he was reading Jose Ortega Y Gassets Man and Crisis

“But it happens that reality is not a gift which facts make to man.”

“Reality is not datum, not something given or bestowed, but a construction which man makes out of the given material.”

reallyreality really should have poured himself another black coffee before going outside on the deck

a slender black dragonfly visited him

flying off it was prompting enough

coffee

returned

took a sip

book beside him on a stool

sat in an Adirondack chair

closed his eyes

thought Time

thought emit 

Time reversed

Exit

Enter

nonsense reversed

Adeona

Abeona

Roman gods

god of going out outward journeys

god of coming in of return  particularly children returning

knew because he read

Mutatis mutandis

black dragonfly made him think that praying mantis would have done the trick too

changing whatever ought to be changed

did he know anything with complete unshakable knowing

No

    Thas faith

however

because coffee did it to him and he had a cup earlier

he knew completely   unshakably

he had to take a leak

bodily functions

taking a leak he thought they shouldnt be hard to admit however the tendency preference to act as if we didnt have them

    fart

and per this have/have not dichotomy he preferred to acknowledge all that he has because it isnt much nor does he want much

washed his hands

returning to the deck and chair and coffee and book he thought about writing as an act of convention conviction

convene

convenience

assembled altogether

convene venal

conveneal

looked like convenereal

                         convene venereal   sexual desire sexual intercourse

venery

fitting

his desire to blowup convention convenience unconventional inconvenient  distress

di-stress

         di-  twice double

those who receive his letters

                               communiques

commune-unique

communeique

communeity

involved

invoked

evoked

in-yolk

in-yoke

         his select communeity

those

       he felt part of

cared for

whether alive or dead

he tries to write them all at once

although addressing only one

for they – perhaps unknowingly – are part p-art of the chain

his mission is ad-mission

addmission

entry

not salable

sailable

which isnt forever

everything sailable eventually sinks

he didnt see the point of playing cards close to his vest in-vest-ment

unless

of course

tryin to take the others

interaction

            was not inter-act-ion

no act

he presentsconveys

what it is

as it occurs

no tollgates

straight shot

hi-speed

hi-ballin

             a thoroughfare greased with brain fat

1111,  Thursday,  16  9. 04

1040,  Friday,  17  9. 04

1139,  Reggaefriday,  28  6. 24

Funkadelics  Maggot Brain  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xby5467EbdU

Lili Haydn  Maggot Brain  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=APP6-4i_pR4