obstinacy

obstinate

   Yah

“But because the violence of my early life when I could put a name to it, even a terrified name, I remember details of it very vividly, as well as the fact that none of it ever affected my habitual (you could say even feline) curiosity, despite my awareness of what the results of such curiosity were likely to be. I, like too many other children in my predicament, had discovered that I possessed one ultimate weapon against abuse: obstinacy . . . Humiliation and obedience, ultimately, were and are more dreadful solutions than resistance, even if the latter results in painful defeat, because in resistance lies self-respect.”

                    Caleb Carr  My Beloved Monster: Masha the Half-Wild Rescue Cat Who Rescued Me

 

he entertained anal

admitted to his daughter he was

                                   Yathink? she responded

Hold on a second

                    Arent you curious how I arrived at my assessment

No.

Really

I’m teasing, of course I am. How?

   I was giving it some thought It occurred to me all these years Ive been very thorough

Very thorough.

                 Though that’s who you are.

Thank you

You’re welcome.

Yes Granular  I enjoy research

Minutiae.

I do

History.

          You constantly drag me through years that precede your explanation, help define your argument.

I do because it is critical to understand tha something has had to come before  thathey create the chain of events which culminate in what I understandbelieve  is the present

Always. Laboriously.

Boringly

   Sometimes.

Perhaps

Not perhaps.

You slay me

              Anywho   I was thinking

Maybe my thoroughness is analness

I am anal

Papa. However you want to describe yourself I’m cool.

Thanks baby

You’re welcome.

 

anal didnt fit

he went back to being thorough

                                  however

while reading Carrs passage it occurred to him that he was that

                                                                     obstinate

stubborn  hardnosed  fight or fight no flight

adored confrontation

provocative

ASSertive

   factual

maddeningly so

circled his wagons

his chainlinks blacksmithed wrought by vigorous blows

 

   obstinate

                 not anal

he had to call his daughter to advise her

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