24.7.25


“. . . essay proves rebarbatively resistant to his usual emphatic approach.”
                                                                                 Jo Catling  translator

rebarbatively  rebarbative

                                   Anybody

certainly not himhe tried to deconstruct it  got hungup on barb
                                                                   a barb isnt a good encounter
hed take it that the word was unemphaticCOWARD
                                                          Look it up
he disliked with extreme prejudice that he goaded himself

but no one could goad him like he could
                                               thats
a good attribute  good practise

it came down from his parents
                                 Know your worth. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. Catch hell?  You catch it from yourself be . . your own worst critic.

their words have served him well


rebarbative

unattractive

objectionable

learn something new every day
                                   now
would he remember

    if he didnt
                   rebarbative

 
not seven pages later WG Sebalds collection of essays Silent Catastrophes Catling quotes Sebald  How much home does a person need?
                                    spoke to him

as a boy he told his parents  When I growup Im not living here

two long years after graduating high school he flew the proverbial coop
                                                                            coop  he reminded them
. . . is an enclosure made of wire metal bars where birds animals are kept


they were all there his parents his seven siblings when he backed down the mealy remains of the driveway he would later return for the week it took to tearup by hand and sod

there were tears in everyones eyes

his tears were for his siblings because he knew they would never leave

                                                                               they made their lives there

    his goading wore spurs

afternoon Saturday,  19  7. 25
1233,  Thursday,  24  7. 25

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