25.2.23


Three A M man Im tellinya  Witchin hour 
                                             seemed when he woke during the nightwhether for water or use the bathroom it was usually around the three oclock hournot that he woke frequently during the night an observation

Witching hour? an incredulous look pinched Mr Rational & Sciences face  You . . 
. . Not literally bubKahrist in a manner of speakin not really tha time of night when the veil between life and death is thinnest allowing spirits ghosts to travel between our worlds 
                                                                Thacan happen at any timein broad daylight for tha matter
What? the pinching looked like it hurt

Mr Gullible So have you discovered a way to fall back to sleep when otherwise you start turning things through your headan I got too many things churning tha if I make eye contact they feel provokedjump up an land heavy on both feet hobnailed boots ought to lose some weight happy they miss my toes

What the hell are you talking about?

he shook his head maybe he woudnt share wha he discovered 
                                                                   I asked How do you go back to sleep at nightbecause yave said ya often wake couplethree times a night to use the bathroom

still pinched

How do you go back to sleep and not examine things thamay present

Ah . . I either just do or I concede and get up.

At three in the morning

No, I won’t get up at three, I’ll give it time, but I’ll get up at four if I can’t fall asleep. Then I take power naps through the ensuing day.

Power naps

Yes. I recommend them.

Im glad they work for you Last I napped was when my kids were little Not a fanhavent time in my day I usually sleep hard the next night

I recommend a power nap.

Fine 
     So you havent devised a strategy to obscure begging concerns an fallback to sleep

No. I have not.

he nodded 
           Interested I think Ive found one

A way to fall back to sleep?

Its worked twice now I believe if it works a third time when Ive called upon it it may be legit

   Legit? 
          Id be interested.

Yah I thought ya might Callin it D O B  Like daubing ones mind  Dobbin Im diggin its worked 
                                                                                                      Deep  Organic  Black

Deep. Organic. Black.  How’s that work?

Return to bed Get into a comfortable positionto be fair I got a cat leftie an shes becoming something of a cuddler

I’m not getting a cat.

Both times I tried DOB when I woke in the morning leftie was there  I don believe shes an integral piece to the puzzle

Intrical piece . .
. . Incorrect Integral  Intrical is a mashup of integral and intricate albeit from Urban dictionary slang  Yare not prone

the ceases when out of his pinch

Look it up I woudnt lie to you 
I will. 
       Later.

Ya have your smartphone Ought to look it up now because later ya wontya wont remember later 

I will . . later.

   DOB
         Ya close your eyesnot tight not to start fireworks

Fireworks?

When I close my eyes tight I see fireworks on the backs of my eyelids You want it dark eyelids relaxed 
                                                                                                             Then you want to work the dark lather to black

Dark lather.

Yah
     An when yave darkened it to black make it organic  like rich loam  Midwest topsoil when I was a kid it carpeted Illinois eight feet deep 
An theres the deep

Deep  Organic  Black


Sounds like a grave.

Without the box 

witchin hour,  Saturday,  25  2. 23
1142,  Saturday
Airto Moreira ft Flora Purim  O Sonho (Moon Dreams) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YVluiJ-ntFk


have to say 
             March 2022  5 nations – Belarus North Korea Eritrea Syria Russia – voted against a resolution reaffirming Ukraines sovereignty just weeks after Russias invasion  

Thursday  23Feb  that 5-nation coalition was joined by Mali and Nicaragua – now 7 vie against the Worlds discernment

32 nations also abstained

Algeria
Angola
Armenia
Bangladesh
Bolivia
Burundi
Central Africa Republic
China
Congo
Cuba
El Salvador
Ethiopia
Gabo
Guinea
India
Iran
Kazakhstan
Kyrgyzstan
Laos
Mongolia
Mozambique
Namibia
Pakistan
South Africa
Sri Lanka
Sudan
Tajikistan
Togo
Uganda
Uzbekistan
Vietnam
Zimbabwe 

   had to say  had to holdup to the world all those countries who refuse to put their foot down against a demonstrative war of aggression and terror

1634,  Reggaefriday  24  2. 23

24.2.23


pseuicide 
          Ohshit he thought thas awfully clever  also known as pseudocide 
then he discovered Paul La Farge hadnt coined it he read it in his book The Night Ocean which was awesome anywho
if someone asked hed say La Farge DID coin it 
                                                 fuck em if they coudnt take a joke

the boiled blanched pale expression faking ones death  he was familiar withKEN KESEY a hero who swang through his life like Tarzan or Jane on a vine he had faked his trying to beat drug charges marijuana possessionMARIJUANA  marijuana still made his cock hard Fuckinuptight American State  enemies of the state who gets to name them the State! question itOhmygoodness perhaps you become an enemy 
                                                               an this is a democracy
or as Republicant whiners prefer  a Republic
but he digressed 
                  whadif someone decided to split their husk and transmigrate metempsycho into anothers body skip the dead part vacate  shack up with another soul Have room for me  though probably wise to ask before you moving in unlike Heinleins Time Enough for Love 
                                        NO  refused to move in with a chick 
                                                                             despite usually getting along swimminglywell with the opposite sex  probably a downside him whispering Cats playinya babe Kick him in the balls stick him with the tab  
    Adios mumuchachu
he advocated women kicking men in the balls theyd kick women in the facein the ass without a thought

   Ah pseuicide  a silverlining in an otherwise stormy cloud

1011,  Reggaefriday,  10  2. 23
1352,  Reggaefriday,  24  2. 23
Carlos Gardel  Adios Muchachoes  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ot2keLHZ83s


So ya gonna cut that out?

   I don think so   If I was I woud have cut it out long ago

Why do you do it?
No idea

When did you start?

Coudnt say  It evolved

How evolved?

Took a sip an didnt immediately swallow

Yet you’ve commented sometimes you choke on it when you’ve forgotten you had it in your mouth.

I have
       Sometimes as I fall asleep

But you could just swallow after you sip.

I coud I don Mebbe Ive sipped an found I wasnt thirsty 
                                                            Mebbe

But if you weren’t thirsty why would you have sipped in the first place?

Mebbe I thought I was 


How often would you say you choke on the sip?

Oh only a very small percent of the time usually when Ive sipped some water at bedtime an choke as Im falling asleep Mind you its only a sip 
                                Choking during daytime is really rare Then Im usually playing with it or I realise when I go to take another I have one in my mouthpretty humourous So then I swallow and sip again and the cycle usually begins all over

I think I like tha my mouth is wet

You think?

I like you note I think I do not believe  Or sometimes I just sip a bit of what I sipped Makes it last longer

he cocked his head like a perplexed rooster

Theres also another aspect to itvery evident If someones talking who I disagree with it allows me to tarrynot immediately respondbuys me some time to assess outline better reason my argument 
                                                                                          Woudnt ya think tha advantageous 

I – I -- could see an advantage.

Then there we have it At the risk of briefly choking

Gotta admit that’s strange, man.

I am happie to concur         

1309,  Reggaefriday,  10  2. 23
1108,  Reggaefriday,  24  2. 23


pretty presumptuous not a phonaesthetics candidate 
                                                         his computer
   to the right on its task bar it tossed up a pretty blue umbrella its handle J’d left then to its right and above are elongated blue raindrops at a fortyfive degree angle to the umbrella and immediately right Raining now  

he could see it was

looking out his window

now it said Heavy rain 
he could see that too

theres nothing like being badgered by a tool badgered by a smartphone  badgered

maybe some people needed to be gently provoked
                                                    reminding them to be thoughtful reminding them their periods coming their calendar reminding them No more events today

he wondered  At what point does reminding erase a mind
  
0933,  Reggaefriday,  24  2. 23
now Flood a yellow caution triangle a house within it above two parallel blue squiggly lines
he lives tiptop on a hill 

he might worry if it displayed Epic Biblical Flood  a blue ball an upthrusted hand three fingers extended


he dug research 
                 in college English Film Study dropout he ghostwrote theme papers for money  audaciously guaranteed As or their money back 

he didnt return a cent 

he also ghostwrote love letters to mend rents in relationships charged five bucks did a brisk business return business word-of-mouth business 
didnt return a cent either

he welcomed research however there was another aspect to it  similarly named but something altogether different 
its result was biased prejudiced twisted to fit their argument 

he called it reachsearch 

Reachsearch?

Yah 
     Someone researches a subject distorts their findings a reason why I don take people at their word I have no trouble admitting I don know an Im more than happy to find out learn for myself
I tell em to save their breath  

Im amazed how often they keep on breathing 

When I walk offwalk away they think Im rude   

   Reachsearch. 
                   I like it.

Me too

2041,  Twosday,  21  2. 23
0909,  Reggaefriday,  24  2. 23

23.2.23

out the corner of his eye things were fuckedupwere  cruelly elasticmorphing

   he caught a glance of a wroughtiron handrail feign to lurch across the concrete stepswhip at his legs  
                                                                                                             stoppingglaring it acted like whas your problem old man 
the tree beyond it smiled and bowed
a bush at its feet snickered then crawled off snatchingup paper waste and dull pillbugs

he shook his headshook it off 
                               blinked like a madmanclearing his eyes
slapped the railing
                    stout
eyed the tree
               it hadnt a waist 
the bush 
          festooned with candywrappers papercrap was rooted

at the foot of the steps he crossed to the other side of the street went back to his reading 


   someone on a bicycleON the fucking sidewalk tossed its shadow into his legs 
                                                                                    he almost trippedtumbled
rearingup he spuncrying Motherfucker whas the idea

the rider had disappeared around the street corner 
                                                        if they had even been 
seems people and things just coudnt let him be as he walked and read 


How do you do that?

Practise Lotsa practise
                            now he had to practise dodging cruel phantoms and falling leaf shadows

1330,  Twosday,  21  2. 23
1242,  Thursday,  23  2. 23
Santana (Everlast)  Put Your Lights On  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KCBS5EtszYI


Yasay cocaine

I say heroin

Yasay fentanyl

I say xylazine (tranq – though terribly tempted to write xyzlazine – but also terribly not the end-of-the-line for users)

hopefully test strips keep them alive   To keep using?   Usings better than DEAD 



Yasay cocaine

I say heroin

Yasay fentanyl

I say xylazine

   too bad whacant be said  Lets call the whole thing off
                                                 NO  people love to be altered
hardwired in our DNA

1132,  Thursday,  23  2. 23
One More Cup of Coffee  Dylan  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=95cufW4h-gA

 
   screwy

his blog listsarchives his pieces by the first letter

sometimes it looks like code

H
C
R
   this string suggested apocryphal though not being a Biblebeast he wasnt impressed rather he thought  any crap

a week later

I
F
T
A
H
Y

   if I have tha Wha   infantile anarchy

A
H
Y

   shows up in both achy  apathy  hymnal not a Biblebeast 


thas the nice thingbout words theyre elastic coud play with them they were suggestive how they aligned their misspeellings provocative 
                            be wha they may 
he played with them like a kid in a sandbox each grain a letter a syllable ineffable  elusive thensuddenly a fixture 
a junkies fix
             his fix 
                     affixed afflicted 
                                      when not a damn thing was wrong 

   screwy  codex codices goddesses  woudnt follow no god

0855, Day-between-Two-Ts & 0824, Thursday,  22 & 23  2. 23
1059,  Thursday


Come on, dance with me.

Aw babe ya know Im not a big on dancing though I love watching you dance

I love you love watching me, but I’d rather have you hold me, rather listen to your voice than have to walk away from someone trying to hit on me.
Hit on you

   Yes. Sure. They know you’re here but figure sidelined you’ve disappointed me, think they have a shot, an opportunity. But as you’ve said, guy’s are pigs.

All men are pigs . .
. . Of varying degrees.

he smiledquickly Yes varying degrees   You listen

I do, you’re a good teacher. I’m learning.  Sometimes I marvel understanding how much you’ve empowered me.

I havent babe Thas all youpercolating bubbling inside you 
                                                             I gave you a little pushlittle shot of confidence  Yare steeped in it just needed to see

Consider I simply basted you in your own juices 


   You do baste me.

Hey watch tha mouth he teased 
                                   Comere and kiss me with thathing

she giggled approaching himthrew her arms around him he her  they shared a huge deep kissclenching hug


I love how you kiss me

Come out onto the dance floor please, I'll kiss you there too, we’ll show everyone. The pigs can keep to their sties.

May not know wha a sty is

she chuckled
                  Please, baby?

Awgirl I have two left feet 

That the reason why you can’t skate?

Wha

Ice skate, why you can’t?

   I don  know  Ive never thought of it that way  Believed weak ankles

I believe it’s weak ankles.

Why

Two left feet suggest poor coordination 
                                         Anyou’re anything but uncoordinated. she smiled it teased 
Im definitely coordinated 
Yes. 
     It takes real coordination to unhook my bras onehanded.           
he laughed 
            Surprised me  Was a challenge trussed up as you are although  I was incentivised 
You carry them well

Thank you.
             Can I incentivise you to dance?

he gulped audibly
                    I wont embarrass you left feet an all 
No. 
    I’ll teach you we'll take it slow . . like we do when we make love.

0940,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  22  2. 23
0932,  Thursday,  23  2. 23

22.2.23


Ivy Touch Me  
              finds the oddest notationshints among his scribbles
he wondered Whadahells Ivy Touch Me  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Tf2I45UCp4
 
   Whellshit 
             didnt expectremember that  standalone   no explanations though really none are necessary 

Man can I bum a cigarette offya

I don smokeWAIT you don smoke either

No  But Im thinkinbout takin it up 


at the tiptop of the page 1149 – 2349, Wed,  29  12. 21 
                                                           immediately following Ivy was 
"Ive – Eleven  Haha”  he tried youtube and found https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XfEZzUtdINI 
“You make me feel like eleven.”

   hed been eleven

Ives was wayway waaay out ahead of him  

Sixth grade
                Uhoh maybe not   Margot liked him  she was busting out of her seams 
NO definitely not  maybe not
he was taking that back 
                          and besides  girls were usually out ahead of the pack then
IVE  South Korea  sixsex 
                           Gaeul Yujin Rei(Japanese) Wonyoung Liz Leeseo 
their seemingly consciousprecociousness reminded him of a Japanese model Ai Shinozaki
2006  age14  curvy 
but to be fair 
              he had a yen for Asian they were Oriental then  women

   it took a while before he realised what it was
                                                       they werent white 
thus exoticdifferent  not standard faremilquetoast he was born into  embeddedsurrounded by

when he realised that he also realised all bets were off  all colours 
                                                                       his EastEuropean descendent parents werent keen
Mom Dad  Ya don have to be 
                               You may not have been welcome your druthers but Ill be damned if I don pursue mine
they knew that about him

whenever he saw that in their faces hed hum Mary Poppins  A Spoon Full of Sugar 
                                                                                      he didnt want to go 
they shot themselves in the foot 
Ohwell 
        Wha goes round comes round

he remembered that raising his two screwball daughters
warned his wife 
                  she thought differently 
blew up in her face 
too many times to count 

   then again  she bought into white males her parents insisted on

2157,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  22  2. 23


fresh out of a waterless car wash a high-end late model Cadillac pulls into a Taco Bell Drive-Thru
                                                                                                                                                                                                                      Got to be a joke in there somewhere
tint windows
             couldnt see the driver or if others were with them

it bypassed the Menu went right up to the window

they knew what they wanted 

ordered ahead on-line 


So what’s the joke?

I don know Maybe the jokes driving 
                                                  A Cadillac rolls into a Taco Bell Drive-Thru 
Taco Bells he ate at preceded chicken chipotleanything crunchwraps chalupas Mexican pizzas Cinnabons after almost running his pedestrian ass over

he didnt Drive-Thru anything 



Might be you’re the joke. 

  Yathink
Nah 
        Theres got to be a joke in there somewhere

1245,  Monday,  20  2. 23
1949,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  22  2. 23
The Carpenters  Rainy Days and Monday  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dPmbT5XC-q0


today 
        if someone tried to tuck him in theyd get punched in the face 

when he was a kid hed punch someone in the face too 
he wasnt tuckable  
                      cute
not tuckable

or swaddleable 
                  which goes without saying

1927,  Twosday,  21  2. 32
Earth  Omens and Potents/Driver  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nDLaPKpym3o