he proposed a proposition harhared  proposition tickled him  Line em up

   Line who up?

The women your relatives

Women? My relatives?

You have sisters first cousins second third cousinsyah

Yes, what of it?

As per wha we were talkinbout

Talking about?

Ya thick Ya might be the proof in the pudding man which woud shoot my proposal in the head

As usual . . I havent a clue what you’re talking abou . . 

. . Yes ya do 

                Or  Maybe Your failed short term memorywhich ya consistently evidence is related to mental defects yave suffered as a child of incest  With tha I coud rest my case  heel whoa my proposition

   What are you talking about?

Whawere we talkinbout  Inside the last ten minutes

What were we talking about?

   Jesus  Sleeping with cousinsriskin retards 

Oh!

    You don’t say retards . . 

. . You don I do Waste of time digginround for euphemisms call a spade a spade an don push it cuz I can dive deeper 

Any recollection  

                    Remember

   I do now.

Excellent Were clear

We are.

Good Took long enough

                               My proposition  

Proposition?

   Yah yahdon start with me  you retarded  he scowled at being called retarded 

                                                                                   Yaneed yet more help aint waitin  

Line em up  Deaf too  My proposal

Yes, oh yes . . I remember now.

Yay  You said having sex with your second cousin was okay she gets pregnantyare pregnant chances are the child wont be retarded

he sighed hard retarded affected him but he wasnt takin his foot off his neck

                                                                          No. Sex with your second cousin is okay, the pregnancy would be okay, that’s what I sai . .

. . Remarkable

                   Exhibiting something akin to mental continuity thank you Thisll be easier if you can stay on track listen youll love this off your favorite site Quora Question Is second cousin inbreeding Answer First cousins have an inbreeding coefficient of zeropointzerosixtwofive I memorised it knowing I wanted to have this conversation with you given how frickin prudishnumbnuts you make yourself out to be hold yourself up Yare a pig too just like me 

                                                                                                                 Continuing 

Anything at or above zeropointzeroonefivesix a zeropointalmostfive difference the coefficient for second cousins is considered consanguineous means people descended from the same ancestor which includes sexual relationships between people an their nephews nieces

The Coefficient of Inbreeding C O I ya love your acronyms in terms of health less than fivepercent is definitely best Above that detriMENTAL effects an risks  Inbreeding five to tenpercent will have modest detrimental effects on an offspring

Quora agrees with you

                        However my proposition  I prefer not be hastyside with the written word or Quora  or shall I say your Bible

It’s a good, reliable site.

Reliable Have ya challenged it dug any deeper researchedNO Aint the be all end all though youll disagree with me

I depend upon it. 

You do 

        As I said  your quaint lil Science Bible Bible with a capital B But to my proposition 

Can’t wait to hear.

   Donbe facetious You believe in experimentation hypotheses

Im waiting wasnt being rhetorical

You know I do . . 

. . Oh coud suppose it goes without sayinghuh Why you didnt say   Though theres always the possibility of playing dumb whichagain  calls into play your creation being  incestuous 

My parents aren't related.

   

   Then you were dropped on your head at birth but lets not tarry My proposition his puss revealed he was displeased with him no reason to be  if he was a product of incest there wasnt a damn thing he coudve donebout it 

                                                                                                 I propose . . 

. .Yeah, get on with it already would you.

You have sex with an impregnate a sister a first cousin second an a thirdproof  woudbe in the pudding 

I wouldn’t!

   Cant blame ya I wouldnt either    None appeal to me  

1400,  Saturday,  17  12. 22

1250,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  21  12. 22

You know her Shirley Jacksonmay not know her name but you know of her    

curtly I have no idea who she is. 

Ohno no dismissed him at his mention that was horseshit anfor it he was going to labour him 

                                                                                           Ill give you a hint which was frankly the game She wrote The Lottery 

I said . I don’t know.

A famous short story we read it in grade school  

an uncomfortable dullness crept into eyes  

Or perhaps I read it in grade school  We grew up a thousand miles apart were educated by different systemsbut   but I cant believe yours wasnt on par with mineya didnt go to some inner city school that was deprived of funding

You know I didn’t.

So  Shirley Jackson  The Lottery

the dullness fused

                   Premise, what’s the premise . . maybe I’ll remember then.

Small village a ritual lottery everyone without exception included whoever is chosen is stoned by the villagers 

No. 

he was beside himselfpushed his phantom doppelganger down 

                                                           NO I believe it was taught throughout America its a classic

No.

Jesus   You know I woud rather there be a hole in your memory than a hole in your education  

What do you mean be that?

Wha I said

But what do you mean?

Yare a smart guy figure it out 

1400,  Saturday,  17  12. 22

0958,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  21  12. 22

axiomatic selfevident  unquestionable

                                           he couldnt help himself  axiomatic climaxEpic struck in the heat of the momentstuck a marvelous end to a long seduction  they plannedpined for the moment

                                                                                             he almost lost his mind

he confided she made his seduction listwhich made her laugh she didnt cover her mouth  Truth be known. she chuckled You made mine. 

                   Isn’t it awfully nice to make, and be made.

Communally cumming 

Yes.

   Awfully nice  Im glad I came . . 

. . she nearly barked laughing  I’m glad you did to.

a friend invited him to a pickup boygirl softball game  picnic afterwards Ya gotta come, girls are set, we’re missing a guy, like pulling teeth for some damn reason . .

. . They might rather play ball with other guys Fraid to hurt a gir . .

. . No you know me, these chicks are athletes.

she was an athlete 

they were 

she was 

         she kissed him fiercely  I am really glad you came.

340preferred,  Saturday,  23  7. 22

1634,  Twosday,  20  12. 22

Nadja  Sandskin  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z-8oqlj4Q9s 

Are you ready? had a pen in handhis wrist on a piece of paper  

   Ya talkin to me

Who else? he crouched from the waist humped his shoulder shifted his eyes one way then the other

his ridiculous theatrics begged first note Quit woudya then he replied Axiomatic I stand ready and at hand why the attempted curveball

I wanted to make sure you’re paying attention.

Me 

    Don mistake me for you I am both attentive and observant eithertoo often you cannot claim assert

he rolled his eyes spat Being colloquial.

   Oh Colloquialstop

                      Just get on with whaever it is ya desperately want to get on with he began with the pen Your bell curve he stopped 

                  You don’t kno . .

. . Its a bell curve I know it is However Im dying to know wha yare diagramming asya usually begin with the axes Changing it up professor 

                          Methinks you profess too much 

he looked irritated though he was stepping on his toesgetting out ahead of him Are you quite through

Figured Id toss in my two cents at the head rather than wait  Since yare changing things up   You disapprove or just impatient

Are you through?

he shrugged Say thought to hold his breathmake a game of it see if he could hold it the duration of him sketching definitely wouldntcouldnt for the explanation which would be obvious but inevitably followed

Thank you.

he didnt reply as he knew hed think he was being obstinatedragging his feet  thwarting the explanation

he continued drawing

prior their conversation had been about womens figures the classicthe alleged perfect female figure   36-24-36

his bit had been that how radical that figure was on shorter women outrageous on a five foot woman compared to a six foot woman hed been with both

for whaever reason his bell curve was more centralised presumably fivesix though he didnt label it or hadnt labeled it yet

he waited

             now he was impatient Looks like someone tossed sheet over a hard on

eyes rolled

he spoke for him Lemme finish

                               Draggin your feet professor An by my experiencewhich I base most everything upon experience  your bell curve isnt accurate

It is.

It is in your experience 

                        Or are you again speaking for the multitude of experienced inexperienced observant inobservant old young all men and women or men boys women girls  Pronouns he knew that that would frost his fanny  

                                                                                                                         Your sketch does not resembleillustrate my experience  which Ill readily admit I am grateful 

   Are you quite finished?

he looked up at the clock tower on the old National Registry city hall to see the time

                                                                                       I am  UnfortunatelyI must apologise well have to pick this up later some other time  I have to be somewhere

You didn’t say.

Youd said meet for coffee my coffee is long gone I must excuse myself though please hold onto the drawing well come back to it  anif not Ill definitely remind you 

                                             Chance you might not remember

if he was a betting man hed clean up

             

1540,  Saturday,  23  7. 22

1152,  Twosday,  20  12. 22

Pacific Gas & Electric  Are You Ready  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5MR1LBEJ-ok

Faces  I’m Losing You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Y7QKfhikbM

he couldnt say for certain but he thinks he was just flashed by an advertisement that appeared in the corner of his eye on the right where AdChoices appears on MSN whenever he logged out of Outlook might suppose he was warned 

                                                                                                                               a woman wore redblackcheckered flannel pajamas BAMhands at her lapels YANKed open her top Tataahs baby rolled her shoulders baubled or if ya wish bobbled coyly closed it 

                                                          or else he imagined it

although he wasnt one to wear pajamasno matter the season a vivacious brunette who reminded him at a glance of Natalie Portman otherwise there was no reason hed pay attention to an online ad 

                                                                              the only real true affirmation of the possibility of what he thought he saw was her bellybutton remained exposed her hands claspedclutched flanneltheir heels tight together  and she winked 

                              a wink is as good as a nod

 

1251,  Sunday,  18  12. 22

   Rose Never 

               theres a challenge   didnt know many Roseslotsa peaches no Nevers he tried hardearnestly to leave never out of his vocabulary

                             seemed no sooner than uttered it happens  an usually anticlimaxtic he made it a word 

the name occurred to him for an actor who appeared in a French film Raw written and directed by Julia Ducournau an extra it appealed to him so much he didnt view the credits to learn the womans real or stage name 

                                                                                                        he anticipated shed return in another filmhed recognise her  as he recognised George Chakiris anyone Bernardo  West Side Story only the original is worthwhile who was a one of four male dancers who accompanied Rosemary Clooneys solely performance at The Carousal on purpose  arousal is why people go The Carousal Club 

                                                                       yah  Rose Never etched in his brainhe anticipated seeing her again while her role wasnt prominent role scenes she appeared in attracted his eye 

                                                                                                     Rose Never

it wasunfortunately a name hed be unable to share 

                                                      didnt want to get into conversations of how he enthusiastically named a character but lacked the same to learn the womans real name

   he thoughtNO   believed  too many peopleassumed it their rightwere entitled because they hadnt been told NO in no uncertain terms in the past  too many got away with it because they pressed hard  and the other relented spilled their guts 

     they could go to Hell  an hed save them that by not opening the door he  thought he was going to say never wouldnt do that

brother he was excited for the next time he saw her 

2134,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  14  12. 22

1203,  Sunday,  18  12. 22

Raw trailer  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wKYFH0hRpD0

an review  https://www.rogerebert.com/reviews/raw-2017 

Rosemary Clooney  Love, You Didn’t Do Right By Me  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SpKRQWXYw5Q

jarred wokeinasudden to the noise of iron bolts thrown

                                                              not moving eyes wide he lookedround

no bars pale concreteblock walls 

his bedroom

               There there he mumbled quieting himselfyet  in the nextmoment wondered Prison 

                                                                                                       Is this a prison

0816,  Sunday,  18  12. 22

Nadja   Amnotic   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PaTnOpvpHsc 

seems all he has to do is fall asleep dreams jump his bonessnap em an cracking his nut insert their will 

                                                                                                             not a bad idea 

had to doff his cap

Whadasay hypnotic gin tonic

WOWyah right on 

                    Whartha come from

Your badgerin 

   Ya listen

quizzically they lookedround at each other This guy serious 

                                                                         Arya an idiot 

Its only a thing I do on the side . .

. . Side  No it aint 

                   Yaoughta listen to yourself cuz we aint got no choice 

he nodded  questioned pitifully Thabad

Not bad  Bit obsessiveyah

                            But arent obsessions meant to be exercised chasedbout around

   Suppose healthy ones

Playing with wordsseeking phonaesthetics  There are worse obsessionsyah 

                                                                                   It popped into our collective anwe were terribly anxious to share it with you so we dumped it into your dreams knowing no way a cold day in Hell it was going to escape you  All yours babe

   they almost made him cry  Thawas very kind 

Not at all Its kind of you to host us

Host Doesnt feel like hosting

Not in a parasitic sense

   Parasitic sense 

                    Thas edgy 

Aint hypnotic

   No  Edgy

We good

Hypnotic gin tonic

                   Take a bow

there were enough on hand that when they did the ambercoloured beeswax candle burning on the library table across from his desk sighed

early hours Saturday,  17 12. 22

2359,  Saturday

muttering inside his skull  dully echoing asif he walked down an abused alleyway batteredrusting 50gallondrums maudlincoloured graffiti on scaly brickwalls 

                                               Thawas takin a chance might have shit in his pants

wasnt a coin toss

had skin in the game

   he pushed anywaysFARTed  annothing more

                                                    whichfrankly he wasnt sure   

hence  chanced    reprieve

keen recognition

CHANCE includes neither 

                              grateful

Yah

    he stood in there  he wanted to take a victory lapbut  thadbe rubbing it in 

a buddy admitted as much not two weeks ago

he chanced it

it didnt work out

                  All the fuck I had to do was drop my draws turn aroundsquat.  No harm no foul.

living alone he couldnt walk away from it

Man  you didnt have to admit . .

. . Confession cleansesfrees the soul. 

Yah he snarled   Then shoudve had Confession clean you up 

   something maybeclever ran across his face   then was gone 

                                                                     Yeah.  I got nothing. 

he wondered secretly when hed quit tossin the dice  wasnt getting any younger

0916,  Saturday,  17  12. 22

1901,  Saturday

Jesus Christ Superstar  Everything’s Awright  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J30tQxAkvPY

he stumbled on his words 

                            . . . fat foods

meant fast foods 

                   then he realised he was dead onutterly accurate

fast food is fat food 

stuffs the gut 

not nutritious 

   fatty  tasty    placeboes 

                              versus actual nutrition  health 

a corporate bottom line is money not its consumer not humane consideration  unless one considers its shareholders humanhumane 

                 though greed affirmsconfirms humanity

Fat Foods not Fast Foods

he didnt stumble in the leastbit stepping off his wonky soapbox

1032,  Saturday,  17  12. 22

Stones  Paint It Black  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EBUFtoC2oj4

it was a curious pry bar hackingbreaking intocrumbling the fascade of his dreams 

                                                                                       they threw their hands upwere usually formidablerefused incursionsinterlopers  however watching from afar his dreaming-self scratched his noggin they were conceding  allowing accessbeing pliable he rarely saw them afford that they gave something consideration

               he tuned in  listened

wasnt one to eavesdrop

he heard a recurringechoing line

                                     stale pale pink stick of gum 

suddenlywoke

               wasnt dreaming no mo

a kid again

             TOPPS gum 

baseball trading cards

likely they knew they werent enticing or inducing him with the gum

                                                                        hed openunfold the wrapper break the gum into bits stuff them in his mouth pretend it was plugwhat was plug  pretend a spitting pitcher on the mound concentrating shaking his head no or nodding at handsignals from his catcher 

                                                  the gum dispatched hed suck in a breath as he turned to the thrill of discovering what five cards he purchased blind  he couldnt remember a time after collecting for a bit he again got five new cards  often one rare two he hadnt collected 

                                                       his baseball cards

he wondered when his mom threw them away

maybe it was around the same time she caught him with Playboys 

                                                                       loosely  1 Corinthians 13 verse 11 

I put away childish things when I became an ejaculating boy 

she ditched them 

he didnt know when but he didnt miss them 

                                                 at least not until now didnt know then that his mother didnt have his back 

   stale pale pink stick of gum  phonaesthetic 

                                                 Tolkien Watch your skinnyass Im comin for you

his dreaming-self humouring him

his dreamed-self blinkedfretted 

                                 Where did my flooded front yard go the sod green grown long swaying like seaweed under the glass of the surface white black-polkadotted pufferfish swelled like balloonswinked at him How long can you hold your breath, boy? fuckin puffers  hold his breath  they werent holding their breaths how stupid did they think he was  his mother only found an occasional Playboy  misdirection his treasure-trove remained safe out of harms way

stale pale pink stick of gum

   he  his twilight crew concurred

dreams were cool too

each and all on the same page

prior to 0700,  Reggaefriday,  16  12. 22

0636preferred to 1836,  Reggaefriday

Don touch me with those cold hands 

                                        his cock making demands

he reachedNO  I said don touch me

irritated  Whos running the show

I am don touch me  

                    Run some hot water over your handswash them  you know you don like cold hands anymore than I do

        there was that

it wasnt like he was going to masturbate

had to take a leak

might suppose he wasnt taking anothers feelings into account 

                                                                   was his cock another 

it winked at him 

                   Evidently he muttered

he ran the cold out of the hot water spigot into the turquoise tin pail beside the commode that he used for trash which hardly existed   it was only he 

hed take it outside later and water AWe a wisteria he raised from seeds his daughter shared with him from her plant he hoped in ten years itd flourishrun up the cedarplanked fence to a metal strut that helped standup the carport and spread a canopy on the roofs panels

   

2229,  Day-between-Two-Ts, 14  12. 22

1306,  Thursday,  15  12. 22

shivering is a form of exercise

                               why woudnt he emulate his ancestors who hadnt modern utilities  electricity gas plumbing heat   whose constitution was superior

his thermostats job was simple register the house temperature he was usually able to guess a game he played  entertainment  guessed temp within three degrees 

                                                    his fortune  he lived in temperate California  it didnt get too hot or too cold  call him Goldilocks 

a buddy didnt like to shiver 

                              You’ll turn the heat on for me, yeah?

I don turn it on for me  No 

                           Wear or bring layers not tha cold many things to him were matters of the mind Ifya don mind it don matter  he wouldve been an excellent Catholic if he stuck with it

It’s cold, man.

Quit whining  Let it penetrate youll find its not as cold as you think

he could see the look he was giving him on the other end of the line telegraphed what was coming thought he wasnt transparent  hed let him whine rather than say for him undercut him 

                                                                  You do you, I’ll do me.

Yes  asya say 

                Ifya come prepare to shiver

Think I’ll stay put.

Suit yourself 

   later he shivered a while  but it passed   

2329,  Thursday,  15  12. 22

1139,  Reggaefriday,  16  12. 22