he woke

            not really woke     materialised  a return to consciousness

turnedright off his back onto his side assumed the fetal position

                                                                       an unexpectedly found  

found a sweet spoteverything aligned cradled comforted shoulders arms wrists fingers legs neck head sighed

          Awww   Perfect

    he wrangled absolute  believed   absolutely

                                                   though notsomuch  perfect   perfectly

was an exceedingly rare commodity when he tried to sleep

sleep usually followed exhaustionwrestling an octopus after an uncomfortable tedious search for a position

then somewhatcomforted

                           ride out that which streeamed through his head

he didnt fall asleep

he blacked out 

               bludgeoned he liked to think put out of his misery                                                          

it wasnt queer to fallmiserably by degrees  asleep

 

  

 

    it  was sweet

queen october jumped onto the bed mewed hoppedup atop his hip highest point in the bed  and reclined

   purred

could feel her vibration

                         didnt cost him a quarter  Magic Fingers   John Houghtaling

                                                                                                Houghtingling 

1958 entrepreneur inventor

    shit like that streamedplayed hidenseek  and he was perpetually It

octobers warmth melted into his hip spreadcross his pelvis to the other descended his femurs crawledup his spine his brain floweredwent off like fantasticallycoloured muted Fourth of July fireworks

                                                                                               he went with it

    when he woke sunsplashed wall

                                                  had to have been at least an hour

got the show on the road

made his bed

slipped on sweatpants a tshirt

urinated

checked the travel alarm on the bookcase in the studio

                                                            an hourtwenty later than when he was usually up

cats in the livingroom looked at him

Hey gang sorry about tha

                              Happens so rarely I had to take took advantage of that sweet spot

which sounded

                  sounded like taking advantage of a teenaged girl

Easter AMishmash,  Sunday,  20  4. 25

. . . once upon a time . . .

                           Ya believe tha

    Howbout this

                       . . . they lived happily ever after

promise of Heaven

 

                   Yaseen the size of those doormen  bouncers

                                                                    Fuck

Theyd eat the top of your head off before ya knew wha hit ya

                                                                    Though     May not be a bad strategy

I meanof course     Exit

                          Exit

Donlook  no notat meyah  Grim    A grim accounting

    Thoughmarveling you have an ace to play

                                                           coarselycleared his throat     Plausible deniability

There are not two more prettier words in the English language 

                                                                    Find a dummy

Hangem high

Pawns

They did tha to themselves

                                 Don grieve

I don

    This isnt pretty

Theyh xdoidnt zay translated  mightshoud  have been able to guess    They didnt say

                                                                                          Pretty

No  I woudnt think

      So whares this leave us

Us

Yah

         Us as in once upon a time us an they lived happily ever after

Us

They

 

Who  

2007, Saturday,  19  4. 25

Constellations

So lemme ask you . . .

 

Yah

    I’m thinking.

About

    If I want to ask you.

Ask

I’m concerned what you’ll think . . . about me.

I don usually think about you

                               Coud be  provide  an epiphany  Doesnt tha sound inviting

Could be setting me up.

    Possible

               But we wont know unless you say

Yah

True.

    Have you ever walked into a room . . . . and forget why you entered it?

                                                                               No fuckin doubt

You have?

Just said

             Now lemme ask you

Yes.

When youve walked in an forgotten how do you walk out after givinup thaya cant remember why

Walk out?

Yah

      I coud sayan I will  but Id like to hear you commit first

Me first?

Yah

I back out.

I do too

           Backin out is like crossin your fingers something will trigger your memory

Yes. nodded hard

he was nodding as hard

                           Thas not worked for me  You

No. Elvis has left the building.

Yah

      An he aint comin back any time soon

Fucker never comes back.

Well  Not like theyre nuclear codes

No.

     Not like I'm forgetting to wipe my ass.         

Nah

            Yafeel any worse for wearfeel youre missin out on whaever it was you coudnt remember

    No.

Growin old aint for the weak of heart

No.

      Though apparently for the weak of mind.

Disagree

            Its just an enthused inmate who executed an escape

Left no clues

Committed the perfect crime

We aint perfect often

Take wha we can when we can

                                    I don feel diminished  You

No.

      I can't say that I do.

Dig walkin backward out of the room  My feelin

                                                    If you turn an walk out  the room jeers ya

Pissant

A room callsya a pissant

                            Youve deserved itcuz it woudnt darewoudnt dare  say it to your face

1101,  Thursday,  17  4. 25

1514,  Saturday,  19  4. 25

Binaca Abracadabra concentrated Golden Breath Drops  came in onehalfounce glass vials

                                                                                               Tip It… Tap It…

    hadnt thought of Binaca in years

                                        glimpsed a character a salesman in the film Glengarry Glen Ross tip his head back use a breathspray to sweeten his foetid smoky boozy breath

                                                                                  he knew

didnt even cup his hand over his mouthfingers to his nose and blow to smell if it was rancid

    maybe that made a good salesman

                                            wouldnt know didnt endeavored to be a liar

friends

          college

interactions

             precursor to his lifelong animosity for  Soah, what do youah do for a living?

he couldnt give a fuck what anyone did for a living

college

         drinking beers smoking dope hitting on women some clowns inevitable stumbled into the mix and pronounced they were studying business

his affable reply

                    Eat cock

turned  walked away

                         thinking

business majors probably keptinvested in oodlesanoodles of Binaca

                                                                       nobody wants to smell cock on a guys breath

    Really

Whadaya mean really

Thaswha an breathaerosol reminded you of

No

     Mamets Glengarry Glen Ross reminded me

Cock sucking salesmen

                           If they had to theyd suck a cock to close a deal

Jesus

No

Whadaya mean no

Jesus had to die to close his deal    

2143,  Thursday,  17  4. 25

1529,  reggaefriday,  18  4. 25

Jesus Christ Superstar  Everything’s Alright  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F3IZ_c-43Ns

a wile   was a strange thing to wake from

                                              stomped his eyes

he rubbed them with the sheet

odd matter crumbled

did as if it was a wile 

                          or a while or  awhile  noun adverb  unspecified amount of time

or briefly a short period of time

he ran awhile

    his body interrupted him Better get up and take that piss

Yes

      maybe a wile a while awhile hadnt awakened him after all

   

lying back down he thought of herhe thought of her an awful lot

she had her wileswitches do  wildwiles

although when she deployed them he was aware

                                                      despite

bewitching him

she delighted him

but he wasnt stupid

                      had run intowas attracted to too many browneyed girls who knew what they had going for themselves

he watched guys fall for thatturn themselves insideout

in his vernacular

                   gents  pussywhipped

he only had to learn pussywhipped once like   jealousy

                                                             parked their asses in a Folgers coffee tin and buried them

in an unmarked grave

when he caught echoes of them

he couldnt be convinced

although

          he loved their varied ofttimes delicious efforts like watching a play hed read

she conceded he was beyond her kind  witchery

he thanked her and asked

                              Am I beyond your unkind witchery

she smiledher dimples deepened

                                     I suppose well have to see.  Time will tell.

in the meantime

they were having a helluva time

6AMishmash,  reggaefriday,  18  4. 25

1201,  reggaefriday

Beatles  Here, There and Everywhere  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0OVD9CqHGCM

itd been a while

he was grateful

a while since WORD jumpedcorrected him  incorrectly

                                                          and queerly too

he wrote Im makin just did it again and in its corrupt little brainmaybe algorithm  he caught it peripherally in his case periferally WORD changed Im makin did it again got a bug up its ass to Imm akin 

Whas Imm he asked out loud

                                 continued  To the best of my knowledge Imm means nothing

akin meant something

so he thought hed play its little game  Googled Imm akin

Google questioned Imm skin

no

then for shitangiggles he clicked on Imm skincouldnt waitwas a nanosecond to see what it was

he read quotes Immuderm lotion, a product containing Norwegian Beta 1,3/ 1,6 Glucan, a polysaccharide that it said to benefit the skin’s immune system.

skin is  the largest organ in the human body 

also he would be the last person in the world to challenge Norway

                                                                       or for that matter Denmark

which took Greenland in 1814

Denmark had to cede Norway to Sweden after the Napoleonic Wars  the Treaty of Kiel

did WORD change his words so he could learn that

like computers 

                 he was a learning machine too 

         

0930,  reggaefriday,  18  4. 25

1103,  reggaefriday

Beatles  Norwegian Wood  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y_V6y1ZCg_8

sitting on the couch she heard him say something in the kitchen   caught   . . . sudden

                                                                                              What’s sudden?

Wha

I asked, what’s sudden?

    Whas sudden

What you said.

he mouthed sudden several times in a row puzzled   he hadnt said sudden  sodden he said  thought

Wellshit  sounds like sudden

                              I said sodden

Sodden?

Yah

       he should have expected her question and said before she asked

The cats toy the little stuffedfabric beheaded quail one of the knuckleheads batted or dropped it in the water bowl

knucklehead term of endearment

she occasionally was a knucklehead too

he called it equal opportunity

calling her knucklehead usually endedup with them fervently fucking in the sack

                                                                                                if

they made it to the bedroom

Ah. That makes sense.

Yah

     Makin you a French press Want me to bounce cream or hazelnut creamer

Please. Hazelnut.

Another minute

                 I think the quail was a shot across the bow They want fresh water 

Warm water I’d think. It’s brisk in the house.

Are you okay

Yes yes, I’ve slippers, a sweater, my robe, a throw blanket across me.

Thas my grrl

    You could run the heat.

I coud Though I checked an weve not hit the temperature we agreed Donning layers are cheaper

An greener

she hated when he was right

he heard her think Not hatedon use hate Use dislike with extreme prejudice

Get out of my head.

Lemme get in first

he heard her muffle her laughprobably pulled the collar of her robe over her mouth

                                                                                        usually

she laughed mouth open  didnt cover it

she was attempting subterfuge

tossed it again

                  Lemme in first

Maybe, this once, you turn the heat on. 

    Are we negotiating

You want in?

Yes Negotiations are over  Ill turn the heat on

No, no. I heard it in your voice.

                                 I’ll turn it on so you don’t cross yourself. I don’t want you betraying your ethics. Mine don’t extend that far.

he stood in the middle of the kitchen shaking his head  smiling

I can hear you smile.

                        I’ll take this one for the team.

I love you

Of course you do.

justprior to 9,  reggaefriday,  18  4. 25

. . . and furthermore says the United States Court of Appeals for the Fourth District

https://www.documentcloud.org/documents/25900495-2025-04-17-court-order-dckt/

sucks to be v.  

0839,  reggaefriday,  18  4. 25

excluded from v. VP JD sounds like a disease Vance has to chime in on due process:  https://www.msnbc.com/opinion/msnbc-opinion/trump-administrations-immigration-lies-present-defining-test-rcna201817?cid=eml_mda_20250418&user_email=e4c91d00eead6d858374885584701152a02c6d873bb23bf387b4583a289e5951

Abu Ghraib

Kristi Noem
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RRAtzscWg6E

Abu Ghraid

shes unlike Maryland senator Chris Van Hollen  a legitimate democratically elected steward

2049,  Thursday,  17  4. 25 prior to Americas 250th birth

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GfQ86tghKks

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j1ueTR5TkcM

https://www.courthousenews.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/04/boasberg-probable-cause-contempt-venezuelan-deporations-opinion.pdf

Yes  was gettin his freak on

he knew better than try to resist

knowing better occasionally saved him  duress

                                                     or its other name   pain

but what he wantedwhat he entertainedunderstood

                                                          was the duress  pain   worth it

if it was  so be it

                  if caught    caught necessary

wasnt one to pretend he lived in a confessional  would readily admitspew his transgressions sins

caught dead to rights

                       he wasnt namby-pamby lookin for leniency or  forgiveness

words  similar  to  compassion

    his compassion was hard won

therefore didnt plead didnt look for it

                                       Whacha got

very cool  his freak provided him a word he wasnt familiar with

                                                                       anwas so accurate regarding him

had been about time he learned it 

contumacious

meaning

stubbornly or willfully disobedient to authority

                                                                           GOT THA RIGHT

    truth be known ought to be spelled cunttumacious

1249,  Thursday,  17  4. 25