Man some people catch wind he doesnt watch television an theyre on him essentially to defend why they do

                                                                                                                What do you mean it’s dishonest? I know reality shows are produced, aren’t real, I don’t watch many, it’s like, like, you read a fiction book, a good book, it’s not real, but that doesn’t lessen your enjoyment of it.

I agree

You agree?

he cast his eyes about the room at all the beautiful people he came with someone he promptly lost

                                                                                                       There an echo in here

But you agree.

I agree television is dishonest

they were running out of steam

                                whenever people run out they become abrupt they dont intend to be shortcome up short just aint got the gas

                     Ohyeah, howso? almost poetic  

he spared themdidnt dress down their interrogation skills didnt tell them theyd never work a black site now that that was an American thing  America Bushwhacked his how was really quite simple

                                                                            but sparing them didnt mean he spared them his language his empathy ran only so deep his wasnt as deep as Saharas sand

                                                                                      Youve fucked  funny how fuck was always something of a haymaker in polite companythat was their assumption  a poor assumption

he waited  anwaiting he wondered if patience was empathetic or just pathetic  Christ 

some went deaf

went bugeyed

went DeNiro “You talkin to me . . you talkin’ to me . are you talkin’ to me?”

others squirmed

                 maybe they hadnt been fucked in a while and didnt want to rat out their partner

by this time echo would have went off and not-really-hung themselves autoeroticism It was a great moment, I just wanted to maintain it only another moment longer.

                                                      Youve fucked right Some time

I . . I . I don’t see how that has anything to do with . television . . . with . television being dishonest.

How can you not Are you full of shit have to remember he didnt solicit this moment

                                                                                            he was having a whiskey with Jacklyn mentally undressing her she kept leaning in earnestly on their conversation he kept looking down her blouse an still was unable to assess if she was braless or not anif she was were her tits artificial or was she fortunatelyformed endowed he was determined its little games he played that by nights end hed find out even if push came to shove anhe had to be blatant and ask

                            although he rather not  he was a sentient sensual being

it was hard not to sigh so he sighed Aaaah

                                                         Youve fucked which meant echo was found hung girlie mags spread out across the Berber carpet before him it was a him thing gobs of cum spattering glossypages an an  one impossiblylong thinned yet intact gob stretching almost to the floor from his still erect cock

Yes.

When you got up in the morninggot out of bed you were nakedI fuck naked you were naked right

Yes.

On television few and veryvery far between does either partner get up an out of bed naked

                                                                                                Horseshit its dishonest anif theyre lying about that then ya can bet yer sweet ass theyre lying otherwise

I don lie I aint watchinlistenin to lies

enthusiastically Jacklyn cried I’m with you. an hugged his arm tightly

                                                                           No bra 

2233,  ReggaeFriday,  26  11. 21

1444,  ReggaeFriday,  3  12. 21

$808K -- killed

speaking at the White House 27 February 2020 Former said  “It’s going to disappear. One day, it’s like a miracle, it will disappear (like magic?).”

Trump virus

Delta variant

Omicron variant

807,926 Americans killed  We dey top o’ da heap!

1555,  ReggaeFriday, 3  12. 21

https://www.worldometers.info/coronavirus/country/us/

https://www.irishtimes.com/news/world/us/one-day-it-s-like-a-miracle-it-will-disappear-trump-on-covid-19-1.4370294

https://www.factcheck.org/2020/05/trump-baselessly-claims-coronavirus-will-go-away-without-vaccine/ 

jawdropping

              supposedly an intelligent woman  Justice Amy Coney Barret believes that a woman could carry a fetus – they didnt want – to term and then put the child up for adoption 

                                                                       because shes adopted two children

Isnt she special

reporters havent asked her why shes only adopted two or asked how many children have been adopted by her extended family and friends and associates

Such a line of crap

                    Have your rapists baby your fathers baby your brothers baby your uncles baby then after the babys leeched and distorted your body aint like dropping deuce give it awayyaknow  like to Goodwill

                                                                                                  Somebodys gonna stop by and pick it up OH, I need one of these!

2215,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  12. 21

1314,  ReggaeFriday,  3  12. 21

Dig the clever tshirt: https://nymag.com/intelligencer/2021/12/amy-coney-barrett-adoption-myths.html 

 

he tried relentlessly to get Mack out ahead of himself  despite Mack

                                                                       not onenot a sheep to follow the leader hop barbed wire fences strung by advertisers he recognised he might be Macks best shot                                        

he had a penchant to stir things up

given his product Mack putting lipstick on a pig it occurred to him hed have to deploy slight of hand seek interest or advantage subliminally

                        while Mack was dull he was most women werent

                                                                         hed sell Ohmy, what big eyes you have, Granny. All the better to see you with. Granny, what big teeth you have. All the better to eat you with. which he desperately invoked time an again trying to convince Mack that was reality  an necessary – to get a head romantically    

hed try to lure women

                       anif they rose to the bait bit   well that was on themhe wouldnt have pity

Mack used words like adiabatic usually incorrectly he preferred IQ to EQ preferred explaining himselfhis logic by sketching graphs Bell curves eliciting whathebelieved was the unimpeachable Dunning-Kruger effect

one might see the Sisyphean challenge he struggled with

how now how to stir the pot

                                  tshirts   have Mack tout a style  a fashion

                                                                               that way without a word hed be out ahead of himselfhe didnt have to open his mouth all he had to do as he instructed him was take credit doff his cap  be what he wore  then minimally relate his perception

first T was Down Canyon Spill

                                      get down in the canyon lap up the spill

second was  Heavy Air

             Going Down

                            selfexplanatory

   

Mack dug the tshirts

                      It’s cool you pay attention when I speak.         

Ohman woudya stop you don speak ya lecture gotta lose that Converse Listen Run with the wolves You fancy yourself speaking Spanish La Loba

                                       Nope  Mack had no idea he swung an missedhe doubted Mack knew he had feminine side  squat yin yang

 

he put on Down Canyon Spill and checked his look in the mirror

                                                                    I look good. 

A fine figure of a man

                        Now listen up best foot forward go with the flow 

I always go with the flow.

You do not That said In ya go

                               meant innuendo  maybe itd stick   who knew

before 1530,  Saturday,  27  11. 21

1027,  ReggaeFriday,  3  12. 21

Àbáse (feat. Jesuton)  Ela  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P6ihAI4TEkM

 

he looked up the brickwall alleyway towards the nearer street

                                                                  he expected her to come from there not up behind him

the alleyway hadnt changed since he left the cityout of state  bangedup trash cans sullen abused trash containers bits of paper refuse dribbling on the current that swept in an through crumbling or peeling advertisements on the walls he couldnt fathom why things were advertised in the alley  some were obliterated by highreaching graffiti

                                                                                                             traffic it saw was garbage an delivery trucks occasional cars sneaking shortcuts little foot traffic hed been there fifteentwenty minutes  no one passed

she wanted to meet him there

it just up the block was the movie theatre

                                           they had their first date there a twin bill he didnt remember the movies he gave her the ticket stubs he remembered her sitting beside her sharing popcorn her eyes brightened by the light off the screen 

when the movie let out he walked her home

                                              they walked past this alleyway on an impulse he pulled her into itaway from the citys eyes an kissed her their first kiss he leaned against the chilled bricks holding her

                                                                                                      she kissed him

at her front door coachman lanterns shining they made her curfew they kissed again passionately going in she turned smiledasked if hed call againYES  she said that the alley was the oddest place shed ever been kissed

                                                                                                           he laughedwinked he told her he intended to kiss her in odder places if she was willing

                                                                         she gaspedlaughed  he walked home five miles hearing her in a loopseeing her bemused glee

Summers end he was drafted

the horror of Nam changed him its futility  stupidity

                                                        too many never returned home  anif they did they were changed some didnt recognise themselves in a mirror an sometimes in a mirror more than a reflection was returned

 

 

they hadnt seen each other in thirtyodd years

he happened in the city

                         ran into a mutual friend they remembered he hadnt encouraged him what an item everyone thought he and she were  that when he came back not if he came back odds-on they were a good bet to marry

Mare still lives here.

I didnt know

You ought to look her up.

he said that that was unlikely

Are you staying long? We could have a drink this eveningtomorrow.

Im free tomorrow evening

Where you staying?

Loughrans joint just down from the bus stop

You couldn’t do better than that?

Memories man

                You remember Loughrans

Hey, between us.

It is

Good good, after dinner, say Eight, Ill pick you up.

Sounds like a plan

 

that evening the telephone rang in his room

it was the Desk

                 they asked if he wanted to take a call Loughrans maintained a switchboardhad always been a thoughtful establishment  protected their clients privacy

                                                Who

A woman, she said you’d know.

Fucking guy he thought he outgrew being a busybody

                                                    Yes I know  Please put her through Thank you

You’re welcome.

Hello

Hello, Joe.

Hello, Joe.

           she stood framed between the brick walls on pitted asphalt behind her the storefronts cars casually passing he didnt have an angle on the sky it was blue maybe it had fallen overcast he wasnt paying attentionwas dabbing memories

Hello Mare

she walked towards him 

she wore a brimmed hat a camelcoloured kneelength coat

her steps were smart

                     she looked like she wasnt therelike a reflection in a mirror approaching him it broke she disintegrated in shards next step she reintegrated  next disintegrated in finesparkling dust reintegrated

between many disintegrationsreintegrations he watched her saw the teenager he kissed

                                                                                              then a woman he didnt know

wouldnt know

     still

               something inside him was contented

0836,  Sunday,  28  11. 21

1222,  Thursday,  2  12. 21 or 12-02-2021

Christina Yantzou  VHS  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3ipEDFkFL_A

 It is

very nice,

isn’t it?

he was almost stricken

                       he watched the letters appearprinted one by one on a queer fog mask on the glass over the painting  it captured his attention  like warm breath exhaled on a cold pane  their daughters had painted it for their mother

the handwriting was unmistakably hers   

when she finished he whispered  Yes  very nice they did a good job

it was a watercolour

                      at the lower left they painted their lips their favourite colour and kissed the paper beside the kisses they wrote I love you very much, Mom an printed their pet names Angel Shorty

she had him hang it over her dresser so she could see it first thing every morning after rising

                                                                                                  he didnt recognise his voice

he heard the girls run up the hall to use the bathroom 

before they could close the door he yelled after them

                                                     Finish quick girls then get dressed were going out for breakfast

he needed fresh air

he dressed quickly brushed his hair

he heard them come back down the hall

                                         Quick girls nothing fancy Jeans an a top

he stepped to the threshold of their bedroom and through the open door watched them dressleaving their drawers open  they saw him We’re hurrying, Dad, this is really nice, such a nice surprise. they would take the girls for surprise breakfasts

he hadnt since she died

they rushed into the hallway and crashed into his thighs   Good morning, Dad!   he hugged them against his legshis hands widespread at their backs   Good morning my loves   This is so wonderful.   Unexpected is the best kind   Like Mom would say.   Yes like Mom would say

they began down the flight of steps to the landing

                                                   Angel noticed first It snowing, Dad. looking out the window at the landing he didnt see snow Shorty followed It is, it’s snowing inside.

it wasnt snow

Isnt that something Lets keep walking girls Careful on the steps

                                                                   It’s snowing inside, Daddy!   Careful on the steps girls

a soft talcum of ash

0333,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  12. 21

prefer 112 or 1312,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  12. 21

 

Family yaknow how it is

          she didnt answer him right off  like she had to chew on his premise he rather she chew on his penis

                                                                                                                             I do I do, but your family is . . is . how to say this kindly. . intense.

Perhaps you understand it as intense because I speak for it don pull punches an don make exceptions for them treat them as Id treat someone off the street

                                         Which doesnt mean I am not invested don have skin in the game I wont tolerate tripe

No . . you have a low tolerance for things that rub you wrong.

                                                                  So as you were saying, so I understand correctly, your nephew is upset because your niece, who just moved into her first house, has extended the entire family an invitation for future Thanksgivings.

Yes

Why would he be upset?

Hes been having Thanksgivings at his home for his immediate family parents his wifes parents  He feels shes stepping on his toes

Has he invited his aunts uncles and cousins before?

No

Yet your niece has extended it to everyone?

She entertained nearly thirty for dinner

You talk with your nephew?

No  He was at his Thanksgiving  I talked to his mothermy sister

Was she at your niece’s Thanksgiving?

She was

Ohmy.

       Tell me you were gentle, gentler, than . your . . normal mien.

I was

       I played stupid

                         Anya know how hard that is for me

 

after 1700,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  24  11. 21

1152,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  12. 21

 

he was thinking about it

                        he couldnt rememberhe might have been mistaken  but he couldnt remember doing it he was more apt to roll his eyes straightup not averted left or right straightup how hed look if he thought a bird was sizing him up to shit on him

                    the telephone rang

Papa!

Hey baby  Look at you callin the right number

                                                it drove her nuts when she dialed his cell  he might not have it On

I’m getting better at it, when I’m distracted I screw up.

I suppose since you got me its my job now to distract youI LOVE YOU

she had the cutest little hehheh it came up from her toes

                                                           I LOVE YOU TOO.

How are you well

If I was independently wealt . .

. . Id be rich

Yes, you'd be rich, I’d share the spoils with you.  I am well, thank you.  You?

Ive been blessed not churchGawd blessed  with the fortune of good health

You’re funny, yes, you’ve been not churchy blessed, and I'm grateful we seem to share a like disposition . . except for my female problems.

Yes Im sorry to about that

                           A tichebit too much testosterone

Yup, on you, can’t pawn that off on Maw.

Nope  She was beautifully feminine  feline   a jungle cat

Yes, yes she was . . .

Yes

             Time for distraction

Yes.

Air quotes Do you use them an canya remember seeing me do them

You. No.

          I use them to exaggerate facetiousness . . Oh, what a air quotes brilliant idea.

Oh yare terrible

Terribly honesty, like someone we know; can’t leave it up to people who otherwise might think I thought their idea was brilliant.

         No . . you do the eye thing. Sis and I, Maw tipped us off, always watched your eyes, when wed call you out you tried to negate it with a slysmile and Bullshit.

Ya didnt buy it

Not in a long time.

                     Not air quotes, just sharp eye stabs blink and you miss it. Though I suppose if you’ve honed them why waste energy pulling your hands out of your pockets to make quotes; you conserve energy.

Okay Thats what I remember

                                 Thank you for the confirmation

Youbetcha. What brought that up?

Was talking with an acquaintanceyare not familiar with them  anthey said the best air quotes they ever saw was a woman she was a teacher who snapped her arms up from the elbow and hookedjabbed her fingers in the air like claws He said it was the grimmest thing he ever saw

                                                         I called them cruel quotes

Unable to leave well enough alone I embellished

                                                   Told him if I were ever to do quotes Id tie it up in a nifty redribboned exaggerated bundle have recorded fingernails scratching a chalkboard to my phone  theatrically set it down hit play hook the air with my fingers headheight an slowly drag them down near to my chest

Ouch, Papa.

Yah Definitely wouldnt wanna be on the receiving end of that

                                                                  But some real qualityhuh

Physical hyperbole.

Think Zeppelin would record it

after 1650,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  24  11. 21

1643,  Twosday,  30  11. 21

Zeppelin  Dancing Days  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qztKD75J2BM

Danny Rodriguez   celebrity

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jd3aJS0zspw

Former   celebrity

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=541Cg2Jnb8s

Dannys got real problems his president doesnt like people who were captured

                                                                                   an theres a phalanx of formers insurrectionists who were captured

he doesnt like ya very much

2301,  Twosday,  30  11. 21

     

       Mack

                     when he was feeling his oats he began colouring outside the linesoutside his perimeter  which was rarely sketchy  which was usually a bulwark

                                                anbouncing around in this brightblue Elysium he thought himself clever

inevitably as he had so many times before right from the script hed say to him Oh I get it  Hows that working out for you

Mack would say What?

hed say  Being clever

So while I was indulging in Mickey Spillane tantalised by the lurid covers hawkeyeing my dad as he read em until he finishedset em aside  when he was done he wouldnt go back em  so I took em   he probably assumed my maw got rid of em like she got rid of our toys   You haven’t played with that toy in months.   But it was in my toybox   You hadn’t played with it in months; I gave it away.   Are you kiddin me   I wouldn’t kid you.

                                                                                         So while Im reading pulp fiction finding hardboiled novels Hammett Chandler Hemingway Cain Himes Highsmith anything I could lay my hands on  what were you reading

Mad magazine.  Comicbooks.

Comicbooks   Really

                       Yamean like Richie Rich a dig he missed Archie  Betty and Veronica  Jughea . . 

. . Hold on, correction, correction, Betty Cooper and Veronica Lodge.

Which was which

Are you kidding me?

Man I hope yare kidding me

Macks face screwed up unpleasantly

                                         I liked Veronica; she was dark, better built.

Shes a cartoon character

Yeah, so, I also read muscle car magazines.

Say no moreI mean it  Say  no  more

                                             Obviously our differences are more than me raised in the Midwest an you in California  so much more

Elysium had Mack by the balls

                               he could see mercurial cleverness working hardpeeking at him from out behind his eyes  Funhouse quicksilver rising

                             wondering when it might break he tippytoedhoping to keep it in check AHha  the best laid plans of mice and men  he slippedno sooner than it was out of his mouth he knew whawas next

                                                                                                     they had been talking again of hardboiled writers novels  their nihilism  unforgiveness  never give a sucker an even break

                                                                                                          he said  Prior to reading Hammett I hadnt conceived of a character slipping another a Mickey

                                                                                You mean a Spillane? Right?  verily he gloated   Get it?

Oh  I get it  Clever   Hows that working out for you

1550,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  24  11. 21

1255,  Twosday,  30  11. 21

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PXcEPSUl0uE 

in-ane Republicans

Ulyssus S Grant may have seen the writing on the wall although he wouldnt want to call him prescient 

Grant was responsible for the magnanimous terms of surrender that prevented treason trials that Robert E Lee signed 9 April 1865 at Appomattox Court House – every prominent Confederate warmaker and political leader of the eleven Confederate States should have been tried and if found guilty executed

                                                             on 10 March 1861 the Confederacys Vice-President Alexander H Stephens made no bones why the South would fight the Civil War in his Cornerstone Speech 

                                                                                       “Our new government(’s) . . foundation are laid, its cornerstone rests, upon the great truth that the negro is not equal to the white man; that slavery – subordination to the superior race – is his natural and normal condition. This, our new government, is the first, in the history of the world, based upon this great physical, philosophical, and moral threat.”

anyone who says the Civil War was not about slavery is lying 

on 29 September 1875 President Grant gave a speech at the Annual Reunion of the Army of Tennessee in Des Moines Iowa

      “The free school is the promoter of . . intelligence which is to preserve us as a free nation. If we are to have another contest in the near future of our national existence, I predict that the dividing line will not be Mason and Dixon’s, but between patriotism and intelligence on one side, and superstition, ambition, and ignorance on the other.

1640,  Monday,  29  11. 21

1104,  Twosday,  30  11. 21

https://www.snopes.com/fact-check/grant-next-civil-war/ 

https://www.britannica.com/topic/Confederate-States-of-America