14.9.21

 
Do you like my new lipstick?


she emailed him a selfie

she was lying on her back all puckered up
                                             the colour went well with her complexionspectacular with her nipples
he hadnt expected that

it made him muse
                   hed bet the lipstick would look great smudged on his hips and cock Ohyah would look sensational
he called her
              Hey yaknow wha I was thinking

I know what you’re thinking.


Awright smartass whawas I thinking

You were thinking how good my lipstick is going to look on you . . ah . shall I say . . wearing it? she laughed low sensual

Am I that transparent

No. I sent the picture wanting you to think that way.
                                                       Is it working? 
Standing up takin notice Ya got me baby

Wonderful; can't wait to see you this evening, love.

Were looking forward to it 

0527,  Sunday,  12  9. 21
1259,  Twosday,  14  9. 21
Sonny & Cher  I Got You, Babe  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r3BWaRkJ58M

  
     in his on-line Trash folder  Sex Dating: I am 18 years old, and I want a lover.
No they dont
            they dont even know who theyre engagingwho their audience ishes male  hed naturallyimmediately assume they were a woman  which is prejudiced    theres no reason the commenter would be feminine

he wondered who would fall for that line of crap

because he had zip idea who would
                                     at best  maybe   another18 year oldbut what 18 year old buys into  lover  he never had a partner he would describe to anyone as his lover 

he called his lover lover but that was between them 

two of three times he heard a womana woman  describe  their partner as their lover he blew his double whisky and light soda just enough to effervesce out through his nose 

third time he hadnt a sip in his mouth


or  Sex Datingreally
                       starting with Sex eleven words later lover  implausible


or maybe the come-on appealed to hopeless romantics

anif their hopelessness wasnt running a negative number yet
                                                                thatd sink it


it irritated him that it even found his Trash

2036,  Monday,  13  9. 21

13.9.21

     base  blasé Republicant Larry yakyak Elder seems to be play-actingperforming for the FOX Instagram TikTok Right wing Parlor Klout reality world 
                                 already crying that the recall election is fraudulentas fraudulent as the 2020 presidential election 
                      but before he could shake his headutter Horseshit he recalled Elders promoted that if reparations were to be discussed for slaves then that conversation should also be had in defence of slaveowners who were denied profits their slaves provided them

1753,  Monday,  13  9. 21

https://www.nbcnews.com/politics/elections/newsom-leads-california-recall-polls-larry-elder-pushes-baseless-fraud-n1279080

thank you Ari Melber

  

he couldnt rememberhe didnt think he was high   he was a year out of high school      mightve been

in an absurd moment he showed his buddy Lanky how the hero of a film he saw had smashed off the end of a fifth of whiskycreated a weaponjammed it into the throat of an enemy
                                                                  he recreated itfiguring Lanky  like most people  was visual  smashed the end of the bottle on the squared concrete base supporting a metal light pole

the end came off neatly like hed been doing it for yearssurprised him  he lungedstabbed it into the carotid artery for the kill  the bottle crumpled unexpectedly lacerating his fingers and hand
                                                                               not too bad       multiple wounds
none stitchworthy would make for a fun story  a remembrance

bleeding as freely as he was he didnt think or it didnt feel that he had embedded slivers if so theyd work themselves out

Lanky saw the blooddropped like he was shot which was fucking hilarioushe laughed so hard he teared up 


then he realised Lanky had actually fainted


at the sight of blood




he might have to reassess his friendship


Lanky was cold a couple of minutes
                                      gave him enough time to pull his shirt offbind his hand hold it above his head and wary of any blood snaking down his arm

a tight bind

pretty sure the wounds were superficial

 

if they were likely he wouldnt be sharing this story
                                                      he dispatched his lamppost adversary  he was of the stuff of secret agents

0525,  Sunday,  12  9. 21
1641,  Monday,  13  9. 21
Johnny Rivers  Secret Agent Man  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tlWqK83JP8I                                                                                                      

12.9.21

 
    archives
                      ark eyes holds folds fields folios nomos
                                                                from Booksellers a documentary: “. . the invisible hand of computer editing . .” manuscripts edits rewrites computers are erasing the process erasing the evolution of creativity
were denied physicals baselines were presented The Product and even the writer the poet couldnt retellpossibly even recall how The Product came to be maybe fact was they were only scribes taking dictation often his product his mosaic was like that
               which establishes plausible deniabilityHEYYOU
you keep walking
HEYYOU YOU  I MEAN YOUSTOP
you keep walking
you aint HEYYOU or YOU
why should you stop
I SAID STOPthey grab you by the shoulder  not smartbetter have backup
                                                                                           they do
I SAID STOP BACK THERE

You said heyyou heyyou hays for horses  I aint heyyou to anybodywhy would I think you were hollering at me

I think it was pretty apparent we were calling to you.

Apparent You were at my back Unlike my mothermothers in the neighbourhood I grew up in I havent eyes in the back of my head Ya might have caught up with me and asked Excuse me?
                                                                         he chucked them on the shoulder If I was black ya might have shot me
                            Wha


plausible deniability
                      hed finger the many other hes who entertained himwho talked with him or through him
they werent multiple personalities
they were hangers-on
an entourage
part of a posse
they always had curious insights intriguing ideas confounding messages
he let them talk
                 because he knew he couldnt shut them up
gag em
theyd become ventriloquists
as wordy but muffled

plausible deniability  p d   p d please
                                        Gimme a break bub It wasnt me Yaneed to go back to the drawingboard
they werent having it           

they felt they had their man


what they had was The Producta product written in light in a font without prints DNA a signature 

they thought they were clever
                                had his IP address

which was as good as having a street address to a high-rise apartment building a thousand stories tall in the Naked City There are eight million stories in the naked city; this (is) one of them. Joe Friday Dragnet The facts ma’am, just the facts.

fact was they had an end-result that even he wasnt sure from where it came
                                                                                   just a fact
another bust goes buns up

bust  buns XXX
                   time for another double whisky neat

he felt something growing

2230,  Reggae Friday,  10  9. 21
1331,  Saturday,  11  9. 21

11.9.21



if it occurred to him it must have occurred to others

not something you walk up to people and ask
                                                 though he didhe couldnt help himself 
he may have come off derogatoryit wasnt his intent

he was curious
                   like having a tiger by the tail  just cant let it go or he couldnt let it go


Excuse me?

Please you heard meI was looking you dead in the eyes when I asked     

Excuse me?
                   thats how denial sounds  an echo     or maybe they like the sound of their own voice   

Ya heard me

Excuse me?
               hed have to check the Book  didnt seem there was anythingWait  wait  Peter  three times   three times he denied knowing Jesus Christ  they know for his ignominy he was crucified upside down
                                                                                                  thats a bitch

Awright  Ill play Ill repeat myself   However don excuse yourself again answer me
CAN YOU HEAR ME

they nodded

YOU CAN HEAR ME

they nodded again

GOOD

they nodded

 

Isnt praying like begging

Friday,  14  4. 17
2351,  Thursday,  9  9. 21
Buck Owens  I’ve Got a Tiger by the Tail  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UGYE77y4qY4 

 

he watched a squirrel in his neighbours backyard from the kitchen window as he washed dishes

a low white picket fence ran between their yards a simple demarcation of property

they had a trampoline sunbleached   pale blue

the squirrel had leapt down off the trunk of the black walnutcovered the fifteentwenty feet to it and scrambled up onto its apron

it perched upright on its haunches appeared peevish

then dropping onto allfours it followed the apron slow l y sniffi n g completely around the trampoline

as it began its second tour he thought Comon knucklehead you can do it Cross the trampoline  Comon

Ooh ow hadnt done this in a while his brain began to ache   telepathy hurt


the squirrel finished its second round but between seven and four oclock where it began it walked a bit unsure  quirky fidgety

   it paused
              he took a deep breathneurons sparkedhe kept slinging the suggestion Cross it man you can do it Go  Croooss it croooss

the squirrel began a third counterclockwise venture  then again paused
                                                                          pausing it turned on its heels facedleft looked across the trampoline
                      Go man gogo  go onGO buddy suddenly asif swept away it boundedbounced it chitteredOooh like a gasping Marilyn Monroe Seven Year Itch above the subway grate as her skirt blew up around her ears OOOOHloud and clear boundedbounced twisted in the air found its feet like a cat agile little critter
                                                                                    he might have been delirious but he could have sworn it did somersaults flips squealing the whole while
his brain quit aching
Right on brother
                 as it began it stopped bounded once twice was in the air off the trampoline to the grass to the black walnut up its trunk disappearing into the boughs
he was pretty sure it had a nest in the walnut


the water had cooled

he pulled the plugran hot water into the other sink and when it heated plugged the sink againtopped it off  a touch more soap

What are you doing in there? he heard his mother ask from the diningroom It doesn’t take that long to wash the dishes; are you screwing off?
NO
    Being thorough

WE  HAD  SANDWICHES.

a mind like a bear trap  

Damn she was sharp 
                    Maw The world will always be what the world has always been 

Quit screwing off; finish up you have other chores, you’re dragging your feet.

Dragging my feet
                his family didnt respect insight intellect as much as it wanted him to break his back
 
whenever,  Friday,  14  4. 17
1307,  Friday,  10  9. 21

10.9.21

 

    Albert Camus

                      Memory is the enemy of Totalitarianism


he had an idea regarding the more than 600 charged January 6 insurrectionists 

they are not political prisoners

he felt their jail/prison terms could be simplified
                                                   they would remain incarcerated – not based on Time served/Time to be served – but rather dependent upon when they can pass  with a C  a quarter/semester of freshman college science biology  physical science  botany  geology  physics   etcetera et ˈsedərə etcetera
                                                                                         thereby creatively providing them an incentive  an educational intellectual plank  to return to society better off than when they entered confinement
or not

possibly late last Century
2326,  Reggae Friday,  10  9. 21
The Chambers Brothers  Time Has Come Today  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hIqwzQ7g-Cc 


what happenedhappens to you when you brokebreak the law of your own words

   your   own   words


there are no words  are there
                              arethere

 

cross yourself an there aint a soul you wouldnt
                                                  thats facile thats unremarkably True 


people who crossed themselves intrigued him
                                                for anyall reasons that percolate out of their mouths 

making excuses for the inexcusable they torture reason
                                                           he couldnt imaginedespite his florid ability to imagine  how uglydesperatedespicable reason tortured looks
                                                  savaged  heaped in a corner  its torturerowner refusing to look at it  their back to itCan I go?
NO
    Yare not going anywhere   he watched  let the oooze seep to their instepCan I go?

NO it hadnt slickered their boots 

Can I go?
           Mother may I


You listening to me 
they nod

Ill give you three steps
                             Noow    GO they slippedwent down on their face  three steps bought them nothing
the horror marling their faces  priceless hed run their expressions over and over in his mind  utterly priceless  he didnt understand how they thought they could run from themselves
                                                                    he was their conscience  their enforcer
   Yes Virginia GinnyJimmy  there is a Santa Claus
                                                                     who brings you what you richly deserve

not a fucking clue,  Friday,  14  4. 17
2320, Thursday,  9  9. 21


Some days are diamonds, some days are stones.

Yours

No, I don’t think so.

Ya understand yare welcome to lie . . on occasion  Id own that line if it wasnt mine  That said I know its not yours

Yet you encourage me to lie understanding it’s not mine?

A white lie among friends  winkwink nodnod

You know also I rever the truth.

I do  but sometimes I want chocolate fudge not vanilla ice creama change up  When Im in the bedroom I slip out of character
          Havent disappointed a partner yet

What?

Truth  Sex   Few things as true real as sex  Stroked with a feather or cracked on the ass  Youve been a bad girl
Ever spanked a bad girl

What the fuck are you talking about?


Nah  apparently Im talking about nothing
                                             Ixnay amscray  Whisper that in a womans ear an shell bay at the moon crycall out Fuck!JesusChrist  Yare Jesus Christwho doesnt wanna wear that sexual mantle  Ya hit JesusChrist youve driven the ball out of the park taken her round the bend bent her nail popped her cork
                                                                                            Ravished her

Ravished?


Yaknow  sometimes I wonder why I talk to you
                                                  Youve not ravishednot picked her bones clean crackedsucked the marrow out of them




Ill take that as a No
                      Babe  having sexmaking love means leaving no leftoversleaving nothing for the ravens vultures antsCONSUMED  bring a toothpick to pick your teeth


I haven't.

Ahwell
          Some days are diamonds
1556,  Thursday,  9  9. 21
John Denver  Some Days are Diamonds  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pUt2zDrddIQ

 

9.9.21

 

he didnt come by the forest preserves too often anymore

when he was younger his family held picnics there polacks as far and wide as the eye could see and he was related to every one

as a teenager at one such picnic his mother found him Come, I have to introduce you to someone. she took him by the arm and walking over to a pavilion where men were playing accordions people were dancing she talked about a distant cousin she used to write as a girl and when she had emigrated to America they lost track of one another  Oh look, there’s Maria’s daughter; come. when he looked where his mother was looking the girl had turned her back and was facing the pavilion the festivities as they approached her his mother called Stefanie! Stefanie! Stefanie turned I was looking for your mother. I’d like you to meet my son, Joseph. Joseph, this is your cousin Stefanie.

Ah he saidhe nodded to Stefanie her colour rose Weve meet Mom though nice to formally meet you Stefanie he took her hand warmly and shook it

Oh  hello  Joseph; nice to meet you.         

informally they had met down by the dam part of a looseknot of teenagers gathered to get high

they got stoned together

immediately liked one another

slipped away from the clutch

had sex by the river on the blanket Stefanie wore over her shoulders because she wasnt keen of the blouse she was wearing her mother insisted she wear it

the blouse was a little square

what was inside the blouse wasnt

one thing had lead to another

it was hard to say who laid who

they hit so many postureswere on top as often they were down

Thats an unique blouse Stefanie though it doesnt quite compliment you

she smiled widely deepdeep dimples
                                        No, I don’t think so either. Thank you for noticing.

Heck youd look good wrapped in a blanket

She would, wouldn’t she. his mother said Stefanie, you’re such a beautiful girl; someday you’ll make someone very happy.

Some day he said

You’re killing me Stefanie whispered

Ya nearly killed me 

 

 

he looked around the woods horse paths open fields a pavilion brick barbecues the light was brighter at one side beyond a stand of birch where the river was wide and reflected the sunlight like a mirror
                                                                                              some trouble was taken to sand it the water ran shallow the bank was gradedsanded too it made for a small attractive beach to sun on water to wade or swim in

colourful blankets old worn chenilles picnic baskets pinning them were scattered across on the luxurious grass hard to beat Illinois grass made one dream of being a grazing animal  a happy lost ruminator

he crossed a horse path through some high weeds then to the woods edge near the river upstream from the beach 

he laid a blanket down anchored it with a cooler inside sandwich meats cheese fruit beer he smiled to himself the blanket was dappled by shade sunlight nearly 50/50 he took off his shoes striped off his shirt bundled them into a rough pillow he had a couple of books pen and paper in his knapsack
                                                                          though first he was going to lavish himself do nothing think of nothing sip a beer close his eyes 

he hadnt finished half his beer his eyes were closed  the dark inside them grew darker 

it remained

it wasnt a cloud

he opened one eye lazily

it was a shadow
                   Hello he closed his eye

Hello to you; you’ve quite the spot. a womans voice

Thank you

It’s my spot.

Your spot Well in the past youve had quite the spot
                                                       Id be happy to share your spot
Share?

Novel ideahuh Itas you can see is a huge blanket
                                                      Yare welcome

Welcome . . to my spot

Correct
         I aint moving Im settled comfortable Im relaxing musing Yare also welcome to the cooler beer water fruit sandwich Help yourself  Consider it a tribute

A tribute?

Yes
     Either the internationally recognised historic tribute an offering or we can schlapp recognise it as a Tenacious D Tribute

Tenacious D?

Uhhuh

I don’t know what that is.

Be very careful yare risking your tribute
                                            Ill take it you have a smartphone Take a gander

she sat downquit throwing shade
                                     he could hear her tap

Oh, Jack Black the actor.

Careful revealing your age

My age?
         Did you peek?

No Im relaxingmusing Ill sputter the first thing that comes into my mind cuz Id rather not
                                                                                               Accepting my tribute
she said something he didnt quite catch it  stir  made no sense  ster  hyphenated  –ster  monster  spirit sprite  forest spirit  –ster is not spirit sprite fuck it  he felt like a nap
                                                          Help yourself sister maybe it was sister maybe he cracked the code


he almost nodded off the breeze lapping him held him conscious it was nicecame off the river the water an woods smelled goodhe almost wished he left her room so the breeze could have come off of her too
                                                                                                salad of scents


Are you awake?

I am

Did you fall asleep?

No hypnagogic

Hypnagogic. Hypnagogic . . what’s that?

First D then hypnagogic
                           Look it up doll

she said something he didnt quite catch it again
                                                   Im sorry I missed what you said

Nothing important, I was mumbling.

Earlier you said –ster or something like that when you sat

Yes.


An

Maybe . . mister?

Joe Im Joe

Joe, I’m Ginny.

Short for Gennieve not Virginia

Yes, you're right.

rolling onto his hip to face her he opened his lazy eye again wider
                                                                        focused    Oh man yare a youngsterHa

Someone younger than you’s a youngster she sighed I’m no youngster.

Could have fooled me yare very beautiful

Thank you; you’re in my spo . .
. . Edumacating you

he opened his other eye to take her in stereooptically
                                                        gym shoesno socks short shorts tanned softlooking scoopnecked pullover she shifted  braless 

Ginny

Yes?

–ster
      It wasnt mister I didnt call you sister Didnt know you were a youngster  Wha

I was upset.

Yare no longer upset

I’m not, no I’m not, Joe.

Good
       Have a beer Tell me whaya said

Ginny opened the cooler her breasts tussled like a pair of puppies  very becoming

You?

In a bit thank you

she used the attached corded churchkey uncapped her beer took a deep draw

headback an attractive throat freckled  a freckled chest
                                                             she brought the bottle down smiled at him dimples green eyes  reallystrawberry blonde
                                 Ah, that’s refreshing.

Part of a worthwhile tribute

her smile grew wider
                       Part of a tribute.

Excellent now were getting off on the right foot
                                                  Whadidyasay   –ster Not monster either

No. colour rose in her face  Not monster.

Yare killin me

I called you a cunt, a cuntster.

Cuntster havent heard that beforesuppose we cant Google that

No.

Creative Im a big fan
                       Whadoes cuntster describe

You were a cunt, I use cuntster, I’m adverse to saying cunt.

I understand butah   no more

No. You’ll like this . . you’re a good egg.

First a cunt then an egg
                          Yare turning me inside out  How do I look

You look like I like you.

I like you too
               Says the cuntster to a youngster
Stop.

Ive only just begun

AMish,  Twosday,  7  9. 21
1424,  Thursday,  9  9. 21