Bouttime

            he worked to give himself some latitude

could have offended himself far worse but it had been away six years on the backside of a page of an article he printed from the computer with the intention of reading more timely

that he read it at all  tuckedaway as it was

                                                he was grateful

the words on the opposite side were bonus

he cut himself some slack

                            there were reams and reams of pages at his feet to either shoulder similar to the shelves and shelves and rooms and rooms of books outside his studio

How nice are you

Im not nice

             Keep it to yourself 

obviously

           he chose not to be good to himselfnot that there were others vying for his attention  few and far between  he didnt he didnt want to spoil himself

                                      spare the rod spoil the child

he was a manchild

as a child a childman

not of the corpus that made up childhood

his plate was steepedshit to get done

                                       elevated to middle management without knowing it had a name

Bouttime

he remembered the words as soon as he read them

                                                       upset him then  as now

owl and hawk mummies on either side of the highway

looked like misshapen balls of crushedbroken feathers

owls

hawks

killed by cars

killed by cars 

   fuckinkilled by  cars

wished they were laden with explosives

                                               an eye for an eye tooth for a tooth

spare the rod

spoil the child

was a good indication how religion marred him

best indication

                 as soon as they were able to comprehendunderstand he told his daughters he  Careful when addressing your Maw  Ill not have you indoctrinated  You become religioncurious  Well get books  You can study

But youll study asif your life depended upon it

                                                   Cuz it does      Not hyperbole

Religion aint education

That’s not the way I was raised. his wife said angrily when he told her as he told her child by child when they came of ability

No

    Though I wish you werent

It did you no favours

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