Im fine Really

it was awfully dark

                     he stepped onto the landing outside the back door of the family room his shadowpushed by lamplight from inside rattled down several steps almost onto the courtyard pavers

                                                                                                         Ya fall?

Off the wall?

I answered I did  as I continued urinating

                                          hed remounted the short stone retaining wall he fell from

Are you okay?

I am

How’d ya fall?

still urinating

           The intercourse the climax of three reasons chuckled earlier they discussed the excuse for a reason an reasons for excuses

I jumpedup onto the wall

It’s dark.

    quit urinating

                   Im still high

Why’d ya jump? 

An Im a little drunk

Why did you jump . . in the dark?

Its not entirely dark Yasee the orange sliver of the moon through the trees

he looked

               It’s small.  It’s ochrecolored.

It ain’t throwin’ much light.

In my head it seemed brighterlighted things mor . .

. . Than it actually is.

   

                             Which isn’t much.

I said  seemed

But you’re okay.

Im okay I woudnt sue you if I werentwas my fault my misjudgmentya know wha they say Do not judge lest ye be I like tha   lest ye be

                                   Lest ye be judged

You sound high.

I said I was

Still?

Listen man youve a higher tolerance than me

                                                  Im tryin to keepup

Which is probablylikely  a fools errand

                                           End run   Round end    Leapedup  on the wall

Yakiddin me

No

Go

      Sometimes I bully myself 

An I cant stand bullies

I have no ideawhat to say.

                                But you’re okay?ya didn’t hit your head?

I did not

          Had no intention of havin you cleanup a mess hide the murder weapon undergo police interrogation

Stand trial

I mean, really, you didn’t hit your head?

No

    Almost sounds like you did.

I said I did not

                   You know how yasay sometimes I talk like text like Im high went Im not

Ya have no idea wha its like to try an rein me in

                                                    Youll recall the time I toldya  sometimes Id like to take my brain out put it in a box bury it for a few days

Take a break

I do.

 

Havent figured tha out yet

                              Though thanks for askin  Im fine

Really

 

round2100,  reggaefriday,  27  6. 25

0928,  Saturday,  28  6. 25

Pianza  Absent Haven  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0cIS0oMZSAE

he liked to pick on hershe knew  because she insisted she wasnt religiousbut was the first to leap to religions defence

                   to date her classic from yet another bumper sticker It’s not a religion; it’s a relationship.

You tellem Sis

                   called her Sis as she had an I and an S in her name because a friend who introduced them was in the habit of either shortening peoples names or giving them nicknames

evidently a lifelong endeavor

                                         disliked the word  the cool kids in high school signed senior yearbooks with an impersonal Lots of luck in your future endeavors.

who was the cunt that thought that one up

    S  I  S mocking him

Sis  I was reading Amusing Ourselves to Death by Neil Postman

                                                                     In it he cited Henry Coswell who in 1839 wrote he was holding Jonathan Edwards 1746 up for ridiculethank Gawd if you know religion you know Edwards you know Arthur Millers 1953 play The Crucible which compared Americas Communist Red Scare to the Salem witchcraft trials of 1692  they werent only held in Salem but also Ipswich Gloucester Andover Methuen other communities

    Tell me Im not swingin an missin  

Coswell wrote I quote Religious mania is said to be the prevailing form of insanity in the United States.

I like tha I like tha an awful lot Religion paired with insanity

                                                                  I must admit either another versus an obsession of mine as you know or another bending of a continuum up or down as some might consider religion  reasonable

 

Sis

What do you expect from me?

Nothing regarding history

                              Your consideration of Coswell regarding his observation of midEighteenth Century Edwards

Or 1692

          Preceding in America before America

Witches an warlocks succubi an incubi Ohmy

                                                   Lions an tigers an bears roll off the tongue more easily

A defence

 

Nothing

    Aww Sis   Youre lettin me down

Saturday afternoon,  14  6. 25

1219,  reggaefriday,  27  6. 25

they were going to meet for coffee in the cityhadnt met in kind for better than half a year

                                                                                               usually took coffee at one or the others house

they were streetching out

 

as the bus was pullingup he was taking it south buddy phoned

                                                                           Ja

Say. I’ve invited two friends for coffee. Turned out they were also going to be in the city.

When did you know

A few days ago.

It woud have been nice if you asked

Asked?

          I figured you’d be cool.

You figured

                 You understand thas rude

 

 

Bus is here Ill be there  Hanginup

You’re taking a bus.

I am

 

    he arrived last

they hadnt waited had their coffees before them

thought A different breed

as one reached for his cup he interrupted him extended his hand to shake welcome

                                                                                        Stan  Joe  Weve met before

I don’t recall. Surprise

turned to the other Mike  Long time no see

Hello Joe.

shook buddys hand

Gents youll excuse me Headin in for a cup

turning to the shop he saw hed have to negotiate several tables filled with coeds to get to the door

thought Fuckin guys  Gonna be congested loud  conversations minimised  distracted

                                                                                                 All because

 

he returned with his black coffee in a ceramic mug

they were drinking from paper cups

conversation was stilted was interrupted by assumed surreptitious Wouldya look. leer was more like it  the three would look as a shapely coed arrived or one seated slapped the textbook before her sat up tall streetched her arms up then bent her elbowshands behind her head  held the pose aware of them  giving the old men a thrill

he thought These guys

he relaxed enjoyed his Harrar only place he found it listened to them share stories high school days off to college fraternities they joined brothers they made

                                                       alien to him

it was cool

    he smiled when they laughed

 

before the gang brokeup he shared an insight

                                                 If I coud he hadnt said throughout coffee Its occurred to me they were getting to their feet age is attracted to youth inclined his head to the tables of coeds as vampires are to blood

buddy butthurt asked

                      What do you mean by that crack?

Gotta go or Ill miss my bus

                                Gents

1420,  Thursday,  26  6. 25

1008,  reggaefriday,  27  6. 25

he liked to flirt with temptation

                                    slowly run his handshis fingers down her sides  cradlecup her fanny

listen to their breathing rise

anticipation in their groins

spit gathering  in the corners of their mouths

    the wholewhile in the liquor aisle

                                           looking coylyup at the cameras

whos watchingtouching themselves

                                     toying with their cocksleanin their cunts on the handle of a wobbly cart

rhythmically

dont try to tell him

                    hes worked years in liquor stores in five different states across the country

a real professional

                    knew the game inside outbut  one thing management couldnt make him do was view surveillance camera screens

he preferred pressing flesh

catching people in the act

 

 

  Temptation

he quit drinking

                   still adores the feelingweight of glassbottled liquor  their colour     shapes

rounded

phallic

    how can one not like the warmpromise of liquid inebriation lingering inside

    

1420,  Thursday,  26  6. 25

1847,  Thursday

a silence fell between them

                                  he knew what he was thinking   not her

there hadnt been anything contentious

but from postures

facial expressions

they went through doors across the hall from each other   thoughtfully

    they looked at each other  placidnot antagonistic

smiles mixedmused their faces

even musing her dimples flickered deliciously

 

So

      he spoke wasnt fond of so

Yes.   she chuckled

                       Ja.

Sawbuck for your thoughts

    A sawbuck?

Worth every penny

How generous.

No

     Im blatantlytryin to bribe you

You don’t have to be so extravagant.

Evidently ja  I got words rollin again

                                             Your thoughts

The money.

             pushed back in the chairhips slippedforward stuffed his hand into a front pocket produced a wad of folded bills Makes me look hung unfoldedfeatheredem small bills without  plucked a tenspot  halvedem again stuffedem back in his pocket shiveredback  satupright held the bill out to her between his fingers

          The money

You're legit.

Moneys where the mouth is

                                  Speak

I wasn’t thinking anything specific.

I put you off

You always put me off.

                            Why I keep coming back.

You?

 

Take a breath

A breath.

Versus

    You have an obsession withem.

Ja  Still

              Remember the continuum bends either up or down  their extremes near each other

I do.

I was thinkingot ahold of your panties

My panties?   You think I need to?

They come off Im not givinem back

her turn  she slithered forward in the chair unbuttoned a couplethree buttons slipped her thumbs indexfingers inside the waistband  pinched

                                              Gotem.

A good grip

As good as I can get pinchin elastic

    God   The Divil

her jaw dropped

1410,  Thursday,  26  6. 25

1745,  Thursday

Got a moment?

Ja

      touched her knee  Youll excuse me please

Certainly.

Got a moment? walked off

                                Was there anything I coud get you while Im up

she handed him the tumbler she drank from

                                                Please, if you’d replenish this?

Happy to

Thank you.

Yabetcha

    caughtup with Got a Moment? in the house  replenishing her his depleted Redbreasts

                                                                                              Whasup

Are you gonna let her dominate your time?

Shes too small to dominate

That’s not what I mean.

                         There’s othe . .

. . Others  Women   Who woud like to dominate my timeIve talked withem  Past few gatheringsthank you  Ive talked withem end on end

Fresh blood  Yaknow

What’s the attraction?

    You invited her

It would have been poor manners to invite her friends and leave her out, they were together.

Good thing you exhibited good manners

                                              She a kickIm diggin her

Really?

Ja

I wouldn’t have thought her your type.

 

She’s not your type.

    You know my  type

Our typ . .

. . Stop

         Speak for yourself

Then I will.

Please

She’s . . slight.

Slight

         More

More?

Yes

      Youre being instructive  Im all ears

You know what I mean.

I do

         But I want to hear you admit it

For what purpose?

Likely the same purpose you asked me for a moment

                                                          Why make an assumption when you can say Unmistakably

    She’s not well-endowed.

No  Neither am I 

                       Though amply sufficient

                

 

Our type.

No

Usually.

Shes mentioned it  Its a pool party an allthank you

 

She . . brought it up?

Ja

     Dug it

She said her breasts are humble

                                        An with tha  Excuse me   Im gonna take these Breasts out there

If youll inform the others  Well yak later

    At my leisure

                     Thanks

 

after 2PMishmash, Saturday,  21  6. 25

1231,  Thursday,  26  6. 25

Shakira  Whenever, Wherever  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HaxvTmyKZzw 

Hoeky motherfucker.

                       glared directly at him

Piece of shit  he thought

                           Don know me from Adam

then interrupted himself

                           H  O  E – K  Y  or  H  O – K  E  Y not tha it made much difference

still had to contend with the cunt

nodded to him

                A moment please Ill be right with you he went to his iPhone punched in H O E K Y

found

        overly sentimental  mawkish  No

                                                synonyms

mushy  No

goopy  Hardly

cloying  Unlikely

melodramatic  Never

maudlin  On rare fuckin occasions

corny  His kidbrother  not him

obviously contrived to win popular appeal or support  Thad be a cold day in Hell

phony or is tha P H O N E Y phoney baloney   No ones met a truer being  scars vouched

put his phone back in his jacket pocket zipped it closed

    I think you have me confused with somebody else

I’m talkin’ to you . . motherfucker.

Well then  Thas tha isnt tha

    reaching for him  an ugly smile spreading over his face

                                                              quicker

a headbutt spread his nose over his face

                                           staggering backward hit him again left cross to the temple that threw him bodily into stools peopled and not

                                                lotsa blood

glanced about the immediate bar for cohorts  no one moving towards him

                                                                              lotsa abrupt vocals

women screamed

                   probably blood on their clothing

remedy with cold water immediately

                                       hed like to stick around for the wet blouse contest but running no tab gulped his Guinness Gawdawful shame  split flipping his hood up over his head walking like a frog couldnt reliably say his height or girth

                                 He was just some fuckin’ dude, officer.

if in fact cops were called

0013,  Thursday,  26  6. 25

1046,  Thursday

Pink Floyd  Dogs of War  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5W7klssQ38Q

    pestered

                 before he went to sleep     pestered

pullchain operation of the light in his head failed  then frustrated  YANKing it  broke it

                                                                                           Faack

then

       late night coffee which usually doesnt affect him affected himmight have influenced the frustrated YANK

pestered

         made for a restless night

which is not to say it wasnt entertaining

                                            character Jack Taylor  Ken Bruens creation  remarked

. . . a slight trophy to the collection of oddments from an odd time.

were oddments a real thing he thought madeup “a random collection of things . . . mishmash of leftover items.”

    Ohbrother  sounded like his life

he scribbled it on a clipboard he kept beside himself while he read in bed before sleeping

under it he wrote  odd looks niice

                                      beneath it

OD’d. No.   Simple  odd

                            oddment appeared on page 44

pickedup his red BIC pen again wrote

                                          of course  44  odd looks niice  doubled numbers letters 

the things he put up with to entertain himself because no one was there to entertain him

                                                                                     his fault

he preferred entertaining himself since a kid because people couldnt keepup

he had to explain jokes

                             tedious

tedious    synonym  pestered

                                    recognising yet another versus in them

 

he finally broke out when he had a conversation with a voice in his head

Please  No more skulls to suck an chew

You don’t care for the soft nougat center?

I do  You know I do

Then why?

A fella can get spoiled

                         Too much of a good thing

Fucksakes. That makes perfect sense.

Boyo  it does

 

    cracked an eye

the sky out the window was lightening

he didnt bother to learn the timelook at the clock

2316,  Wednesday,  25  6. 25

0013,  Thursday,  26  6. 25

0925,  Thursday