26.8.20

INVINCIBLE



on the footboard of her hospital bed its steel frame painted putridbrown facing out was an impressed elongated oval and inside what read INVINCIBLE in cursive

it looked like it read INVINCIBLE


when he looked more closely at it he saw that it read INVACARE



sometimes theres an advantage to not wearing glasses

0338,  Thursday,  20  2. 20
1527,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  26  8. 20


Irene
        at least he could spell and pronounce her first name

her last name was Polish and filled with consonant fouled by one or two vowels


Irene had huge tits

a stout body

hips
     country voluptuous

shed never be skinny


he met her at the park district swimming pool

they were introduced by friends becauseyahwell  they were Polish  

they supposed that was a reason

it tickled them


Irenes swimsuit was a two piece that she had sewn a complementary fabric into its top that fell over and secreted her belly

she didnt like her tummy

he did

she didnt like it that he did

he found that the more attention he paid to her tummy the more she was prone to entice him with her breasts 
                                                                                                                   which he didnt mind either


after a couplethree meeting they lost the other kids and made a habit of working their way to a shallow corner of the pool

he liked that she cornered him

hed squatshed stoop favoured him with an expansive view down her top

eventually shed squat too until the water lapped at her throat

in this akin posture she let him feelup her tits he tugged her nipples  she bit her lip

he wanted to kiss her

she wanted to kiss him

but kissing wasnt missed by the lifeguards and theyd be whistledpointed at and removed from the water ten minutes


Irene would stand up 

hed stand

theyd talk mindlessly

then theyd do it againit went on the rest of the afternoon unless the others found them

it went on like that for three weeks when they happened to be at the pool at the same time

they never set dates to be there

it was more exciting that way


three times in a row they happened to meet

when Irene squatted so he could feelup her tits he pulled his cock out of his suit and put her hand on it
                                                                                                          her eyes bugged
then they softened

he squeezed her tits

she squeezed his cock

he tugged her nipples

she tugged his cock

a squeeze

squeeze

a tug

tug

he became frenetic squeezedtugged

she squeezedtugged in a frenzy of her own she bit her liptheir eyes bore into the others

he pinchedshe YELPed in her throat kept tuggingtugging
                                                         then suddenlybroke began to standmaybe she remembered where they were he barely got his hands off her so they wouldnt be revealed 
                                                                                  in a trembling voice she said You came.
I did  he croaked
they looked

they could see pale streamers swirl between them

OhMy Irene said she was as hoarse as he Next time we do this outside the pool. 


they did numerous times

they didnt make it back into the pool again



he never learned how to spell her last name

he did however carve Joe + Irene inside a heart on a tree trunk near the swimming pool

she laughed and blushed when he showed her


one evening when they met to play she wanted to wander pass their carving

he laughed he might have blushed Irene carved the inklings of a stalk above his blunt heart

Looks phallic, huh? she cooed

Yes I like it  You did a great job

I did it because this ain’t love.

No Its not

No. It isn’t.

Its lust

Definitely. Lust.


0228, Thursday,  20  2. 20
1244,  Twosday,  25  8. 20

25.8.20


Man  that was very kool
                          he looked up and on the ventilator he saw the digitised time 02:20  absently he looked away looking up again 02:22
                         on Thursday – a TWOs day -- 02/20/2020  or as he elaboratedwrote it 20  2. 20 which threw grocerystore cashiers off There's no such date.

he rarely made the exception to write 02/20/2020
                                                     but he was having a lot of fun with all these 2s and 0s chasing each other


2s reminded him of holding his breath underwater at the community swimming pool eyes open watching girls jump in from the three-meter divingboard and see their tops yanked up and them yanking them down in place again eyes closed none the wiser
OhBrother

by late in the summer he was able to hold his breath to catch three consecutive girls jump in and clear out of the way before coming up for air

he never told a soul

it was his secret garden


Beatles  Octopus’s Garden  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x9VzJpl05N0   


every story has a point

wherever its made

serves as a seed

its nice to have one to fall from jump off   or make


sometimes he tried to reverse it – engineer that its ends where he began

sometimes he found he forget his pointforgot to write it down
                                                              something occurredinterrupted before he got it out and it was subsumed  eaten alive



So what’s your point?

Wha of it

Your point. What’s your point?

Fuck if I know  It was probably too impatient to wait aroundI wasnt giving it the attention it wanted right then and there
Like a spoiled child

You don’t think it was important?

Probably as important as In the beginning was the word . .

Christ.

You telling me this isnt fun yadidnt garner any insightswe didnt learn anything

No.

Damn right No   I cant recall

                                         Youah remember every girl you slept with 
I do.

I dont

You don’t?

No

What’s your point?


That I didnt have to
                      to have arrived here

0209,  Thursday,  20  2. 20
1512,  Monday,  24  8. 20



he got a text from his a girlfriend this morning
                                                   Sunday

usually on Sundays he didnt get a word from her until later  early afternoon
she communicated that her brother and his wife were pregnant

  :  :  . . but they’re saying that they hope their child is gay.

i find this odd.

  :  :  Because it is odd


  :  :  it’s actually disturbing me quite a bit. i wouldn’t hope my child was gay or straight, i wouldn’t even consider it. who fucking cares.

i don’t think they’re capable. i hope they become capable.

i’m started to wonder if i was partially homophobic

  :  :  No. They don’t strike me as capable, not from what I remember. Wanting a child because you want it and raising a child are enormously different. Wanting is easy; it’s greed.

What happens when the novelty wears off?


No, you’re not homophobic, babe.

They’re making an inane wish . . imagine how disappointing the child will be if they grow up heterosexual, to parents who would rather they were gay. Are they going to force their child to be gay? Conversion therapy?

We’ll have to hope to the brightblue heavens the baby’s born healthy. To be able contend with their parents they’ll need to be physically healthy and mentally, emotionally, astute


Do yourself a favour, babe, don’t slow down for their weaving car, the wreck that’s going to happen – speed by it and don’t look in the rearview mirror




i find this odd


he thought parents would simply want a healthy baby
                                                          a baby born with ten fingers and ten toes  even the babys sex shouldn't matter (unless he supposed they ordered one)



odd doesnt begin to cut it

0934,  Sunday,  23  8. 20
1336,  Monday,  24  8. 20

24.8.20



he drove Billy nuts mentioning metres
                                        It’s yards, yards! Quit with the stupid metres already.

Metres  Theyre more accurate 

Jesus, Joe, Yards! You live in America.

Billy America likes to think itself separate of the world but the rest of the world uses the metric system

The rest of the world can suck our dicks! It’s yards!

Oh thats such a good argument You sound like your old man
                                                                 Billys old man was a cop a tough guy from Norridge he beat welts on Billy and his younger brothers beat welts on his wife

That’s not funny, I’m nothing like my old man.

I didnt say it to be funny 


they were riding their bikes to go fishing at Axehead Lake

Billy was always happier when he was outsideaway from home he liked to go fishing even if they didnt catch anything

lots of pretty girls borrowed their parents cars and came to the lake to sunbathe on striped beach towels laid on the grass around it

they often assessed where the fish might bite would be where those girls who appealed to them the most were laying
anif they were very cool inobvious when the girls turned in the bright yellow sun they caught glimpses of white unsunned tit sometimes an entire boob 
                                          and sometimes the girls just flashed them for a giggle

they didnt mind being made fun of

they got boners or stiffies
                           Billy called them stiffies


they never did let on to another soul about the promised land they found

       

in their senior year Billy shot himself with his old mans service revolver at Axehead

Joe found comfort that Billy did it there




to get to Axehead they had to pedal through the Forest Preserves and cross a bridge over the Des Plaines River

sometimes they fished the river caught catfish and suckers but they released them because the water was so murky they thought filthy


the Forest Preserves was a different animal

bodies were found there dumped
                                    usually in the overgrown earthen culverts just off public roads that when it rained runoff was diverted to the Des Plaines 

people got shot and stabbed

women got raped
                   Joe made a point likely boys got raped too
                                                                 nobody liked to hear his point that didnt shut him up Yathink only women get raped 


people picnicked in the Forest Preserves on weekends rode horseback on cinder trails danced polkas to accordions inside pavilions on parceled wooden dance floors


the Preserves the Woods were near Chicago

there were an efficient exits off and an entrances onto the interstate nearby

of course bodies got dumped

it was convenient

a no-brainer

still  most everyone went to the Woods for distraction to gather to barbecue to play together


it had a lovers lane
                     cops rousted it when the hour was getting too late
                                                                           or not

as a teen hed got his steamedup windows tapped by a lit flashlight he never heard em coming
                                                                                                  Let’s move it along, kids.
Yes officer

Don’t want to see this car he meant license plate around here again.

Yes officer

so he returned in a different car with a different girl
                                                       or not

what a beat  rousting kids making out sometimes having them open their windows where they might eyeball some young flesh
              likely they were there for the girls too  To Serve and Protect

                                                                                 those were the days


none of the kids ever said who they brought to Axehead or the Preserves to make out

thatd be the Kiss of Death for other make-outs and feeling-up and hand jobs and blowjobs and fingerings  and yes  the rare fucks
            but who had extra money to buy rubbers  and the time to negotiate with the pharmacist behind the counter at the Pharmacy  

no matter it felt great made you feel great even if you didnt get laid 

nobody wanted to get knocked up not the girls  not him
                                                            it was meant to be good healthy fun kissingFrench kissing getting better with practise practicing unclasping a bra with one handTHAT was an accomplishment


he also learned in lovers lane that a girl could cum

Suzy  Oh SuzyQ like the song she taught him how to make her cum
                                                                     and she promised if she came  you would too
talk about incentive
                      he couldnt tell you how many car ceilings he had to clean
                                                                                    that tickled Suzy harhar
                                                                                                       
Suzy told him about a girl she met that could ejaculate like a guy – he could tell she was fascinated – then she admitted that was the only girl she had sex with the girl was older than her
                                                                   You wouldn’t have believed all the vibrators and dildos she had.

Wha

Vibrators. Dildos.
                   she looked at him as if he was from a different planet  You know?
I dont know

Artificial cocks! Girls masturbate with them. You put them inside yourself.

Girls masturbate

I don’t know; you an idiot?

huh hed have to see that Id like to see that he meant Suzy

I’ll see. She’s really openminded. Mebbe she’d show you.



he spent twenty bucks
                         he had to cut four lawns with a push mower and edge them too

the girl had her own place

she masturbated 

she squirted 

he got a boner watching her as he sat beside her on the bed
                                                                                     
she talked him into not a hard sell masturbating beside her while she masturbated

he teased Itll cost you ten bucks



all his crazy sex and insights began at Axehead and in the Forest Preserves

0123,  Thursday,  20  2. 20
1022,  Monday,  24  8. 20

Creedence Clearwater Revival  Suzie-Q  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1mxaA-bJ35s



they were heading over to Axehead to put a line in the water hopeful to catch a trout

the Forest Preserve Service announced weeks after the fact that it had stocked the lake

clever to sneak a huge truck and trailer containing thousands of gallons of water and trout fry into Axehead off a major interstate artery and not be detected
                                        even if the vehicle was unmarked the lake was huge and visible from the highway and the major suburban thoroughfares that ran its north and south boundaries

yet the Forest Preserves said it was so 
                                          it was the Fish God to ten year olds


they grabbed their poles and tackle boxes salmon eggs bobbers and struck off to Axehead

early Saturday mornings were meant for fishing

they rode west on Touhy four miles past the old township cemetery it had been farmland and pastures thirty years ago

they went through the Forest Preserves on a bridge over the Des Plaines River under the Interstate and out the other side south a couple hundred metres was the entrance to Axehead                
                                                                      he drove Billy nuts It’s yards, yards! Quit with the metres already.

Metres More accurate

Jesus, Joe, Yards! You live in America
                                        Billys bike would begin to wobble did every time he tried to glare at him over his shoulder but Joe purposefully hung back Billys big tackle box gripped in his hand to the handlebars threw him out of kilter out of balance
                     hed gone down in the past                                                                                                  
Joe thought Billy would learn


METRES

frosted Billys fanny

0123,  Thursday,  21  2. 20
1139,  Sunday,  23  2. 20