John Sell Cotman

                    washiness vapourousness watercolours created with an impossibly unimaginably small brush

    if he read that on a untitled menu hed order it handsdown without asking its ingredients

Anplease if I may a side of “Life is to shallow to drown in”

What the hell, man, what are you jabbering about now?

    Jabbering

                  Your consternation is adorable  facetious

Something twists you anit need not be me your puss screwsup like you smell something awful

When I say something obscure or outlandish outside the box  you have to admit your box is enormousnothing  everever occurs to you outside it  What I say troubles you

Therefore I jabber  I jabber therefore I am

Please.

         Menu. Untitled. Order. Side, what the hell are you talking about?

Tryin to imagine what food it might bewha it might taste lik . .

. . They’re words, nothing mor . .

. . Ribeye

            Just a word  Nothing more       

It’s a steak.

A word a a word   Shes my ribeye

You’re ridicu . .

. . Vapourous porous difficult to gatherthink mercurial  quicksilver

                                                                      Obscure  Which is fascinatingdropping holding partitioning its syllables  O B S   C U R E  cure if curing how can that be bad

Obscure. By your connotatio . .

. . Abstract meaning  Intension

                                    Logic The internal content of a concept

Archaic Resolution determination

Obscure  Unorthodox  Rare  Little known

                                                     Agree

    Yes.

Why be upset by itupset just because I pose it

Because it is . . . outlandish ridiculous unrealistic why you . . why they even occur to you.

My box is ridiculously small

                               Lets play with why shall we

Why?

Are you asking why or posing why

    What do you mean?

The word why  Spelled W H Y

Yes. he was not pleased

Why  W H Y 

              Why not the letter   Y

Throw a questionmark on it would suffice be understood   Correct

No

Y?

You’re playing with me now.

Were playing  I am

                      Y waste your time an effort to write the W the H   Theyre superfluous

Y me  Y knot  W X Y  Z

Jesus.

I seeunderstand Im not breaking through but its not necessary

                                                                      You understand I jabber

Cool Daddy-O

                  Howbout nesses

More?

Comon

What’s a ness?

Return to the beginning Washiness  Vapourousness

                                                            I dig nesses

I’ve never thought about it.

I loveem The vast interpretation by its  single  ness  stroke

                                                                  Like a prism refracturing common white light into the involved spectrum field

You’re jabbering.

                      I’ll seeya later, I’m sure I’m supposed to be elsewhere right now.

Friday,  10  11. 06

1120,  reggaefriday,  6  12. 24

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Is he yanking our chain  again

shehe warnedsaid Think outside the box stretch your legsplumb your imagination

He said essenseI startedseveral of us started he obviously felt it becauseto leave no doubt  he spelled E S S E N S E

Thas not essence

Im listenin

Essence intrinsicindispensable quality  of somethingespecially something  abstract  tha determines its character

Abstract   Correct

    wilted a bit Yes

Might essense sense   an abstract of essence E S S E N C E

sighed  Therestha

                   There is tha

Did you hear him out before you wondered   yanking

But he continued  He said reality then immediately reasonality

                                                                    Whastha  Wha is tha

Wha he said  Arent they similar mirrored  Realityreasoned

He stretches his legs ad hoc

                               Listen to his thought beyond  I did

We quit

I didnt

         He saidSHADDUP  Listen here

He slammed his life in like an episode rearending an episode rearending an episode on an on anonanon till either he had the craziest daisy chain going or the worse icy road Midwest car wreck ever Shattered glass twisted chrome coloured taillights diamondwhite headlights oil fluids  Roadkill

                                                          Hopes an dreams reduced to gobbets of flesh  clots of meat 

Yaquit

Yadidnt heardidnt listen

Dudes a plain speakerdespite  his abstractionscreations

                                                              Hes no boring fuck

Reasonwhy I assume  youse gravitated to him as I did   Coalesced    Orbited his sun

Noonishness,  Tuesday,  21  11. 06

Friday,  1  12. 06

1433,  Thursday,  5  12. 24

. . . it was too much

he ran a hard bargain with too much

                                         was its adamantadversary  enemy    foil

but this time

   it had the legup

its head above water

he was thrashinggulping

                            being thrashed

   he couldnt die on this hill

it wasnt his

               he had come to be what defence he could

but arriving

he saw he was overmatchedhe couldnt even describe them as odds

                                                                          a sure thing    absolutely

it killed him he couldnt touch himcomfort him

                                                      . . . it was too much

Realised

he wanted to throwup than swallow

                                          he retreated

backed out of the room

tears blurred the image of his reclined silent drugged friend

                                                                before he could shut it up hard bargain brayed

YOURE DEAD YOUR BRAIN JUST DOESNT KNOW IT YET

    lesson learned

wouldnt happen to him unless something hoodwinkedambushed him

    EXIT STRATEGY

Saturday,  18  11. 06

1215,  Thursday,  5  12. 24

majority MAGA voters theyre gonna take it in the ass too

                                                                  should they think for a hotminute Americas oligarchy gives a rats ass for them

    by definition according to him becoming a billionaire once millionaire requires that they are psychopaths/sociopaths

https://nymag.com/intelligencer/article/trump-cabinet-net-worth-billionaires.html

yes a tad stale 2021  https://www.forbes.com/sites/michelatindera/2021/06/29/the-net-worth-of-joe-bidens-cabinet/

Letem buy their own groceriesrub elbow with common folk who they insist publicly they intend to serve protect who are firstforemost on their minds

1627,  Thursday,  5  12. 24

 another buddy Bobby

incognito

cog

ergo  he went to see Bobbyhad to go to him

he was confined in a sterile hospital cubicle State-of-the-Art  he couldnt touch himhug himcomfort him

    Shrinkwrapped was what he thought

to bursts of oxygenbaffled the plastic swelled crinkled writhed

Bobbys bed  green fabric

the machines surrounding him  bright  blinking   busy

                                                            chirping in concert

monitoring him feeding him watering him draining him breathing for him

                                                                              on occasion Bobby soundlessly mouthed something

eyes closed face quizzical

grows sullen

mouth purses

eyebrow raises

suddensmile fails

                    falls

he wasnt sleeping

his incapacitated friend

in the gripscoils of a technological python

is becoming a piece of machinery

a cog in the circuitry of machineliving

every  one  dependent  on  the  other

Bobby

        is at once the most dependent cog the most indispensable cog

    he shuddered at the realisation

his friend

 

a cog  

Friday,  1  12. 06

1139,  Thursday,  5  12. 24

Such a kidder

                  has a temperamental toilet

protein via legumes didnt shit heavy metal meatshits

evacuated

            he turns the water on to flush the toiletwatches as the level simmersup a whispering watercacophony  then pulls the handle down

wait ansee

    kidder humourist   teaser

                                    sometimes

it performs like toilets worldround perform  perfunctory  duly    deuces disappear

                                                                                          sometimes

he has to kill the water so the bowl doesnt overflow

                                                         anwaits  patiently      patiently

FACKhas to use the plugger not heavy metal meatshits

                                                            ansometimes   seriously

just before reaching for the plugger like reading his mind the bottom falls out

he stoopsturns the water on to complete the flush

closes the lid

taps it gently 

                Yathink youre so cute

washes his hands

everythingeverything in his life is animated alive

                                                       while what will be black coffee percolates he feeds his cats inanout washes their plates has it timed plates clean coffee ready he pours himself a cup but before picking it up leaving the kitchen he strokes the percolators flanks and thanks her for making coffee for him

    life animated maintains and thrills him

1024,  Thursday,  5  12. 24

they huddledup

one Whas he thinking

another directly to him   Wha are you thinking

Bugoff

          If I wanted your questionsyour advice Id ask

    Remember when I told you I was standing in for your conscience

Yes

      All you therebreak it up  Disembark

I told you to hold your cards close to your chest they may be all thas protecting your heart . .

. . From this one yes I recall

                                 I also recallin good taste  thaya left at the appropriate time showed   discretion

    Discretion

Thas the word  You knowunderstand it because I do

Yeshowever

                If youre being outrageous . .

. . You think you understand better than me

I seewe see  tha youre being so

Outrageous can serve a purpose Can be a ploy

I

Youse

    We

          We  can understand

Then fine

             Disembark with the others   Please

shehe heshe had risen like cream among the mariachi was wellrespected  theyd dare say they had become their spokesperson

                it wasnt that he didnt value them since they began appearing   coalesced

as shehe turned he said to them Outrageous is a strategy   Outlandish  out of square  However they serve me

If not an explanation for youfor their edification   I do appreciate your concern

I think outside the box chuckled  Therefore I am

    Before youse approach Examinereason  outside     your boxes

                                                                           Good exercise                  

Saturday,  18  11. 06

0948,  Thursday,  5  12. 24

the girl on a fortyfive to his right sat on an upholstered bench  her back to the wall food beer on a long shared table chairs opposite  caught his attention 

he watched her enter among a slew of people

                                                  she stuck out

he sat at the bar on a swivel stool his beer Italian beef behind him as he faced an elevated big screen on the wall opposite to watch #2 Michigan Wolverines play #1 Ohio State Buckeyes  one of the great college rivalry

she didnt seem interested in the game  talked amicably with the women to either side of her to two others across the table

they werent interested in the game either 

                                             were attended by dates  boyfriends

the girl was stag

it was raucous fans were dressed in colours in jerseys hollered across the dining floor at one another in good humour good spirit 

he had come because he anticipated a good game  didnt own a TV  

casually he glanced over at her several times  

                                                 admired her

looking over again he found her looking right at him

she smiled

he reachedgot his beer held it up towards her  nodded 

she picked hers up from the table held it  returned his nod

they drank

approaching half he noticed her beer was nearly empty

still seated where they were he motioned if shed like another

                                                                   she nodded

he got the barmaids attention ordered drinks

once squared up he turned to her

they cheered  sipped

                       remote   but she was certainly put a hop in his step

her table became awfully animated the women who had sat around her had been displaced by guys and each vied for her attention

                  she was attractive 

the clutch around her grew guys stood

                                          by fourth quarter he couldnt see her any more

then the game was over

the mob fled

she was mixed up in it somewhere 

at the table her glass was empty

                                    a pint everyone else had been drinking from bottles

it was nice to notice againnice to be noticed

    felt like momentum

which he also hadnt felt in a long time 

it encouraged him

                       someday 

something akin to this may turn into  momentous momentum

till then

         bided his time

Saturday,  18  11. 06

2340,  day-between-2-Ts,  4  12. 24

the California wisteria embracing the backporch is rusting

                                                              being denuded by the coming winter season

things it hid are being exposed and theyre uncomfortable in the sunlight

                                                                             squeezing their eyes shutbeg for the relief of soft moonlight  shades of night to efface their hard boundaries

theyll miss the wisterias summer green foliage that enlarged themwoke their imaginings

not that they didnt anticipateexpect it

                                        just that theyre neverready for winter   again  minimised

they are rocks

                  who imagine themselves the mountains they were wrought from composed in the womb of time

they are emptied seashells

                               who imagine themselves wet  occupied by strange flesh

they are blacksmithed square nails

                                        who once hugged planks roughhewn beams listened to the complains cries laughter of nowdead children

in the sunlight

                 they are static  singular

but not in his eyes

                     inside the wisterias greens  hidden  they are something else

he knows

    as night falls he lights a cigar

                                      and listens to them  bathe   restore  their memories histories

Friday,  17  11. 06

1220,  day-between-2-Ts,  4  12. 24

Youre in trouble with this one

     I know  I knowI know

I know you know

So why the conversation

                            Don recall askin for it

Your conscience was busythought Id step in tellya play your cards close to your chest

My cards

Yah  They may be all thas protecting your heart from this one

Shes something

Blonde too

    Canya believe it

    No Havin a bit of trouble swallowin tha

I know

You don care for blondes

I know

Since I arrived  I cant remember you dating a blonde

    Me neither  Freckles helped

She remind you of someone

Yah

      Treads near a spitting image

Who

Monica Vitti

Youll have to bring up the internet Google show me

For some other time

                       Let it be take me at my word Her spitting image

Right

       Shes coming back Ill leave ya be

 

she leapt up onto the foot of the bed was bucknaked

                                                         she squattedknees wide putting her hand to her mouth she spoke through her fingers That was amazing! I think I really rattled you.   grinninglaughed

Freakin imp he thought laughing her squat deepenedcompressed as her frivolity waned the compression liftedcame away

Youre such a screwball

So are you . . . Mister.  Really got you goin’turned you on.

Yahyadid

            Triggered  something

Should have seen your face.

                               I thought . . Ohmy! I’m gonna get it now.

Tell me bout it  Made me harder yet

                                       she launched up the bed into his armsscrambled under the coverslide her leg over hisher pussy tight to his thighgrinded on him a couple of seconds

                                                                     looked him in the face   So.

he kissed her forehead bridge of her nose

kissing deeply

                she grabbed his cock like it was a saddle horn

There’s my boy.

    So.   Mister . . . what?

Wha

I was thinking when I went to the bathroom.

                                                 Mister what?

Misters plenty

Play with me.

he grabbed her nipple gave it a strong pinchshe GULPed

                                                               HAAA blew out of her

tugged him again

I think Misters plenty

    I was thinking. she had marvelous thoughts he didnt interrupt

                                                                    I was thinking. her eyes went upwent left

I was thinking it’d be fun, just on occasion, if we had a last namebut not yours.

Not mine

    No.

Something occur to you

she smiled hugely dimples went deep street football Go behind the Buick Ill hit you there

                                                                                          Yees.

First thought I dismissednot keen on Italians.

Youre killin me lemme hear

giggled Fuckmetillimsilli.   

Youre right

An I don’t as you know care for vermicelli.

Sillicelli

Yeah.

        Immediately had another thought. sometimes she was like a waterfallloquacious easily on par could match his streaks

Whadaya think of . . Drummond?

    Drummin

End with a D. I follow youbeat me like a drum?

Yah

Yain’t gettin’ that past me.

    On occasion  I coud see on occasion

Yes. Thank you.

                  Prior to, but I dismissed it, associated Drummond with Ramrod.

Drummond’s subtle an’ll, as I witnessed, know it can bring out the animal in you.

Mister.  Drummond.

Yah

      Something clicked

she tugged tuggedtugged

                              Clicking?

Mister.

0550,  day-between-2-Ts,  4  12. 24

1048,  day-between-2-Ts