Oh Lindsay
Oh Clarence
theyve closedsnapped-shut
the definition of an eyerollin tonguelollin circle jerk
Enjoy boysenjoy while you can youre
both too old an too spent for this horseshit
1651, Monday,
24 10. 22
24.10.22
OH Former Former phat Former
hes playing games because he thinks
hes so stilettosharp everso clever brilliant
but he thought otherwise
the Former thinks hes playing
with a full deckplaying a loaded WHEEL OF FORTUNE
No way
he saw little to no opportunities for fortune Former had pissed those away
he was assuredconfident the game
the imbecilic Former was playing was called WHEEL OF MISFORTUNE
he tilted his headsmiling to the future
sound of Former squealing not for
success rather for a Bedouin tentsized orange jumpsuit an for Formers
new Phederal Playmates
1516, Monday,
24 10. 22
it wasnt until later in life that
she understood what her parents did for her and her sister had a name
they were ruggedised
she wasnt like other girls
she thought they were sissies
they didnt mix
she got along better with boys she
wasnt concerned with traditional girlie things or notions she was athletic by fifth grade bigger than most the boys at
school even had a few fistfights with them
Why did you fight? What did he say? I asked you why you were fighting? He can tell you . . and if he lies Im going
to beat him again.
thats
what the administrator reiterated to her father
he agreed with his daughter
she tried to go around him to
his wife
Shes out of town
on business Ive told her Shes with me Wha did the boy say
That’s . .
.
. I dare you to tell me thas none of my concern
Theyre old enough knowing enough to settle matters how they choose at least my daughter is thahe got his ass handed to him changes
nothing He might have been wiserconsidered possible
outcomes before agitating
But he is a boy Theyre immature at this age
His parents . .
.
. Yare welcome to tell them where we live Youll excuse me if I rather not contend with a middleperson a middlewoman School policy is clear three-day suspension for fightingdespite despite my daughter standingup for herself Weve taught her to do exactly tha whenever
necessary This is where you excuse
yourselfinterrupt me confirm hell be home
for three days too
I know the boy When I drop my other daughter for school I
know his classroom
Ill be watchin
Three days
Mister . .
.
. Please answer the question Three day
suspensions for both children My
daughters brought her books home garnered her assignments
Ill be watchin Thank you for your time
Have anything more to say for
yourself
Dad?
Yes
I’m honestlyyou want me to be honest
. .
.
. Thas the currency of our household
I’m happy I made him cry. Everybody saweverybody heard what he said. I
stoodup for myself.
Anunfortunately unfair as it may
seem sometimesmost the time it comes at a price
Mom agreed?
Mom backed us
That’s not agreeing.
Actions speak louder than words
When she returns youll talkIll not speak for
her
She backed us.
Particularly Mom backed you
We have one anothers
backs Yet another currency in our family
the girls were ruggedisedtied tightly
together in a knot perhaps she more than
her sister but her sister wasnt slouch she played bigger than she was
sometime
Thursday, 15 9. 22
1101, Monday,
24 10. 22
Whale Fall Kodiak
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6kk4-ubujI8
23.10.22
Its funny when I sit down to eat I eat without pleasure I ingest
I ingest my sustenance don smack my lips don say Damn thawas tasty its not important its tasty whas important is that its fuel
I need nothing more than tha
Occasionally Im fed something
more than fuel an Im grateful for the treat
like when a dog gets a meaty bone an doesnt have to dig up one hes
buried
Yes grateful
not tha it was important its
appreciated
I
am grateful
Then grateful gets to the end of the
line anis recalled when it happens again
Not tha I look for it or forward
to it
Grateful
momentarily happy genuinely happy it
was offered
939/2139, Sunday,
23 10. 22
he was slackjawedhad not heard
anything like that ever come out of her mouth
What?
rolling her eyes inquisitively What’s with the face?
he pulled himself together
Im wondering if I heard you correctly
You heard me correctly . you
listen to me when I speak . . unlike others . they’re too busy in their heads
to properly engage in conversation and why I dowhy I bother I don’t know . . it’s
all about them them them them them . . . they’ll be the death of me.
Seems to be a lot of them . .
.
. There areno exaggeration . it’s pitifulI’m pitiful . to think otherwiseto think
they’ll be different.
I’m fuckin’ insufferable.
No
Don be harsh on yourself
I’m not . I’m piling on like they
pile onthey have their reasons . . not agreeing would be unreasonab . .
. . Anyare reasonable
I am. Yes. You know it.
I do
Which is all the more reason you shouldnt
give a shit what they thinkwhoever they are Disassociate
Disassociate? quietly she shook her headtears working into
her eyes
Disassociate
Theyll be the death of you
impossible big tears rolled down
her cheeks
she looked absolutely dejectedforlorn
he took a handkerchief out of his
backpockethanded it to her
Swear its cleanhavent used it I have two
she choked on a chuckle
Thank you
she wiped her eyesher cheeks chin
Yare welcome I apologise
Thawas harsh
But true, very true.
Yes
true
he cleared his throat loudly
So you said Why waste a minute
being timid
That’s what I said.
Thas strong for you
she chuckledhe was relieved I wasn’t saying it for menot for me . no
. . it’s what I understandhave learned from you.
suddenly she smiled large under her shining eyes
looked pitiful
she was breaking his heart
Have learned But wont practise
Precisely. As you know because you listen
to me.
she
chuckled again I live vicariously
through youthrough your stories . . don’t ever stop.
1834, Saturday,
22 10. 22
1126, Sunday,
23 10. 22
Distant Whale https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X7YzyImFAUo
22.10.22
a homeless man under the viaduct yelled Wha’s that smell,
wha’s that smell? as he walked below him on the birdshitspattered
sidewalk
homeless had situated himself on a concrete shelf highup near the steel palegreen
painted undergirding
he heard a reply but didnt see who spoke Insecticide bugs up here.
That’s insecticide?
Huhhah.
It smells amazing.
Do have a pleasant smell.
Mind sharing?
You got bugs?
Not yet . . but we’re slumming in close proximity.
You insinuating something? a slight violence in his voice
No not at all, nothing personal . . crawly bugs.
They do yah they do. he heard him moveshift then saw some part of
him he was cocooned in a crummy soiled
sleeping bag Ya give it back?
I will.
You got bugs?
No . . but smells so goodthought I’d use as an
insecticide and an underarm deodorant.
Underarm deodorant?
Yeah.
Aw man that is fuckin brilliant.
he wagged his headkept walking
Wow he thought wont ever whine again about my circumstances
1627, Twosday,
18 10. 22
1446, Saturday,
22 10. 22
on occasionrare occasion his mind
skipswandersreturns to 2017 he has a long
memory infamous Charlottesville the tiki torchesthe braying White Nationalists
Neo-Nazis racists he recalls the imbecilic
frosting on the cake Former “. . . you
also had people that were very fine people, on both sides . . .”
Former had nothing on Beavis and
Butthead Fire! Fire! Fire! Fire! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XchwE9zVdnw
his mind wanders
at the time he
thought someone there should have had his thought toss pretty coloured gasoline-filled balloons
on the tiki goons
made him chuckle sardonically as it went
off in his eyesreminding him of the Scarecrow from The Wizard of Oz Here Scarecrow, you wanna play
ball? The Wicked Witch
tosses a fireball at himScarecrows frenetic stationary horsegallop as the Tinman
falls on the ground to smother the flames
he could imaginecould see all
those Gittyup! hoppintrottingallopin white supremacists Jews
will not replace us! while
they do a fabulous impersonation of replacing them
You know thas a little sick doncha whispered an inner Mariachi
Guillermo ya don have to whisper I like to think it a kind of parity a little dose of Sick for the Sick
1627, Twosday,
18 10. 22
1135, Saturday,
22 10. 22
21.10.22
thaumogenesis
the longword version
of what he called his style of wrioting mosaics they shared the same letters except
for the c See Si si Yes
JESUS woudya get on with it
thaumogenesis inadvertently
creating a being as a byproduct of casting a spell
Or casting cock hed say Whichtherefore the ability not only name a child Sex but also Thaumogenesis or or
OR Thaumaturgy the performance of a miracle
Lets not get nuts Mariachi saidhaving its ear to a wall or keyhole
Ahthere you are
Was wondering where youd gotten off to
Never far off You growing a conscience
A conscience hmm I don know Got enough room in there without me squeezing
youse out
Why woudya ask
Seems to me itd be bulbous like inflating a balloon Woudnt tha put the squeeze on ya
Awcomon were malleablewerent born yesterday were elastic flexible like worldclass
gymnasts
STOP yare killin me
Maybe if yad quit thinkin sex or of sex partners
Comon aint nothing a sight better than a supple lover
Agreed
Weve seen
Seen Ya voyeurs
You
a voyeur
Fair There is tha
We complimentcomplete you Were not mere adjutantswere up to our necks in
your game
Game
Am I a game
You game
Ofcourse
Then don ask stupid questions of
me or us
spose he put his foot in it
0105, Thursday,
20 10. 22
1955, ReggarFriday,
21 10. 22
20.10.22
his feet were blueactually bluegreythought of the blue-footed
booby Kurt Vonnegut Jr Galapagos
if you havent read it you havent lived
his feet were blue from the light
off the television screen he watched A
Woman, A Gun and a Noodle Shop Zhang
Yimons film based on the Coen Brothers Blood Simple it was nice to see the Chinese use an
American film as a springboard rather than the other way aroundTHAS TRUE but he his daughter occasionally were
who he knew who watched foreign films not two months ago he watched eight in a row Chinese Korean Japanese
Italian French German IrishTHAS A JOKE his son-in-law thought a movie where characters spoke with an accent was
a foreign filmTONGUE IN CHEEK afterall theres Snatchhe
caught it in the theatrehad nothing to do with snatch he was deflated
WHERE
WAS HE
OHYES
blue feet
he didnt pay much attention to
feetcertainly not his they were foot
soldiers their job to get himcoordinating with his legs from here to there and there and back
he didnt take good care of them
he wasnt a dandy
as a matter of fact he didnt
start paying attention to feet until hallie singlefootedlyYES one at a time he paid deliberate attention to her feet
he developed a
footfetish for hers
erotic
hers were erotic
his were rottingNOT REALLY
just
badly beatenup
blue light didnt help
as a matter of fact in that light
his feet looked like they belonged to a dead man
probably in light of the dead men hed seen in Nam
or just dead feet
after bombings artillery barrages
because body
counts were what officersGENERALS jacked off to grunts GIs assembled odd body parts to make a
body to be countedHE wasnt told hed be doing that when he opted for the military
instead of going to prison for assault
FUCK
krazy where blue feet took a
guy
2352, Day-between-Two-Ts, 19 10.
22
1227, Thursday,
20 10. 22
he knew a bit of something about
watching pots boil he was feeding nearly
three dozen hummingbirds they were extreme
beings anif he coud help a fella out he was prone to doing so rather he listened for the pot to boil hed been doing it so long that he developed an internal alarm clock that whispered Whadaya think? I think it’s
bout time. Yare the clock I listen to youfollow your BRRRIING Man, tha’s an awesome responsibility. Got something else to do Good point. No.
a watched potnever awcomonNEVER a watched pot never boilsmeaning eer aheer clearing
his throat Time passes slowly when one is waiting for something to happensomeone to
show Coudbe
tha special someone
nah he didnt wait
at
least thats what he told himself he made sure he had something else going on to fill the time knew about the cavalry coming in his experience they rarely arrived in the
nick of time sometimes they didnt show
he was pummeled once too many times to buy into that line
of horseshit
as a matter of fact he had
seen it show late linger off in the
distance
it
decided the battle was lost no
sense getting involved
when he healedup he went after
them one at a time to settle the score soothe his sore feelings
he had to excuse himself
Time for da boids
0950, Thursday,
20 10. 22
19.10.22
jagoff
its been awhile since hed been
called a jagoffas a matter of fact its been years like since he left the old neighbourhoodhis
old friends
he wondered if it wasnt a nameword like groovy or Right on, bro or Mary
Jane thai-sticks You’re a real douchebag
confined to the era he was raised in or the region
his kid brotherstill living in the old
neighbourhood thought it was a Midwest or Eastern slur
he was living in the West
hed
have to ask someone
or call someone jagoff
see what that got him
it wasnt beyond him
hed chalk it up to
curiosity
Where
In a bar
Lubricated
In a bar? his brother worried Oh no I wouldn’t do that if I were you.
You said it was a Midwest slur
I don’t know if I’d risk a punch
in the mouth.
Or just a dumb look on their face
What did you say? I said jagoff What’s that? Its all in the delivery If Im not glaring if I have a humoured
expression a pleasant expression on my face Coud think it was a pleasant saying a nickname
You think?
I wont know until I tryits worth
a try . .
.
. If yawanna get punched in the face.
he shook his head
Yacant be optimistic its not like I called em a cunt cunt round here gets guys and gals
all riledlike wha your breath smells like ya got a mouth full of
shit Not tha tha woud rile me
No. That wouldn’t rile you.
You’re pretty unrileable.
I like tha Coud I borrow it
Help yourself.
Im unrileable
You are . . . until you’re notthen
the gloves are off.
Thas true
I’d think a temperature change
from cool as ice to hot as magma would be injurious.
Unrileable Injurious
You don look that smart
I keep my cards close.
Thasaid Ive seen you on more than one occasion a freak
ice to magma . .
. . Not
often.
No
Volcanoes tend to be thaway
You think a volcano?
I do
he puzzled it crowded his countenance
You know what I think?
I do
You do?
I do
What? Ya a fuckin’ mind reader?
No
So then? he shrugged his shoulders like a boxer
Yave beento the best of my knowledge volcanic when Ive provoked it whether me provoking you or me throwing down in a
fight because I knew youd have my back
You became feral
his brothers eyes began to shine
he went off in his head a short
while
when he returned his eyes shining brighter
Yaknowwha? You’re right.
I am
You’re a jagoff.
0011, Day-between-Two-Ts, 19 10.
22
1234, Day-between-Two-Ts
Billy Porter Children https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_4aqOKoSArw
18.10.22
Aww digging inWho are you
Who are you
the bungled the botchedthe expendable
Nietzsche posed that Antichrist published 1895 written in 1888 his publishers withheld it due to its content FEAR
Who are you
hed have to identify with the
expendable
not that he thought he was but he doesnt call the shots cunt whitey doNOT that their opinion mattered to him
hed dare them Step up and tell me to my face
theyd walk off
holding their facetheir Mask in their
hands
“Man is the most bungled of all
the animals, the sickliest, and not one has strayed dangerously from its
instincts. But for all that, of course, ofcourse
he is the most interesting.”
innarestin is ambivalent
Nietzsche didnt
say shit
1889 he was committed to an asylum purportedly a mental breakdown after witnessing a horse whipped in Turin
or not
does
it matter
0855, Thursday,
13 10. 22
1926, Twosday, 18
10. 22
Nadja The Bungled & The Botched https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NfOP9dbSBRY
he picked on Dior unmercifully cunt Dior but since not another advertisement has presented in his emailbeen directed at him
he really appreciated that
anto address his appreciation he also wanted to express his thankfulness for Frances laïcité in the world because of the French
Thank
you he genuinely meant it
laïcité means
secularism separation of Church and
State yes ofcourse others countries have
the notion of secularism however
particular to the French it seemed him laïcité
also means freedom from religion
Aah freedom FROM religion
as America contends with its White
Christian Nationalism hard
to say around a mouthful of McDonalds hamburger problem laïcité elated him
to be honest he couldnt remember where his eye fell on laïcité
but it looked so much like lactate save
for the crazy accent marks he was immediately
attractedcurious
he was terribly happy he looked
into it
anwas keeping his fingers crossed that Dior would maintainhonour their détente remain off his back so he could stop calling it
cunt
2350, Thursday,
15 9. 22
1139, Twosday,
18 10. 22
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