20.9.15

lionesses



coming in out of the white sunlight into the deep shade cast by the houses veranda
he paused for a moment
                          trying to ascertain what it was that he saw crouched to the right of the twin whitewashed screen doors

it would take longer than a moment

he stood fast

whatever it was stood fast in the throbbing blinders his eyes fixed it in


when the white particles fell away in a lazy striptease he recognised his stoic nemesis

a huge bright orange cat

if he didnt know any better he would have said it was illuminated from within

keen crystal green eyes 


it seemed a guardian 
                       a fierce soul squatting on its haunches agilely prepared to hurtle itself headlong into whatever it may

it tolerated him



--   Whats with him

--   Her
--   Hard to tell

Felines  hard to sex while they sit
Shes luxuriant though

--   Shes my girl

--   Girl
Lioness is more apt

--   Youre really something else   Intuitive

Her name is Lioness


Lioness turned her head at the pronouncement of her name


--   Befitting


Youve fed her

She looks like she wants to eat me

--   Its dinnertime

--   So   Im the sacrificial goat

--   Perhaps
If theres anything left after Ive had you


an image of Lioness pawing through his bones snapping them for their marrow was appealing
erotically


What are you thinking

--   Theres enough of me to share 

No matter how ravenous you are

--   You dont know me well enough to think therell be anything left but scraps


--   She doesnt look as if shed be happy with scraps

--   No  but theres lots of children in the neighborhood

She wont go hungry

--   No  She doesnt look like shes ever gone hungry

--   She hasnt

She was the only one of her litter and I think no I dont I believe she ate her siblings in the womb 

Ive never seen a bigger newborn kitten
She nearly killed her mother at birth

It was a reprieve

She killed her later



her green eyes watched him but he was gallant and too intent on her mistress                

if he was going to be between a rock and a hard place he was going to pay attention to the rock

she was formed perfectly
                                           carved and shaped sinuously by an ancient river
a goddess body


--   Are you suggesting implying  Im receiving a reprieve

--   Lioness is funny  and wise

I trust her decisions

--   Decisions

And if she goes after me
--   As I said

Shell have to wait her turn



he didnt ponder it long

he smiled
--   I like your taste





1716,  Monday,  10  8. 15
2150,  Monday,  10  8. 15
(Sunday to Monday dream image of a cat)

19.9.15



Aw my gawd

                       to a teacher
they were fat



fat  complacent          
        fat  compliant
                fat  corpuscular cows

if there were another way of saying it he would have
 
but they left him no choice

they jiggled at the lead of their classes at the junior high winding their ways through chain-link fenced aisles
on crumbling tarmac walks  standing at street centers  Obviously  their students crossing from one corner to the other
under their watchful eyes

he wondered at what age a child was allowed to cross a street unaided
                                                                                                                      junior high was what age
he reckoned on average twelve and thirteen  seventh eighth graders

he was babysitting babies and tots at nine
 
but he supposed that wasnt crossing a public street in front of the grills of lethal weapons



fat

I may regret that terminology  he thought  May



though what he seen of this little Conservative hamlet

fat  was its default

if you werent it seemed you had to apologise for it
                                                                                    Yes  I know  Im working on it


trim and attractive was suspect

you couldnt possibly be happy or content


it wasnt up for debate


their ideal was to fit in
not stand out



he pulled his clandestine baggy-fitting hoodie up over his head to hide his missing chins 

lowered his eyes back into the book spread-open in his hands
 
and tried to concentrate on what he read as he walked

but was distracted by images of these children

growing fatter more lethargic and uninspired



their molds were going to be hard to break





1019,  Twosday,  8  9. 15
 0901,  Day Between-Two-Ts,  9  9. 15