22.12.24

    O my  goodness
                          truly truly   goodness     he nodded to her

she smiled

You look absolutely absolutely beautiful

Oh, why thank you.

Thank you  You made my heart smile

    You’re heart smile?

Ohyes
       You shoud understand Im from a huge family  my family eleven  extended family sixtysix cousinscoudnt toss a stone without hitting a pregnant aunt or aunts Top thaoff with my parents becoming foster parents  we always had babies in the house
                     So wonderful
her smile grew larger

she was dressed in a pale peagreen plumstriped skirt loose white muslingauze blouse flats
                                                                                               swollen belly swollen breasts
energeticallycoloured pinkcheeked  sunfilled
                                                had been chasing down her freshfaced toddler

she struck him with a Medusas eye
                                      turned him into gleemade him want to throw cartwheels

1PMish,  Thursday,  14  7. 24
1322,  Sunday,  22  12. 24

walking down the streetlooking forward  looking ahead
                                                          Awbruther  oh man sidestepped a tall slowpoke to keep an eye on her as they approached each other
She looks freakin amazing

she looked better

                                    Awhoh some  thing  peeled off       Not so much

   Okayawright too good to be true
                                      bamboozled himself   she was not his distanced imagining

did have a remainingredeeming aspect
crossed his fingers
he nodded to her as they passed
                                    she smiled

gave it five strides leftrightleftrightleftpivot glanced over his right shoulder
                                                                               THERE  there she was
struck gold


itd been occurring to him for a while given cosmeticswhich he wasnt keen  shapely  forward facing   womens attributes were behind them
                   out of eyeshot of their mirrors handholds of preening in bathrooms or before their vanitiesdid they still have vanities brushing their hair putting on their face fixing their earrings   their natural form  shoulders back derriere back of knees  calves
were their vanities gone

these attributes had their backs


GAWDjust cominround the corner  another woman
                                                        he excused himselfstepped right  went behind her    glanced
she looked better from behind too

1PMish,  Thursday,  14  7. 24
1116,  Sunday,  22  12. 24

Oh Ive got this  giggled
                                  he beamed

You’re lookin’ mighty proud of yourself.

Oh you have no idea
                        Im pleased as punch with myself

Are you braggi . .
. . I am 
           I   I really am

 

    Yagonna share?

I will I will   Im relishing it

 

Gonna share?

 

Let me cue it up
Cue it up?
Yah 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HaA3YZ6QdJU

she listened

               Billy Joel.

Yes

    What’s so clever?

MAGA theme song

after 4PM,  Saturday,  21  12. 24
1208,  Sunday,  22  12. 24
Billy Joel  Just The Way You Are

21.12.24


    things  words   happen to catch his eyetwist in his head   he questionshumoured
                                                                                             Why the fuck not
he believes if its occurred to him its occurred to someone else or will in the future
                                                                                    thoroughly Convinced hence the capital C
latest collisionfor all practicalities it didnt occur there  collusion
                                                                   commodities
may have been the sidebyside Ms
                                         set in motion  mammaries    co-mammary
sidebyside  assets

hes seen them beside sidebyside   asses
                                           has lead a very very fortunate life
which he believes has been due to him being willing to ask to say  to take No
                                                                                   he was charming
Nos were never fast or furious
                                  because
he caught them off guard
                           his ticklish rejoinderquestion Catchya with your pants down
which placed an image in their minds that played into his hands

Guess, yeah.

    So why not
Yeah. Why the fuck not?

Wha I always ask myself


commodities
               became commodititties originally traipsed across his brain as commoditits but he agreed with himself
he liked titties better than tits
                               theres a difference

he wasnt going to say
                          was more than willing to let people play that out for themselves

2023,  Wednesday,  18  12. 24
1330,  Saturday,  21  12. 24

Infatuated.  That’s how it’s pronounced.

Thashow you pronounce it
                               I like mine better
It’s offensive.

Tell me mother When did you become hall monitor a mediator of correct  incorrect
                                                                                           Adjective
Possessed with an intense short-lived passion  Or admiration
I prefer passion
                    Since you do not

You regularly knock me about not being passionate, irritates me something fierce.
Which isnt the same as passion  Irritation
                                                 Lets not confuse you
Youre not passionate
You become infacktuated
                             All fackedup

In – fa – tu – ated.

All facked – up
                   Aint budging  Aint facilitating
Which is where infacktuated arose
                                          You may recall
I recall.
Arya sure or did I just remind ya
                                      Id say the latter
Yet again something else you knock me abou . .
. . Your memory
                   Please
Your memorys shit  Do not fight me on tha front I can hand you your ass


    I’m not going to say it like you.

I didnt ask you to  mother
                             I  didnt ask

Perhaps you were   whayasay

2017,  Wednesday,  18  12. 24
1253,  Saturday,  21  12. 24

    Jung  dreamwork
                         he encouraged his patients to view their dreams as a child would look at a ball the ball new to their experience how they turned it over and over again in their hands experiencing it from all  nonot angles    arcs
Why
      because like a ball a dream has to be understoodmust be seen from as many perspectives as the dreamer can imagine
ultimately
            its theirs to understand their symbolism circumstances   settings


this wasnt a dream he just came from
                                          rather  a grocerystore
he was trying ascertain what the circumstances were
                                                         not to think the one thing he was sure it was

to his benefit
              hed had enough trouble exposing mistakes to his deficit that Courtesy had to sort out and reimburse him give him items for free
                           those were errors baked in the cake
unfortunately for the grocer he rarely bought more than a dozen items at a time only wholesale breakout was when he bought catfud twenty cans at a time saved him twentycents per can
                                                                          whats baked in the cake
is taking advantage of customers who bought shopping carts full of groceries
baked in the computer system that the registers and scanners were part of

    if incorrect in the system or prices not uploaded the stores benefit
                                                                           unless they were caught

this particular bout he benefited
                                 bought a bottle of Baileys twentyone dollars a bundle of bok choy bottle of Canadian whisky thirteen dollars two bags Peet’s Big Bang coffee sixninetynine apiece thirteenninetyeight a box of Ritz crackers
anticipated ran the numbers in his head
                                             approximately fiftyfive dollars
gal was getting off
                    handed him a sign to place at the foot of the conveyer belt THIS AISLE CLOSED  she could have turned off the register 3 light overhead
                                   scanned his items
Thirtyfour0four.

he was bagging his purchase

finished
          he said Thirtyfour0four

she said Correct.

Thirtyfour0four

    Yes.

Thank you tapped his debitcard
                                    no sooner handing him the receipt she was gone
before he left the store he read it

the scan did not pickup the bottle of Baileys
                                               therefore turning the ball in his hands
was she so anxious to be gone an mechanical   that she did not hear the scan failed
or  did she not care no skin off her ass
or did she not scan it   gifted him
                                       seemed
since he worked a liquorstore register knew prices  usually had a pretty good idea what the purchase would be without taxes
       that likewise she should have known Thirtyfour0four was light


he benefited
              given all the mistakes theyve made over the years

    hed call it a gimme

1443,  reggaefriday,  20  12. 24
1151,  Saturday,  21  12. 24

20.12.24


death   oblivion
                   he knew wha shapedformed the pair    oblivion attractive   oblique attractive
maybe it was because his life was smalldidnt socialise  that lefties death impacted him as deeply as it did

she was coming into her own
they related
were intimate
               her choice
the other three werent prone
very catlike

                 which is why he had cats
was not keen on dogs
demanded attention
                        brooding loyalty
possiblyprobably why couples tested the water with dogs before going hogwild
                                                                                      have children
see if they could tolerate  manage   a mammal  pet
the smart ones

                      unlike those whose children were byproducts


he lead a small contained life jammed full of badgering interests
                                                                     few distractions
entertained himself
                      therefore
lefties death
unexpected
subtracted
              substantially shook him              

    her ashes lay in his lap as he wrote as she used to sprawlbe stroke while he did

1544,  Wednesday,  18  12. 24
1233,  reggaefriday,  20  12. 24

    dreaming  Quit composing  woudya
                                                 mete out clearly  sharply
words woke him
                   could suppose they gave him permission to use the head


urinating he thought  he was composing   Chainsaw  Hacksaw  Buzzsaw
                                                                                 Chain  Hack  Buzz
coud hearem bitch in the bedroom Don’t call us that.

they could read his mind But yawere ya absolutely were  Pulled my ass out of a going-one-way sling

Don’t call us that.  Please.
                             they werent really worried they knew he wasnt partial to nicknames
hed only use them in the future teaching lessons  or to recall his deep affection for them his respect that they saved his ass
You were truly magnificent
                              Say thank you

they chuckled conspiratorially
                                  No biggie Daddy-O, no biggie.

 

    fast asleep  awakened
                                               noise   in the livingroom
he sat up two cats were poised at the foot of the bed their attention riveted on the hall livingroom beyond
                                                                                                               queen sat on the steamer trunk under the window she too was fixated on the doorway hallway

he slipped out of bed
was naked

    didnt do the cinema HELLO  WHOS THERE

cats primedremained steadfast  eyes big their vision working the dark

silently he went up the hall into the livingroom
                                                no sooner stepped inwas rocked by a fist on the temple staggeredthrew a hand outcaught the sofa table eyes went to his coach coachs eyes convinced him he gathered himselfdidnt dropped though some element wanted him down  he was yanked off the tablespun right into a telegraphed haymaker meant for his face tucked his chin took the brunt on the forehead widows peak that couldnt have been comfortable was rocked backwards into flurry of kidney punches glanced again coachs eyes convinced him  he spunthrew an elbow caught bone skull  was banged forward a knee meant for his balls turned his hip took it on the thighbehind him a hiss from Hell shriek queen shreddingclimbed an assailants back bit his neck slashed his face with both paws claws took an eye assailant to his right  tom a heavyweight  slammed into the outside of his knee it turned inwardcrumpled he fell tom lacerated his shins thighs bit his hands as he tried to fend him off coach nodded but his leg collapsedhe hit the wall with his shouldertook heavy claws upcross his back then he was light and the guy before him with the bad hand wrist was slow to get his arms up avoid the buzzsaw of claws that raked his chest throat lips face a bloody slicedslashedfuckin mess rendered in seconds
                                                  cats leapt away growling deep in their throats  hissing  backs arched
fuckedup three hit the doordoorjambs stumbled out cryingmoaning they escaped down the hill
looked at coach 
                  put a stool down in his corner


    Chain  Hack  Buzz
                            Don’t call us that.
    
0534,  reggaefriday,  20  12. 24
1052,  reggaefriday

FRAGILE
                     printed clearly on a cardboard box mailed for Christmas containing cookies

is the same kind of thing as a woman telling a man NO

0833,  reggaefriday,  20  12. 24

19.12.24


he knew wha shaped his question

hed bet friend forgot weekanahaf thought leftie was one of the outdoor ferals


    Death   Or oblivion

Jesus. I get up, topoff my drink, and walk into this?

Yacoud simplify itknow ya don like to work tha hard
                                                         Toss a coin    Dead head  cleverhuh

Yeah. No.   No. I think I’d like to give it some thought.
                                                                Why the question?
Obviously was playin with oblivion
                                         Oblique occurred to meliked its look   Gave it a little twist
Oblique live on  obliqueliveon

Deads dead
               Maybe not oblivion obliqueliveon


    Why do you do that?to irritate me?

No  How can ya not
                       Words Building blocks toy building blocks  Thoughts sentences paragraphs parcels for poems essays short stories songs books   literature

State of being unaware  Unconscious of what is happening
                                                                   Your ceaseless annoying semantics
Resistance  Opposition

Death  Oblivion

I got a coin


    You know.  
                   Maybe I will.

Quarter comes back to me  Tails is a buffalo

I think I’ll go with your clever dead head.
                                              he flipped it high
Absolutely heads
Fiftyfifty.
Absolutely heads

pissed him off
                heads                                        
That’s not proof of absolute.

For thacall it was

That’s not proof.

Ive got a theorem confirms absolute   Proven by a chain of reasonin . .
. . I know what it is.

Like a song you do

    What’s your theorem?

You absolutely   woudnt have sex with a guy

1500,  Wednesday,  18  12. 24
432preferred to 1632,  Thursday,  19  12. 24

1937  Meyer Shapiro  Nature of the Abstract

Abstraction: The pure form once masked by extraneous content was liberated.

semantics
             extraneous content

pure form
             essence essense  revealed   released
unbound


purity
         which desires as he must is not absolute though he still pushed it it is also why he does not gamble

    absolute  oxygen in his veins


he liked figurative art

he liked photography
                       neither which he could dowanted to do because he was attracted to things unseen which incorporate the necessity of imagining whaelse could behad hid cloaked itself   in the shadows shade

    reminds him of Rorschachs

 

Wha do you see

What do you see?

Im not going to say because you might renegemight Awyah.  I can see that.

I wouldn’ . .
. . Yawoud
              Yado
I relate a story whether its nonsensical or actual or actualembellished fiction rises from nonfiction non from fiction I ask you to tell me a story
You don

Yacant


    You have better stories.

Its not a competition
                       But you seeI believe it is fair to say  most things in that light
Zero Sum

    Im opposite

 

Look again
 

What do you see

    Yeah.  I’m not playing.

2214,  Sunday,  3  11. 24
1140,  Thursday,  19  12. 24

It’s semantics.

To you
            One mans semantics anothers bane  In my case annoyance

I annoy you?

Yado
       I like words to describe detail  concrete accretions    Committed
You skate


    You enjoy being a contrarian.
Correction
             Thadbe cuntrarian   Accurate
Soitenly more playful  Stooges
I know.
Wasnt sure you did


Howbout we change up?

Im listening

The coming inauguratio . .
. . Coronation
it looked like he glowered it looked like he glowered
                                                   Did you glower

    Glower?  Made a face.

Angry Sullen   Scowl he chuckled
                                       Semantics 

    So   I interrupted

You frequently do.

I do  Otherwise we find ourselves waitinround for you
                                                            The coming whasoever

You think there’ll be buyers’ remorse over the next year?

B S

    B S?  Bullshit?
No

Explain.

    Buyers sorrow  an Im not helpinem out one bit
Too whahaveyou think theyve won something beat someone a game  it aint
                                                                                 Wish they only fucked themselves over
But they fucked us too

the remnantglower evaporated

overnight,  Thursday,  19  12. 24
0951,  Thursday

 lefties home

1340 hrs yesterday

li’l screwball  somehow she was assigned Lifty and Liftie     Really