29.7.15

Viktoria



Viktoria walked up behind our conversation  went around  and took a stool facing us

then with her lips nearly to her cold frothy pint she asked  So whats the hubbub bubs

All the ‘16 Republican presidential candidates  I replied

her abrupt laughter jetting through her nose and mouth blew foam into our faces
Ohsorry  Sorry    Oh so sorry
and wiping a bubbly splash of her Imperial IPA from her nose and upper lip  her chin  with the back of her wrist and sleeve of her bluejean shirt
Candidates

my grrlfriend a good foot taller than Viktoria said Yes  It sounds theres seventeen I think separate candidacies

Candidates
Come on you two  youre sharper than that

These arent called candidacies
Theyre candid indecencies
but if you say it fast enough and people arent listen which they dont  at least not beyond the breadth of a soundbite theyll come up some latter day and bite them in the ass
I voted for that chuckleheadthat eidget What the fuck was I thinking

Candid indecencies

laughing I said You come up with that all on your own Vik

laughing she replied No You talk in your sleep You keep us grrls up after weve finished you put you away and are trying to grab some shuteye after we finish each other off                 

Really Viktoria
I thought the deal was when you two go into a clinch and Im asleep youll wake me up so I can watch

Aw such a disgruntled baby my grrlfriend said as she gently patted my cheek We would  but you need your beauty sleep

Great  Everyones a fuckin comedian

Viktoria finished a long pull at her beer  setting her glass down she said through her patent wicked smile Comedians for candid indecencies


Well grrls  I suppose that puts the next round on me

Yes they laughed then nearly in concert Right out of the Script as written
You know were all about you




afternoon,  Saturday,  25  7. 15
0047,  Sunday,  26  7. 15

28.7.15



--   Hey  its all fiction

--   Yah
Until someone gets hurt



he had a way of taking him in   taking his curt remarks                                                                                                             
a disturbing look
out the side of his face
--   Sure   Used to run with a pencil in your hand
didnt you

--   Got wherever I was going quicker

But we think alike 
otherwise this relationship wouldnt work   if we didnt   we couldnt tolerate each other


Ya think life ought to be like a comedy club
if youre going to be offend
                                          you shouldnt have come in
                                                                  
Stay out



--   We might wanna take some time apart  grow strange  you know me a little too well

--   Hard not to
Its like looking in a mirror

Undressing Alice on the other side

--   Undressing Alice

--   Dont sweat  you aint Alice

Deconstructing Alice  shes through the glass  making it up as she goes along
Ill say Im watching  you seem uncomfortable with the premise

Im watching

Shes my litmus paper  my fragile canary in a cage  and from what Ive seen shes a survivor

--   Its a childrens story

--   Were all children
only older

And all of us craft our fictions  seem obliged  so we can tolerate our realities

Reality is usually bland

so we spice it




--   Dont know what to say

--   Unsaid  is often best
                                             
Silence can talk



--



-- 



 

1519,  Twosday,  28  7. 15

27.7.15

Kepler-452b & 10 per cent

It was a beautiful July afternoon 

a kind of afternoon you didnt want to let go of or let pass you by without dancing in it


he didnt dance

but he wouldnt mind walking


she gave him an elbow in the ribs
--   You dance

--   Occasionally with music  with the right incentive(he oogled her and smiled)   and the right amount of liquor

--   Thats not true you . . .

--   Stop  he interrupted  It is true    if youd think about it
Just   please        think about it

--   I dont think youre being fair to yourself

--   I am
Worse   Im being true  to myself

--   Youre a hard sell

--   The hardest


so taking advantage of the day that wanted them to they walked down to the redwoods on the mall before the city hall and crossed the towns main artery to a local brewery beside a ravine and its creek thirsty for rain

coming from below they could hear wood limbs cracking   pitch splitting thin branches
triage

it made them that much more thirsty


they entered the pubs air-conditioned clime and ordered a couple of Imperial IPAs  then grabbed a bowl of pretzels
and fled outofdoors
                                                                                                 
she was keeping her phone near to finalise some plans with her brother for his visit from out of state  and since theyd entered the time slot he told her hed likely be free to talk  she smiled huge and tapped at its keys  utilising the wifi
and casually  very casually  mentioned to him NASAs discovery of a planet  perhaps  in deep space  it was being touted as Earths doppelganger
--   Kepler-452b *  she said

--   What                                                
I havent heard of it

How do you know this stuff

--   You know me  Im the geek of this crewe
Im always following space news  You know how much I love space

--   I do  though Id prefer you ran with freak  rather than a geek
You know we have chickens in the neighborhood

Dont wanna upset the neighbors


he tried always to appreciate what a good thing he had in her  this wasnt the first time she caught him flatfooted and utterly clueless

or maybe he was trying desperately to hang onto his laurels  

at the beginning of their walk he mentioned to her a Truman quote he read in Flags of Our Fathers  --  they naturally seemed to take turns informing the other  --  which he read while she briefly touched up her face 
  
                                                                                              The only thing new in the world is the history you dont know 

though he could suppose she confirmed Truman exactly with her Kepler news

maybe let him enjoy  a little bit longer  the taste of his passing glory

then bitterly shelled him out of existence



after Kepler-452b
 
                           he committed it to memory

she might forget the numbers in a couple days  she wasnt particularly good with figures
and since he discovered 36-24-36 
he was spectacular with figures
and if she did forget he would be able to sweep in like a heroic white knight on a steed and save his damsel from distress(hmm  maybe he had a draumatic flair after all)

                                                             they talked about dinner preparations

he was the prep cook to her witch
she managed the nuances of herbs and spices and eyes of newt
unless it was barbecue
he was just a grateful satiated cog in the machinery of eating


they were walking back home when her brothers call came in

she told him to remember where they were in their conversation so when she got off the phone they could pick it back up
--   Its interesting  she said
                                                                                                           
before she answered he told her
--   Our conversations are always interesting  but the IPA is ten per cent alcohol

she didnt hear him



the wahwahwahwahwah began  the wind killing most of her brothers words beyond her ear at the phone while it was on speaker

--   Im sorry  she said  its hard to hear you  Were walking

Excuse me

Why are we walking
Why


Were walking because its an absolutely beautiful July afternoon

No 

Excuse me



No  We wouldnt take the car



Not far at all  a couple of miles

In one direction
A couple of miles


Youre funny  Were not crazy  Have you been out today   outside


Thats the temperature here

Thats not hot   No


No   Were not running the air-conditioner at the house

she momentarily took the phone from her head and said  He thinks were nuts to be out walking

--   Well  he lives in the city
she didnt hear him again

she had returned to the telephone call to help iron out the details of his upcoming trip



walking   the IPA colored afternoon only improved


                                                              
earlier the moon showed in the soft blue sky  approaching three-quarters  a pale silver egg

and as they walked to the pub they talked

they wondered if perhaps the moon was in profile to earth  or if she looked at them head on  directly

if NASA might secretly have placed a space station on the dark side of the moon as a military requisite for black-ops through the remaining century

if homophobes Wall Street whores and other entitleds  otherwise known as Republican candidates for Prez  indecently knew they were psychopaths

if there was such a thing  
                                         as someone authentically inauthentic



wrestling with their earlier conversations on the way over       

then her brothers phone call coming in

he was going to have to either make something up as a continuum of where they left off
she was sharper than that   maybe
or he was going to have to admit he didnt remember what they were talking about

or  maybe  shed remember where they left off  despite the 10 per cent IPAs


because it sounded  walking beside her  things were finalised and she was preparing to get off


What to do  What to do
of course he knew what to do


--   I love you too
Ill see you soon

God I hate talking on the telephone

--   I hear ya

--   Now where were we

--   Yaknow
Ya left me alone all by myself and I went pinball machine

Im sorry  I dont remember what we were talking about

Do you



--   No



As I hung on the telephone  delaying to say goodbye  I had no idea what we were talking about



--   So then  that said  we each could have made something up  lied  and the other would have bought into it lock stock and barrel 
 
What does that say about us

--   Probably  that we could be liars  but prefer to be honest


--   Yaknow  I love your mind almost as much as I love your breasts

2323,  Sunday,  26  7. 15
1510,  Monday,  27  7. 15