Such a kidder

                  has a temperamental toilet

protein via legumes didnt shit heavy metal meatshits

evacuated

            he turns the water on to flush the toiletwatches as the level simmersup a whispering watercacophony  then pulls the handle down

wait ansee

    kidder humourist   teaser

                                    sometimes

it performs like toilets worldround perform  perfunctory  duly    deuces disappear

                                                                                          sometimes

he has to kill the water so the bowl doesnt overflow

                                                         anwaits  patiently      patiently

FACKhas to use the plugger not heavy metal meatshits

                                                            ansometimes   seriously

just before reaching for the plugger like reading his mind the bottom falls out

he stoopsturns the water on to complete the flush

closes the lid

taps it gently 

                Yathink youre so cute

washes his hands

everythingeverything in his life is animated alive

                                                       while what will be black coffee percolates he feeds his cats inanout washes their plates has it timed plates clean coffee ready he pours himself a cup but before picking it up leaving the kitchen he strokes the percolators flanks and thanks her for making coffee for him

    life animated maintains and thrills him

1024,  Thursday,  5  12. 24

they huddledup

one Whas he thinking

another directly to him   Wha are you thinking

Bugoff

          If I wanted your questionsyour advice Id ask

    Remember when I told you I was standing in for your conscience

Yes

      All you therebreak it up  Disembark

I told you to hold your cards close to your chest they may be all thas protecting your heart . .

. . From this one yes I recall

                                 I also recallin good taste  thaya left at the appropriate time showed   discretion

    Discretion

Thas the word  You knowunderstand it because I do

Yeshowever

                If youre being outrageous . .

. . You think you understand better than me

I seewe see  tha youre being so

Outrageous can serve a purpose Can be a ploy

I

Youse

    We

          We  can understand

Then fine

             Disembark with the others   Please

shehe heshe had risen like cream among the mariachi was wellrespected  theyd dare say they had become their spokesperson

                it wasnt that he didnt value them since they began appearing   coalesced

as shehe turned he said to them Outrageous is a strategy   Outlandish  out of square  However they serve me

If not an explanation for youfor their edification   I do appreciate your concern

I think outside the box chuckled  Therefore I am

    Before youse approach Examinereason  outside     your boxes

                                                                           Good exercise                  

Saturday,  18  11. 06

0948,  Thursday,  5  12. 24

the girl on a fortyfive to his right sat on an upholstered bench  her back to the wall food beer on a long shared table chairs opposite  caught his attention 

he watched her enter among a slew of people

                                                  she stuck out

he sat at the bar on a swivel stool his beer Italian beef behind him as he faced an elevated big screen on the wall opposite to watch #2 Michigan Wolverines play #1 Ohio State Buckeyes  one of the great college rivalry

she didnt seem interested in the game  talked amicably with the women to either side of her to two others across the table

they werent interested in the game either 

                                             were attended by dates  boyfriends

the girl was stag

it was raucous fans were dressed in colours in jerseys hollered across the dining floor at one another in good humour good spirit 

he had come because he anticipated a good game  didnt own a TV  

casually he glanced over at her several times  

                                                 admired her

looking over again he found her looking right at him

she smiled

he reachedgot his beer held it up towards her  nodded 

she picked hers up from the table held it  returned his nod

they drank

approaching half he noticed her beer was nearly empty

still seated where they were he motioned if shed like another

                                                                   she nodded

he got the barmaids attention ordered drinks

once squared up he turned to her

they cheered  sipped

                       remote   but she was certainly put a hop in his step

her table became awfully animated the women who had sat around her had been displaced by guys and each vied for her attention

                  she was attractive 

the clutch around her grew guys stood

                                          by fourth quarter he couldnt see her any more

then the game was over

the mob fled

she was mixed up in it somewhere 

at the table her glass was empty

                                    a pint everyone else had been drinking from bottles

it was nice to notice againnice to be noticed

    felt like momentum

which he also hadnt felt in a long time 

it encouraged him

                       someday 

something akin to this may turn into  momentous momentum

till then

         bided his time

Saturday,  18  11. 06

2340,  day-between-2-Ts,  4  12. 24

the California wisteria embracing the backporch is rusting

                                                              being denuded by the coming winter season

things it hid are being exposed and theyre uncomfortable in the sunlight

                                                                             squeezing their eyes shutbeg for the relief of soft moonlight  shades of night to efface their hard boundaries

theyll miss the wisterias summer green foliage that enlarged themwoke their imaginings

not that they didnt anticipateexpect it

                                        just that theyre neverready for winter   again  minimised

they are rocks

                  who imagine themselves the mountains they were wrought from composed in the womb of time

they are emptied seashells

                               who imagine themselves wet  occupied by strange flesh

they are blacksmithed square nails

                                        who once hugged planks roughhewn beams listened to the complains cries laughter of nowdead children

in the sunlight

                 they are static  singular

but not in his eyes

                     inside the wisterias greens  hidden  they are something else

he knows

    as night falls he lights a cigar

                                      and listens to them  bathe   restore  their memories histories

Friday,  17  11. 06

1220,  day-between-2-Ts,  4  12. 24

Youre in trouble with this one

     I know  I knowI know

I know you know

So why the conversation

                            Don recall askin for it

Your conscience was busythought Id step in tellya play your cards close to your chest

My cards

Yah  They may be all thas protecting your heart from this one

Shes something

Blonde too

    Canya believe it

    No Havin a bit of trouble swallowin tha

I know

You don care for blondes

I know

Since I arrived  I cant remember you dating a blonde

    Me neither  Freckles helped

She remind you of someone

Yah

      Treads near a spitting image

Who

Monica Vitti

Youll have to bring up the internet Google show me

For some other time

                       Let it be take me at my word Her spitting image

Right

       Shes coming back Ill leave ya be

 

she leapt up onto the foot of the bed was bucknaked

                                                         she squattedknees wide putting her hand to her mouth she spoke through her fingers That was amazing! I think I really rattled you.   grinninglaughed

Freakin imp he thought laughing her squat deepenedcompressed as her frivolity waned the compression liftedcame away

Youre such a screwball

So are you . . . Mister.  Really got you goin’turned you on.

Yahyadid

            Triggered  something

Should have seen your face.

                               I thought . . Ohmy! I’m gonna get it now.

Tell me bout it  Made me harder yet

                                       she launched up the bed into his armsscrambled under the coverslide her leg over hisher pussy tight to his thighgrinded on him a couple of seconds

                                                                     looked him in the face   So.

he kissed her forehead bridge of her nose

kissing deeply

                she grabbed his cock like it was a saddle horn

There’s my boy.

    So.   Mister . . . what?

Wha

I was thinking when I went to the bathroom.

                                                 Mister what?

Misters plenty

Play with me.

he grabbed her nipple gave it a strong pinchshe GULPed

                                                               HAAA blew out of her

tugged him again

I think Misters plenty

    I was thinking. she had marvelous thoughts he didnt interrupt

                                                                    I was thinking. her eyes went upwent left

I was thinking it’d be fun, just on occasion, if we had a last namebut not yours.

Not mine

    No.

Something occur to you

she smiled hugely dimples went deep street football Go behind the Buick Ill hit you there

                                                                                          Yees.

First thought I dismissednot keen on Italians.

Youre killin me lemme hear

giggled Fuckmetillimsilli.   

Youre right

An I don’t as you know care for vermicelli.

Sillicelli

Yeah.

        Immediately had another thought. sometimes she was like a waterfallloquacious easily on par could match his streaks

Whadaya think of . . Drummond?

    Drummin

End with a D. I follow youbeat me like a drum?

Yah

Yain’t gettin’ that past me.

    On occasion  I coud see on occasion

Yes. Thank you.

                  Prior to, but I dismissed it, associated Drummond with Ramrod.

Drummond’s subtle an’ll, as I witnessed, know it can bring out the animal in you.

Mister.  Drummond.

Yah

      Something clicked

she tugged tuggedtugged

                              Clicking?

Mister.

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1048,  day-between-2-Ts

linoleum women

truth be known

have names

             he had affection for them since a teenager when he thought he hurt himself but an older boy a friend who had his confidence exceptionally rare told him he hadnt hurt himself

                                                                        Ya rubbed one out.

Rubbed one out

Don’t be thick. You masturba . .

. . Arya kiddin me I didnt think I was old enough

    Evidently.

You

Ohyeah like every night. You’ve seen my sister, her friends.

she was a college freshman they were eighth graders

                                                           Larryd been failed

I have

going their separate ways Larry turnedHey.  Do me a favor would you?

Whastha

Don’t masturbate, now that you know how, to my sister.

I cant promise tha

    that summer he went over to Larrys house to take care of his German Shepherd

Jane was home

he had a keysurprised her

                             didnt know she waswasnt supposed to beheard a noise upstairs

her bedroom door was open

found her naked on the bed

riledup masturbating furiously

    Jane

            she sawdidnt stop croaked Joe.

he watched intrigued intimidated  his cock rockhard

    she came righteously

                                  giggling she got out of bed walked up to him

Open your mouth.

he did

putting her fingers in his mouth she said Suck.

he did

         as he did  Tastes good huh?

couldnt answermouth full

    she nodded as he sucked  I know.

                                           pulling her lollipops out of his mouth she touched herself againstuck her fingers artfully into her pussy she taught him pussy  a pant quaked in her throat

    then  she put her fingers into her mouth and sucked them           

I . . I. I gotta gobetter  go intimidated

she giggled again

                      Joe.   The garage.

Yah he thought she was referring to the dog

                                                 If I’m home when you stop over let me know.  Get up on the garage rooflooks right into my room.  I’ll give you a show.

 

    shows two years 

became a bit of a voyeur  trying to catchup with Jane

 

linoleum women

                   only place for privacy growingup was in the bathroom there were twelve in the house

he had occasions  found Playboys

                                      snuckem into the house

laid down on the bathroom linoleum

Cynthia Myers handsdown  hand    favourite

Victoria Valentino

Marilyn Hanold

Elaine Reynolds

Donna Michelle

Maria McBane

Melinda Windsor

Fran Gerard in those crazy blackrimmed glasses

Angela Dorian

Jill Taylor

Avis Miller

Liv Lindeland

Marilyn Cole

Debbie Davis in a bubble bath

Nancy Cameron her front-back centerfold  only one ever taken

    his last linoleum gasporgasm  Marilyn Lange  May  Seventyfour

remembers Candy Loving

lastly Dorothy Stratten

                               which isnt to say he quit masturbating

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Did you mean . say . . . calling . not answering his calling?

Wha  Ya def

              No  Galling he made a point to include the G  Enunciation    Pronounciation

Galling?

Yah

     loved the word it was that miniscule spot of soup or pasta sauce on an otherwise clean had-been-freshpressed white buttoneddown dress shirt

                              Youah  got a little something there

cant conceal galling

                        an ancient tree that buildings had been built around razed built again then some fuck gets a bug up their ass and has it cut down because it could kill someone that buildings have to be super-reinforced constructed to withstand earthquakes

give him an unreinforced masonry building every day

                                                         if it collapsed with him insidekilled him

hed be cool

       ungalled

should the earth decide to scratch its back shakefree the irritating lice

    galling

is the fortunate who don see it as privileged white son or daughter who hasnt done a lick of workbusted a knuckle on a car enginetaken a sliver that pins two fingers togetherdone HARD WORK  who believe their rightful place is over others who know better are more experienced than they

                                               who cant see beyond the end of their nose or the silver spoon either stuck in it or in their mouths

    NO  I didnt say callin

                              Galling

Yeah.  I’m not following.

How the hell cantya Havent you been galled

    Sorry.  Not that I can really think of.

Friend  Thas leadin a blissful life hope you appreciate it

Maybe. Perhaps.

   he was galling him

bile rising in his throat thickened  mucous   he was barely able to hawk it out

Friday,  17  11. 06

1223,  2sday,  3  12. 24

Friend

             Theres only one way out an thas through you

No matter where you want out fromno matter circumstances

                                                                  The only way out is through you

bad relationships

bad jobs

bad habits

bad thoughts

bad dreams

    the door out the exitentrance  to elsewhere

Is through you

Tryin to pin the rap on someone else

Someone elses got your keys

    Thas horseshit  

Thursday,  16  11. 06

1140,  2sday,  3  12. 24

“ . . . a feeling for the hysteria of the times.”

                                                pianist poet Cecil Taylor

he wrote to himself I have an urge for  Hysteria 

shaggystuffed

                I stand like a scarecrowpalms up to the belly of the sun my widespread fingers shadows in the dirt

I would also stand with the white cool cheek of the moon soft over me

                                                                             tryin

to sense

become a bellwether harbinger  of quickened furious tempers

                                                                   hysteria

not hysterical

    he knew the difference    

Wednes-hate-day,  15  11. 06

Thursday,  16  11. 06

1120,  2sday,  3  12. 24

Cecil Taylor  Free Improvisation #3  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EstPgi4eMe4

linoleum women

. . . Nymph     Wha

                      Christ aint clickin   sometimes his brain forced his hand You cant recall get a little help woudya Aint the end of the world

                           hence he was forced to do a synonymcant stop this shit cinnamonsynonym searchnot if he tried nymph gave who he couldnt remember but had thought first a rousing hipcheck knocking her asideout of mind anwha a hip  wha a delicious hollow funneling to her stem wha a happy Venus dimple as she twistedfinishing her thrust

he used the dictionary  The New Oxford American Dictionary  Second Edition

FUCK

Cherub

             reason why nymph persisted  dominated

 

 

    where this began

                        he was wishing his toilet was on rollers so going while going he could visit the four sidescorners of the bathroom and take in possible perspectives though those possibilities changing if he crossed his eyesif  he put on reading glassespeered through a magnifying glass at the twelvebytwelve inch fake tiles imprinted on the linoleum

                                                                                                                      thasaid

even in place where hes squatted almost ten years presented subtlerer things  he hadnt seenknew hed remember if he did

       perhaps

the candle flickering over his shoulder spraying ivorybutter light  tickling happy shadows  linoleum was tan crackledfragmented driedblood bearbrown hints slivery fissures

threequarter tile from the tub where his head would rest

                                                           that next tile nearer from its edge the sixinches left to right  stackedunstable he thought vertebrae offcentered seems scenes sequences  unassembledpossibly  countenances   in its high rightfield a bemused partial beauty  off where her chin might have been   violence  eyes proud nose where what would have been her throat her a face thrusted left the che- nymph head tilted down beyond her cheeks lost  a relief  negative space  then a sudden fierce shewolfs head twisting towards him its muzzle wrinkling lip raised he could not see her bared canines

                                  next tile beneath it

like steaming rising palpable atmosphere  a goddess head emergedwas turned towards him  on diagonal her left eye bisected by the tile edge  a straight regal nose  high cheeks the tip of her upper lip revealed enough as it was the extent of her suggested hinted   an audacious grin

                                                            the four above her truncated head  her dream

   or a mission  revealed

         

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