didnt blanch he didnt think Mexicans could her skin looked like powdered cocoa   

efficient she was done 

                         Maybe I can help you up

Now you want to be a gentleman?

Listen  Out the gate were all born pigsIm not ashamed of that but I can also be a gentleman if youll let me   Please

he held out his hand to her

a softbreathy chuckle 

                    she didnt bother with the buttonsher gaping blouse she reached and took his hand  he helped her up

Thank you.

Yare welcome  Anthank you he winked

shaking her head  Well, part of this she motioned to her cleavage is my fault, the buttons on this blouse never seem to stay buttoned.

An I never use Self Checkout 

                              he smiled  Must be something in the stars

You’re cute.

A real charmer

Charmer . that’s more accurate.

                                    Now you’ll have to excuse me.

he forgot he was in line  

                       a rather long line formed behind him 

completing his transactioncompleted to a collective moan of patrons who saw he was using cash he made a beeline over to the attendant 

            Excuse me

she turnedshe tried not to smile but did   

                                        Yes?

Can Imay I make amends for my pigdom

 Amends. 

             What kind of amends?plural . more than one?

Yes  you he motioned with his eyes an she an her 

                                                  and she blushed a trace of rose on her powdered cocoa cheeks I was thinking perhaps appetizers a drink  Though we might be stepping in itcoud be an immediate dealbreaker  I mean a drink not wine   Tequila . .

. . Because I’m Mexican?

No

   Becausethough not readily apparent  Im a Polak I like vodka  but I also like whiskies dark rum I am not keen on sipping wine Which isnt to say that with a good Dago meal I don enjoy a good red table wine

                                                                                                    Balls in your court

  Do these things naturally occur to you without a thought?

Don have to think to be honest thas my default 

                                                   Just as Ill admit an admire my pigdom

Ah. I see. 

             I think hors d’oeuvres, a drink . . would be very nice. 

Fine  he gave her his numberscribbled it on a piece of paper folded in a library book The Dawn of Everything

                                                                                                                   Balls in your court kid  Line never gets old 

                                      Yare smiling arent you 

she nodded

  Doya think you coud tip your mask so I coud see 

                                                       Ill show you mine if youll show me yours                                   

laughing out loud she pulled her mask down to reveal her grin

                                                                 she didnt cover her mouth 

freeing a band from behind his ear he slipped his aside  

                                                           My my my  you have a beautiful smile  gay fullthroated laughter

Thank you, thank you very much looking at the strip of paper  Joe . Joe, I’m Esmeralda. she had a firm handshake  I’ll buzzya soon. 

she called that evening

they decided to meet at a place she likedcould vouch for

theyd meet there 

*   *   * 

he arrived earlyhe was excited

 

to be continued

very early AMish, Day-between-Two-Ts,  7  9. 22

0739,  Twosday,  13  9. 22

Cake  The Distance  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F_HoMkkRHv8

the hell he was traipsing by rail the light fantastic 

                                                     happily helping unfold a new season with family

a renewal restoring old teases an rivalries

he woudnt bypass any of that for all the tea in China opium in Afghanistan  Hmm 

  back Moanday

0716,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  7  9. 22

he rolled his eyes friend was always talkin whahe woud do 

                                                                 Woudya stop alreadyjust stop

I’m just sayin . .

 . . I hear ya 

              Yare saying sounding like regurgitated talking points that youve pickedup elsewhereya did your homeworkyah . .

. . They’re worthwhile . .

 . . They are  Im not disputing tha 

                                     But rather than telling me something I know gimme something original something out of your own head

Something original?

Yah quickly somethinanything 

something anything might have been a bridge too far                                      

BLAH yare beginning to irritate me  Blah  blahblah blah  blah come on mansomething yaint braindead

                                                                                                               Lemme tee you up Soyah if you were he didnt end it he let it swing in the breeze

                                                                              An original              

If I were . an original . . . a what?

A fuckin god whaya said woud drop 

                                          Whawoudya say

About what?

Bout any of the shit we discuss Wha disappoints us   Rectifiy it 

no lights danced in his eyes hed gone dark  

nothing was really in mind when he began hummin just began 

                                                                   then begun he sang  If I were president of this land  Id declare total war on the pusher manId  cut him if he stands Id  shoot him if he runs 

                                                                                          A god a president having the power to make a pronouncement then try an juice it to action seewha comes of it  if it coud run a course 

                                                                                                             God be best

But we don believe

                    What

I don’t know, I really don’t know.

                                    About what? 

Anything 

          Any  old  fuckin   thing

the shrug looked painful I don’t know.

  Water 

         Western United States is worriedcryin about lack of water  Colorados trickling Lake Mead scratching bottom  Hoover Dams in trouble  Whawoudya do about that  We know there are fairieswave a magic wand 

I don’t know.

Close every golf course in the West 

If the United States is worried about carbon global warming 

                                                                shutdown every auto motorcycle snowmobile racing venue minimisecap all professional sport attendance

That would be unAmerican.

Tryin to mitigate problems man 

                                 But yare right  Death is the American way of life  Stay the course ofcourse don do a gawddamn thing

 

2330,  Thursday,  18  8. 22 

0944,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  7  9. 22 

Steppenwolf  The Pusher  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zv6PY1BQLBE

he was trying ketamine therapy

it wasnt for depression

                       was for digging in on onetoomany straws that broke the camels back lossesdeaths  deaths use your words he hoped it might open a door let out some bad air fumigate ventilate circulate alleviate some weight from his shoulders help bring smiles quicker to his face 

                                               six in a month pretty steep

life isnt war

or was it fair

it bent him

he needed his spine straightened 

during questioningcounseling his therapist admitted she had submitted herself to several ketamine experiences it was critical she said if she was going to be able to help others

were it any of a fistful of other drugs he could have been the therapist 

                                                                          he used them for selfimmersion plumbing rappelling inwardly

                      so knowing she had provided him with utmost confidence

they jived 

just before she administered it intramuscularly he preferred it over an IV – so not to be tethered – an also once injected it couldnt be adjusted or taken back he said

                                  Isnt it unfortunate  a shame a bloody shame that every physician we seek for care hasnt had a near-death experience

1341,  Thursday,  7  4. 22

1227,  Twoday,  6  9. 22

https://summit-med.com/intramuscular-ketamine-injections/

theres a metallic scuff 

                      played in his ears   lets him know they think that he can be played

he loved it

tickled his balls

to be underestimated

                        hubris 

he couldnt say how often hed been underestimated

maybe it was that stupid look he posted on his face

if they saw his real face theyd give him a wide berth 

                                                           really w i  d   e

 

not only was he an introverthe was antisocial

society brings out the worst in people

case in point

               social media

     whoever thought thatd be a good idea

  pureansimple monetisation

hardly meant for the good of mankind      

2209,  Monday,  5  9. 22

1006,  Twosday,  6  9. 22

the end of everything 

                     to accept ones demise  rolled into Everything is comforting 

You first

No, please you.

I insist  You 

wait long enough an one or the other will become violent 

                                                           anfor wha purpose

its the end of everything

                          but its not is it 

when we die everything dies 

                              Everything then tiptoes away silent as a mouse so the Silence is comforting

in this case for you                                                                

hes tried 

         its impossible to wake the deadHOWLING SHRIEKING ROCK n ROLL screechingfreeform JAZZ 

                                                                                                             they don wake

theyre dead

hard as a coffin nail                                                                                                                    

hard humans arent attractive

though multiples better than sloughing  putrefying  humans

the End of everything

 

I don’t think it’s healthy for you to be considering the end.

Death

The end, yes.

You cant call it wha it isDEATH

                                 You think its got its ear to the ground listening for yousetting its sights on you next to victimise 

          Not victimised  Murder victimises  Yes death is a byproduct of murder however Im not fantasising on being murdered  Im fantasising my demise  realising it is not fantasy  embracing it

To put you at ease  its a phase Im going through an itll pass like all phases Ive gone through

Im just coming to termsembracing Reality 

  I will miss the sky the sun the moon the stars  the constancy

1727,  Sunday,  4  9. 22

0949,  Labour Day – Monday,  5  9. 22

Sia  Chandelier  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2vjPBrBU-TM

he said Tits for God

that grabbed his attentiontipped his head like a curious dog ofcourse he is  Tits? Wharya going with that?where did it come from?

Its a fact 

          Obviously a way to fold men into religion

Fold?

Sure think particular recipes require their ingredients are folded into the batter Fold

Ah, I gotcha.

I thought so

But what does that have to do with tits for God?

Again  think a moment

he chuckled I'll have to admit I’m too distracted to think just now.

Awright this is how I see it play out  Papa was folded in 

                                                             He has a daughter who coming of age blossoms a crazy builtbeautiful girl No way shes going out with just anybody

                                                                So chumming the waters baiting hooks some chucklehead who can make a play throws in he submits 

As my old man told his best friend at a company picnic where he first laid eyes on my Maw Donnyboy, I’m gonna get into her pants even if I have to marry her.

To be fair Tits for God werent in play but by analogy a comparable mechanism was struck

Christ.

1828,  ReggaeFriday,  2  9. 22

1217,  LabourDay –Monday,  5  9. 22

feng shui 

         dared someoneanyone tell him it didnt sound like function or that either were at odds with the other

wonderednobrainer which came first 

he had to look 

               mid16th Century  from French fonction from Latin function(n-) from fungi  perform 

feng shui no date attested but because its Chinese it has to be ancient  feng wind  shui water 

geomancy 

           using energy forces to harmonise individuals with their surrounding environment                                                                                                                              Qi pronounced CHe long e

cosmic current has the same patterns as wind and water and understanding it can affect these flows thereby improving wealth happiness long life and family 

                                        it is communist China totalitarian China hows Qi shaking these days

he couldnt say

outside looking in things arent necessarily what they appear 

he understood what he read

which is ephemeral 

                     which is because he hadnt experienced China first hand or will

however it seemed to him that feng shui -- function  function -- feng shui were interchangeable something akin or aKim to doppelgangers    

1828,  ReggaeFriday,  2  9. 22

1059,  Labour Day – Monday,  5  9. 22

she set the bee free

 leftie

in her ardor to trap it perhapscrush it against the screen door the bee dropped like leadhit the outwardangled sill and tumbled out to freedom under it 

                                  leftie was incredulous 

he could read her spine

predatory shivers shook it

                            but there was nothing to predate

bee tucked and rolled

who knew a winged insect had that sense 

                                             hed argue it did 

most argued otherwisehe was out of his mind You believe trees are sentient. THEY’RE NOT. 

                                                                                                 asif raising their voices made them correct

fuckin hubris

              lack of true wisdom  sapience  which reinforces human moral blindnesshuman supremacy anthropocentrism we selfdeclare  ONLYonly human beings have the quality of sentience that make us self aware 

in a forest trees provide a neural net  theyre hotwired similar to our brains  they communicate between themselves

cant possibly imagine how fortunate we are that cant hear them scream while theyre burned alive in forest fires

Can count our lucky stars

Hearing them we wouldnt forget for the rest of our life 

the bee was free

leftie was miffed

all for now was righteous in the universe        

1315,  Sunday,  4  9. 22

1640,  Sunday

https://www.quora.com/Are-trees-sentient-beings

OUCH she was out of synch   he wished he could help her but she was beyond him she wouldnt look at him he was right in front of her

   NO

last night

a stumbling apparition

dressed for the cold

he lived in SoCal

she wore a white stocking cap

white scarf around her throat

white socks above the top of her boots

rest of her garments jet black  slacks  sweater  car coat  boots 

she stumbled

               he couldnt tell if she was ill inebriated or stoned 

WHOA WHOAWHOA thought she was going over WHOAwent back on her heelsthought she was going over  she pulled it out

looked like she had something in herbook looked like she had a book in her hands  she thrust it out in front of herself when she rolled backwards 

                                 ballast

 

  regained  she stood fastlegs widespread

clutched the book to her chest

gamely  steadily    she turned around 

she walked away from him 

walking off she disassembled asif made of ash

he watched her until she was gone

it appeared she dropped the book

he walked over to where he thought it fell

dirty snow

           smudge of ash 

it melted quicklyscarcely a puddle

0937,  ReggaeFriday,  8  4. 22

1232, Sunday,  4  9. 22

Tricky  Pipe Dreams  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J2zHWJeEgUM

Doors  Riders on the Storm  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7G2-FPlvY58 

THAS IT majority MAGA Republicans have shitabsolute SHIT for brains thas tha stink                                                                                                                                they refer to the FormerGAWF

GEOTUS get this BATSHIT   God-Emperor of the United States 

if forced if measured  he had three wordsthree syllables for tha

                                                                    Et tu Brute 

he could imagine OrangeFormer in a green room desperately trying to rub one out Sorry boss shortcircuit valves thrownaint working Take another pill! before addressing assembled dickheads an nuffysnatches 

                                                                                       Awhcom on thas impolite  Usually yare able to check tha at the door

Theyve kicked it wide open No more   Call it fatigue 

                                                         Medias desperate to maintain a false equivalence equalbalanced reporting 

         When it aint it aintquit bending over backwards to appeal to those who are as appealing as infectious ratshit moldering in small corners of avenues undisinfected by sunlight

 

  God-Emperor 

                  He can suck my cock

   

1722,  Twosday,  30  8. 22

1525,  Sunday,  4  9. 22

batshit  https://qz.com/1092037/the-alt-right-is-creating-its-own-dialect-heres-a-complete-guide/

Et tu Brute  https://nosweatshakespeare.com/quotes/famous/et-tu-brute/