10.1.21



onetwentythree in the morning   1  2   3  easy as that 
                                                           there was going to be a lunar eclipse  fivetwenty

he wanted to be able to wake to see it  Unless I go to sleep NOW  or unless I dont go to sleep

he looked at a copy of Bridges of Madison County on the coffee table  just finished it

thinking back over it shaman occurred to him  as did mysticism and love 
                                                                                he didnt think of love often


he thought  It was just a little lie  a little lie about love

it wasnt the usual lie 
                       that love spoken with sexual ardor and heat  which meant Thank you  meant orgasm  that meant anything besides I love you   three words  1  2   3  used selfishly  thoroughly trashed 
                                                                                                        used benignly

 

when he thought of love he imagined a warm love a comforting love  an idealised love that tickles the skintingles the scalpblushes the cheeksstrokes the throat inside  deftlydeliciously caresses the loins  like a cats lick 
                                                                                                             that was love
a prostitute doesnt hear I love you  not from a John


he said I love you three times

he said I like you a lot 
                       You like me?  Yes  I like you  I prefer to be honest

he was slapped for being honestthey wanted more  more wasnt for him to givehed been slapped more times than he cared to remember

like  doesnt   suggest  the gratification love does
                                                   so he modified saying so that he didnt need to tuck his chin behind his shoulderkeep his elbows up  take blows on his arms 

rather than lie he said  I love fucking you 


shame on himhuh

0123,  Friday,  4  6. 93
1333,  Sunday,  10  1. 21

 

he stood with one foot in the grave  not that hed be buried like a bone in a vacuumedsealed coffin to eventually turn to a molten slippery sludge

he thought existentially
                        while it seemed those behind himyounger than him were imbued in fantasynot dependent on their own imaginations  he couldnt imagine the places they might allow themselves to be taken or led

they fingered flat keyboard played with toggleswitches were enticed by buttons
button
        the only button he wanted to finger or rotate was a womans nipple he wasnt going to accept a virtual stopgap  be a virtual player  be 2D while his 3Dself acquiesced and was suspendedhung in a jitteryelectronic miasmic stupor be represented by a frenetic ant army hive of buzzingbees or electroshocked entities 

not his cup of Socrates hemlock        
1933,  Saturday,  2  1. 21
1606,  Reggae Friday,  8  1. 21

9.1.21

 

muffled . . interregnum

Excuse me I wasnt listenin  I dont think I heard you correctly  

I said during this interregnum . .

Again  Are you mumbling on purposeafraid you dont know how to say the word correctly  If yare wrong someone will correct you 

What’s your confusion?

Wha yare saying  Arya saying intherectum  That whaya said

Ahyes, yes . . I believe that’s what I said.   WHAT?

Whas that have to do with anything

That has everything to do with what happened this afternoon, this insurrection, shame, this national stain.

During . . intherectum

Yes.

Wow 
     Where was I where did I go when that was batted about

What are you talking about?

Wha arya talkinbout


I . .ah . . interregnum.

Oh  Interregnum

Yes. That’s what I said.

I misunderstood  Not wha I heard  Yaought to speak clearlyenunciate  I was offwent off in a whole other direction

afternoon,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  6  1. 21
1539,  Reggae Friday,  8  1. 21

 

she wore her ring

women wear their rings even if theyre thinking of fucking someone other than their husband

not men

theyre dishonest 
                 dolts  their rings are off and some try to mask the pastyflesh on their finger

frankly he didnt looked

rings meant nothing

hed been turned back several times rejected  rejection Nos didnt bother him hed been told No more often than Doans had pills he still hadnt a clue what they did

first time was college

a black girl

she said No which really ran him up the flagpole thinking it was racialBecause Im white

she laughed gently  patted his cheek 
                                        No, baby, if I wasn’t married I’d certainly go on a date with you.

who expected a second-year twenty year old college student to be married 
                                                                               Yare married  I am. she extended her handspread her fingers

You are Nice ring

He's a lovely man.

Congratulations  I apologis . .
. . Not necessary. 
                    I hope this doesn’t affect our friendship.

It does not affect our friendship

they didnt lose track of each other until he moved out of state 
                                                                    out of state out of mind
he wrote

she didnt

he stopped

 

women are honest

if they wanted to fuck when he asked Woudya like to go elsewhere theyd say Yes

hed slept with three married women one who was pregnant  her husband was disgusted by her body   

never once thought of the men who forced them out

they cried afterwards

he held them

words wouldnt console them

hed be stupid to think so

 



he thought he should start up a chain of motels called Elsewhere

not that he would 
                     he was an idea guy
 
0110, Sunday,  3  1. 21
1422 or 222,  Reggae Friday,  8  1. 21
Coltrane/Johnny Hartman  My One and Only You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ecrE80rnjhw

8.1.21

 

he had just sat downstretched outfire in the fireplace a whisky in hand admiring the caramelhoney colouredfacets flicker in the crystal tumbler like a lizards tongue Christ whahe would do with a tongue like thatwith a mammalian brain a mammalian brain  not a reptilian entrylevel basemodel writhingcircuitry eat or be eatenOhshit hed eat anbet his fuckin life hed eat s l  o  w   l   
                                                                          the telephone rang

if anyone wanted to reach him at night theyd have to call his home number 

few had his cell 
                 aneven fewer reached it because it wasnt On he likened it to the phone booth that he an Superman shared 
         an on occasion he made the Man of Steel bend
Sorry Clark cantya see Im talkin here Pretend were at the gym Get naked I aint watchin I have no latent homosexual tendencies Yaint got titsno pussy Yaint no attraction for me

Ouch Supermans feelings were hurt he wasafter all  the Man of Steel

Nah Truly fiercely blindly heterosexual 
                                          half the time he shared it with him he worried that Clark wasnt coming out of a telephone booth  rather a closet

 

he didnt have Caller ID

theyd say who they were or hangup

even if he knew who they were was no guarantee hed pickup

a nice fire a crystal tumbler of Irishscratching his balls is hard to overcome

Hey . . .


Hey, I’m in town . . a couple of days . . .

I’m in town an I thought it’d be nice to see you.

he pickedup 
             For wha 

OH.  Hi.

For wha

 

You haven’t a hello for me?

You didnt have a goodbye for me 


Ouch.

Nahstop that didnt hurt  I was thoroughly disappointed 
                                                             But yanever cease to surprise me


I didn’t know how to say goo . . 
. . Easy  Goodbye 
                    Fuckin children say goodbye when they leave Yatellin me a kids got something on you

I . .
. . A kid 


You're not being pleasant.

You didnt say  sound  at all 
                                  Yare in town 


Yes.  I am.

 

Your dime

I’m in town.

 

And 


I thought maybe we could have dinner. A drink. A drink, drinks . . and dinner.

Onya  Yah

 

I thought it’d be nice to see you.

Might not be a good idea

You don’t want to se . . 
. . I didnt say that  I said it might not be a good idea

Okay. Do you want to see me?

Well see  Where you at

Staying at Sycamore.

Sycamore 
            Really pluckin heartstrings

Am I?

Like I aint got a heart

 

Talking the way you are I’m not sure.

Talking 
         Yawanna tell me the last time we talked   Ya remember

I do 



No. I don’t remember.

Thats good to know  Mebbe yawanna think 
                                               Ill ask at the desk an call ya

Okay.

Tomorrow  Seven

Not tonight?

I ate  I got a drink

Oh.

Save the pain in your voice Save it for tomorrowpossibly  he was running a scenario in his headhed wear a belt tomorrow or maybe hed blow her off 
                                          It had been years 


So you’ll come to the hotel?  Tomorrow?

Im thinkin on it 
                  I mean drinks and dinner on you  Mebbe whaelse Ill exact 
Extract?

Exact  Ill take not extract 


I . .

Tomorrow Ill call  Night 
                          he hungup  he was feeling like Bogart in Casablanca
Poor po stupid Rick

 

if he went it wasnt going to be romantic
 
0110,  Sunday,  3  1. 21
1313,  Reggae Friday,  8  1. 20 

 
the Gospel according to Drumpf  He His son Rudy Giuliani 
                                                              the Father the Son the Holy Ghost fuckedup fellflat on their faces  they need to be hung out to dry   up high and visible

1919,  Reggae Friday,  8  1. 21

$366K -- Killed

Ah  while he didnt have to endure it Twitter shot Drumpfs social media in the back of the head

                                                                                                 too little too late

1824,  Reggae Friday,  8  1. 21

cultists

 

here are the names and who shouldnt be in Washington as purported leaders

they are shit

they ought to be heldup heldout and forever vilified they better be rich

(Update January 7th, 3:25AM17 names have been added to the original list of 129 following a vote to object to the results of the Pennsylvania election.)

United States Senate

Josh Hawley (R-MO)
Ted Cruz (R-TX)
Cindy Hyde-Smith (R-MS)
Cynthia Lummis (R-WY)
John Kennedy (R-LA)
Roger Marshall (R-KS)
Rick Scott (R-FL)
Tommy Tuberville (R-AL)

United States House of Representatives

Robert Aderholt (R-AL)
Rick Allen (R-GA)
Jodey Arrington (R-TX)
Brian Babin (R-TX)
Jim Baird (R-IN)
Jim Banks (R-IN)
Cliff Bentz (R-OR)
Jack Bergman (R-MI)
Stephanie Bice (R-OK)
Andy Biggs (R-AZ)
Dan Bishop (R-NC)
Lauren Boebert (R-CO)
Mike Bost (R-IL)
Mo Brooks (R-AL)
Ted Budd (R-NC)
Tim Burchett (R-TN)
Michael Burgess (R-TX)
Ken Calvert (R-CA)
Kat Cammack (R-FL)
Jerry Carl (R-AL)
Earl Carter (R-GA)
John Carter (R-TX)
Madison Cawthorn (R-NC)
Steve Chabot (R-OH)
Ben Cline (R-VA)
Michael Cloud (R-TX)
Andrew Clyde (R-GA)
Tom Cole (R-OK)
Rick Crawford (R-AR)
Warren Davidson (R-OH)
Scott DesJarlais (R-TN)
Mario Diaz-Balart (R-FL)
Byron Donalds (R-FL)
Jeff Duncan (R-SC)
Neal Dunn (R-FL)
Ron Estes (R-KS)
Pat Fallon (R-TX)
Michelle Fischbach (R-MN)
Scott Fitzgerald (R-WI)
Chuck Fleischmann (R-TN)
Virginia Foxx (R-NC)
C. Scott Franklin (R-FL)
Russ Fulcher (R-ID)
Matt Gaetz (R-FL)
Mike Garcia (R-CA)
Bob Gibbs (R-OH)
Carlos Gimenez (R-FL)
Louie Gohmert (R-TX)
Bob Good (R-VA)
Lance Gooden (R-TX)
Paul Gosar (R-AZ)
Sam Graves (R-MO)
Mark Green (R-TN)
Marjorie Greene (R-GA)
Morgan Griffith (R-VA)
Michael Guest (R-MS)
Jim Hagedorn (R-MN)
Andy Harris (R-MD)
Diana Harshbarger (R-TN)
Vicky Hartzler (R-MO)
Kevin Hern (R-OK)
Yvette Herrell (R-NM)
Jody Hice (R-GA)
Clay Higgins (R-LA)
Richard Hudson (R-NC)
Darrell Issa (R-CA)
Ronny Jackson (R-TX)
Chris Jacobs (R-NY)
Mike Johnson (R-LA)
Bill Johnson (R-OH)
Jim Jordan (R-OH)
John Joyce (R-PA)
Fred Keller (R-PA)
Trent Kelly (R-MS)
Mike Kelly (R-PA)
David Kustoff (R-TN)
Doug LaMalfa (R-CA)
Doug Lamborn (R-CO)
Jake LaTurner (R-KS)
Debbie Lesko (R-AZ)
Billy Long (R-MO)
Barry Loudermilk (R-GA)
Frank Lucas (R-OK)
Blaine Luetkemeyer (R-MO)
Nicole Malliotakis (R-NY)
Tracey Mann (R-KS)
Brian Mast (R-FL)
Kevin McCarthy (R-CA)
Lisa McClain (R-MI)
Daniel Meuser (R-PA)
Mary Miller (R-IL)
Carol Miller (R-WV)
Alexander Mooney (R-WV)
Barry Moore (R-AL)
Markwayne Mullin (R-OK)
Greg Murphy (R-NC)
Troy Nehls (R-TX)
Ralph Norman (R-SC)
Devin Nunes (R-CA)
Jay Obernolte (R-CA)
Burgess Owens (R-UT)
Steven Palazzo (R-MS)
Gary Palmer (R-AL)
Greg Pence (R-IN)
Scott Perry (R-PA)
August Pfluger (R-TX)
Bill Posey (R-FL)
Guy Reschenthaler (R-PA)
Tom Rice (R-SC)
Mike Rogers (R-AL)
Harold Rogers (R-KY)
John Rose (R-TN)
Matthew Rosendale, Sr. (R-MT)
David Rouzer (R-NC)
John Rutherford (R-FL)
Steve Scalise (R-LA)
David Schweikert (R-AZ)
Pete Sessions (R-TX)
Jason Smith (R-MO)
Adrian Smith (R-NE)
Lloyd Smucker (R-PA)
Elise Stefanik (R-NY)
W. Gregory Steube (R-FL)
Chris Stewart (R-UT)
Glenn Thompson (R-PA)
Thomas Tiffany (R-WI)
William Timmons IV (R-SC)
Jefferson Van Drew (R-NJ)
Beth Van Duyne (R-TX)
Tim Walberg (R-MI)
Jackie Walorski (R-IN)
Randy Weber, Sr. (R-TX)
Daniel Webster (R-FL)
Roger Williams (R-TX)
Joe Wilson (R-SC)
Robert Wittman (R-VA)
Ron Wright (R-TX)
Lee Zeldin (R-NY)

1717, Reggae Friday,  8  1. 21

https://www.theverge.com/2021/1/7/22218285/twitter-facebook-trump-coup

OOOPS  forgot to mention Kentucky senator Mitch McConnell desperately wanted to say Moscow Mitch  you too Lindsey     


Rock the Boat

 
Seth Myers Oopsmisspelled his name  Meyers  which should indicate how often he watches him or his evening show 
though he does like comedy but not a lot

anyway 
          Meyers said sedition he agrees   Meyers said insurrection  he seconds it 

he was grateful Mr Meyers can have his voice heard  because saying likewise into his coffee cup only his cup is there to agree with him 


the president Giuliani Cruz Hawley McCarthy Scalise Gaetz Gosar the remaining 12 senators  the remaining – somehow their number climbed to 147 Republicans voting against Pennsylvania – need to be removed from office potatohead Giuliani tried
                          because their gambit was seditious  it fomented an insurrection they cannot be trusted to serve Americas interests – they serve a cult 
                                           frankly their states and districts should recall and remove them 


he seconds Meyers motion

1025,  Reggae Friday,  8  1. 21

Hues Corporation  Rock the Boat  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iKr9wZpjBqE

7.1.21


his first introduction to strobelights was in a church basement Woudathought  The First Presbyterian Church across the street from his junior high 

there was an evening function at school he attendedwalked to it as he did every weekday  as he had walked to elementary school beyond and later to the high school twice again as far from home as the junior high
                                                                                                          those on top of his morning paper route had him walking as a kid plenty  which is how he learned to read assigned pieces while walking and not fall on his face 
                          something he still enjoys  Hey! You’re the reading man 


what attracted him as he walked home was muted rocknroll music emanating from the church

he walked into the naveblew his parents away when he also nonchalantly referred to it as the narthex late that night when he arrived at home to their upset because he was out after city curfew 
                                                                                 hed been reading Architectural Digests that a neighbor across the street who was an architect shared with him  


there was no one upstairs to bar him from entering so he continued to follow the music  

he descended a wide staircase which allowed traffic up and down simultaneously

at the foot of the strps he entered a large foyer which provided access to bathrooms left and right  Men and Women 

before him was a closed doubledoor

the music came from behind it

he pulled on one door and wandered in

he wasnt stopped by adults who moved alertly through the room

entering he found himself at the rear of a large gathering of kids who were talking in small clusters or on the linoleum floor dancing to rocknroll 
                           Crazy

at the front of the room on a fixed stage a man was playing 45s and LPs on a phonograph  the music was amplified by a PA system 
              Groovy

he didnt recognise a soul 

hed never been in the church before although walking past it he appreciated its soaring structure  like a rocketship waiting to launch

bundled at the back of the room were overstuffed chairs folding chairs cardtables  and in the corner furthurest from the doors on a raised carpeted dais were huge pillows and fantasticoloured beanbag chairs  

nestled among them was a high school girl who wore a Playboy rabbithead logo on her white neckhigh sweater 

In a Gadda Da Vita by Iron Butterfly began 
                                             the lights went downthe kids ooohed  black lights went up  then strobes affixed to tops of extended tripods began fluttering                                                                                                                              psychedelic
it was hard to walk in the sputtering light and dark

he made his way to the pillows stacked in front of the seatedwrithing high school girl  in the intermittent splashes he saw her eyes were closed 
                          she was groovin 
he couldnt take his eyes off her bunny or her breasts swaying inside her sweaterhe was mesmerisedfelt high  when he finally got high years later he remembered this episodethis girl  he was not disappointed 


when the drum solo beganher eyes still closed she moved like an African snake  a mumba  swaying  jiggling  tempting
he didnt resist temptation
                           slowly  on his knees  facing her  he reached out and put the fingers of his right hand under her moving breast  he could feel heat and its weight through her sweater on his fingertipsshe did not resist  she did not open her eyes  he took her other breast his left  she continued gyrating  she did not open her eyes  he squeezed her breaststhe blacklighted sweaterhis flickering shadow playing on her   he squeezed her breasts again and again 

after several moments passed he looked up into in her attractive passive face 
                                                                                High. she slurredshe smileshe bitnibbled at her lower lip 
            Hi he mumbled
she did not pull away  she closed her eyes again  he continued fondling her 


when Butterfly ended the strobes ceasedthe blacklights went offthe ceilinglighting came up  the dreamit had to be a dream cleared her throat You should stop. 
                                             Yes
releasing her breasts she leaned forward and gently stroked his cheek with the backs of her fingers I have to go.
I aint goin anywhere
                 she looked down at his hard-on  she giggled 
                                                                                     No. I imagine not. Have a God-blessed night. Good night.
he croaked  Good night

she stepped down from the pillowsthe dais crossed the back of the room and out the doors he entered through 
                                                                                                                   JesusChrist 


he returned on successive Friday nights  three Fridays later there was another dance  she wasnt there  three Fridays later another dance  she wasnt there 
                                         then the dances ceasedhe never saw her again

later he was sure to ask other girls he met if they were Presbyterians crazy Presbyterians   
2159,  Monday,  4  1. 21
1408,  Thursday,  7  1. 21