Dis

they discussed all manners of dis their relationship had suffered at the hands of 

perfect strangers

which they found unconscionable

as they tried very hard not to prefer judgment on anyone

                                                                                dised   at the hands of his own family

while her family  seeeemed

alright with her in their relationship

she was demonstrably happy

and also  very likely

because they were remote to her life lived apart and had for a considerable time

which furthur didnt bode well for his family as his daughters were well into their own

lives

and frankly because hed raised them to be wide-eyed and unprejudiced 

 

he hadnt a clue how that snake came up and bit him on the ass

anyways

somewhere during their conversation driving back home on a rural route through the hills

from an afternoon at the ocean she mentioned a goddess  --  did he remember her 

saying so  --  who appeared to her came to her  as she meditated

who she chased away

 

--   You chased a goddess away

--   I am sorry to say I believe I did

You dont recall me saying so

--   I dont

--   Appearing as she did  she frightened me

I thought her something other than a goddess

And only now

do I think I was wrong

I think I made a mistake

--   Lemme get this straight

You dised a goddis

she rolled her eyes

--   Youre so clever

--   No  Im not

Id just prefer you admit it so if she returns and hurls a lightning bolt Im not among 

your collateral damage

--   Goddis  You dont think you earned collateral damage status

--   Good point  good point

if youre a humorless driedup goddess

though

I wouldnt think that gods or goddesses arent inclined to despise one for being clever

Arent they usually attended by fools at their feet

--   Theyre gods and goddesses  You think they care about your niggling  what you think

  

--   In a more perfect world they would

And they could make it more perfect  step into the fray

give me a pass

 

Is all Im saying

You dised a goddess 

--   I cant believe were having this conversation

Nobody talks like this who talks like this 

--   People who dont believe in God and are trying to avoid divine retribution

Were just hedging our bets babe hedging our bets

2238,  Friday,  3  10. 14

Faulkner spilt his whisky again

and watched it run

and then slow to a roll on the bare wood table top

--   Interestin

Ya saw didya

When it saw ya 

it slowed up

Musta been da way ya was lookin at it

Ahm lookin atcha now an ifin ah coud gitup an run away ah wod

--   Yer drunk an crossedeyed Bill 

Whaya talkin bout

--   Ahm sayin  ah wodnt go ner ya either

Is all

Ahm sayin

--   Ya remember writin in Light in August “He was not old enough to talk and say 

nothing at the same time”

 

--   Ah do not

--   Nah

--   Nah  Nahatall

--   Ya did

Yall hafta tak my word fer it

--   Nah  Ya frighten whisky  Ah cant  Ah believe whisky

2142,  Friday, 3  10. 14   

Ah  the stuff he found himself revealing in letters to his mother and father


his prudent parents
                                  but perhaps a World War fashions one prudently  they were 
combatants as everyone is a combatant who suffered a war effort

the Worlds societal fabric was ravaged
but to their credit
they sought to mend the rag rather than ditch it


neither of his parents were keen on the Internet
though they were informed by their youngest grandchildren
who  in his estimation  lacked even the minimal two brain cells to rub together 
                               
and maybe their imbecility was encouraged by his parents who encouraged their 
youngest children to go forth and multiple
because his younger siblings  Werent all that
though as the eldest
he compared his upbringing to their fundamental lack of parental upbringing
he could suppose eight kids were a bit too much to bite off and chew
and understandably
obviously
               his parents were exhausted 
 
he had two children and they exhausted him
but they couldnt beat him down
he had them young and the resilience of his youth was what went lacking in his parents
regarding his youngest siblings

he could see it
but he didnt live in-State
they were glimpses during visits
and while his parents were due his respect
they did raise him
casting a critical eye
his remarks   even softpeddled   werent appreciated

one can easily suppose no parent ever wants to hear remarks critical of their children
  
and of course they would
they reminded him he wasnt a bowl of cherries either
 
--   Yah  I wasnt
But at least I was aware I was a pain in the ass  I was readily cognizant of my actions
and likely what was in store for taking them
Are they of theirs

--

--   Theyre . . . almost . . Christ . fuckin idiots

Yah
that wasnt going anywhere
a lead balloon and he knew it
whenever he pulled out the fuck card their expressions went blank

as educated as he was why was he so crude

his parents had only to turn or look over their shoulders at his siblings faces and they would
have seen that they got exactly what he was saying

crude understands crude

thats what his education had taught him

                
he had written them “You really ought to give the Internet a try. It’s financial-feasible
now. At the touch of a key a virtual encyclopedia or news source pops up before your eyes,
is at the tip of your fingers . . You’re still both very curious. That where I get it. You’re still
reading newspapers ..  To be sure, it has its Shit  .. but then we have always been 
tethered and having to defray the Shit tossed in our way . . that’s why God made trees . ..
so we can scrape the Shit off our soles (or is that . . souls?)”



ah  sometimes he argued just to hear himself talk

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