Ah  the stuff he found himself revealing in letters to his mother and father


his prudent parents
                                  but perhaps a World War fashions one prudently  they were 
combatants as everyone is a combatant who suffered a war effort

the Worlds societal fabric was ravaged
but to their credit
they sought to mend the rag rather than ditch it


neither of his parents were keen on the Internet
though they were informed by their youngest grandchildren
who  in his estimation  lacked even the minimal two brain cells to rub together 
                               
and maybe their imbecility was encouraged by his parents who encouraged their 
youngest children to go forth and multiple
because his younger siblings  Werent all that
though as the eldest
he compared his upbringing to their fundamental lack of parental upbringing
he could suppose eight kids were a bit too much to bite off and chew
and understandably
obviously
               his parents were exhausted 
 
he had two children and they exhausted him
but they couldnt beat him down
he had them young and the resilience of his youth was what went lacking in his parents
regarding his youngest siblings

he could see it
but he didnt live in-State
they were glimpses during visits
and while his parents were due his respect
they did raise him
casting a critical eye
his remarks   even softpeddled   werent appreciated

one can easily suppose no parent ever wants to hear remarks critical of their children
  
and of course they would
they reminded him he wasnt a bowl of cherries either
 
--   Yah  I wasnt
But at least I was aware I was a pain in the ass  I was readily cognizant of my actions
and likely what was in store for taking them
Are they of theirs

--

--   Theyre . . . almost . . Christ . fuckin idiots

Yah
that wasnt going anywhere
a lead balloon and he knew it
whenever he pulled out the fuck card their expressions went blank

as educated as he was why was he so crude

his parents had only to turn or look over their shoulders at his siblings faces and they would
have seen that they got exactly what he was saying

crude understands crude

thats what his education had taught him

                
he had written them “You really ought to give the Internet a try. It’s financial-feasible
now. At the touch of a key a virtual encyclopedia or news source pops up before your eyes,
is at the tip of your fingers . . You’re still both very curious. That where I get it. You’re still
reading newspapers ..  To be sure, it has its Shit  .. but then we have always been 
tethered and having to defray the Shit tossed in our way . . that’s why God made trees . ..
so we can scrape the Shit off our soles (or is that . . souls?)”



ah  sometimes he argued just to hear himself talk

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