the young Mexican girl came bopping up on him

                                                  they were familiarhed seen her the day before  she was working a table outside the grocer for an organisation he had not heard of that touted it was trying to help fill the unfortunatevoid left when USAID was kneecapped by cunt  felon   cunts

                                                                                      f/elon

she flashed him the peace sign

                                  Say brothe . . 

. . Ja sistah

You Sagittarius?

No But I get along famously withem   Aries

Damn, thought for sure.

You

Gemini.

Stop

      Birthday recently or comin

Recently.

Im up to my eyeballs in Geminis

                                   Daughter not a week ago her boyfriend yesterday his mother a day prior to my daughters one of my best friends daughter then his next couple days probablylikely why were attracted

    Not a bad guess kiddo

Although Aries Sagittarius  best mix

Arguably . . . the best cocktail in the whole of astrology, horoscope.

    Arguably

I’m almost off.

                 Maybe we coud have a coffee, a drin . .

. . A coffee

Coffee.

            Are you in a commitment?

I am

    she rolled her shoulder her breasts exaggerated her motion

                                                              That’s reeally she hung on that  too bad.

Lemme guess

You have a guess?

Bucket list  Bed an older man

    Whell shit . . .

Ill tellya  If I wasnt committed Id easily turn you inside out

                                                               Gratefulness makes for a patient sexual partner

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1702,  Wednesday,  11  6. 25

https://www.alicesparklykat.com/articles/448/Aries_Gemini_Relationships/

snickered  corrosively   Pig ignorant.

You don know wha the hell youre talkin about  Pigs   Wickedsmart

                                                                         Ya want to insult Bets for not goin out with youya best come up with something else

    She's a bitch.  There.

                                And you.  Anthropomorphizing.   The inanimate, animated.

Ah the spectrum  From drab dismal to enticed enlightenedPigs are as intelligent as dogs even some primates

           Studie . .

. . Name one since they them are for you insufficient pronouns when announced as authority or quoted.

Frontiers in Psychology

I don’t know that.

I do look it up

               Pigs have excellent memory are able to solve problems are emotional intelligent freakintempted to shiv him that he wasnt but curbed his tongue  They even recognise themselves in a mirror which youyou of all people must readily admit indicates self-awareness   possibly  ego

    You’re something else, man.

Thank you

                     Brother  I really grate youget under your skin

You do.

           I often wonder why we have a friendship.

Because I wont lie to you no matter how ugly the truth or your misgivings

                                                                             Besides  You derive more from our friendshipwhich  Im okay with

    Im on the dole

Ya make me laugh

1330,  reggaefriday,  6  9. 24

1211,  Wednesday,  11  6. 25

https://www.newrootsinstitute.org/articles/pig-intelligence

https://www.frontiersin.org/journals/psychology/articles/10.3389/fpsyg.2021.631755/full

    closindown shop

                         was just off a phonesex call with his girlfriend

they erupted

couldnt speak for her

                       but  the bandanna laidcross his belly an chest was bespatteredgobbed

he was still flushed

was an unexpected surprise

                                     catching his breathclosed his eyes pillows to either side of his head  cloistered  he let his mind playdabble wherewhen  to fall asleep

                                                                      Howbout we leave where we entered

that tickled him

                   Go out where I came in

EXIT

ENTER

ENTRANCE

EXIT

         redlettered electric sign installed above barlatched metal fire doors

You remember

Like I can forget

Tha was something

                        Two men an a monster

The three were monsters

                           rousing from the hypnopompic state etched in vantablack harshestwhite betweengray his dreamedself recognising the oncoming slaughter screamed hystericallyGet out get out ge . . . as the heavy door was slammed in his face  bolted   

                                                but he could see through the door 

saw suspended above  helplesslywatched the slaughter  axe machete monster snarled bit off handsarms extended as they tried to protect themselves   gunshots  on crass gray stickfigures big round heads a blemish appeared  gunshot wound suddenlyradiating then their heads blew up  stick limbs fell downfell apart like decrepit corncribs leveled from above  a terrificweight  its drag draft almost pulling his dreamedself down with it

   The three kickedshuffled skated through sludge  blood    gore

                                                                               the whole went black

 

since it was a repeat  the mornings panic  revulsion   were exhausted

    turned itself off

Nice  we don suffer recurring dreams

You still think them dreams

Theyre always dreams

Ifya say

    AnIdo

 

Iodine

    Clever

We are        

guess2330,  Tuesday,  10  6. 25

1036,  Wednesday,  11  6. 25

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sodDYJRpQjY

his nose began to run muttered Fuckin hay fever thought hed given it the slip in his Thirties when he finally put the Midwest in his rearview mirror

                                    he was trying desperately to get a handkerchief out of the outside pocket stitched to the side of the canvas bag he slung over his shoulder but it was warpeddistended by four large nonfiction hardbound library books and cans of cat fud

    it wasnt playing nice

as a kid  itchyrheumy eyes  a flowing nose  the cotton handkerchiefs jammed in his back pockets were dismally inept  however within a weeknot much more they gave way to colourful bandannas his mother bought for him because he needed more area  more cloth

a fifth book was tucked in his armpit  leek greens tucked in the other

                                                                           if he happened to drive past himself hed have guessed Houdini

an Houdini wasnt getting out of those embracesFINALLYSTOPPED slipped the bag from his shoulder down onto the street

extracted the handkerchief

gratefully blew his leaking nose saved only from dripping on his tshirt by repeated strong sniffs

                                                                                                   cocaine sniffs

updeep from his asshole cocaine sniffs

AwmyGawd

               it felt so good to clear his head

the bag was so stuffed nothing shifted

got his thumb under the straps  hoisted it back onto his shoulder greens back in his armpit  he liberated the fifth Wounded  Percival Everett  began reading again as he walked

                                                                         hopefully Houdini wouldnt reemerge

he was really relating to diggin Wounded   he didnt want to be interrupted

1330,  Tuesday,  10  6. 25

1916,  Tuesday

she smiledlaughed   tapered out to a chuckle a coo

                                                           I learned a word the other day, from a book, Fearless Speech, Mary Anne Franks, about the First Amendment, right up your alley, you’ll have to read it when I’ve finished it, you’ll agree, it describes you to a T.

It kinda sounds sexualwhich . . is why I think you’ll appreciate it, in addition to its meaning.

You think of me sexually

                               it was his turn to laugh

    Whas the word

Parrhesia.  You’re a parrhesiast.

GULP

Stop it.

May have swallowed my tongue

                                        Meaning . . .

Parrhesia. It's speech characterized by frank, fearless, truth-telling, even if personally risky or dangerous. To speak openly, honestly, often to authority, without regard or fear of consequence.

    Why  thank you

You’re welcome.

When do you expect youll finish the book

Probably in your hands tomorrow if you can keep them off me this evening.

    You woudnt want tha

No.

      Day after tomorrow.

page 58

           “. . . when assessments of the value and harm of speech are made with a white male subject in mind, the result is that speech valued by white men but harmful to women and minorities is likely to be characterized as protected speech, whereas speech that diverges from the interest of white men tends to be classified as an exception to First Amendment protection.”

page 86

           “The tech industry has accelerated and promoted violent white male supremacist rhetoric for its own ends. While the true religion of corporations is profit, not politics, indifference to the destruction wrought by the ruthless pursuit of self-interest is the very definition of recklessness. In its colonization and commodification of free speech, the tech industry unites corporate recklessness with individual recklessness.”                        

page 88

           “What accounts for the tech industry’s continued insouciance even as the social and human cost of its central profit model, based on the euphemism of ‘engagement,’ have become undeniable clear? It is now public knowledge that social media and other telecommunications platforms contribute to genocide, suicides, mass shootings, international and domestic terrorism, public health crises, insurrections, election interference, sexual exploitation, reputational ruin, psychological trauma, and misinformation on an unprecedented scale – and yet, tech industry not only survives but thrives.”

early June, 2025

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1350,  Monday,  9  6. 25

1144,  Tuesday,  10  6. 25

Immersive?

Bet your sweet ass

                     Why wouldnt one be

Because, don’t you think there’s more than nuance, splitting things into fine, discrete, what do I want to say?    Matter.

You answered your question

her expression puzzled  it looked awfully good on her

                                                          How?

Because it matters

                        Matters to me

Ill admit Im granular

But not . . . what do I want to say?  confusion smiled in her face  amazing dimples

Not geometry  geometrical

                              I wont be writing any tractuses  proofs   systematic analyses

OhHellno, that’d be unlike you.

                                  You’re at a pane of broken glass, scattered, picking up a piece here a piece there, same substance, but incongruous, edges don’t match, no interlocking, no rhyme no reason.

But one Immersive

                       I imagine a sphere of matter suspended agitatedmixed into clear batter

A bubble

I am its volume

I am the skin that contains it

Volume  Four over three pi radius cubed

Skin  Area  Four pi radius squared

I understand thas the math

    You have math to describe your immersiveness.

Howbouttha

she grabbed his face one hand puckering his mouth    kissed him hard split his lip

    not that he minded

1747,  Sunday,  1  6. 25

1050,  Tuesday,  10  6. 25

drove him nuts

                  You do  know

I don’t.

Yado

Why is it you think you can tell me what I know or don’t know?

If you told me you didn't know, I would accept the fact you don’t. I wouldn’t try to push you around.

    I.  Don’t.  Know.

Frankly   You do

                   An I say that because for some reason you discount you refuse to take into account  relate  the totality of your life experiences

    Ya live under a rock

Don’t be ridiculous.

Word Id enthusiastically use for you

                                       When you insist ignoranceanya do to make nice so people will think Oh, how nice is he? youll stand on your head not to ruffle feathers which are in serious fuckinneed of violent ruffling   I know  Because otherwise youd be dead

I knowI remember youve had life experiences that can be applied practically to circumstances despite not having been confronted before  exactly

You sweat the exact of the situation

the whole while he was shaking his head no

                                        You don’t know what you’re talking aboutso full of shit. If I laid that to you you’d pull Wittgenstein’s Whereof thereof out of your sleeve.

No no no Wittgenstein insists with his remark that one knows nothing hasnt a clue  when in fact you do

You have known something similar  If not very similar

Frankly Im gobsmacked by how you readily you discount yourself ya  minimise   yourself

    No  Actually I do

                         Mister Nice Guy

1747,  Sunday,  1  6. 25

0930,  Tuesday,  10  6. 25

Alice Cooper  No More Mr. Nice Guy  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PPhgKNmBFCo

Push over you two  Gotta make room

epizeuxis eyeballed alliteration

alliteration eyeballed back

    Push over?

Ja

      As I told ya theyre heads tails on the same coin

No.

Virtually the same Scarcely a sliver of difference

If they were the same one wouldn’t exist.

Lo an behold  Hold on low  

                              Identical twins

The only reason they have different names is to tell them apart

                                                                         Humans love to name shit

    You’re tellin’ ‘em to push over move over why?

They got company

Company.

Ja

You gonna say?

You don seem excited

                             Guess Youre human    A namer

I got me another pair of identical twins

blandly I can hardly keep my bladder from leaking.

Thas exactly how I felt

You’re being sarcastic.

    Wow

             Read me like a book

Drum roll

I expect a rimshot when I declare

he started rapping his indexfingers on the linoleum dinette table top  lemonyellow   metal tubular legs 

Infinity  Canya guess

still drumming  No.

Eternity RIMSHOT

                                   he didnt get it  Theyre not the same.

Both go on forever

Numbers versus timelessness, state where time has no application.

Infinite time

              Tack nanosecond on after nanosecond all ya want

Identical  fuckin  twins

I don’t agree.

Were a small sample size. 

 

    Also

 

Also what?

In the Fifties it was called the rat race

Relentless

Competitive

Exhausting life

Individuals driven to accumulate wealth power status

                                                           Through intense work  ambition

Tha was then

Wha race is this

I don’t know.

                You gonna tell me.

I havent a fuckin clue

Lemme know when something occurs to ya

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1022,  Monday,  9  6. 25

A horses ass

Yeah.  That was one of the questions asked, psych eval, in order to get through the door to study law enforcement.

At the junior college south of here

Yes.

Did your son answer

He answered with the obvious answer.

To learnonly learn wha it takes is required to become a cop

He’s not. He said he muttered to himself This is bullshit. Stood. Left the questionnaire on the desk and walked out of the classroom.

It also requested information if he had ever used illicit drugs.

He coud have lied

I think a polygraph was also going to be administered at some point during the course.

Faack

           Know wha I would have written

You?

       I got a pretty good idea.

Wha about youwha woud you have done

Got up and left like he did.

                               

                                  You?

Illicit drugs

Yeah.

Id have replied Yesanlots

                            Said quick sounds like zealots

Never wanted to be a cop 

Trouble with authority

Then too many unsavory run-ins withem

                                            Was jailed a few times

Might think my big mouth got the better of me  Im irrepressible  I coud have learned earlier tha my speech is Greek  Called parrhesia  Im a parrhesiast   I engage in fearless speech speaking my mind openly honestly unafraid

Was worth jail. 

1515,  Sunday,  1  6. 25

339preferred,  Monday,  9  6. 25

Brightlight  White   Lantern

                                at the edge  peripheral    his right eye

it appearedflashed three times      random

caught his attention

snaked by paparazzi

                        four words followed  two nouns  two verbs    occurred to him

    but he misplaced them

he hoped theyd reoccur

 

 

You kiddin’ me man? delivered with fuckin doomangloom   

Kiddinbout wha

What you wrote. Why, why would you write her that?

Delicious marrow

Yeah

    Its appropriate

You wrote I love you to your delicious marrow.

Ja

Committed to paper?

Ja

Arya crazy?

Nah

   No.

Nah

         I coud see me barbecuing her ribs femurs crackinem suckin marrow fromem as welcome as splittin chicken thigh leg bones with my teeth to get at theirs as I relish roasted buffalo marrow in restaurants

    You havent tried

Awhellno. his disgust palpable

Yahavent lived man I was raised on offalwoud fight a pig for scraps at a trough

BRIGHT    LIGHT    WHITE    LANTERN   

tumblers

lock combination to gain access  

get In

        In

where would that be

had no idea

hard to imagine

no one Outside knew

none had ever heard of someone getting In

                                              thats what Lifers said

but they couldnt remember the year they were arrested and interned

                                                                         although a shoo-in when theyd leave

only got dicey as New Year approached

                                           wondering   Can I stretch this out?into the next.

Will I be able to string it alongstring out the days or will some fuck try and shiv me because now they remember I slightedem some time down the line or they’ve decided to no longer forgive mewouldn’t blameem I forgive no one or they’re tired of being a someone’s bitch?

                                                                           A new dick might be nice.

maybe brightlight white lanterns glare at the corner of his eye were cogs an incantation to get at those four forgotten  words

                         strung together like pearls

 

    he wished he could remember   

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