love redux ?

all i ever wanted

was to keep you in sight   incited

i wanted

but that wasnt a good reason for you

was it

what i wanted wasnt what you wanted and what you wanted is what i said i wanted

for you

when did i slip off the track

onto that short ugly siding

sliding badly

blind

thats not what i wanted

for you

not what i wanted for you sounds like a miserable excuse

though i could probably fashion worse

to get out from under all the lies ive told you

to keep you

for me

to keep you for me  sounds horrible

i didnt mean it horribly

i suppose no one in love ever means it horribly

but it is 

and in love  

is just a miserable excuse

there isnt a reason on the planet love can invoke

to wash blood off its hands  

but lovers try to convince themselves there is  

and there are scores and scores

trying to tilt the playing field to their advantage

how does advantage work 

in a loving relationship                                                                             

for you

for me for you

or for me

 0054,  Saturday, 21  9. 13