Wha . . yalookin to pick yourself up off the floor

he flinched  What are you talking about?

Whacha saidcalled me his fists were balledup could care less he gaveway three inches thirty pounds

Hey, it's nothingnot derogatory. his hands went up before himfingers to the skypalms out You're misunderstanding me.

Help yourself  make me understand

                                              It hasnt been a good day

Positive deviant.

Deviant

Positive positive . deviant.

Which meanswha

It’s good, good . . an approach to behavioral social change, based on observations that in every community . there are certain individuals . . you . whose uncommon behaviors and strategies . .

. . Thas a stretch . .

. . If you say . . . whose uncommon strategies enable them to find better solutions to problems than their peers . . while having access to the same resources . facing similar . . or worse challenges.

Yave been reading

I have.

Selfhelp book books

Yes. I find them valuable.

  I cant stand them

                       Nothing more than common sense  a matter of knowing oneself  

You know yourself better than a lot of people . . hell, far better than I know myself.

he relaxed his handsshook them out 

                                      I didnt know  Ya know Im confrontational Thank you for informing mehadnt heard it before    Positive deviant

Positive deviance.

  Deviance  Maybe ya shoudve said that instead of deviant

                                                                 Catch my drift

Caught.

1335,  Sunday,  30  1. 22

1443,  ReggaeFriday,  15  7. 22

https://positivepsychology.com/positive-deviance/

Dirty Heads  Doesn’t Make You Right  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tcZy3F2kYhg

smoke curled lazily off the joint

he liked its swirls the shapes it formed which he saw things in 

                                                                   but he saw things in rockslides crowns of trees clouds bathroom linoleum

he took another toke

enjoyed the stuffiness in his lungs as he held his breath

                                                             Remember to breathe  

he laughed smoke danced out of his mouth nose

                                                     Ill remember

You don remember to swallow a sip sit around holding liquid in your mouth

You pulling watch today

Drew the short straw

Drawing straws nowhuh You guysgals make me laugh

Aint funny

It is though maybe aint dawnin on you cuz you lost   Yare bitter

Im not bitter yare a handful

Donbe that way  No me no you

                                 An lets not forget I have to put up with youse too an often with more than one at a time when ya get frisky

  Theres that

Yes there is that

                      Since yare around yawanna help me with something thats occurred to me

It shoudve occurred to me

Yaint privy to everything

                           I have the means to cut you out turn off sound blind eyes desensitise you the gang

That shoudve occurred to me

  Need to know basis

                            Still wanna help

Yah  sure

It coudbe a matter of flipping a coin but   am I sceptically cynical or cynically sceptical

OHfuck

Ya said it

551preferred,  Thursday,  27  1. 22

1044,  ReggaeFriday,  15  7. 22

Collie Buddz  I Feel So Good  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UL9nFnosdXw

an Amber-like alert

seemed reasonable responsible something leaders would rationalise as a good thing

when a child is abducted an amber warning goes out to cellphones notifying the community to be on the lookout

          but

if it is an active shooter

          well

                   168 House Republicans and one Democrat voted against it 

Republicans project fear

                          the lone democrat Wisconsin Congressman Kind voting in kind with his House Republican contingency was “concerned that a system like this could generate more chaos and cause armed civilians to rush to the scene, potentially interfering with law enforcement efforts.”

Hmm  he remembers “The only thing that stops a bad guy with a gun is a good guy with a gun.”

                                                                                                       although that NRA peach was put to shame with abject failures in Uvalde Texas Buffalo New York

after 6PM,  Thursday,  14  7. 22

1159,  ReggaeFriday,  15 7. 22

The Reidout  Brandon Wolf interview begins @ 15:05 minute-mark ends 22:15 minute-mark  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GhtlzycsLz0 

https://www.jsonline.com/story/news/politics/2022/07/14/ron-kind-only-democrat-vote-against-active-shooter-alert-act/10058596002/ 

https://www.npr.org/2012/12/21/167824766/nra-only-thing-that-stops-a-bad-guy-with-a-gun-is-a-good-guy-with-a-gun

https://www.usnews.com/news/the-report/articles/2022-05-27/uvalde-buffalo-shootings-expose-the-myth-of-the-good-guy-with-a-gun

it came flippantly off his tongue  DDFL . .

. . Woud ya stop

OH . . oh . that’s right you don’t . .

. . I coud care less Apparently ya cant help yourself

                                                           Soya know wha it means Im not impressed Aint smart dumb  particularly since Ive told you time an again to save it

he shifted his feetslipped his hands into his pockets

                                                       I was just teasin’ you . .

. . A striptease doesnt tease me  Save it

he stood there with his hands deep in his pockets

Sowhas your DDFL

It means dopamine-driven feedback loop . .

. . Which has to do wha with our conversation

Jackie . . the attractionthat tug you feel when you see her. She provides you a sense of pleasure, excitement, which is a release of dopamine in your brain. The loop is the dopamine, providing you good sensations, which then causes the release of more dopamine, a self-sustaining loop . .

. . Which  Silicon Valley takes advantage of people are like once-upon-a-time chain smokers enjoying abundant nicotine

I . . I suppose.

An thas a good thing

Well . . pleasure and excitement are good things.

In a place a time  Shoudnt be commonplace

Come on, sex sells, you know that.

I know you buy

his hands came out of his pockets   Oh hes going to implore me   You buy . .

. . It doesn’t lead me around by my nose 

                                             A place  A time

Man, you drive me nuts.

Probably why ya cant restrain yourself an use acronyms to provoke me

                                                                            We must have some kind of DDFLthing between us

I didn’t think of that.

                       Possibly.

  Ya think

1659,  Thursday,  27  1. 22

0942,  ReggaeFriday,  15  7. 22

https://www.firstpost.com/tech/news-analysis/facebook-encourages-short-term-dopamine-driven-feedback-loops-that-are-destroying-society-ex-facebook-vp-of-user-growth-4254243.html

  Yesterday 

             I loved you yesterday, but yesterday's gone . . .

yesterday the House Committee on Oversight and Reform held a hearing on Abortion Rights the Right squats on the argument that when a baby is born it is a person and therefore – by extension -- it is a person before birth  they are terribly concerned for that person the womanthe mother not so much

                                                                        they are very terribly concerned for the health of that personthey do not call it a foetus however they do not mention or are lackluster regarding the mothers health the conduit how that highlyregarded unbornperson has to enter the world through

                                                                                    Hmm he scratched his chin

Illinois Representative Krishnamoorthi a democrat questioned the panel regarding women arrested for abortion miscarriage and pregnancy-specific crimes he cited from 1973 to 2005 413 such arrests from 2006 to 2020 1331 arrests rising significantly in just the last 14 years 

                                                      scratching his chinstaring into the maw of post-Roe America those arrestsparticularly black and minority will increase and women will be prosecuted – he hoped men would be too  as accomplices -- they will be imprisoned incarcerated

                                                     still scratching his chin he wondered if Americas prison system is prepared to provide prenatal care necessary wholesome foods postnatal care nurseries and dependent on sentences are prisons also ready to provide daycare preschool and elementary education

                                                                              he quit scratchingWhadahell ofcourse prolife Republicans have looked down that road and have it all figured out

1202,  Thursday,  14  7. 22

Chad & Jeremy  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ql9AKqMcsdY

House Oversight Committee hearing on abortion  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tgk5sYl5Jq4

standing Hitler on his head

Americas Christian fascist majority Supreme Court is leading the way for whomever the Right Leader might be rather than the other wayround as once upon a time theyd like it to sound with a fairy tale a dream come true  the Nationalsozialistische Deutsche Arbeiterpartei (NSDAP -- National Socialist’s German Party) did with Hitler at its helm 

  It was so beautiful   

0904,  Thursday,  14  7. 22

https://www.facinghistory.org/resource-library/teaching-holocaust-and-human-behavior/rise-nazi-party

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xHHb7R3kx40 

. . . well . . no news is good news just fell hard on its face

                                                            his default at fault 

Time irretrievable  when its gone its gone

                                              when someones gone theyre gone

donbe lookin for brakes to this ride  nada zip

a friend told him they had made last contact with a buddy so they were waiting for them to respond

Don wait don wait If you think of them don hold tha cheaptha shitty excuse up as why yare not reaching out to them it aint tit for tat They run across your mind get in touch with them

she had ran across his

he wrote her

she died the month earlier

1407,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  13  7. 22

they crossed the creekwalked on water walked on big rocksbut not so big that they didnt shimmy a bit made the crossing funnot a sure bet 

                   Careful brother think that joint shook ya up a bit  Inept

abruptly I’m fine.

Stop with fine you stumbled on the dirt pathaint picking up your feet while ya walk

he was on the rocks halfwaycross so he didnt dare stop balance turn an say he yelled I’m fine. Leave me be.

                                                                                                                    he would have said alone Leave me alone but be understandably was shorterless an effort 

                                                                                       if brother went down he wasnt going after him he was being mercenarygave him a wide berth hadnt stepped onto the rocks yet was taking in the sight

   and . . .

              he stumbledfell incaught himself got his hands out ahead of his face he looked like an ape a big awkward human

        had to laughhad to enjoy brothers misery enjoyed his misery because eventually it would come around on him and someone would laugh

Don’t laugh at me.

Have to he started across the rocks Yare funny

                                                   Mebbe I should have lead the way  halfwaycross Thaway ya coudsee how its done he stoppedrocking on a rock to watch him stagger out of the water onto the bank no worse for wear  he didnt take a knee or knees  he might rollup his sleeves or take his shirt off   You okay

I’m okay I’m okay, you’re gonna tell Dottie in a heartbeat that I fell in aren’t you?  crossing his arms over his chest he made himself into an exclamation point aren’t you?!

laughter bubbled out of him as he finished crossing 

                                                      In a heartbeat Hellnah  Ive written it in the sky shes already seen it  Im a skywriter Anyone bothering to look up coud see it whichmeans yare safe  But Dottie looks up like me Yare doomed

1542,  Thursday,  27  1. 22

1224,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  13  7. 22

only one of twohunredninetynine babies survived  there were those who were tempted to call it a miracle 

                                                                                                               he deferredhe said if that baby grew up and became an atheist then he might concede it was miraculous

                                                                                               he wouldnt win a popularity contest

        not that he cared 

if a babys born to atheist parents unbaptised   according to the Catholic church should he or she die  their soul would go to limbo

           Awcomon   How low can ya go

 

322preferred,  Thursday,  27  1. 22

1041,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  13  7. 22

Bouttime  https://slate.com/news-and-politics/2007/04/what-happens-to-the-babies-who-used-to-be-in-limbo.html

driving they rolled past a billboard alongside the rural highway County Road 18   WE BACK THE BLUE!

Trumps face leers out from the upper left corner    

his passenger mused How do people deal with the cognitive dissonance of the fact that he launched an attack against the Capitol on January Six?

he let him muse 

was gonna keep his two cents to himself

otherwise that conversation would have gone round and round chasing its tail

cognitive dissonance

                       did he really think that the majority of Americans who voted for the former would even know what cognitive dissonance was let alone be able to actually pronounce the words back to back

                                                                                                 cognitive dissonance

a social psychology theory  referring to the mental conflict not menial  if it were the odds might possibly improve that occurs when a persons behaviours and beliefs do not align 

                                                       BACK THE BLUE  but they beat them senseless at the Capitol

1639,  Monday,  11  7. 22

2024,  Twosday,  12  7. 22

January6 Select Committee Hearing  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sox95cYqJ0Y

some girls play hard to get

some guy dont want to work that hard

when a girl says No. some guys think she means Yes. she only said No. so she could remain a good girl retain her reputation 

           those guys are idiots  if a guy said No. its probably a good bet he meant it

such an interaction would be amusing if it wasnt so terribly gallingso bitterly offensive he thinks her No. means Yes.

wheres his head he lose it playing marbles

youd think his conscience would kick it

                                           but a conscience can be fickled  particularly if he stands to gain somethingcan benefit

conscience isnt derived from religionfrom Mommie or Daddy  it hunkers down among his fear and hopes of what others other guys its a mans world might think of him

when he actsviolates his conscience imagines someone someone disinterested   someone who hasnt skin in the game watching him  judging him    

0934,  Twosday,  12  7. 22

2001,  Twosday,  12  7. 22

Impermanence

 

   last seen alive

                         their impermanence finalised

he has pictures

pictures of them him with them    they make him weep  Whawas Whawoud never be again

he didnt take themtheir shared time for granted

                                                   like anyoneeveryone he believed theyd have more time

he was not cheated

  he only felt he was  the photographs are shadows brightly reminding him hurting his heart   stirring memories in his mindturning turning his long memory 

                                            his mother told him  Quit asking me if I remember, whenever you have you’ve remembered correctly . . and since I’m not remembering as good as I used to, I want you to trust what you remember is true . was real, love, you are not wrong.

now she was gone  Stop with gone  his mother was dead

                                                                    Yes  She is dead    I miss you I love you Maw

last seen alive

1457,  Sunday,  26  6. 22

1128,  Monday,  11  7. 22

Big Thief  Mary  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G5OV1JPqlNQ

tha blew his mind

                    an eternal family  cant make tha shit up 

he had a family didnt consider it eternalnothing is

Heaven is eternal.

Man the closest thing to eternal is the universe thirteenpointseven billion years old

Eternal hasnt numbers

Which is why Heaven is.

  It isnt

         When rent quits being paid everyone will have to leavehave to vacate the premises

Rides over 

           Systems begin an systems cease

Ye of little faith.

Nah Ive faith nothings eternal

2355 or 1155PM,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  22  6. 22

1018,  Monday,  11  7. 22

Big Bang  https://www.space.com/13320-big-bang-universe-10-steps-explainer.html

he bobbed his head with the beat

                                    to his buddy Catchy tunehuh

he listenedwasnt bobbing his head quite right  timing off  looked uncomfortable 

                                                                                        Kinda . . who is it?         

Its Iggy

he quit his quirky head thing and turned to him

                                                 Who?

Songs the Passenger Iggy Pop

said Iggy Pop asif the name tasted queer in his mouth 

                                                             Never heard of him.

Never  Ya kiddin me Soya really did only listen to Bubblegum pop on the radio as a kid

he pulled his head back an in like a turtle

                                            Catchy tunes, man.   

Jaysus thas a crimeNauh itsa sin  Better beat it to church an confess

                                                                             Bless me Father for I have sinned Its been years since my last confession  I don know who Iggy Pop is 

                                                                 Youll be lucky he doesnt throw the book at ya

Stop.

Tellya  Tossin gettin highhavin indecent thoughts of Sister Mary an youll be lightin votivesthree for a quarter an sayin Our Father Who Art in Heaven and Holy Mary Mother of God for hours

Would you stop?

  No Im disturbed

Disturbed we listened to different music?

Bubblegum aint music bro Id bet no blues or jazz  or Motown either

No, only rock and roll.

he was stunnedhappy he couldnt witness the expression that tugged on his faceflattened it

                                                                                                 Christ

Youll be lucky to get out of church without havin to suffer a sulfuric acid enema

think Friday,  10  6. 22

0924,  Monday,  11  7. 22

Iggy  The Passenger  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-fWw7FE9tTo 

Bubblegum Pop  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x9bKmJY9PH0

there were things he marked Time by

                                        he preferred not to be irritated by ticktock alarm clocks calendars datebooks which wasnt to say he didnt know what time it was or the day or date

                                                                              he absorbed it rather than piddled with it

he dug the moon its cycles  new  its slivers    FULL

the solstices 21 June 22 December

he loved the seasonsgrew up under them but living in semi-arid an becoming more arid California they were subtly dispensed with much like his ability now to taste  he needed to be punched in the mouth

    today the last apricots disappeared 

                                                  Time

he watched for poppies to bloom the awewisteria he raised from a seed to green its tendrils climb the white sage grown from a cutting to throwup shoots and flower the slender walnut shoot he planted leaf an grow taller a happy live oak thriving a gift of a squirrel   skinny he still didnt know wha she was her girth thickening but she remained lithe

Time is what people make of it

Time will never be long enough

434preferred,  Saturday,  9  7. 22

1030,  Sunday,  10  7. 22

The Heavy  Short Change Hero  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GjTTB6yII4o

Chicago Transit Authority  Does Anybody Really Know What Time It Is   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7uy0ldI_1HA 

The Cure  Friday I’m in Love  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dt7oMSOB7nw

Billy Idol  Bitter Taste  (you can read all my scars) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L_9-aUDz9Go

Roy Moore redux

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ukerE0Nsr-8 

                                                     Well whadahells he gonna do with tha

he originally posted it for Roy Moore in 2017

                     but

revisiting Mr Moore a former Alabama Supreme Court Chief Justice a man who exhibited paedophile tendencies he read that 2 days ago comedian Sacha Baron beat off Moores $95M defamation lawsuit Moores appealingNO hes not appealing Moores appealing the decision that three judges who sit on the second US circuit court of appeals  upholding a lower courts ruling  found that Barons televised skit where he utilised a paedophile detector that beeped when it neared Moore was “clearly comedy”

                                 if it were only that easy to identify paedophiles

   

  Well thaexplains wha he was going to do with Ivys Touch Me video

1103,  Sunday,  10  7. 22

https://www.theguardian.com/culture/2022/jul/07/sacha-baron-cohen-defeats-roy-moore-lawsuit

Wendat statesman sage  Kandiaronk 

                                          “ . . . I affirm that what you call money is the devil of devils; the tyrant . . . the source of all evils; the bane of souls and slaughterhouse of the living. To imagine one can live in the country of money and preserve one’s soul is like imagining one could preserve one’s life at the bottom of a lake. Money is the father of luxury, lasciviousness, intrigues, trickery, lies, betrayal, insincerity -- of all the world’s worst behaviour. Fathers sell their children, husbands their wives, wives betray their husbands, brothers kill each other, friends are false, and all because of money.” 

                      from Curious Dialogues with a Savage of Good Sense Who Has Travelled (1703) written by aristocrat Louis-Armand de Lom d’Arce, Baronde la Hontan later known as Lahontan 

                                                                                           cited in The Dawn of Everything – A New History of Humanity David Graeber and David Wengrow

when he thought of politics he thought Game rigged  if money didnt cross ones mind first thing they were deluded if our democracy is to prevail  obscene scads of money have to be eliminated

only public money at play 

                            awarded to worthwhile candidates worthwhile meaning those who can present a conducive platform and have the ability to argue its pros and cons

they have to effectively budget that money throughout their campaign    an baby when its gone its gone

those elected will work every week  not languishing time off  month-long vacations  and will earn substantial incomes commiserate to the private sector  although not greedy CEO salaries nowadays which are corrupted by American capitalism that is distinctly not free market capitalism       

suntime,  Reggaefriday,  8  7. 22

324preferred,  Saturday,  9  7. 22

Wendat  a confederacy of four Iroquois-speaking bands of the Huron nation – the Rock Bear Cord and Deer bands

Hank Williams, Jr.  Attitude Adjustment  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZFhubbRugak