they suggested he could hear them sighmaybe they were bored he ought be his better

at their behest

at his best

             he was a beast 

Yareally don know whayer saying

she cleared her voice asif that was going to make a difference You can be better. 

he felt like he entered an archaic television commercial The best I can be he chuckled under his breath Yawant my best Ill give it to ya

             However I suspect youll be displeased  Its obvious youre unable to remedy this problem  Yare Leadership yashould be able to provide me what I deservecontinue to give me wha the company has given me the last ten years  Yare Leadership  it should be within your purview to deliver

                                                                But yare not  yamight run awaydefer to your superiors they tell you wha to dowhaya cant do and by the tone of your voice you arent going to push back stand on your hind legs  Youve no intention of standing in my shoes 

Yare a part of Leadership

                            Or is Leadership merely a titlea little more money in your pocket than a common frontline customercare representative earns

Yare even dragging your feet answering that question 

Awright  Submit a request  The transcript by your words will be available to you the latest in seventytwo hours  Todays Tuesday morning Friday morning call me  Seventytwo hours

I will. 

 

she didnt

talking with another Leadership individual nearly three weeks later they said Leadership wasnt free to share the transcript of his call with him 

                               It’s proprietary information, used internally or for training purposes only.

Proprietary has nothing to do with me regarding my own telephone call I was the other actor on the line I was sharing legitimate concerns No You cant share it with a different customer but my transcript can be shared with me

That is outside our practise.

Then bring it inside 

                     Anif you cant lets move it up to someone in hierarchy who can  The Masters of Leadership

I don’t know if I can.

Find out You have my telephone number Have somebody Oz call me Matt  Thank you for your time

 

any bets

UNKNOWN,  this century

1539,  Reggae Friday,  2  7. 21

  

once upon a time sounds like a fairy talehuh a black slave represented a 3/5s vote for their master

a man not sexually abused younger women or children was reduced to 3/5s a man

NOW 

       1/6   January 6   thats what majority white Republican House Representatives and Senators have willingly accepted themselves to be reduced to 

                                        they have defied their Constitutional oaths

must have crossed their fingers behind their backs as they lied when they vowed 

he came out of big shoulders rawknuckled Chicago theyd call that shit cowardly 

imagine the stinkthe decrepitness inside the Capitol afterwards

rather than custodial staff cleaning up after January 6 

                                                          Republicans ought to have cleaned up their mess

2357,  Thursday,  1  7. 21

 

You say Jeffrey

I say Allen

You say Epstein

I say Weisselberg

Jeffrey

Allen

Epstein

Weisselberg

odds are theyre both hung out to dry

1558,  Thursday,  1  7. 21

https://www.nytimes.com/2021/07/01/nyregion/allen-weisselberg-charged-trump-organization.html

https://www.cnbc.com/2019/08/16/jeffrey-epstein-hanged-himself-in-suicide-medical-examiner-rules.html

he learned something new every day  at least he tried   maniacally                                                                                                                                              butt

he thought he knew what a butt was

but he didnt  canya tell he was having some fun

a butt is two hogsheads

right whas a hogshead 

                          sixtythree Imperial gallons

right whas an Imperial gallon

an Imperial gallon is fourpointfivefive rounded up litres onepointtwo gallons compared to an American gallon 

                                                                                                                            gallon looked intriguing to him  Middle English  from Anglo-Norman French galon   pail  liquid measure  perhaps Celtic origin 

thereby a butt is onehunredtwentysix Imperial gallons

 

why did he learn this today

because History is a pip 

                          he read Shakespeare read the War of the Roses read that George Plantagenet Duke of Clarence was executed in Tower of London on his brothers King Edward IV orders 

a zesty private execution

George was drowned in a butt of malmsey

he knew what malmsey was

                               a fortified Madeira wine  made from boal grape that smells tastes like roasted coffee salted caramel bitter cacao dates and golden raisins

why would he know that

he worked part-time in a liquor store

he couldnt work full-time if he wanted

he had things to learn

UNKNOWN,  this century

1234,  Thursday,  1  7. 21

https://www.thedrinksbusiness.com/2016/02/on-this-day-1478death-by-malmsey/  https://windsbird.com/2013/07/24/george-duke-of-clarence-drowned-in-malmsey-wine-fact-and-fiction/ 

 

he wanted to try something differentmebbe not so different

maybe something old something new something borrowed something blue

                                                                             not too shabby  he wasnt a bride not-to-be 

thats a treatment for traditional brides not-to-be

he wondered wha they were all over now 

                                           wha had come downNOW  to defy tradition 

he had no clue  

actually trying this something different was something he tried years ago had almost forgothad almost sift awaycrushed beneath the tonnage of his memory but haphazardly he remembered usually did he was coerced by the man who accidentally shot his bride in the headhis wife Burroughs  William S Burroughs

                                                                                                it wasnt traditional to play William Tell at parties Burroughs may have confessed that into a dark mirror in Mexico after he fled the country it might have been better had he plugged his son in the forehead but he didnt have one he wouldnt have one queers then didnt have sons or daughters William fucked other peoples boys

                                                       ahC’est la vie  or did he mean Voulez-vous coucher avec moi ce soir he confused the two often which was which always was sloppy crossing the two and at his pronouncement he got strange looks which was when he knew he was wrong again

Thats life Do you wanna sleep with me tonight  negligible difference from where he stood

so following Billys lead had he met him he would have called him Billy he played cut-ups

usually its played with a book or books randomly opened eye dropped on a page then writing down words or the phrase or the sentence beneath it  

he played tonight although dropped in on his WORDs Recent Documents 

                                                                             wrote down their titles

was a little spooky

they made sense 

this isnt stupid

petered out

ya went through with it didntya

wha would ya say

he couldnt imagine housefly was tasty

man thats quite an admission

running children lamenters

I disagree

SCABS

she looked at himgave him the stink eye

soulmates got a TicTac

Wow he shook his head

things come in threes

frugal

touchstone

Its been an odd couple of days

iCloud

IQ EQ

it was a cosmic setup

tell me whaya know about me 

                                Go ahead tell me whaya know about me

Tell me something I don know 

Yawanna know whayer problem is?

Sure Enlighten me 

                      turning on a hot spotlight things unseen scurry to the shadows 

Hey ya donwanna see em  Noyadon   Im tellin ya yadon 

                                                             Ya only think ya do

Once yasee 

            youll be unable to forget

Im not tellin ya something yadon know 

We have lingering memories 

1211 or 0011,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  30  6. 21

1206,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  30  6. 21

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RQa7SvVCdZk

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VCLxJd1d84s

 

This isnt stupid

Ohno, it’s stupid, and trying to defend it is even more stupid.

You took my words out of context which reminds me aligns you with your Republican siblings  Goin to the dark side                        

that cut him to the quick 

                         he saw anger flash on his cheekshis eyes go paleblue to hot piercing electricblue 

good 

      got him in the chops at a primal level he knew that hurt that it angeredenraged him he worked him into a corner right where he wanted him

                             Yalistenin now  listenin  Listenin to the context of what I said annot cherry pickin

he continued to radiate

                         although he was smart to hold his tongue

radiant knew him not to have much of a fuse

nearly combustible at a touch 

                                Son his parents told him you have to learn to control yourself, if you don’t, you’re heading down a long, ugly road.

Wont be ugly if I come out on top 

ah nothings perfect 

                      he came out uglycould have been uglier suffered far fewer loses than he thought he might                           

scars are evidence of character 

                                 he had character in abundance 

Ya ready to hear me out

radiantboy continued glowing

he tossed a wet blanket on him to take him down a notch or two

                                                                   Im gonna repeat wha I told you why I didnt turn the fan on it had nothing to do with stupid or your want that I should suffer one of your senior moments be forgetful lose my place my train of thought an the only reason Im gonna exhaust my patience explaining again  is so I don punch ya in the mouth an ruin our friendship  It just a shot away Stones 

his expression didnt change 

Can you hear me

                   Can you hear me through the blood in your ears 

I . . I . can hear you.

Areya listenin to me to my words

I  can  hear  you.

Not good enough 

                  Lemme know when ya come down enough to listen Yaknow better than push an issue with me

radiants anger hung around 

                              he didnt like debating his family they were religious they were red Republicans they were mighty white and fortunately entitled they were older and sure they knew everything better than he 

                                                                                                          dropped him like a white sugarcube into their hot tea or whatever brew they imbibed  they truly offended him

he was familiar with like offensesthe tyranny of family 

                                                          but he meant to offend him

bring him back to earth

 

the colour seemed to be leaching

Can you hear me

he didnt say he nodded his head

Awright I apologise I offended you

                                     It was my shorthand to bring you around to hearing me out and remind youas you knew because I said prior why I didnt turn the fan on when I went to bed to help alleviate the heat

You remember

I was teasing you.

Stop You were no more teasing me than I teased you But ya didnt like it  No ya didnt

No. That was apparent.

Goes without saying 

                     I told you earlier that night I had been writingworking a piece hardbeen shuffling parts around editing finding the right words so it would strike home when it was read  an because it wasnt coming together I thought I might be tired  I turned off the computer and went to bed thinking maybe Id sleep on it Laying in bed it was hot I seemed slightly aware of it Ill give you that however I was more aware of the piece and unable to turn it off

Working it with my eyes closedseeing the script rereading it parsing it I saw something I hadnt before

So I got up out of bed an went back to the computer Id been down about an hour     

I went back to bed two hours later

I stitched it up achieved what alluded me An with that off my shouldersout of my head I realised the house was hot 

Returning to bed I turned on the fan over my bed  

It wasnt that I forgot it was there or I wasas you insisted stupid  rather I was preoccupied and focused an in that space its hard for anything external to penetrate me or I can relate to

Thats a fate Im doomed to have having been raised in a house of twelve Ya learn to turn things off in your head

Its a matter of selfsurvival

Not stupid

Follow

1548,  Twosday,  22  6. 21

1121,  Twosday,  29 6. 21

Boards of Canada  Nlogax  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9vHEtin2qsM 

Stones  Gimme Shelter  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QeglgSWKSIY

  

What would you say; what would you recommend?

he didnt saydidnt recommend unless he was tryin to get into someones pantsBE IT KNOWN  thatthat someone would be a woman  he was heterosexual with extreme prejudice which didnt or shouldnt suggest he didnt appreciate or approve of sexualities that were equally as potent as his own 

I cant say

           I know wha works for me therefore I would say find wha works for you Theres truly no worksarounds Try try an try again  Sooner or later tried and true will become apparent 

                                                                        Try not to submit to frustration Take a breath  Take a break Then get after it again

Thereya have it for what its worth

he found that his imagination didnt stop at the waters edge it was amphibious it perched where there were no perches and that was too attractive to resistCOME ALONG THEN 

                                                           not that he needed to invite it the invitation was strictly for himselffor his piece of mind his sanityinsanity in these moments he perched where there was no perches either  they were tacky like him  3M adhesive products  which were failures that they found purposes forcreated niche markets developed applications adapted  Necessity is the Mother of Invention  they created artificial necessities

his necessity was hardwired 

                              be that as it may he refused to worry  Worry was antithetical 

    

1634,  SunnyDay,  27  6. 21

1150,  Monday,  28  6. 21

Velvet Underground  I’m Sticking With You https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H5je_eK0V1w

 

Ya went through with it didntya

I did. I’m telling you, man, those sites are unrelenting, they constantly pepper you, appear on your phone . . 

. . They appear because yadid something to tip em

I don’t know what I did, if I did.

Yadid Your smartphones surveilling ya 

                                           In a word algorithms  he sang Teach your children well . . 

Well I’ll tell you, I can’t wait until you finally get yours.

Ill disable the fuck out of it Its a matter of choice

You’ll get hooked, it’s so convenient.

Do you realise how often you tell me somethings convenient

                                                               Convenience aint all its cracked up to be But were getting off point

Ya went through with it

I did, I did.

And opportunities have begun to present

They have, they have, currently halfdozen, ten.

I donwanna know 

                    Although I will admit a curiosity regarding your application Were ya allowed to write a statement an introductiondeclaration or was it a matter of submitting to an array of multiple choice questions he sang Getting to know you . .

Multiple choice, multiple sections, one dating site provided four descriptors to define myself.  

Submit your definition

Don’t say it like that.

You submitted correct

Not in the way that you mean.

Exactly in the way I mean 

                            Lets not quibble . . 

. . No, let’s not, you got the last word in.

Quibble

Not in the way that you mean. 

Ya feel better

No, not really; I can’t efface or offset your interpretation.

Yer correct ya cant 

                     Going forth my curiosity

Yes?

  Donsay it like that Ya sound defeatedthis could be the beginning of the rest of your life  I ought work for them

The descriptors four choices from how many

Probably twenty, twentyfive.

Religionreligious descriptors I might assume there was more than one Gawd works in mysterious ways

Can’t you stop, stop being ludicrous.

Im ludicrous awright 

                       Forward  They offer irreligious

Irreligious? That would have been nic . .

. . See how nice I am

A real sweetheart.

Thank you If not irreligiouswha

I don’t remember now, however I steered wide of atheist.

Because ninety percent of America believes in somethinghas faith

Yes, I agree.

Ah somewhat a conundrum  The best they offered you was atheistwasnt it

Yes. 

     I didn’t select it.

Ya lied

I sought an ambivalent repl . . 

. . Which was 

I don’t remember now.

Donremember 

               Why not atheist

Because I know you know; you always got to push my buttons?

Never fails by now you should able to admit you don know wha I know Ya don

                                                                                        So why not atheist

Because a majority of Americans hold an atheist in the realm of a pedophile, possibly interchangeable.

he nearly deafened himself with his laughter 

                                                    gathering himself No kiddin Once again yare wrong I didnt know that

It’s not funny, you shouldn’t laugh.

Atheist paedophile coin toss  Thats choice

Listen, man, you got to get along.

Ya gotta get along 

                    Im long gone  Left the zipcode  

1532,  Reggae Friday,  25  6. 21

1454,  SunnyDay,  27  6. 21

C,S, N & Y  Teach Your Children Well  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EkaKwXddT_I

Bing Crosby  Getting to Know You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i1LNc0RRhnw

 

Are you really going there?

of course he was going there

it was his Achilles heel 

                         for the time being

he might complain to him it was too soon however he was understanding throughout he listened when asked he offered insights 

                 he was there steadfast for him as his divorce evolved he remained unsparing observant honest

didnt pull his punches 

so he protests 

              but thats a deflection briefly sidestepping the harsh reality of the choices he made he didnt have his ear to the groundcould have been more objective 

                                             he got what he wanted 

Really?

I’m only repeating your words, you ought to listen to yourself when you speak, or . . stop, think . then speak.

You are unsparing.

One of my best, indelible traits, and I say that because I’m also unsparing with myself; it’s nice to have company.

You’re funny.

Thanks, black humour, my favourite; you were saying . .

I was saying that my Ex turned out to be an expensive . .

Say it. I’ve already said it for you, pretend you’re quoting me, may be less painful.

She was an expensive fuck.

She was. 

           Eight years of your life . . at threehunred days is twothousandfourhunred days and eight years at sixty is fourhunredeighty or twothousandeighthunredeighty and eight years at five days is forty is twothousandninehunredtwenty, toss in two for Leap Years, twothousandninehunredtwentytwo days; but who’s counting?

           How many times ya get laid?

It started out hot and heavy.

Yah? 

      What happened?

I don’t know . . it just petered out. 

You didn’t think before you opened your mouth, did you?

1525,  Reggae Friday,  25  6. 21

1316,  SunnyDay,  27  6. 21

 

some people claim they adore watching children run so freeso gay

                                                                       they dont  they are lamenters

what they adore is the memory of themselves as children running 

                                                                     I ran here I ran there I ran everywhere

she did too

she remembers it readily 

                          although she doesnt remember why she ran  she just did 

she was having a fancy latte treating herself 

                                               she assumed she ducked a bullet she was supposed to be having coffee with a match from an on-line dating service but he was ten minutes late 

                                                                            if he showed up now and stupidly dared to approach her she tell him to go to hell she was punctual she expected punctuality out of a prospective date

actually she was itching for him to show so she could tell him to go to hell 

nevertheless she enjoyed her medium latte in a bowl two hazelnut shots an additional espresso shot 

she flipped casually through her smartphone not looking for shit from him looking up occasionally she saw children running in the park across from the coffeeshop where she sat and mused

thats when it occurred to her 

                              she saw a little boy break a handhold with his big sister she assumed they looked like siblings and he began running she groped for himmissing his arm then ran after him

the little boy ran and ran and ran 

he swerved a couplethree times as his sister closed on him avoiding her grasp

finally catching up on his heels she gave him a chuck in the back and he went down headlong on his hands and knees  

a big head is a disadvantage that small children do not recognise 

                                                                    they have to go where it goes

he rolled onto his backhe wasnt crying

she grabbed him by his forearm and pulled him to his feet then began towing him back to where his mother sat on a blanket in the shade of a huge tree with either her sister a relative friend or lover

they were terribly engrossed with their conversation

the little boy was obviously his big sisters ward 

                                                 he was her responsibility

it occurred to her

small children run

they run because the fight or flight response does not apply to them

they are too small to fight

therefore reasonably they can only flee

                                             only run

1426,  Reggae Friday,  25  6. 21

1610,  Saturday,  26  6. 21

he couldnt say where this came from

                                       when yahawk a loogie it wasnt like the loogie had been knockin around for days SUDDENLYan suddenly this pressed on him  needed to be expectorated  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6CL8ASLVWPk  a throat full of Vanilla Fudge  thatd do it  he wasnt keen on vanilla 

he couldnt imagine housefly was tasty  yet the phalanx of pussycats he fended for prowled the screen doorpouncing like panthers and convincing him to consider otherwise

he hadnt tossed back a handful of torpid insensate flieswhad he know

                                                                           they eyed himDon knock it until youve tried it  he hadnt walked a mile in their moccasins

                                             he didnt know any Indians either      

the kitkats kept flies inside to a happy medium

which saved him spools of tawdry flypaperwhich saved him picking clean their guts from his flyswatter

both appealing to him 

he kept thinkingtried believing that the neighbourhood would rebound

                                                                          it had been a good working class neighbourhood  people got along  mothers had eyes in the backs of their heads  paperboys delivered or hawked the news  kids went to school to learn and if they crossed a teacher they crossed the principal which meant they crossed their parentscrossed their grandparents of whom many were born in other countries

                                                                  they were colorblind  but those who looked in saw otherwise  they struggled with broken English and learned to understand each other  but those who listened in didnt like what they heard 

it takes patience to learn to see and hear

                                           and without it those outside determined that they werent much better than muttsbelieved them weaklings  and with what they thought they knew  compassion dictated it would have been better had the mutts been strangled or drowned when they were young

                                                                     Somebody took their eye off the ball

now all they could do was assure themselves that the mutts didnt prosperthat they kept to themselves  theyd leave them in their ghettos 

        iron heels werent overseas

                                      they clunked around Washington clunked around the Statue of Liberty clunked aroundrallied around the Flag

they were born herethey didnt originate here

they werentwhy would they going to let loose of the throttle 

they werent sharing good fortune

 

compassion dictatesdictates

                             he supposed that was all he needed to know about them  and that throttle and fortune would have to forcibly be taken out of their hands 

they unfortunately saw and heard and understood that life is zero-sum

1841,  SunnyDay,  27  6. 21

0948,  Monday,  28  6. 21

Bee Gees  Lonely Days  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wa2_CL-2ZI4

War  The World is a Ghetto  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VIIbT89V7EI