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briefly define masculine




he was called impervious by a delectable minx



however he rest his laurels on

      he was good to his word  if he found fault in his argument he evolved

     
     his books(the art books threw some – he made a habit of acquiring the catalog of art exhibits he attended)

      his liquor cabinet   sans liqueur except for Drambuie(a habit his father incited without knowing he did)

      his cigar box stuffed with Cubans a friend acquired while on a trip 

      his eclectic collection of vinyl and 78s

      his body -- 200 pounds -- maintained on swimming weightlifting and eating well and what he wanted


though intrinsically and not seen by many

      the toilet seat was up

      rocks plucked from the Bitterroot River by his girlfriend lay in his lavatory sink breaking the smooth line of its bowl

      the black book at his bedstead thought to be The Bible at first blush(No  he didnt believe in God) it was his Bible a treasured First Edition of Joyces Finnegans Wake

      the silver steam simmering up out the top of his cheap Proctor Silex coffeemaker  his daughters tried to present him with an expensive coffee maker but he declined observing that theirs never exhaled



he hung his maleness on these things


      however one could also observe at first inkling outside his bungalow  –  a 300,000 mile 4Runner parked under a lean-to and around in the backyard a Weber kettle barbecue




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1357,  Sunday,  20  11. 16



did he saydid he bite his tongue spurn himself so he did not to say

  No 
     he was terribly too honesthe said what was true for him

he did not worry himself of its fallout its ramifications because he knew the first lie he uttered hed have to maintain  

hed have to water and grow it

a seedling taking root

throwing a taproot down deep and dark and deeper growing like a weed


a lie is a weed
                 a weed that branches out and wraps its way around like an ivy or wisteria
its stem thickening

it purchases and does not relent

nor should it

you planted it


it metastasises on the horseshitfertiliser you mouthed

it does not go away

it takes on a life of its own
                                which you allowed

you can look no furthur than yourself

for blame

for fault


for absolution

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