he had no trouble conceptualising

what he had trouble with was the detours that occurred to him in route

to another it might be a skirt or Pretty! or Sparkly!

but concepts were rendered in words and their words collided as if at a childs bumper car ride careening and juxtaposing each arrested physics seeking to derail his concentration

since he was a child he had to quiet his mind remove anything from his line of sight that might distract his attention

he wasnt good at ignoring the minute lures that luridly provoked his mind and hyperbolically tossed him aside askew or inside out

it was profound what little bit it took to steal him away

Yaknow  Souls have shadows

Excuse me you said

I said souls have shadows

And what would make you say that

Just now just around the corner under the apricot tree as I filled the watering can from the upright spigot spiked in the yard Looking down past the rising water in the can I saw on the ground the shadows of the apricot branches and leaves shaking gently overhead then suddenly inbetween them I saw a hummingbirds shadow alit You know how few hummingbirds there are this year So I turned the water off and looked up to see the little guy There wasnt a hummingbird in the apricot I stood completely upright looking for it but I never did see it I returned to filling the can and again the hummingbird shadow reappeared I immediately looked again Again nothing So as I topped off the can again the shadow reappeared and standing the can filled in my hand I looked again Nothing
And thats when it occurred to me
Souls have shadows

Thats a leap

Not really  Last year we had nearly four dozen birds at five feeders Youll recall I was refilling them everyday They were going through more than a gallon nearly a gallon and a half of sugar water a day

I found two dead birds during the summer The neighbors cat took another that we know of  

This year I havent seen a halfdozen together at once

But that shadow appeared on the ground at my feet three separate times

Im gonna pay attention

Ill bet Ill see it again

See the shadows of souls

Dont make light of it

Our roommates are indistinct
Isnt it possible were seeing them as shadows rather than seeing their ghosts

I hadnt thought of that

I hadnt thought of it either until now

Something to consider

I suppose it is

Ill keep my eye peeled  My watering is a kind of ritual If its present I wont miss it

Well let me know

I will

     Im a little anxious

1634,  Twosday,  14  6. 16
 0909,  Thursday,  16 6. 16

cocksuckers:  “. . since Roe v. Wade (it is estimated) . . . more than 58 million unborn children have lost their lives”

how do you argue that deduction?

do you really have to point out an unborn animal CANNOT lose a life it never had

you could assume their prevailing counterargument  of course  Life instantaneously begins with the animating spark at conception at fertilization(a union of gametes an egg and sperm which cannot be attested to as to when it occurs -- precisely)

insemination does not confer LIFE BEYOND that moment or birth to any particular yoked zygote

conception by various legal and illegal means(rape incest) does not confer completion

it is not a remote untethered ball set down and rolled downhill unimpeded on its singular physics

to say that it is is violence

to say that it is is defamation of ones individuality and autonomy

they do not say how they derived their estimation

though I would opine the 58 million(served – McDonalds) is to incite and inflame their minions

it is attested without fact(not that zealots are concerned with facts or reality) or data supporting their assertion

it is tenuous

if he used their logic he might posit that ejaculation via masturbation is a crime and deserved severe punishment  --  certainly more than a slap on the wrist

      

0652,  Thursday,  2  6. 16

 0726,  Friday,  3  6. 16

http://www.lifenews.com/2016/01/14/58586256-abortions-in-america-since-roe-v-wade-in-1973/

did it again

Jesus  not again

for the second time inside a month he thwarted her suicide

                                                 What  Are  You  Doing

she gestured dumbly a string a variety of crazy shoulder shrugs  big eyes HUGE eyes

mutely insinuating 

                When you saved my life you became responsible for me

he translated her look into words so there was no confusion  Im responsible for you because I saved you

No                                                                                                                

I disagree

I aint Chinese Thats an old Chinese proverb

The concept embedded in it I dont accept  Unfurled  by saving your life I have . . . inflicted – its a tough choice of words but terribly accurate -- I have inflicted your continued existence on the world and whatever you do from then – be it good or evil – its my responsibility

she blinked and blinked  and   blinked    and     blinked      her eyes moist  glazed

then blinkedblinkedblinkedblinked

AwDont give me the ol brown eyes treatment I aint fallin for it                                                      

What are you thinking

her muteness persisted her voice paralysed

she was all eyes and hapless arms

he thought Could he threaten her

With what

Shes tried to off herself twice 

he conceded to take her home

he held her up to the wall and watched her grimly climb back into her web

she had sneaked back into the tub

                         

but since her last attempt he looked thoroughly inside it scouring the tub the tiles

he methodically checked everything  even between the shower lining and curtain

only once hes confirmed he isnt threatening anyone does he starts the water

ritually now he bathes and soaks every day

she quivered in her web watching him upside down plucking at its strands as if she were a harpist

perhaps wishing abstractly it was an Angels harp

                                         Do Spiders Go To Heaven If Dogs Do

YaAh  the heat of the water was getting to him

a cheap mirror and hallucinogen

1018, Monday,  13  6. 16