Diarrhea, man, don’t you think it’s holistic?

Really   Over coffee

Don’t you think?

You going philosophical on me

                                   Over coffee  

his features pinched 

                      Philosophical? Maybe.  How do you mean?

Whell I know your guts been troubling you since your procedure  so questioning if its holistic can also mean medicinally

medically speaking   Im looking for clarity so we don get lost in the weeds

What do you mean philosophically?

Im taking your reference holistic  to the whole of mankind

features pinched again looked uncomfortable

                                                 You mean whole . . or hole?

Whole Why hole

Because it’s you. Which one?

Were getting lost in the weeds Whole Complete  Its intimately interconnected and explicable by reference to the whole of humankind

             Better yet you tell me  Its your ask

I was thinking, having it, suffering it, everyone has, therefore it is all-encompassing.

Anwha brought this on  over coffee

I’d been toying with it. I’ve had lotsa time on the pot to muse, so since no subject is taboo between us, which you usually bring up, I thought I’d get out ahead of you.

he applauded him

people on the deck looked were perplexed

looks didnt stop him applauding

he stood still applauding walked around behind him stopped slapped him on the back

                                                                                            Yaknow the only misfortunate aspect I can surmise is that in order for you to muse you gotta be sitting on the pot

We’re at coffee.

he sat again

              We are but you didnt think up holistic diarrhea here

No. No I did not.

But I like that the cogs and gears are whirling even if it not while youre standing on your feet

                                                                                                  Thats progress man keep the ball rolling

Thank you.

Anything else

the bulb went out he went dark

                                  he hated thinking so it but it was moments like these he saw his head suddenly turn into a mature dandelion plant a puff asexually reproduced apomixis agamospermy anhim blowing real hard his head coming apartdispersing leaving a shocklingly naked brainstemnaked reptilian brain composed of dull yet prettilyhued bits midbrain pons medulla oblongata

                                          the teenytiny seed parachutes going off with his breath dancing  but thankfully unable to implant in black soil

Nothinghuh

Nah. Shot my wad.  Holistic diarrhea was all I had, all I brought.

Thats awright

                Its a start man

1419,  Saturday,  22  1. 22

1549,  Twosday,  15  3. 22

Chicago  Beginnings  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lI-BMDnti4c

whas temptationwhen   was he last tempted

    thinking bout it

rapped on his front door heard it over Common  maybe Ja Rule 

                                                                    opened the door wisely pulled waay back

though some ridiculous part of him wished he hadnt

                                                            Com’on man toss the dicesee where they fall

Nah                                                                         

Ya think this is going to happen again  Called opportunity

Nah not opportunitythey aint no opportunity  their makeup lacks sincerity 

the brunette had once upon a time lived across the hall from him when she was little

she recognised him in the parking lot

You live here?

surprised himself he recognised her too

Moved in in the spring 

My girlfriend lives here.

Likely I might see ya around

 

Like your music. playing innocent

Whas up

         they looked feral would hang him out to dry assuage their parents or parents guilt then stoke and inflame them to grope for selfrighteousness thatd be unlike them

he had daughters

wasnt stupid 

Its called opportunity

ridiculous was stupid

given his druthers hed brain their parents or parent for not yankinghard on their chains long ago reining them in  Christ

he had no doubt push come to shove these two would finger him cryingweeping He, he should have known better.

Hit the road girls Ive been played before It didnt work then

                                                                         ignorance really is bliss

which wasnt to say he wasnt tempted

                                        the blonde looked really nicelike an Orange Julius touched with strawberry topped with a brightred candied cherry and stem to hold her by

                                                          she would have been delicious  he remembered being a teenager

but really nice isnt tempting enough to risk trouble

Blow Yare stupid thinking of trading your bodies for liquor You should be motivating guys your own age  When I was a teen we plied our girls with liquormoved heaven and earth  sometimes it felt like it too  to procure line things up make things happen  

Com’on Beat it

                he almost caught their tails in the door when he shut it

Tellinya  opportunity man 

Shaddup

           Not by a long shot

2138,  Monday,  14  3. 22

1124,  Twosday,  15  3. 22

Zeppelin  When the Levee Breaks  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=28ZOwVAZS0o

they were high

               sitting outdoors on a flagstone patio in resin frame Adirondack armchairs with the sun on their backs

they were really high

talking

       even when they were straight his buddy found his subject matter bizarrehis exposition incoherent

he wasnt incoherent

                     Moby just couldnt keep up with his flightshis streams of consciousness

no Thar she blows!

he interrupted

               Excuse me, excuse me . . you don’t mind . excuse me.

unlike him hed know where he stopped and could pickup afterwards

                                                                         Sure

Could we sit very still a while and not speak, just listen.

Im game

they shaddup he shaddup

bright shiny silver white silence

Moby lived remote in the hills

wildlife silence is loud

 

in the distance over a tall dense reef of live oak a huge black bird appeared wings wide gliding dead on towards where they sat 

it was descending descending

    lower  lower

he motioned Moby with his head to its approach

Moby looked up

still on glide flawlessly still descending   appearing larger and larger

                                                                         extraordinarily large

his imagination tickled him rife  Harbinger of Death lacking only its wicked sickle  why not

        descending

             ENORMOUS

silence shrieked

                 Best look lively bro vulture thinks were dead

Mobylurched he startled him

                              the vulture veeredright not fifteen feet over their headsnot twenty feet away

they made eyecontact

didnt look like a vultures eye

Christ man when was the last time you showered

1351,  Saturday,  22  1. 22

1141,  Monday,  14  3. 22

Esbjorn Svensson Trio  Still  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eR6VrIkzY5g

wasnt their day

they were still pretty tipped

Wha kind of bird is that

                         Moby was a boider

Where?

Just off the steps beneath the feeder moving this way   Appears ravenous

There.

The only one

You know its name.

If I did I wouldnt be asking

I’ve told you its name many times in many different places.

Ya quiz me In one ear out the other Im no boider Im not fascinatedother things occupy my mind

Maybe if I don’t tell you I might pique your interest.

No That would be a mistake   Be the exteacher you are

That’s a towhee, bigger than a sparrow, kind of spastic in flight.

Looks like its stalking us  Eats seed correct

Seed and berries, acorn, plum and apricot, during breeding season supplements its diet with insects.

Is it breeding season

We’re on the cusp, why?

the towhee continued hopping towards them

                                               Because this one appears to be stalking us  I wouldnt put it past it to embrace palingenesis rebirth regeneration suddenly go Cretaceous on us  devolve into a teethy velociraptor

Feels mighty like its stalking us

You’re being ridiculous.

Hahah  Last famous words theyll find blood an meatbits an wonderscratching their heads What happened here?

the towhee brazenly continued hopping towards them

Shit. You’re creeping me ou . .

. . Time for another beer . .

. . Sure.

when he got up out of the resin Adirondack chair for the beers the towhee didnt spook  he gave it a wide berth as he walked past  the towhee didnt spook

                                        such is the breeding season

Moby might have to submit to sex

 

1415,  Saturday,  22  1. 22

1252,  Monday,  14  3. 22

Tucker Carlson 

                 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8lSgEJNW8B4

reporting from Moscow

  passport revoked

at long last to sing Motherland Sweet Motherland deep into the Mongolian night

2306,  Monday,  14  3. 22

he didnt have big hands

but he had excellent handeye coordination

his hands were strong

therefore evenif they were overwhelmed by acting in unison he could catch anythingeverything he could touch

they were exceptional for sixteeninch Clincher softballs

                                                         and big tits tits that looked so much larger because his hands were small 

and girls who had small breasts also liked that their breasts looked bigger in his hands

he was a commodity

he didnt mind

he relished it

 

while handeye was a happy happenstances there was something more at play  he was incentivised

obviously touching and holding girls incentivised him

however unknown to others was another quotientwhich he realised  he was compelled it was performing before loved ones during softball games at summer family picnics  

they were held at a lake park 

it was now a Nature Center  

they werent really lakes they were lagoons   stews

he played first base

the diamond was inconveniently setup by Park District not thirty mitres from a lagoon

any bad throw he didnt knock down or catch for the out or missedlet past him frequently ended up in the water

and hed have to go after it

no one was keen to play first base except him

he had good hands 

 

family appreciated him the game was harder to play with a slick waterlogged ball

and he appreciated the girls       

2121,  Sunday -- Uncle Earl played shortstop,  13  3. 22 

1011,  Monday,  14  3. 22 

John Fogerty  Centerfield   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xq3hEMUeBGQ

   

Russian war crimes

evidence

a shrapnelsmashed incubator amid rubble in a Ukraine maternity hospital

start there

1650,  Friday,  11  3. 22

1047,  Monday,  14  3. 22

I might not be the sharpest tool in the sh . .

. . WOUD  YA  STOP

                       How often do I got to tell ya to quit diminishing devaluing yourself  I miss how ya think thas appealing to women

I’m being honest. I believe modesty is appealing to . .

. . Selfconfidence more appealing

                                    Not as you keep putting out there  Im oldernot  I almost lost my balance fell on my faceNOT  dating yourself

                           Cuz yakeep that shit up an you will be dating yourself  taking you home after dinner an movie for a couple of stiff drinks then off to the bedroom  scented lubricantIm sure  smeared  to tug your cock

REAL MEN DON MASTURBATE

Yah they do

 

Are you done?

Im irritated  Yah

Let me finish.

Coup de grace

No.  he sneered

You know French

You don’t have to know French to know what that means.

Look at you  selfassured

                             How fuckin attractive

Thank you.

Youre welcome

                   Yawere saying

I was . . but you keep interrupting.

Excuse me

            Anfor future reference feeding you a line Wit  women dig that too   Theres no excuse for you

That’s good.

Try it on for sizeExcuse me

There’s no excuse for you.

Fuck came out of your mouth like it was born there

Thank you.

Youre welcome

                            Yawere saying

Ohyes, I was.

he doubleddownhard so not to roll his eyes

I was saying.

 

Tool shed

Tool shed?

    Im not the sharpest . .

. . YES. Got it.

Blow man so it doesnt escape ya

YES.

       I’m not the . .

. . NO

Right. NO.

            I just want to say that I understand what your bailiwick is.

I have a bailiwick

You do.

Sharper than me  Please

Your job is to efface cellar door as the most beautiful word it’s two . . word in the world.

Whellshit

           Ya got something there

Yes. Cute cunt is more beautiful, and all the other words you’ve coined to usurp cellar door despite Tolkien saying so.

Anwhas euphony fall under

I know this.

Ya do

I don’t know this.

Hint

No thanksplease tell me

Phonaesthet . . 

. . That’s it!  Aesthetics

    It is 

          Bailiwick   I like that  Thank you for granting me that

You’re welcome.

Now grant yourself equally  Be confident   Understand its sexy

Is it?

Don yawanna be sexy

I do.

Its sexy

not the sharpest tool grinned

1401,  Saturday,  22  1. 22

2034,  Sunday,  13  3. 22

That was harsh. she said

she would

she was kindwouldnt hurt a soul probably hadnt

                                                     maybe if she were born a boy but boysit occurred to him might not hurt a soul either

                   he wasnt that kind of boy he could see where that might be nicehe wasnt stupid it just wasnt in his madeup  he wasnt one who got along for the sake of getting along made nice 

always been confrontational

                               rubbed the wrong way he rasped back immediately 

no mistaking where he stood

Harsh I didnt say it to be harsh  I made an observation an stated it in simple determinate understandable words

What if it was said of you?

It wouldnt be

But what if it were?

It wouldnt

You’re imaginative, give it a momen . .

. . Excuse me thatd be a waste of time

    Yes. I know.

                  Thought I could bring you out.

Aint in me

she chuckled  even when she was upset with him she was goodnatured about it  but ofcourse shed be it was in her natureher character

You want me to apologeez

Apologise.

              I’d like if you did.

That would make you happy

It’d make me happy.

he liked to make her happy particularly after his words upset herit was usually his words when they chose not to talkwhen spending time together silently just being  well he couldnt begin to explain those conversations  the eyes had it

       Ill apologise. 

her mouth started to move

Ofcourse face to face  thats the point of being conFRONTational

                                                                     Nice smile babe

Thank you.

Things we do for love

Love? You’re in love? You say your not . .

. . Sshssh we don want him knowing

Him?! she laughed out louddidnt cover her mouth

 

he ran into him a couple days laterknew he would  frequented some of the same places

                                                                                             Lemme buy you a cup of coffee

he did

they sat

          I want to apologise apologise  he imagined her smiling that he didnt fall prey to his vernacular  that I said you hadnt the presence of an appliance I was rude  I apologise

That’s alright, I must admit however, in the immediate aftermath you got me wondering what appliance you were referring to.

A toaster

111PM preferred,  Sunday,  13  3. 22

10 cc  The Things We Do for Love  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cgptvsHHYK4 

I’m Not in Love  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OtBHfxU2wmc

     some people  several in particular to him   havent the presence of an appliance

fortunately he enjoyed the grace of awarenesshead on a swivel he sensed  presence   in spite of lackluster performances

                did he really believe  performancesNah he believed one either had chutzpah audacity or they did not

it was on the top shelf one of a plethora of options available to bring into life that existences-to-be gets to rummage among to choose from but much like in-life too gawddamn many choices inundate the yetplastic yetmalleable ETBs perhaps looking but not seeingYah  times short   he also supposed certain he didnt wannasaysouls souls had formed predilections prior to entering the shelves to make their selection baskets were all the same size

presence exists in varying degrees 

                                    some however carry theirs like a normal temperature or a decimalpoint above  others carry theirs like a temperapture they exuded presence personalityscented  freshbaked bread wildflower honey  an as sticky

         Irresistible

                     unfortunately that irresistibleness can also belong to a dark caustic personality

                                                                                                          anif one hadnt chose well from among the shelves while they were mist theyre drawn like miserable metal filings to such magnets repellent magnets

                  Granted he assessed them repellent  although he liked to thinkhe believed he had filled his basket wiselyappropriately for his brief stay

1047,  Sunday,  13  3. 22

he didnt cease to amaze him

                             an try as he may an he tried very hard he couldnt help himself from laughinghis hahahs organic deftly sidestepped or leapt over booby-traps tiger pits punji sticks maces he deployed to stop them

                                                                                                                had they been human they would have made awesome Rangers tunnel rats someone terribly successful if dislocated from him

he was a bit of an anchor

but his hahahs werent the issue

                                   him  he was

Again Im sorry you were saying

Why are you laughing at me?

laughing with him wasnt going to work he was laughing at him

                                                                    Because wha ya said was hilarious

What did I say?

Whad you say

                   I know whaya said You know whaya said

I do.

You do  An

I said I-U-D . .

. . Yadid

IUD isn’t funny.

No Serious business  a serious decision to deploy

                                                       unable to help himself he smirked

Yes.

       You’re smirking.

Im smirking he wished he had a lookingglass to look into to see what his smirk looked like he didnt think itd be so evident

         I am

Why?

Because you said IUD

So what of it?

I believe you meant to saycorrect me if Im wrong  plant a roadside IED

                                                                             An intrauterine device is not an improvised explosive device visuals going off in my headrunning in a loop are becoming more comedic with every pass freakingly cartoonish

            My tendencyas you know tends to be outrageousprone to hyperbole Anwhile I don need any help you gave me a huge shove in the back

1345,  Saturday,  22  1. 22

2120,  Saturday,  12  3. 22

 

      . . . triespasses to

Triespasses noNO . . trespasses, you’re mispronouncing it . . celery string stuck in your teeth?

Celery string sweet  look at you thinking outside the box spy who came in from the cold Sir Richard Burton

                                                                                                                 No  yahung on the word took it out of contex . .

. . You perplexed me . . triespasses . trespasses . . what did I miss?

The context I used it in

Context . . again, what did you say? 

Sayso sayso  I sayso   I said it takes several triespasses to hear and understand . . was referring to reggae the untrained ear

I dont like regga . .

. . Because you obviously have an untrained ear Yaseem to have difficult understand straight English too

I . .

. . Wouldnt say that

You’re going to complete my sentences?

I am   Aah am

                   You telegraph

Telegraph.

Better that than me knowing you too well . . Aah sweet mystery of life at last Ive found you Not  Mario Lanza don think he was knighted Arise Sir Lanza he acted out touching Marios shoulder with a sword Blew it might have had a pair

Sir Lancelot Sir Lanza  potent   

There you go, off on some ridiculous tangen . .

. . You know the song the Sirs

No.

Then tangentially tangently gently Ive made you awaremore informed less ignorant  despite our cumbersome abundance of ignorance

                           The more I learn the more ignorant I am

  

We’re off the beaten path.

We are

So what did you mean? Triespasses?

Slammed the words together like fusion not an accident Tries Passes  It takes several tries passes to hear and understand

Why didn’t you say that then?

I did

914,  Saturday,  12  3. 22

441preferred,  Saturday

E. S. T.  Definition of a Dog  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JEMEjoCPRQQ 

Mario Lanza  Ah, Sweet Mystery of Life  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rqpQ7aVTBv0

Jamaican Lila Ike

                   sings You gotti gotti but you ever wah wah

he followedhe didnt think it was necessary someone have an ear to hear her lyrics were selfexplanatory all someone had to do was let the song flowwash over them  listen the cadence becomes evident

                                                                                        NO it takes several triespasses to hear and understand but isnt that what conversation is argument is debate is

                                                                                    is patience is listening  is hearing

he shared Gotti Gotti whenever he could

Stop, STOP.  I’m not into reggae.

Why

I’m not; I’m just not.

I prefer doubleIPAs to wine therefore Im not into wine no effervescence not the IBU bitterness I enjoy the alpha acids I enjoy the hops humulus lupulus phonaesthetic euphonious I enjoy

                                                                   Mywhy

Whas your why not

Simply a why knot you cant untie or extricateextract sub-tract yourself from

                                                                                You understand youre taking time with me

Not that I want to nor am I enjoying.

                                     I don’t even know how you listen to it, we grew up listening to music, sharing it . . you didn’t listen to it then . .

. . Tastes develop Mebbe Ive taken deeper draughts continued to explore Rap  HipHop . .

. . Not me.

Evidently not you Too ba . .

. . I’m missing out you’re going to say.

Don need to do I   Goes without mesaying

Me saying . . ME  SAYING . is how you say it.

Say so say so  yasayso

We’re getting nowhere.

We arent but we got this far Congrats

      Jesus!

Had nothing to do with it

JESUS.

1131,  Thursday,  10  3. 22

1103,  Saturday,  12  3. 22

Lila Ike  Gotti Gotti  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fMGLak6wvWc